kelly's diary

Calories 1990 so far today. Doing well eating less during the day, finding my breakfast lasts me a long time, then a small lunch and I spend the evening getting the rest of my calories in. Drinking water.

Thirty five minute bike ride with hills today. Yeh legs.

Gotta ride tomorrow.
 
I am proud of myself for my best bike ride yet, 55 minutes.

Also smoked last cigarette.

Am pleased with calorie count though I certainly don't break it down as much as you Cym!

This week I'm going to try to eat cheap. WW toast pb jam and banana, oatmeal, and protein shakes with lots of veggies for supper and fruit for snacks.

I'm going to swim and ride my bike and see if I can't get that scale to budge again. 182 this morning.

Going to double check my maintenance cals. 2730 (15x182)
Less 20% -546
Equals 2184
That is what I'm aiming for. I wonder if I can pare it down a bit.
 
No loss in May. Looking at reasons for this. I did not get mywater in. Exercise down and didn't generate thirst. Exercise has slipped from five days.

Also I lost 7 in April.

181 or 2 today. I guess I'm just navel gazing, to borrow Cym's expression. My weight is down. Good enough.

I had a really good bike ride today, pushed myself a little. I increase the gears to make it harder to pedal so I guess that's good. I bet if I rode an hour everyday I'd get better.

I think I need a goal. Or a reward for riding so much. Actually I'm just beginning.

I think its time to take measurements. Leg measurements I think.

A swim would be good.

Just trying to get the ball rolling again. Thoughts accepted. Insert here.
 
Exercise down and didn't generate thirst
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I have read in places that if you ar drinking when you are thirsty then you are already dehydrated... try to make water drinking a habit where you just are drinking it and not just when you are thirsty...

and well done for attempting to quit smoking :) that'll be anice savings for a sassy and sexy new wardrobe :) not to mention the return of tastebuds and the sense of smell :D atta girl
 
Well I had a good day today with calories on at 2120 for a deficit of -428. 2 hour walk.

Have worn myself, and my ex, out with emails asking him to come to son's commencement ceremony on June 28. Its not that the father doesn't love him, he does, and its because of his hard work with son that son is graduating. Its just him. I hope he comes.

I don't know why I can't keep it simple. Emailed him 4 times today, have gone mental over it and feel foolish.

Saw my psychiatrist today. We talked about the possibility of meeting a "solid" man. Could I handle it or would I just go manic? I'm back to thinking about my ex but there is too much water under the bridge. He has cut me off forever, but I cut him off. Sigh.

I'm going to bed to read my weight loss book, "Passing for Thin".

I hope we can sit together at the graduation ceremony and not have it be awkward. I certainly have given the impression that I"m moody today, but like I say, my mood changes constantly. Usually I can live with it.

Tonight it has worn me out. Well, I guess its okay if he sees I've gone mental over it.
 
I thought I had done well yesterday but last night TWICE I was up for a bowl of raisin bran. Hungry. Well, at least I think I am eating a minimal amount to get by.
 
sounds like you did do well 2 bowls of raisin bran aren't killers of anything :D

theree's this book I read years ago - that was about as cheesey as a book can get - but the basic premise behind the book is we say something good, then immediately sabotage it with that simple word BUT - you did good - no BUTS :D
 
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I thought I had done well yesterday but last night TWICE I was up for a bowl of raisin bran. Hungry. Well, at least I think I am eating a minimal amount to get by.
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Kelly, I don't know if this is the same for you because all our bodies work a little differently, yada yada...but

Sometimes, not often but sometimes, I get a middle of the night kind of "hunger beyond hunger"....a feeling like "I will kill for food". When it happens now I just eat something and go back to bed....but when I was in weight loss mode I would fight the heck out of it even to being reduced to tears (can't eat and cry right?) because oddly enough when I had that weird middle of the night hunger and didn't eat that night - within the 24 hours I would always have a scale drop. I finally just figured it was my body's perverse way trying to prevent me from losing weight beyond a certain point.
 
cym said:
Kelly, I don't know if this is the same for you because all our bodies work a little differently, yada yada...but

Sometimes, not often but sometimes, I get a middle of the night kind of "hunger beyond hunger"....a feeling like "I will kill for food". When it happens now I just eat something and go back to bed....but when I was in weight loss mode I would fight the heck out of it even to being reduced to tears (can't eat and cry right?) because oddly enough when I had that weird middle of the night hunger and didn't eat that night - within the 24 hours I would always have a scale drop. I finally just figured it was my body's perverse way trying to prevent me from losing weight beyond a certain point.
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That always happened to me too! I never looked at it that way!!!
 
Hey there girlfriend! I hope your day is going better! I've missed coming by the last week and checking in on you, I've been so busy it's crazy!! I'm sure you and your ex will be fine if he comes to the ceremony, he needs to be there too, so I'm sure it will all work out just fine for you. Are you still gardening?? I haven't read anything about you doing this lately, I hope that just means your filling the void with other endorphin pumping exercise like biking and or walking. Don't give up on these things, they help the mind and body both and we all can use the fresh air every day. I'll look forward to reading all about the rest of your week, when I return Sunday!! CHOW BABY!!
~BIG HUGS~:hug2:
Kim
 
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