Mizzie's Journey to Being Healthy

I'm glad to hear that someone else knows what I'm talking about, Andy. That's a good reply too, I might steal that. And I agree on the thing about skinny people commenting more.

It seems like my friends and family who are on the chubby side (most aren't too overweight, just a big pudgy) will comment and listen, then suggest we go out for ice cream or something. As soon as I tell them that I didn't find some miracle pill or something, they tune out. My skinny friends will talk for hours with me about exercise and healthy foods. We'll compare recipes and they'll laugh (in a good way) at how baggy my clothes are, then they will suggest we go for a walk.

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So, I don't have long, but I want to confess that I was bad yesterday. I really haven't had too many days where I just completely fall off the wagon, but I did yesterday. I didn't keep track of calories and I don't want to know, but I had several snacks, all of them things I usually eat, but more than I usually do. I think I had about 3 of the WW ice cream bars, half a package of light string cheese and some kettle corn. Oh, and i was going to try and balance it out by having my 200 calorie salad for dinner, but then a friend called and asked if I wanted to go out for Mexican... Bad mizzie, very bad mizzie!
 
no worries - you need those days every now and then - for me it's every weekend! I'm sure you will still have a loss this week as long as you get back to it today and start fresh! Sometimes one bad day can spirl into two but get lots of water and remind yourself you really want this and the rest will be easy! You always impress me so just keep doing what you have been doing!
Oh and about the will power thing - I think will power is just another saying for "want really bad". It you really want to loss weight you will be able to say no but if you only sort of want it you will give in. People that say they have no will power just don't want it bad enough.
Have a great Monday!
 
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I mean, it just feels like they are saying "well, it's easy for you because you are blessed with strong willpower so you can do that. I could never lose weight because it's out of my control, I can't help it." And that's BS, IMHO. And it feels like they are trying to brush away my hard work like it's nothing. Like I don't have to struggle with it, like I can just turn off cravings and hop out of bed and exercise without even trying. And I know they are trying to diminish their own guilt by making my achievement sound like less, with is just a low blow.

On the flip side, hubby will say things like "I'm proud of you for having such strong willpower" which is the right way to look at it. That doesn't anger me because it doesn't make less of the hard work I've put in. It also recognizes that I've had to work on changing myself in order to have that willpower.
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Hey Mizzie,

I know exactly how you feel, I get this at work allll the time! They never think you have to put in so much work mentally and physically. This dismiss all of the workouts and how many temptations we resist. This one co-worker said to me "it isn't fair that you lost so much weight" and I said to her its exactly fair, I'm the one who is eating the right foods and I'm the one who is working out everyday so wouldn't it be fair that i'm the one losing weight? Don't let anyone get to you Mizzie, you are doing this for you and don't have to justify or explain anything to anyone. You are doing great and have a lot of people supporting you so just listen to the good and block out the bad.
 
That's a good way of looking at it, Lisa. And it's true. People keep asking me if it's hard to say no to things and if it's ok if they eat something unhealthy around me. It's fine, typically (not counting yesterday) it doesn't make me want that stuff at all. Hubby eats Doritos and such, and I can say no pretty easily. It's not really that have I strong will power. I just really want to lose weight and get healthy!

I think my issue yesterday actually was in part because I was alone all day. Hubby took DD to his parents for the day to give me a day alone. That's great and I need those days once in a while, but I also got a little bored, so...

Today it's back to it! Even though it's a holiday and I don't work today (so it's still like a weekend day), it's also Monday and I exercise on Mondays. No exceptions! Did the 30 Day Shred and it kicked my butt again! After, DD looked at me and said "you look all red and sweaty!" I laughed and said that's because I AM all sweaty.

OH! And I solved the sports bra issue! I already posted about it here if anyone is interested in what it actually is. But I'll just say that I found one that fits great, is comfortable and has great support! Jumping jacks this morning were no problem.
 
You and everyone else are really giving me a kick in the butt today with all of your exercising. Ever since I hurt my knee trying to do the C25K a few months ago I have sort of given up on that front. I know I need to do it and after catching up on your diary I want to! How are you enjoying the C25K program? Any problem with your knees or legs? Great job by the way and keep up the good work!
 
Janvier - Sorry, I missed your post before. I must have been posting at the same time you were. Anyway, that was a really dumb thing your coworker said. Yeah, it's so not fair, you've been eating right and she hasn't, you've been exercising and she hasn't. Gee, I wonder why you've lost weight and she hasn't. Duh... I think some people who only see us in one area of life (like coworkers, extended family, etc) have a skewed view of who we are and don't realize that it's hasn't just melted away, it took effort. They could to it to if they really wanted to.

disneymomof4 - Lol, well, reading other people's diaries are what helps give me a kick in the butt to do my exercises. Guess it's kind of a spiral. So far I'm liking the Cto5K program. It's hard and while I'm doing it I'm thinking "OMG, this is so hard, why on earth would I want to do this?!?" But then I get done and I'm so proud of myself and I can feel myself getting stronger. Oddly, I look forward to my running days. lol

So far I haven't had any issue with my feet or knees, which is actually a little surprising because my shoes aren't the best for running. I think the fact that I'd been exercising in other ways (including speed walking) for a few months first has helped. Plus, I only do it 2 times a week max.
 
