I think with the benefit of hindsight, we can see a lot of things that we felt we ought to have done at the time. But you can only be where you are and the main thing is that you are out of it now and the future will be a lot brighter. The money thing will sort itself out. Training to be a teacher could be great!
Thanks for that. I can drive myself nuts with hindsight! I looked, and even the next state over with the good schools has a teacher training program that I could do in a year. I am really considering this!
It will take a while for you to recover from this stress, M & it would be good to go slow with your plans & do some healing. At times I have made myself sick with worry about money, but it's not worth it. If you can hang on to your RV it might be good to be able to travel around to see where you would like to stay longer term. You'll work it out though & you will be OK. Sending you & K lots and lots of love xoxo
I am starting to feel like things will work out. The money is infuriating because J spent most of my family inheritance without me knowing until this last couple of months, and now I have to fight to get some of it back. But you are right, no use stewing over what I can't change. Our RV is really nice, but it is horribly expensive to drive it gets such terrible gas mileage. I think we can take it on shorter trips once the heat dissipates, but not long-distance. Thanks for the nice encouragement and love!!
Nice to be getting a plan in place for the next phase. And good to be learning from the past and how you want to move forward on all levels.
Your plan for today sounds excellent and well-balanced!
Thanks Liza! I do feel like I am learning and starting to look forward to things. I wish I could help K do that, too. She is very hard to get out of bed, and even harder to get to do her homeschooling. I feel terrible pushing her, but I also don't want her to sleep most of the time, and I am hoping that visiting places we could live soon will help her look forward to things again.
You and K will be ok. Looking at places that inspire you or remind you of good times will help you find your way back to who you really are and who you want to be but I agree with Cate that taking a little extra time for your decision would sound better. Your last move was such a whirlwind.
I really like this idea of finding my way back to who I really am. I think you hit the nail on the head, I got pretty lost. I wish I had more time to figure out where to move, but there are impending college applications and the real estate market is looking like our house is about to depreciate, so I do need a plan, but I also don't want to panic or rush things. I also dislike the heat here, and can't wait to get out of it. And the rental market here is very expensive, so I don't think we'll stay any longer than necessary.
I feel really self conscious about the psychology stuff that I find interesting. I am bad at writing about it, and I sound so unsupportive, and I feel really sorry. I am such a mess lately, and I apologize for putting my foot in my mouth now and also in the past. That is part of my social anxiety - not feeling that I will be understood, so not trying hard enough and coming off as rude or know-it-all. I have struggled with this a long time.
Today I really struggled to get K back on track with school. We missed a few days because we both felt overwhelmed. I did get her to do a minimal amount of each subject. Yesterday was very good. I did a lot of paperwork for my lawyer so she didn't have to, and that saved money. I just paid both of them and it was awful how much I am spending, but necessary. K spent the day with a friend and had a nice time, but now she is really tired. Though she loves hanging out with friends, she is depressed, so she is exhausted the day after socializing, though she had a great time doing it.
Time to clean house and get back on track. I have more energy and focus today, which is a really nice change.