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Don't want to use talcum but found an alternative yesterday. Seems corn starch is the new baby powder. It's helping a bit along with the boxer briefs. This is where I always give up bc it's so uncomfortable. I can't imagine doing that now.
 
Corn starch is so much better for your body than talcum powder. I can't imagine you giving up either :)
 
I overate yesterday. And of course it was after sundown. I didn't sleep well with that full of stomach either. Earlier windows from now on.

I think one reason I overate is kind of like when I started IF. Doubts this stuff works and trying to pack as many calories in to cover the deficit. After reading Appetite Correction I understand that it all bunk but the longer fasting window with ADF is intimidating and I allowed that to get away from me.

My father's girlfriend is joining us on the Chicago trip. Should be fun. Neither have been. I was looking forward to navy pier but edna can't walk long distances so not sure. Plus it's a holiday weekend.

12 days till nyc!

I changed my misfits box to every other week. Just not eating enough for a weekly box. In theory IF is saving me money.
 
I'm much more comfortable tonight than last night. I should sleep well. I had the most productive day at work today.....more so than in a very long time. Even worked out this evening. No panic attack exercising and no hypervigilance afterwards. To think the tens of thousands I've spent on trauma therapy and the solution was very simple. I know I got so much out of therapy. Wouldn't change that. But just the thought that things didn't need to be so dark for so long.

My brother gets married again Saturday and I've got to be in the city twice next week. Gonna be busy working up to nyc next Saturday. So excited.
 
It has been a weird morning. I've got an appointment with a new doctor today. I filled out all the paperwork, no anxiety. I got a shower, no anxiety or dizziness. It's so strange. I even came up the big stones below my stairs one foot each stone. I've never done that.

I'm back down to 261.2. I got down to 260.9 a few weeks ago but then weight went back to 264 range even as my clothes are getting looser. Might not make 250 by my birthday in ten days but hoping to break into the 250s. ADF has me feeling awesome. I broke fast this morning with broth. Best way to do it I think. I may eat cuban this afternoon.
 
Had a ribeye for supper. Included salad, veges, mashed potatoes. I ate the salad and veges. Made it halfway through the ribeye and nearly none of the potatoes. The chef came out thinking I had 'sent back' all the uneaten food. I told him it was an awesome meal and I ate all I could. The damn steak was 16oz. Who eats that much steak? Anyway I was proud of myself that I stopped when I was full. It's a new sensation.
 
CrowFeather said:
The damn steak was 16oz. Who eats that much steak?
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Not you!

Stopping half way though something you like is real progress, I know it can be hard to do. Keep up the good work and you will make it into the 250s and below, that is certain. Before or after your birthday is not so important as the progress.
 
Headed to sleep at 6. I'm pretty exhausted after today's work day. I can feel my body changing in good ways. My tummy apron is tightening and feels like it's lifting. I think I'll be under 260 by Monday. Lying on my side, my boob is flat lol. Maybe I can get down from an H cup too. I'd be thrilled with DD.
 
260.1 this morning. In the book Appetite Correction, the author talks about the body being comfortable at certain weights and will fight tooth and nail to keep the body, in its perception, regulated at or above that weight. 260 is that weight for me. I dipped to the 250s in 218 and then shot back to the 280s. Otherwise, haven't been below 260 in a decade. 240 is another plateau-fight-like-hell spot but not thinking about that now. I don't start another extended fast until Sunday night so I probably won't break the surface until mid-next week.

Today a wedding and 6 hours of driving while trying to get all my nutrients in.
 
I looked good in my dress today. No one said anything but the dress fit perfectly. And I am down to 44 bra band. Probably could make 42. And stuffed myself into DDD. There was a little overage but not noticeable bc of the type of dress. For being on the road all day, my macros were decent and i was only 78 calories over my target intake. Hoping to roast a ton of veges and make spinach stuffed chicken tomorrow. I've got to start working at 230 so whatever I do has to be before that.

My cousin ask me through messager why I am being snarky and then asked who I am really angry at. I weighed pointing out all the rude stuff she's said to me in the past two weeks or longer and decided i didn't want to fight that battle tonight. She's probably too drunk to remember any conversation anyway.
 
Thank you @alligatorob ! This WOE isn't always effortless but the results are miraculous.

I'm baking a whole head of cauliflower with a mustard coating, a sweet potato, maple brussel sprouts, and I'm going to sautee green beans & garlic and make creamed spinach in a bit. I'll be set for meals through the week except for cooking meat. Needless to say, I didn't work today.

I plan to get up at 3am to be at work at 6. Another 36ish hour fast tomorrow. Weight was 260.8 and I was retaining water this morning so I should have a whoosh by Tuesday morning.

Saturday we head toNYC!
 
I stopped adf. It was working with tightening the skin but was getting painful. I like IF because of the ease and the freedom I feel. If that means three years to get to my goal activity level instead of a year and a half, then okay. At least I have an autophagy tool when need it. Maybe I'll do two weeks of adf every quarter to help tighten stuff up but would prefer not. Predictably my weight is back up today.
 
It sounds like things are going so well for you, CrowFeather! Dropping a bra size (or two!) is a real boost - though looking good in your dress must have been even better. Best of all is going up the steps one foot per step, and the lack of anxiety at the doctor's - so good! :) I bet you're into the 250s by now, too. :) (But if you're in NYC you mightn't be near a pair of scales, I guess.)

By the way - I'm guessing that adf is all-day-fasting, but what is WOE?
 
CrowFeather said:
'm baking a whole head of cauliflower with a mustard coating, a sweet potato, maple brussel sprouts, and I'm going to sautee green beans & garlic and make creamed spinach in a bit. I'll be set for meals through the week except for cooking meat.
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That sounds really good.

Makes me feel good to see you doing well! Keep at it my friend.
 
@aiminglow I'm still hovering in low 260s. Figure my body is probably healing internally so I'm trying to be patient. ADF is alternate day fasting. I was doing 40 hr fast followed by 8 hr eating window 3x a week w sundays as all day eating. It was physically too stressful. Mentally I can totally do it. WOE is way of eating.

@Cate & @alligatorob Thanks!
 
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