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It is working. Pretty excited. 22 days and down 16lbs. It's mostly inflammatory water and waste. I doubt much is fat. But my body is already starting the recomposition. And I'm finally sleeping better.

This is such a comfortable way of life that is doubt I will ever leave it. The challenge will all be psychological. Handling the changes of my body. Dealing with the increased energy. My excuses of not doing stuff are null and void. Getting comfortable with the new found confidence. This really is changing my personality.

Btw, the friend and I talked the other night. I think everything that needed saying was said on both sides. We're not continuing our friendship which is sad. But I feel good I didn't just ditch and run.

Two newer friendships here are on rocky basis after my filter was off during a meeting about a dog park. I'll see where that goes. Hopefully I get better at this.
 
CrowFeather said:
It is working. Pretty excited. 22 days and down 16lbs
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Good for you! That's great, and I am sure some of it's fat. Keep working on those relationships, they are important.
 
I bought a vibration plate machine (exercise equipment). I had my doubts but it is awesome. I just stand on it for ten minutes twice a day. My varicose vein that hurts has gone flat and no pain. Also seems to be helping my feet pain & balance.
 
CrowFeather said:
I bought a vibration plate machine (exercise equipment). I had my doubts but it is awesome. I just stand on it for ten minutes twice a day. My varicose vein that hurts has gone flat and no pain. Also seems to be helping my feet pain & balance.
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That sounds good, never heard of one, I'll have to look it up.
 
That's really interesting - I'd like something to work on balance. I wonder if it's the sort of thing that might be in gyms, to try out - what do you think?
 
aiminglow said:
That's really interesting - I'd like something to work on balance. I wonder if it's the sort of thing that might be in gyms, to try out - what do you think?
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The proper power plates are very expensive, the gym I go to it cost $10000 for their vibro gym, the home use ones are not as effective as they lose amplitude when they are used by a heavier person. They are good for rehab and several AFL teams have them in Victoria. They are most effective when you do exercises on them rather than just standing. It has been a few years since I completed the staff training for coaching people in their use.
 
All i know is my vericose veins are no longer bulging and that i walked down the stairs wo holding the rail for the first time in a year. Both directly related to the board.
 
Working was a challenge today but I cooked my lunch with no issues. No anxiety. No negative thoughts. No preplanning. Just pulled stuff out, cut it up, cooked it, and ate. Cleanup was a cinch. I'm craving cabbage so just went out and bought potatoes and gonna do an impromptu kielbasa cabbage skillet tomorrow.

I see a therapist when I'm in the city tomorrow evening. I want to get ahead of any issues around the weightloss and she's a clean faster so hoping she'll be a good fit. Thinking I'll use her coaching service. Just depends how much insurance reimburses on the therapy session.

Thursday I have pt and then brunch with my former realtor. Work the afternoon and then drive home.

I'm sad today. But that's it. Just sad. I'm not depressed or diving down the rabbit hole. I'm not beating myself up for my actions and the resulting consequences. This is all a new world to me.
 
Hey CF, your posts are sounding better, keep it up! Everyone feels sad now and then, its normal. Not being depressed or down some rabbit hole is great!
 
I am doing good! Better than i ever have I think. Thank you for the affirmation!

Therapy was good. She's gonna be a tough cookie. In the most positive way you can envision. A bit of sacrifice financially but worth it.

Keeping to fast tonight has been tough. I want to run to food. Happily I am tucked in bed and headed to sleep.
 
I ordered a misfits box which is organic produce not useable in stores. It arrived yesterday. So fresh! And well worth the $25. I can't find anything organic up here. And I'm having fun figuring out what to make. I think beet salad and stuffed baked pumpkin today.

Still chugging along at a good, positive pace. Still craving salads w goat cheese. I'm excited that my snack today is two dates stuffed with goat cheese.
 
I've been hungry for the first time since starting IF. Seems my body is finally burning fat. Yay me.

Spent the day being a slug. It was nice. I did some cooking and eating and cat snuggling while watching 70s tv shows.
 
The week went great. The new friend and I went to a concert two hours away. It's a weird experience not having to anticipate someone else's needs every minute. One of the most fun and comfortable road trips I've had since college.

Food intake has been fantastic. I'm still tracking but slowly getting less fanatical about meeting the macros. I'm step by step embracing the IF WOL.

Funny thing of the week: i am needing to stuff a pillow under my tummy to get to sleep. My assumption is the visceral fat is disappearing and my organs aren't adapted to the space and need to be smooshed for me to relax enough to sleep. Who knows if that's accurate but it feels true.

Going sledding tomorrow. Very excited.
 
How interesting, about the pillow! :) Our bodies do flex and change with the weight loss, and it does take us a while sometimes to catch up, in akkl sorts of ways.
Terrific about the sledding! Have fun.... zhwooosh! :D
 
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