So, I'm kind of proud of my day yesterday. I posted before that I did my 30 Day Shred in the morning, so technically I had my exercise for the day. But it was such a nice day and we all had the day off, so we decided to bring DD to the park. The city park here has some tennis courts, so be brought hubby's rackets (he has two, and a racketball racket that we let DD use) and some balls and "played" tennis for about an hour. I use the quotes because we don't keep score or play by the rules or anything. Mostly we just try our darnedest to keep the ball going back and forth, but both of us suck at it, so it's a LOT of running around. I told hubby that we probably burn twice as many calories as the pros because we are running after the ball so much!

I was pretty hot and sweaty by time we were done, but it was good. Actually, we did this once or twice last summer and I remember being out of breath and feeling like I was going to die at any second. This time was nothing like that! I just love getting proof that I'm stronger now.

DD ran around the court next to us and hit another ball around. It was cute.

Anyway, after an hour I was out of water and DD was getting bored with tennis, so we went over to the playground part so she could play.

Then, in the evening I met a friend (the same one as last week) and we went for a walk again. Walked about 3 miles in an hour. So, yesterday was a VERY active day for me! And my calories were pretty much spot on for the day. I didn't eat extra to offset the extra exercise, I figure it all will help undo the damage from Sunday. Hubby made lemon ginger chicken for dinner and it was delicious!
 
The lemon ginger chicken sides good I will have to look recepies for this!!!
Wow great job on the workouts! I find it so cool that your hubby does stuff like this with you!!! I should introduce my hubby to yours and mabe my hubby can learn a few things lol!!! You will get great results this week if you keep it up!!!!
 
mizzie said:
I was pretty hot and sweaty by time we were done, but it was good. Actually, we did this once or twice last summer and I remember being out of breath and feeling like I was going to die at any second.
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This made me L-O-L :) Mizzie I am so happy that you are doing so very well, not only are you getting healthier, but at this rate, you will be at your goal in no time. Too bad I do not have enough time to read your diary everyday so that I could follow your example :p
 
mizzie said:
So, I'm kind of proud of my day yesterday. I posted before that I did my 30 Day Shred in the morning, so technically I had my exercise for the day. But it was such a nice day and we all had the day off, so we decided to bring DD to the park. The city park here has some tennis courts, so be brought hubby's rackets (he has two, and a racketball racket that we let DD use) and some balls and "played" tennis for about an hour. I use the quotes because we don't keep score or play by the rules or anything. Mostly we just try our darnedest to keep the ball going back and forth, but both of us suck at it, so it's a LOT of running around. I told hubby that we probably burn twice as many calories as the pros because we are running after the ball so much!

I was pretty hot and sweaty by time we were done, but it was good. Actually, we did this once or twice last summer and I remember being out of breath and feeling like I was going to die at any second. This time was nothing like that! I just love getting proof that I'm stronger now.

DD ran around the court next to us and hit another ball around. It was cute.

Anyway, after an hour I was out of water and DD was getting bored with tennis, so we went over to the playground part so she could play.

Then, in the evening I met a friend (the same one as last week) and we went for a walk again. Walked about 3 miles in an hour. So, yesterday was a VERY active day for me! And my calories were pretty much spot on for the day. I didn't eat extra to offset the extra exercise, I figure it all will help undo the damage from Sunday. Hubby made lemon ginger chicken for dinner and it was delicious!
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Talk about a perfect day! Got in a LOT of activity, and the food sounds really tasty and nutritious. Doing great! :smash:
 
Good work Mizzie! I play Tennis the same way you do, lol just trying to keep it going back and forth! I wouldn't be able to play a real game either but it's just fun to keep trying. I'm glad you noticed your stronger self too - that is something you should be really proud of! Keep it up your doing great!!
 
Sorry I wasn't around today. This will be a short post as I'm in a very bad mood. Nothing went right today, this morning was irritating and work was flat out unbearable! My boss has apparently decided (in his stupid passive aggressive way) that it's suddenly not ok for me to be on the internet. Which would be understandable, except that in the four months I've worked there, I've had next to nothing to do. The only project I have (which isn't even for him or his business, but for his brother's business) requires internet access. Plus, he said, several times, that he knows I don't have a lot to do, so he doesn't care if I play around online. He mostly wants a body in the chair to answer the phone when it rings like 4 times a day.

So, today, no internet. Oh, but his is working fine in his office and, oh yeah, this is a IT company. He fixes internet issues for a living. But he just went ahead and pretended that he didn't shut it off on purpose. So, I got to spend 8 hours (minus three calls, about 20 seconds each) literally staring at the f-ing wall because I have absolutely nothing else to do. I'm not even exaggerating. Oh, but I got to listen to him scream and swear and throw things around his office all day like a 3 year old throwing a tantrum just because something didn't go his way.

