Jen's Diary

[Cate]

I feel for you Jen re the torture. I'm in much more pain now than I was before last Friday's "manipulation". Just about every part of my body is hurting. I'll keep my fingers & toes crossed for you, Jen. It's hard not stress eating & it's hard not being scared about the what ifs. I have never had a greater appreciation of life than I do right now. We always have to try to be optimistic as the alternative just doesn't bear thinking about. You & my G are going to be just fine. Sending you lots of hugs xoxo

 

[Llama]

Sounds like she'll have you painfree in no time at all! Glad to hear you found someone nice.

 

[ChefChiTown]

I feel for you Jen re the torture. I'm in much more pain now than I was before last Friday's "manipulation". Just about every part of my body is hurting. I'll keep my fingers & toes crossed for you, Jen. It's hard not stress eating & it's hard not being scared about the what ifs. I have never had a greater appreciation of life than I do right now. We always have to try to be optimistic as the alternative just doesn't bear thinking about. You & my G are going to be just fine. Sending you lots of hugs xoxo

Thanks for the kind words, Cate. I mean, I know they're not for me, but they're for my better half and I appreciate that.

And, you're right - it IS hard to not stress eat when you're worrying about the "what ifs." I'm finding a hard time with it myself. So far, so good, and the same goes for Jen. I know she's probably dying inside, wanting nothing more than to stuff her face with shitty food and gulp down a few drinks...but, she's been a trooper.

 

[jen_renee]

Thank you for the kind words, Cate, LaMa, and my lovely husband. Trying to stay positive and not think about it. Xanax also helps... a lot!


Today was pretty good. I did my exercises and stretches. Food was good. I was pretty damn sore this morning from all the poking and prodding yesterday, but managed to get some cleaning done throughout the day. I have another PT appointment tomorrow. Even though it hurts like hell now, I'm glad I finally took my stubborn ass to the doctor. Trying to stay positive, and remind myself that it will make me feel better in the long run.

 

[Cate]

Thanks for the kind words, Cate. I mean, I know they're not for me, but they're for my better half and I appreciate that.

Oh, believe me, they are for you too Chef. I can begin to imagine how you are feeling.

Trying to stay positive, and remind myself that it will make me feel better in the long run.

It does & we have to really try.
Sending you both so much love xoC

 

[jen_renee]

Sending you both so much love xoC

Aww... right back at ya!




I may have changed my mind on my physical therapist. She's EVIL! Eeeeevil! Ok...ok...... I still like her. She's super nice.. Just not when she's making me want to punch her. haha! She gave me another exercise to add to my routine, core strengthening stuff.

Calories so far are pretty good. Chef has a 4 day weekend coming up, I think he mentioned that in his journal. I'm going to TRY to not have a cheat day, maybe just a good dessert on Saturday when we go out. I've been really good this week, so I will not feel bad about doing that.

 

[Llama]

Congrats on getting shit done AND eating well this week!

 

[Cate]

A dessert on Saturday night sounds like a good plan Jen. Don't forget to tell us what it was I'm about to go back to the chiropractor, for the 2nd time, this morning. I had a slight problem with my lower right back, but since I saw him I have had a problem with my entire body!
This is what it feels he did to me....

Cate
Enjoy your weekend Jen & Chef & that dessert xoxo

 

[jen_renee]

This is what it feels he did to me....

This is how I feel today. lol!



Today did not start so well. I did not want to get out of bed at all. We have dark brown curtains in our room, which are blackout curtains, so our room is pretty similar to a dark cave. Perfect for sleeping, but not so good for getting your ass out of bed in the morning. I'm sore. I'm tired. As soon as I managed to get out of bed, my best friend called all upset about something very serious. When it rains it pours.

On a positive note... with all the stuff going on I'm still feeling super motivated about losing weight. I'm doing great with keeping my calories in check. I'm doing what I need to do for my back and I feel pretty good about that. Chef is doing really good, and that's making it easier for me to stay on track. I'm very proud of him. He's also been very supportive and sweet......His beard is also looking mighty fine today. Tomorrow we're going to look at new phones. I'm going to have a reasonable dinner and DESSERT while we're out. I'm looking forward to that. It should be a good day.

 

[Mowens1984]

My wife does blackout curtains in our bedroom and it drives me nuts. I'm a terrible morning person and take 2-3 hours before I want to speak to anyone in the mornings, but she's the type to hit the snooze button and want the room pitch black and it makes it so hard to force myself to get up.

Good to hear you're keeping up the motivation. I too had a good morning on the scale and that really gets me motivated for a couple of days.

