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Yoga went really well yesterday. She ramped back the poses and I was more communicative about where I was feeling the stretches. And she used a chair to do standing poses, which probably wasn't necessary but I appreciated it and still got a good workout. I've six more private sessions. Hoping to get stronger.
 
I was at work at 6am this morning and pretty much worked through to 230. I opened my window at 930 and closed it arounf 5. Longest window since i started this and could pretty much be defined as a mini binge. 21oz coke. I never drink soda. Reeses cup. More naan and hummus than usual. And a beef chili type soup. Spaghettios. A hamburger and tiny chocolate sundae. Crazy but I feel more grounded. So i guess sometimes it's necessary.

It's snowing so I've got to leave an hour esrlier in the morning to drive to the city. Meeting my friend at the airport. My little car will need to make it over the mountain in the ice & snow. No way around it. Fighting the urge to park at the airport. It'd save 20 minutes tomorrow but extend our trip home by an hour and a half Monday.

It's a jeans kind of weekend.
 
NYC is awesome. Ate like crap yesterday, walked over 7 miles before my phone died. 20° last night. I wore my thermals, jeans, socks, 2 shirts, jacket, gloves, scatf, and hat to bed last night. A little not jiving on the room temperature. My friend would've left the window open all night if I hadn't of insisted we close it. I shivered all night. Not sure from cold ot exhaustion but this morning she turned the heat on wo me knowing and the shivering stopped. So there you go. Probably not the best future roommate. And I'm managing my pissed offness with some of her requests that are completely controlling.

Had a great time yesterday though. My body feels pretty good.
 
NYC drives me crazy. even when i didn't watch my intake, there is just soooo much good stuff. i usually wind up in the village eating a slice of pizza at least once or twice.
 
Is it awful that I prefer traveling solo? I'm sitting in a McDonald's while my friend works on her step daughter's resume. It was either here or the tiny hotel room. A whole city out there. Ten more minutes and we head to the theatre. Only walked about 3 miles so far today but that's okay.
 
Home! Got in late last night. My friend and I were still laughing when we got home so that was good. Little annoyances for each of us throughout the trip but nothing horrible. And the show was worth everything..

This particular friend who fasts but eats whatever and whenever she wants and we end up eating junk. Saturday and Sunday I ate junk. Yesterday I did the healthy thing. I offered to go buy her a salad like I had bought (she uses a wheelchair in airports) but she said no.

I was at work by 830. Cats are happy. I'm happy. Painful parts of my body are healing.

Decided it's worth an up and back day to go see a Sunday afternoon show in nyc. Next time I get a $40 each way ticket, I'll head up.
 
I'm still having bouts of shivering chills. I feel fine except for a hemorrhoid that is swollen but that's it. I'm having these attacks of shaking chills about every 30 hours. I've no idea where my thermometer is but doesn't feel like I have a fever.

Saw turkeys outside for first time in a year. I love the turkeys. They're so gentle in everything they do.

I'm walking at least to the corner tomorrow morning. It's .5 miles each way. If I feel good, I'll do the 2 miles all the way around.

I hate kefir, but I drank some tonight. It'll help my system.
 
Hey CF, sorry you are still having chills, I hope that doesn't last.

We have wild turkeys here too, I always enjoy seeing them. Much more elegant than their domestic relatives.

I only discovered kefir here, I make my own from milk and a culture I originally got from Amazon but just keep using it over and over again. I really like it, I put it on cereal for breakfast almost every day. Do you make your own, or is it store bought? I like the homemade better, and its quite easy to make, just kind of like keeping a sourdough starter.
 
@alligatorob I need to look into homemade kefir. I don't like store bought but my body responds so well to it. Thanks for the heads up! I never would have considered/thought of homemade kefir.
 
I had stopped weighing, trying to live the idea that the scale lies and we should allow the body to do what it does. The past two weeks, no scale. But I need that accountability and motivation. Same with tracking food and using a fast tracker. Maybe I can let go of those things as the years slide by but it will be a while.

Only about 30 minutes of chills today. We cut yoga to 30 minutes which was perfect for my body. She is definitely not the best or most attentive instructor but she is so trying and I appreciate that.

Anyone watch Doctor Who? Season finale, to me, put so many inconsistencies from the 60s to now into place.

I started watching Hunters on Prime. Don't know if I will stick with it.

Hair cut tomorrow! I asked a woman at the bank who cut her hair. I have hope this will go well.

My mouse skills are getting more challenging. I can't perceive myself not working but the little things like not being able to get my mouse to click on what I want to open kicks me in the stomach some days. My np is willing to send me for neurological testing. I just have to tell her. Maybe in five months. Let's see what happens as I lose weight.

I nearly fell backwards tonight. It would have been a bad place to fall. Somehow I recovered. Foot is bleeding but that is better than being knocked out and who knows what else.
 
CrowFeather said:
I need to look into homemade kefir.
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I find it tastes better and costs less than store bought. According to the internet (never wrong) it is also better for you, more of the friendly bugs you need. And it is very easy to make.

I have been watching Hunters also, I am not sure about it, kind of a strange show. I find the blend of historical accuracy and fiction a little disconcerting. Its not a subject where inaccuracy is a great thing. Don't know if I'll finish the full 10 episodes or not. Haven't seen Dr Who in many years.

Be careful, falling is never good.
 
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Be careful, falling is never good.
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:( For sure.
How did it happen, CF? Tripping over something, or getting off-balance, or a shove from someone in a crowd? Or getting off a moving vehicle, which is how my most recent near-fall happened. (Luckily not an actual fall - it was a bus, and the edge of the road wasn't a good place to hit the ground!) There's not much to be done about a shove in a crowd, I guess, but I'm working on better balance for everything else, and I think that's a good thing in general
 
I watched Hunters all the way through. Still unsure about how I feel. One big twist is predictable if you pay attention. I do like how they've woven events from the 70s into the plotline.

So the depression is back. Seems my body needs whatever hormones are produced with 18-26 hour fasting in order not to dip into ideations. Good to know. And tmi for the guys. Sorry. I was one month from being officially in menopause. First period in 11 months showed up. I am not amused.

Foot is healing. I'm sleeping late again tomorrow even though I have to work in the city Monday. This past work week was a wash. Hopefully this week will be better.
 
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