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10:30 mile w/ shoes (nearly killed me though)
Good morning all! That 10:30 mile was last night, and then my throat started having some kind of spasm & I'm still coughing this morning! I had to drink wine on an empty stomach just to try to keep breathing! I didn't feel bad about the running though, I just don't like not breathing (duh).
I also didn't eat very much yesterday because I was too busy working and exercising ALL DAY. I ended up with about 1250 calories consumed by the end of the day, which, for those of you who have read my brain spillage about that, you know is really low for me. I was starving during softball practice, but I just found out we have a game this weekend, and we're terrible, so we really need the practice.
After that I only managed the 0.7 miles once around the track after practice, and then I got home and felt OK, plus I was still cranky at my fiance for saying my 11:20 time was slow, and so I ran another mile on the treadmill. 10:30 was the best I could do, and I couldn't even sprint fast enough to run an 8 minute mile yet! I'd have to do 8.5 MPH for that, for a whole mile! Not a chance (yet). I'll work on it. But the fastest I could go on the treadmill without feeling like I was going to fly off the back was 8 MPH, and I could only do that for about 20 seconds! Oh well, I guess I know I need to practice now.
He did say that he was really impressed at the amount of exercise I've been doing lately. We've been together 12 years and he said he's never seen me exercise this much before! That may be true, but I really want to get rid of the "chunk" that's left. I still hate pictures of me, I think they look way worse than I do in real life. Is that possible? I realize that I don't know how to dress, but I don't think I look as wide in reality as I do in pictures. There's that whole thing about pictures adding 10 pounds to you, but I thought that was just an excuse to be in denial about being 10 (plus) pounds overweight! Do pictures really make you look fatter? I think they do, but I've never had an easy time with body image or seeing myself as I am anyway. I'm too clouded by my own biases for that still. I'm working on that too.
So today I have softball practice again, then I'm running at least 2 laps (1.4 miles) and then at home I need to put in another mile on the treadmill to improve my time. If I can breathe tonight. I'll put in the mile, but I don't know that I'm going to race it, it was really scary not breathing last night. It felt like I inhaled a giant bug with wings that was blocking my airway trying to get out. I might call my mom and ask about it, she's a nurse and she knows so much!
Have a HEALTHY day, everyone! Please think before you act today, be aware of the positive and negative things you're doing for (and to) yourselves.
