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Jess393

Jess393

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This is my fourth journal I think... that's a lot of trying, and failing. Don't really wanna fail again(not that ANYONE does), and would really like for this to be the last journal neccessary!

I've been on this site for a long time, and have been trying to get healthy for just as long. Well, I turn 30 in '12, annnnd I'm DONE with this being fat thing! I've never WANTED to be fat, I just seem to be prone to failure. :/ I've been doing pretty good with everything for a while... aside from a few falls here and there, I'm confident that this is my year :) I knowwww, I say it every time I try to get healthy and fit, but I'm gonna make this year different!

This year is off to a great start- in about a month I'll be 97% debt free(goodbye bill paying stress!!), I'm going to school again- although I'm pretty friggin' a.d.d. and DON'T really wanna be there, haha; and all together just feel a little stronger in my head. SO. New journal, new me, new year!
 
Hi,
I have no idea how this works. I can relate to the struggle and wanted to wish you all the best. I myself have been struggling with emotinal eating and am fed up No pun intended :eek:)
 
Hi

Hi,
I have no idea how this works. I can relate to the struggle and wanted to wish you all the best. I myself have been struggling with emotinal eating and am fed up No pun intended )
 
Lizard said:
Hi,
I have no idea how this works. I can relate to the struggle and wanted to wish you all the best. I myself have been struggling with emotinal eating and am fed up No pun intended :eek:)
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Once ya get a journal started and get posting, it's pretty easy :)
I'm sick of the emotional eating, too! EFFF, it just gets to be such a rediculous cycle- feel good, eat; feel bad, eat; nooo mooore!

Thanks for stoppin Lizard :) hope to see a journal soon! :)
 
I'm officially on spring break! WOOH! Not that I'm doing anything/going anywhere... Just working, like usual :rolleyes: Would theoretically like to spend a lot of next week in the gym; getting into a gym groove again would be ideal at this point.

So I do have a "short term" goal: my drivers license hasta be renewed Aug. 1, lol, annnd I'd like a really great picture. OR, at the very least, a BETTER one. So, I'd like to lose a decent amount of weight by then. It CAN be done! I've got faith...
 
LOOONNNG day at work... ughh. Came home and just sat in my sweatpants for a while...lol! All my friends went to this concert thingy, just a local band, but the ticket was $50(!!) and it was free boozin' all night long. I couldn't justify that much money or that many calories on the alcohol, and I guarantee, I woulda drank a BUNCH. So home seemed like the safe choice ;)

Only bad thing- I did some grocery shopping tonight, bought a little container of walnuts with dried cranberries and chocolate covered soynuts- healthy in single SERVING sizes- and before I knew it, I'd eaten the entire can. :/ =1100cals. WTFFFFF. THAT would be why I don't buy things unless they're in single serving sizes! eff. Meh, nothing I can do about it except spend a little extra time on the stair stepper! Tomorrow would be a new day, however, and no reason to spend the time guilting over whats done..


Thanks Korrie and AnnaGail :) I never reallllly went away from this site, I always lurked around and payed attention to the before/afters, LOVE em, people have worked SO hard, and its such great motivation! And yes, cannot wait for no debt :D
 
Hey Jess :)
It's great you've come back, best of luck on the journey - well done dodging all those alcohol calories!
 
"Only bad thing- I did some grocery shopping tonight, bought a little container of walnuts with dried cranberries and chocolate covered soynuts- healthy in single SERVING sizes- and before I knew it, I'd eaten the entire can. :/ =1100cals. WTFFFFF. THAT would be why I don't buy things unless they're in single serving sizes! eff. "

OMG - I soooo agree with you - thats why i just dont eat chocolate..bc i know i d eat the whole thing - if only i could buy a small piece of my fave dark chocolate mmm - i d treat myself every week - me and self control... i guess i m not there just yet!
 
Justina said:
OMG - I soooo agree with you - thats why i just dont eat chocolate..bc i know i d eat the whole thing - if only i could buy a small piece of my fave dark chocolate mmm - i d treat myself every week - me and self control... i guess i m not there just yet!
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Yup. This is me, 110%! If I buy things that are only sold in big servings, I HAVE TO come home immediately and put them in snack bags, otherwise destruction ensues :/ . BUT, at least we know our major weeknesses, yeah?! I'm glad I know what I can and cannot do, rather than play the process of elimination game, lol!
 
