Lisa's Journal

Snack: apple- 70 calories
Dinner: refried beans, squash, and bowl of cereal -approx. 500 calories
Snack: orange and Kashi cookie- approx. 200 calories
Total for day: 1400 calories

3.15 miles at the gym (2.15 on elliptical, 1 on bike)
Total: 32.35 miles
 
Thanks Newbride! I have actually felt like my calories have been a little high lately, but I think its because I started exercising this week, so I have been hungrier. I want to keep it below 1400 calories a day though usually.

Breakfast: I had an early morning (5AM) because I was studying for a test (which i think went well lol) so I had my usual zone bar (200 calories) and a 100 calorie bar between classes, sooooo breakfast= 300 calories
Lunch: broccoli, spinach, apple, and beans- approx. 330 calories
Total: 630 calories
 
Snack: 100 calorie pack and kashi cookie- 230 calories
Dinner- I was really craving carbs for dinner, so i ended up having a baked potato (yes it had the butter, sour cream, and cheese, but only a little :eek: )and a bowl of cereal- approx. calories- 550
Total for day: 1410- but I think I will have an orange once I get done working out, so that should bring it right up to 1500. I have been having a lot more calories than I used to. I used to stick to under 1300 a day pretty much everyday.
 
Lately I have not been feeling thinner. Like for a while I felt thinner and thought I looked better, but lately I have felt like I did before I lost weight, just uncomfortable and unconfident. Maybe its because i'm used to this weight? I dont know. I remember thinking "once I get to 250 it will be so much easier because I will be able to tell a big difference", but its really not. Now im thinking to myself "once I get to 220 I will feel so much better" I dont know....I guess i'm just feeling a little down and like the weight isnt coming off as quickly or as noticeably as i'd like.
 
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Hi Lisa,
Oh, I can so relate - I kept (and still do) keep changing that bar of when I'll "feel better about how I look".

And truly, I (we?) really need to look at why we say this - and FIX it!

Without a doubt, I still feel I"m the biggest person in the room. I was always bigger then everyone, bigger then my husband, my friends, people at parties - the fat one. I had YEARS and YEARS of thinking of myself that way.

Those mental images don't go away right away - they certainly don't go away just because the weight starts going away.

I look at myself now and only see all that's left still to do. I still feel I'm the biggest person in the room, that my body is too flabby, that over all, I have fat here to get rid of and fat there to get rid of.

The hardest bit, is trying to look at myself honestly and say, yes, there's still work to be done, but not discount what I've already accomplished!

You my dear have lost 31 pounds! That is a huge accomplishment. Are you at your goal yet - no, but you have the proof of 31 pounds behind you to know that you can get another 31 pounds off.

You CAN do this - You're proving to yourself you can every day.
That counts.
More then you realize!
 
Thanks M2M, that was really good to hear. I know that clothes fit me differently now, and really can tell a difference in my face, its just hard to see the overall change. Sometimes I have to go to my before and after pictures I posted on here just to show myself I have done something.
 
You and I have pretty similar starting stats...
I lost 25 pounds before my husband even NOTICED that I had started to lose weight!

I felt like everyone should be able to see it - Flippin A - 25 pounds and NO one notices???

Grrrrr...yes...I can relate!

How tall are you?

I kow that people really started getting amazed about the 40 pound mark for me. They started noticing by 30, amazed at the 40, and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt I was serious by 50 (my half way mark) ;)

It is a slow process. We don't get immediate satisfaction, so we just have to trust that what we're doing is the right thing and keep doing it.

The alternative isn't an option ;)
 
I am 5'5". How tall are you? I have a weird body type though. I have always had a very defined waist and then bigger hips and thighs, i guess its an hourglass shape, but my upper half is a little smaller than my bottom half. I hope people can start to tell more once I lose 50. My goal before I go to Scotland on August 24 is to be down to 200lbs. Thats like 11lbs a month, so I dont know if that is do-able, but I sure as hell am going to try lol. Its so weird to look back at pictures of me 6 years ago when I was about 200lbs and I cant believe how thin I looked, yet I wouldnt go near a pair of shorts. I havent worn shorts in about 8 years (other than over a bathing suit, but last summer I progressed to wearing gauchos over my swimsuit-even in the water).