 

[Llama]

I LOVE blackout curtains, even though I´m scared of the dark (yes, I´m almost 36 and yes, I´m still scared) and can´t have them here because shitty curtain rail that wouldn´t take the weight: sleep is so much more efficient in real darkness! Apart from that: great work sticking to your calories even though stress is running high.

 

[Cate]

You're doing really well Jen! I have so much trouble getting out of bed in the mornings, but it helps that we have a high window that lets in the sunshine/light & it has not got any covering at all. I curse it sometimes, but it does help me get out of bed....eventually. Enjoy that meal & that dessert xoxo

 

[ChefChiTown]

A dessert on Saturday night sounds like a good plan Jen. Don't forget to tell us what it was I'm about to go back to the chiropractor, for the 2nd time, this morning. I had a slight problem with my lower right back, but since I saw him I have had a problem with my entire body!
This is what it feels he did to me....

Cate
Enjoy your weekend Jen & Chef & that dessert xoxo

Oh, we WILL enjoy that dessert. I mean, LOOK at this thing...

Caramel Apple Flatbread

It's warm flatbread topped with vanilla ice cream, roasted fuji apples, oatmeal crumb topping and caramel sauce. Sooooo good. And, I don't even LIKE apple pie type desserts.

Chef is doing really good, and that's making it easier for me to stay on track. I'm very proud of him. He's also been very supportive and sweet......His beard is also looking mighty fine today. Tomorrow we're going to look at new phones. I'm going to have a reasonable dinner and DESSERT while we're out. I'm looking forward to that. It should be a good day.

First of all, my beard looks mighty fine EVERY day, so I don't know what the hell you're talking about.

Second of all, thank you (although, I may or may not blow that sentiment by the end of the night, HAHAHA)

 

[Cate]

OMG. I'm glad I just had a delicious omelette for breakfast! Hope you enjoyed your night xoxo

 

[jen_renee]

My wife does blackout curtains in our bedroom and it drives me nuts.

I LOVE blackout curtains

I agree with both of you. haha! I have a love/hate relationship with them. I love them, because sleeping is so easy with them, but getting up... that's another story. Chef is the one that originally had them, because he likes to live like a vampire and hates the sun..haha! I, on the otherhand, have to have the sun shining in my face to wake me up.

First of all, my beard looks mighty fine EVERY day, so I don't know what the hell you're talking about.

Sigh... it does.

OMG. I'm glad I just had a delicious omelette for breakfast! Hope you enjoyed your night xoxo

It was a good night, minus the fact that they got rid of the dessert we wanted... sort of. They changed it. It was a "shareable" dessert before. They changed the actual dessert a little and made it for one person. We were so sad. haha! I ordered it, and was disappointed. It was good, but not the same. But I guess that's a good thing, because we wont be tempted to go back there just for dessert anymore.

 

[ChefChiTown]

I agree with both of you. haha! I have a love/hate relationship with them. I love them, because sleeping is so easy with them, but getting up... that's another story. Chef is the one that originally had them, because he likes to live like a vampire and hates the sun..haha! I, on the otherhand, have to have the sun shining in my face to wake me up.

Honey, you have to have the sun shining in your face, an annoyingly loud alarm clock needs to be buzzing non-stop, the dog needs to bark as loud as she can, the neighborhood kids all have to gather around and pelt you with tennis balls, a half-dozen garbage trucks need to be banging around outside and Metallica needs to be playing a live concert in our bedroom before you wake up.

You are NOT a morning person, HAHAHA

 

[jen_renee]

Honey, you have to have the sun shining in your face, an annoyingly loud alarm clock needs to be buzzing non-stop, the dog needs to bark as loud as she can, the neighborhood kids all have to gather around and pelt you with tennis balls, a half-dozen garbage trucks need to be banging around outside and Metallica needs to be playing a live concert in our bedroom before you wake up.

You are NOT a morning person, HAHAHA

Yeah? So what?! ...... shut up! haha!

 

[jen_renee]

Oh, I forgot to mention earlier. Even with the dessert that I ate(didn't even eat it all) and dinner (I had the "fit and trim" option) my calories were still around 1400 yesterday. So not bad at all.

 

[Cate]

Well done Jen. When I saw the photo of that dessert my instant thought, after thinking how delicious it looked, was "OMG I hope that's for 2", but thought I had better not say anything in case it wasn't. I'm not a morning person either. Typing in here every morning is part of my easing into the day routine, with black coffee next to me.

 

[jen_renee]

When I saw the photo of that dessert my instant thought, after thinking how delicious it looked, was "OMG I hope that's for 2", but thought I had better not say anything in case it wasn't.

HAHA! No, it was for two! ..... or one if you were very determined.