Lindseybot3k's Diary

Hi there, I've already posted in our Blue Team thread, but I just wanted to congratulate you again on achieving this goal. Great work, and a well-deserved result!
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Thanks, everyone!

I am so pleased with myself when it comes to the bonus challenge. No sweets, no fast food...no tator tots, no chocolate, no ice cream what so ever...I've been drinking water like crazy and tracking my calories like no tomorrow. By the end of today I'll have half of my minutes for points covered and I can easily get the rest in by the end of Friday. I'm hoping to drop to 299 on Thursday or Friday so I can post that and get more points for the team and keep us from having people eliminated...and I hope I don't get eliminated, either.
 
You are doing great! I hope I don't get eliminate either. My scale is acting up. I weighed 211.4 this morning, and I weighed myself an hour later (still haven't eaten anything) and I'm for some reason up to 213.6???? That isn't even possible. And it said I didn't lose any weight yesterday when I exercised for 2 hours of cardio!!! I need to figure it out. Well... you are doing amazing, I hope you get to 299 soon!
 
Thanks! Bmohearn, don't worry about it too much. Everybody's weight fluctuates all day, everyday; I usually weigh myself first thing in the morning after using the restroom. That's when it's usually it's lowest for everyone, from what I hear.

This morning I did ten minutes on the bike because Bravo was replaying the premiere of Biggest Loser: Couples and thirty minutes of DDR again, although my back is killing me and it's been killing me for a while now. It hurts so much that I'm unable to sit up straight and I have to slouch down to be even somewhat comfortable. I took some Ibuprofin but it still hurts......I hope it goes away soon because I can't work out feeling like this. I made myself do it this morning because I'd feel horrible about myself if I didn't and I'd be nagging myself all day.
 
Weellllll.....on one hand...I am not getting enough fiber....on the other hand........according to the fancy school doctor-y scale, if I did things right....I weigh 294 now!
 
Last night had to be the worst night of sleep I've ever gotten. I was so tired after going to the gym and staying up too late the night before that I nodded off about eight, woke up at eleven, went back to sleep after an hour or so and woke up at four...I've been up and down since then and now I'm wide awake getting ready for my nine-thirty class. And I'm starving, because I missed lunch yesterday because I had to run some errands like buying the last textbook I needed and getting my dean's list certificate.

The gym yesterday was a madhouse.....it was packed, you could tell that it was the first day back from break. This one girl who was on the elliptical who was much smaller at me kept on looking at my screen....she'd stop every few minutes and stare as I kept on rocking out on mine, only stopping to get my towel which fell off and only slowing down to change the song on my Ipod for the entire forty minutes.
 
I want a gym membership!!! I just don't have enough money. Thats awesome.. 40 minutes?!? Have a great day today!!

I've talked to a lot of people today who had a horrible night sleep. Weird.
 
So here at school, everything's pretty much S.S.D.D., if you know what I mean. I'm eating really healthy but the problem is that I can't count exactly but I think I'm good at estimating out what I get. I'm having problems getting in enough calories because what healthy options I have are very low calorie things like salads and sandwiches and soup....still no healthy warm options, which means since I've been back I haven't hit anywhere close to 1500. Tonight one of the cafeterias is having what's called "garlic chicken stir-fry"...might go and see if they've got the calorie count for it up like they do for some options and maybe try it out. I've been trying to plan out what I'll eat before classes or whenever I have a break between them.

Exercise, I have to say, is my strongest suite. If I can get myself up and going I've got no problem and I can rock it and get it done, and I know what I can do to burn a lot of calories within certain amounts of time. That plus all the walking I do around here is sure to melt the pounds off as long as I keep my eating in check.
 
So I woke up feeling pretty damn proud of myself, for going to my classes yesterday and getting everything done that I needed to besides returning a book I don't need, and for working out for 68 minutes (28 of them unplanned!) and for finding out that I currently weigh 290, and posted a blog on another site saying how proud I was of myself- and this girl, whom I have never seen in any of the groups on there I frequent, or any of the threads I read, leaves the following comment:

"WOW is all I can say. That is amazing. Good for you. I am glad this has been such a great help for you. I wouldn't definitely feel proud if I were you. Keep up the good work."
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What in the hell is that supposed to mean?! I've lost 60 pounds. I've dropped 18% of my body weight and a major portion of it during my FRESHMAN YEAR OF COLLEGE, which is a time that's infamous for kids my age gaining tons of weight! I'm on the dean's list. I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't smoke. I'm trying to take care of the only major thing that is affected my life physically and could affect me getting jobs in the future! I've gone from 350 and on the road to 400 to 290! I should be damn proud. Yes, I'm still obese, but I'm not 53% fat anymore.
 
That comment is still really bugging me. Usually when people say something not so nice to me, it'll hurt and I'll just let it go, but this...

Boy, does it sting right now. I know that there's going to be a point where people start telling me that I need to slow down or that I need to start eating again or that, my worst nightmare, "gee, your weight loss is great but you're still fat," but telling me that I shouldn't be proud? That really, really, hurts. I've given up so much, I've changed so much about the way I eat, the way I work out...that comment just makes me want to cry.
 
Hi Lindsey, I've read and re-read the comment that the girl left, and I'm wondering if there's a mistake. She's written several sentences before the one that you've highlighted which are really positive. They don't sound sarcastic to me, they sound genuine. Plus the last sentence is again really positive. Don't you think that she's done a typo? It happens to me a lot. Don't you think that she started to write something, like "I wouldn't be able to do as well as you" and then changed her mind half-way through, deciding to tell you to feel proud of yourself? Don't you think it's something like that? Because it's true, you should feel proud of yourself - yours is a very personal achievement, with vitually no outside help in the form of family support, drugs, or anything like that. If ever I achieved what you have achieved, I'd be shouting it from the rooftops!

Don't get down or insulted by something that probably wasn't meant in the way it was written. We all make spelling mistakes, grammar errors or just write nonsense from time to time. Have more confidence in yourself!
 
Well, it turned out that the comment was a typo. I got worked up over nothing but I guess it was good practice for when someone actually says something derogatory
to me like that about my weight loss.

I'm going to go to the gym today and do my last forty minutes of exercise for this week....that means this week I'll have worked our 248 minutes! That's four hours and a few extra minutes! Hopefully all the work will have paid off on the scale...Wednesday it said 290 and I hope it either stays that way or lowers.
 
Meee Tooo

lindseybot3k said:
because I'm a girl there are going to be times where I get on the scale and it's going to say things I'm not going to like and I won't be able to control it. And it's even harder when as each day passes I see changes and the scale isn't changing with me.
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UGH! I toally feel you!:svengo:
 
Welllllll, whatever I'm doing this week is sure hitting things on the mark because the gym-scale said 287 tonight! I'm 17 pounds away from my next goal of 270!

Yet again at the gym I had to sit and wait for an elliptical so I jumped on the bike and rode it for 20 minutes and still did my 40 minutes on the elliptical!

I ended up missing dinner at both the food court in the student center and at the cafeteria.....so now I'm stuck eating the healthiest stuff I could get out of the vending machine so I wouldn't have to walk down 5th avenue in the dark: pretzels, granola bars and a bag of Goldfish.
 
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