Another thing I wrote.... just so everyone knows I am not all "fitness and nutrition." I have other thoughts too.
Carl Jung said, “Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.”
Focus. Focus on your true feelings, emotions, and beliefs. Be proactive instead of reactive. A life of reactions based on your surroundings is slavery IMO.
Paul Gaugin said, “I shut my eyes in order to see.”
At night, while I drift between consciousness and unconsciousness, is when I am closest to my mind and the things it says. It is the time where I can most easily see the truth about myself. Closing my eyes allows me to step away from all the business that clutters my life and my mind, and see my reality. It is a time where I am most happy, and a time when I am most scared. Happy because I realize that there is so much more left to life. So many things I am destined to do. Scared because of fear of failure. I see so many choices that I will have to make, many that are difficult. Will I be man enough to face up to these fears and move forward? When my eyes are closed, my mind shines while it haunts me.
Maori Proverb said, “Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you.”
I truly believe that if I always let the light into my life, good things will come to me. Too many of us are living in the shadows. We, ourselves, too commonly cast shadows over our realities of which hinder our progress. We carry huge loads that hover over us. These loads consist of our insecurities, our fears, our doubts, our regrets, our faults, and our misconceptions. What if we forgot about these things? What if they did not exist? What would you do differently? Would you enhance your life? Would you progress?
These loads we carry blind us of the reality that we can succeed. When you clear your views of all these hindrances, possibilities and dreams vanish and absolutes and realities are born. Move forward into the light.
David Searls said, “Seeing death as the end of life is like seeing the Horizon as the end of the ocean.”
I say something along these lines probably too often in this forum. My journal title speaks it. But I think it always bears repeating. To live life for some end-cause is worthless. Life is too short. Don’t be someone that lives their entire life chasing some imagined “ultimate happiness.” You could find yourself with 99 years of unhappiness behind you and one shocking year of regret in front of you. The time to live is in the moment.
Albert Einstein said, “The world we have created is a product of our thinking. It cannot be changed without changing our thinking.”
Have truer words ever been spoken? There have been times in my life where my mind has completely controlled me. Other times where it has guided me. Control, IMO, is bad. Guidance is good. I have no say in control. With guidance, hopefully I did some initial input with self-talk that swayed the direction my mind guided me toward. You are the operator of this marvelous computer called your subconscious, only if you choose to be.
Until you make the choice to take control, what you see as reality will always be a by-product of your surroundings. If the choice is made however, it will be like the light from one hundred suns illuminated your path. It will feel as if once, you were blind, now you can see. Your thoughts will become your realities.
Oliver Wendell Holmes said, “A moment's insight is sometimes worth a life's experience.”
I know many that say, “But I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I don’t know who I really am. I don’t have a passion to chase.” This thought process drives them into a frantic search to find “themselves.” All the while, life is passing them by. Stop. Searching is pointless. You will not figure out what you are supposed to do until you truly connect with your inner-self, your mind. There is nothing to find. What you are searching for is already contained inside of you. To know that you do not know is sometimes good. At least you have something to progress toward. To pretend to know, when you really do not, is disease. False hope and realities will lead to let downs. Kristin Zambucka was not lying when she said, “Turn your gaze inward. Correct yourself and your world will change.”
Jim Morrison said, “Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.”
Are you free? Just because you are not bound by someone else’s hand, does that make you free? I would rather know my true self and be bound by another, than to go through life with the ability to do anything, and never act or take advantage. To be a stranger to myself and never even realize it would be my ultimate disappointment.
All these words I have written, you would think that I have my life figured out. I DO see the light. But that does not mean that no work is to be done to get to where I want to be. If anything, the more clearly the light shines, the more work that is exposed. Seeing and believing that your wants can be obtained is a very important step. But, there are so many more steps. Each one will be accompanied by fear. Fear of the unknown. Every single step that I know I must take, cannot be taken, until I battle my fears along the way at every single stride.
There have been numerous times, and I am sure there will be more, when I have caught myself standing still. I was immobilized by my fear without even thinking. You see, just because you don’t see or recognize your fears, that does not make them disappear. Consciously, you may block them. Subconsciously, they will always be there based on your belief system. If you don’t give them the respect they deserve, you could find yourself standing still for a very long time. Stagnation is imprisonment. E.E. Cummings had it figured out when he said, “It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson said, “It is easy to live for others. Everybody does. I call on you to live for yourselves.”
My last rational thought of the day is based on this quote. And yes, all remaining thoughts will be irrational since I will be sitting at a desk in an office for a job that I hate.
It is the part that I haven’t quite figured out in my own life, and therefore one of my biggest challenges. The burden that I carry on my shoulders so that others will not feel the weight really hinders my progress in life. What I am finding, which I am sure some of you know, is that you can’t truly please others until you have thoroughly pleased yourself. I am not where I want to be in life currently, not because I am lazy or stupid. I am off track because I spent my life trying to make others happy. I thought if I was the guy that brought happiness to others, then, I too, would ultimately be happy. If I made others proud, then I would feel accomplished.
In reality, other’s happiness and pride is dependent on their own beliefs and realizations. These beliefs and realizations have nothing to do with my own. I am left standing with a lot of happy people around me, feeling completely alone and failed. As these feelings progress, and I learned that they surely would, my own beliefs and actions began to change for the worst. I found myself on a slippery slope trying to create my new happiness in a world, which I created for myself, that opposes all that I truly want.
Life isn’t about them. Life, and I mean really living, not just breathing, is about YOU. If you can find your true happiness, then you can really please the people who matter most in your life. If you aren’t true to yourself, your happiness, and all the happiness that you provide to those around you is based on smoke and mirrors.