But yes, I cant wait to hit the 50lb loss mark. I am actually up to 33lbs loss now, I just havent changed my ticker. So hopefully I will be at the 50lbs loss mark within 2 months (crosses fingers).

Thanks for the support.
 
Support is what we do here Lisa :)

I have a friend who weighs 20 pounds less then I do, but we wear the same size pants - she carries the majority of her weight below the waist and mine is above. Sitting down, she loks *a lot* thinner then I do!

Weight distribution is a fickle thing ;)

I'm 5'8 almost 5'9" and I've lost more inches off my hips then I have off my chest (grrr....)

It'd be so much better if we could pick and choose ;)
 
Yeah, I actually just went and looked at a photo album of high school and my Freshman year I think I was about 200lbs and my hips werent actually that big, I kind of forgot what they looked like. So, hopefully when I get near that number, my body will even out a little. For the past month i lost 2 inches in my waist and 2.5 inches in my hips, so eventually my waist will have to stop losing and maybe give my hips a chance to catch up!
 
Howdy Lisa,
Your doing great awesome menue and
exersicing and great progress.........Wow Kahi cookies never
saw them yet here.Everyone was talking about the kashi waffles
then a couple months later there they were so hopefull the cookies
pop up soon lol.It is good looking at pictures and seeing how much you
changed and it makes all your hard work worth your wild.
Hope you have a good night,Tammy
 
niapage said:
Howdy Lisa,
Your doing great awesome menue and
exersicing and great progress.........Wow Kahi cookies never
saw them yet here.Everyone was talking about the kashi waffles
then a couple months later there they were so hopefull the cookies
pop up soon lol.It is good looking at pictures and seeing how much you
changed and it makes all your hard work worth your wild.
Hope you have a good night,Tammy
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Thanks! lol the menue pretty much depends on what the cafeteria offers....which usually isnt much, but ive adapted lol. The kashi cookies are really good. They arent too sweet so they dont give me a spike in blood sugar level. My favorite are the flax seed and raisin ones, but my roomate loves the oatmeal dark chocolate ones.

I ended up looking at pictures from high school for a long time last night, just realizing how I wasn't happy at ALL with my body back then, and how I used that unhappiness and lack of confidence to hide myself and there were a lot of things I missed out on. So, I know that I need to work on my confidence because until I do that, I am never going to be happy with my body, its not going to be the other way around.
Its not: happy with body --> confidence
It is: confidence--> happy with body
I'm sure losing weight will help with my confidence, but my confidence needs to get to a certain level on its own first. Lately I have been really bad at this. I have been nitpicking everything about me, including things I cant change without surgery (like stuff for my face- i think my chin sticks out too far lol). I know I need to stop doing this, and I really am trying.

Having said all that, heres my calories so far today lol.

Breakfast: Zone bar- 200 calories
Lunch: squash, green beans, and a vegetarian thing they offered in the cafeteria today. It consists of spanish rice, black beans, tomatoes, corn, and some vegetable stock and some olive oil, it also comes with a little section of sweet potato. Its one of the things they offer in the vegetarian line that I actually like. But, with things like that I cant really tell how many calories are in it, but I am going to guess for all of lunch today it was about 400 calories? cause the green beans and squash have very little calories.
So, so far today: 600 calories
 
hahaha I cant figure out if i like my new avatar. I just got my first digital camera so I was messing with it. And since I actually did my hair and makeup today (its a rare occasion) I thought I might as well put a real picture up of me. But I cant decide if the grin I have is creepy looking.
 
M2M said:
Oh Lisa!

It IS cute :)
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aww thanks :) i am realllllllllly critical of myself, so I have always HATED pictures of me.

Snacks: 2 apples- 160 calories
Dinner: whole wheat pasta with mushrooms, garlic, and a little parmigian cheese, and a bowl of cereal- approx. 500 calories
Total: 1260 calories, but I will have an orange after my workout, so that will bring it up to about 1340 calories.

Weigh ins are tomorrow!!!
 
I weighed in today! I'm now at 247lbs. On March 9th I was 257lbs, so I have lost 10lbs in about a month...I can live with that :)

lol I am so happy to finally move my ticker. when i got my new scale I didnt want to move the ticker to the 6-7lbs higher that my new scale said I weighed, so I had to wait to get to the weight my old scale was at, so after a month, I finally got to move it lol.
 
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