Hey Jess!

Fourth journal = a lot of trying. No failing. Why? Because you're continuing to try. You can't fail if you keep trying!!

Congrats on being 97% debt free. That's a huge accomplishment!

"Tomorrow would be a new day, however, and no reason to spend the time guilting over whats done." Exactly! It's done and over with. Just imagine the box as you workout tomorrow and just kill it!

On a side note, I love the quote in your signature.
 
Today was a pretty good day! Sundays are my weigh-in days, and this last week I lost 4lbs. I'm pretty stoked about it! I'm xxl, Sooooo, 4lbs is terrific, lol. It, needless to say, put me in a great mood all day long, even with the crappy customers :rolleyes:

Tomorrow is the first day of spring break, so no class, AND no work... Ohhhh man. Love it. Have some "me" plans for tomorrow. Spend some money on things OTHER than food and just have a great day :)
 
Congrats on losing 4lbs - that's awesome!!

And I'm with you on individual sizes. Things that aren't make me nervous lol so me and snack baggies are definitely good friends ;)
 
So days off are usually not good for me: I have all that time to sit around my house and be bored, and for me, boredom usually results in mass quantities of food shoved in face... Did NOT do that yesterday, however I did go a bit over my daily cals :/ meh. I'm mixed on that... YAY for not eating and eating and eating, and MEH, for still going a little overboard by the end of the day. I did push myself harder at the gym tho, so thats great! Did 3 minutes of level 20, resistance 20 on the crosstrainer, annnnd that was tough. Holy hell, I was puffing by the end of it, lol! I feel good tho!

Also, got about six inches chopped off my hair... That should be good for about 1.5 lbs, yeah? ;) lol
 
Jess393 said:
chopped off my hair... That should be good for about 1.5 lbs, yeah? ;) lol
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hahahaha :D Sure....

btw i did the same yesterday about overeating....i had 4 extra tortilla wraps in the afternoon :( i was totally on the munch... (extra 808 kcal - not that i count calories) so i had push myself extra hard in the gym - and i didnt leave until i burnt that extra calories off!
 
Uggggggh! What a week... SO glad I don't work tomorrow. Classes start back up, blah, but whatevvs. NO WORK! I need it, lol. Weigh in today- +1 lb. :( Eff. A step forward, a step back... I worked hard this week, with minimal slipups, so I assume that with TOM getting ready to start its some water retention and whatnot... Ohhhh well. Next week I'll be down again.

I'm sposeta be studying for a test tomorrow(nice, right? A whole week of spring break and I didn't even move my book bag! haha) annnnd this is me procrastinating. Bah.

Ok, gonna get some studying done. Hopefully. :/
 
Jess393 said:
I'm sposeta be studying for a test tomorrow(nice, right? A whole week of spring break and I didn't even move my book bag! haha) annnnd this is me procrastinating. Bah.

Ok, gonna get some studying done. Hopefully. :/
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hey you are just like me - last minute lady - hehehe - i used to do the same at uni...i had a whole summer to write this huge essay on my year abroad - & i did the research and everything during the summer. but i was too lazy to write it up. I spent the last night writing it up - staying up - and just about finished before hand in time....lol...
on the bright side - when you are under pressure - you are more motivated - and sometimes it works out better.

GOOD LUCK & chin up!! :grouphug:
 
Justina said:
hey you are just like me - last minute lady - hehehe - i used to do the same at uni...i had a whole summer to write this huge essay on my year abroad - & i did the research and everything during the summer. but i was too lazy to write it up. I spent the last night writing it up - staying up - and just about finished before hand in time....lol...
on the bright side - when you are under pressure - you are more motivated - and sometimes it works out better.

GOOD LUCK & chin up!! :grouphug:
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lol! glad that I'm not alone in the procrastination sense ;) I aced that test. So, maybe you're right: under pressure, I retained more?? we'll see...
 
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