It's down right unbearable and frankly, quite uncomfortable. I'm looking for a new job, but there's nothing in my field (or even anything I could do) in my area. I'm dreading work tomorrow so bad that I'm half tempted to smash my hand in the car door so I don't have to go in. Yeah, it's that bad.

Oh, and I have a new least favorite number: 187. I've been there since last Friday. Yeah, I know, 5 days isn't that long to be stuck at a number, but in my present mood, it's driving me over the edge. I'm getting my exercise (and then some) and eating right. :banghead: Move, you stupid number, move! I need this!

Sorry I won't be able to catch up on diaries today. Hope everyone is having a better day than I. I don't know if I'll be around tomorrow or not since I most likely won't be able to get on at work.
 
MIZZIE!!!!! I hope the work situation gets a little better. Could you bring a book to read? Or maybe... knit? haha I don't understand why you can't use the internet. Maybe you could do exercises that you can do in the office even. I think stress can effect weight loss or gain. Try to de-stress yourself when you can! Try not to worry about the weight not shifting. You're not gaining, that's an accomplishment in itself!
 
Hey Mizzie

I feel your pain! I have worked at my job since May of 2004 and I mostly sit around answer the freakin phone all day, sometimes I get the crappy jobs no wants into the office! Also unless everyone else I can't sociolize during work hours, or I will be on probation. I am not supposed to go online but I do anyways ( wixh is why I am always on here) I am at the point that I only show up cause I need the money, good luck on the job hunt I am doing the same but there isn't much outhere I know!


I used to bring book and magazines but it does get expensive!!! Use that anger to fuel your workout so at least that dreadfull # can go down!
 
Hey mizzie - that sucks about your work situation! Hopefully you can find a new job in good time. Try not to let it get you down - especially with your healthy lifestyle because you have been doing too good to push it aside over this stressful situation. I hope things get better and I hope you shake your grumpy mood - it's Friday today so that's something to smile about!
Have a great weekend and hopefully we will get to hear from you soon!
 
OMG I think prolonged boredom is a form a torture. I don't know what kind of boss he is but I know I would be asking him for work all day if he took away my internets! Not for vengeance, but I could not bear doing nothing all day! I really cannot understand him. How is his weight loss thing going??? I wonder if he is trying to sabotage your weight loss journey. I'm not trying to think the worst of him but I remember he started dieting and talking to you about it and especially if it is an IT company I am pretty sure he knows which sites you visit and how long you are at each site.

Anyways I don't know the man, but he seriously needs to take a :chillpill: and free up the internets!
 
Thanks guys. I am in a better mood now then I was, but work is still tough.

(Edit: Decided not to rant too much here. Seeing as how my boss knows I visit this site and all. I don't need things to get even worse.)

I don't think he'd try to sabotage my weight loss, he doesn't seem that type. I think he just suddenly changed his mind about it being ok to be online. I have been bringing books and I don't know if that's "ok" but I don't really care. He can't expect me to sit and stare at the wall for 8 hours. Xenon is right, it is a form of torture!

Anyway, that aside, I did lose 1.4 pounds this week, which I'll take considering that I hadn't lost an ounce as of Wednesday! Plus, that puts me at 34.2 pounds lost, so I'm less than a pound away from half way to my goal. That's pretty cool.

I missed exercising yesterday morning partially because I had cramps and partially because I was up way too late on Thursday. But I think hubby and I are either going to go play golf today (no cart) or play tennis again. One or the other, so I'll be active anyway.

The in-laws are coming for a while today also. I haven't seen them since I was around 15 pounds lost, so I a little excited to see if they notice. I have a new shirt that is pretty slimming, so I'm going to wear that. ;)
 
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I have to make this quick because i have to get ready for work (yea... ). Just wanted to say that Saturday was ok on the food front. Slightly over (about 100 calories) but that's hardly anything especially for a weekend.

Yesterday on the other hand... oy veh. If I counted correctly, I think I'm somewhere around 2200 calories! :ack2: Yeah, I know. And I'm supposed to be around 1400. Ok, still at a 200 calorie deficit, but that's bad!

On the plus side, we went golfing yesterday. Walking, pulling bags, and it took about 2 1/2 hours. According to everything I can find online, that should be around 1200 calories burned. So maybe it wasn't such a horrible day after all. Don't ask me how I did though... I didn't even count it up at the end. I suck. :doh:

Anyway, probably won't be around today because I doubt I have internet at work again. Hope you all had a good weekend!
 
Good Job on the weight loss Mizzie!!! Wow 32lb that is great!!!!! Keep it up!
Weekend are meant for indulging lol, we office workers are usually more active on weekends annyways so we burn more!
 
Great weigh-in Mizzie!! Your doing so awesome at making sure that scale goes down every week! You've been really consistent so far in your journey and I'm sure that's why your seeing such excellent results! Keep it up - you are so close to half way there and that is huge!!! Most people give up after the first 15 pounds and you just keep going and going! I love it! Your high eating days aren't even that high so don't even worry about those at all!! Will miss you around here during the day - just know I'm thinking about you!!
 
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