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Way to fight that chaos hunger! You're my hero!

Aw, I remember my Jr. High dances. Pure horror. There was also the Cool Guy dancing with the Cool Girl. It took me awhile to figure out why he didn't snap her bra strap as I requested him to many many times.
 
LOL Jen & LJ.. :D:p

There was nothin' like the 80's dances! Omigosh...I LOVE the 80's and want them back! :biggrinjester:

I want the hair, fashion and music to all come back! That would be totally awesome!

Just watched 16 Candles the other night and laughed my tail off...
 
lol! Thanks, guys!

So this weekend was pretty bad. I ate way too much, had a couple drinks, had waaaay too much chocolate, and ended it all by being lulled to sleep by the lovely sounds of our neighbors enjoying their Valentine's Day.... if ya know what I mean. :rolleyes:


*sigh*

Today is a new day. Back on track!
 
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Being forced to hear the happiness is better than hearing the misery - I had a couple upstairs from me in my apartment days that opted to close the bars on weeknights, come home for some in-house karaoke which always devolved into a screaming match. This is not a lie, nor was it a one-time occurrence.

Anyway, back on track, one day ain't gonna ruin it for you!
 
Little John said:
Anyway, back on track, one day ain't gonna ruin it for you!
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weeeeelll.. about that. It's definitely turned into more than one day. *sigh*



Today has been the day from hell...

Warning..vent ahead...

It started with some snarky ass comments from a mechanic, complete with making a rude childish face at me. Because that's somehow professional?! Which if he wasn't the only fair priced mechanic in this town, I would of straight up gave him a piece of mind and walked the fuck out of there. But no, the other mechanic in town is nice to your face and screws you over behind your back... So yeah, I bit my tongue so hard, I'm pretty sure I left a mark.

Then I got to deal with my mother. I'm not talking to her for while. Tired of being treated like nothing more than hired help, that needs to bend my schedule to meet her every need... at the exact minute she needs it. All I did was ask that she not wait to message me at midnight to ask to do something the next morning. She waits til the last minute, when she knows I'm already in bed, to ask. Which means several times a week I wake up to..."can you do this for me... or take me here... today (basically 3 hours after you read this)?" Nevermind, that maybe I have my own shit that I have to do? ...or ya know...work? But no, she doesn't understand at aaaaalll how that can be annoying multiple times a week, nor does she care, and then preceded to tell me I'm a crabby bitch that needs meds. OOOOK.....mother, you're on a time out until next week.

And that wasn't even all of my day...


Soooo yeah... chocolate IV stat!


Maybe tomorrow will be better? Let's hope so! hahaha!
 
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Shitty. Sorry you had a bad day.

Did you enjoy your Valentines at least? Sounds like many drinks and chocolates were had :)
 
Ouch on the mechanic, and double-ouch on the mom. I'm fairly lucky on both fronts, but I obviously understand the stress that they're inducing. I hope you didn't OD on the chocolate!!!
 
Thanks, guys!

No OD'ing on chocolate, but I definitely had several pieces and some other snacks. My dinner was really my downfall yesterday. I had way too much. Oh... and pepsi. :(

Today has not been the best either. I've had several pieces of chocolate, some pop, chex cereal for lunch, no breakfast. ugh. As awful as that sounds, it's still better than yesterday. :oops:

But I decided when I came back to the forum that I would stick to it... through the good, the bad, and the ugly. If anything, my diary can be used as a "what not to do" example.
 
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*western sounds* chicka-chicka-wooo-wham-wham .....

Hang in there lil lady.... Yer strong and willin'...... Just pull yerself up by the bootstraps and dust those chaps off..

I gotta see a man 'bout a horse now..... Gonna mosie on outta here....

*western sounds* chicka-chicka-wooo-wham-wham .....
 
lol! Thanks, Stacy! That gave me a much needed good chuckle! :)


Ooooook... so I think most everyone knows that I work from home doing search engine evaluation for *insert the biggest search engine you can think of here* ;) Anyway... I make a lot of ..lets just say.. interesting discoveries. I happened upon probably one of my worst nightmares last night. hahaha! This HAS to be some kind of fetish. It just HAS to be...

It's safe for work... just freaking weird. hahaha!


They are called ASMR videos. Like I can't stand hearing people chew. It's like nails on a chalkboard, and I had to rate a bunch of these last night. Most of them are some girl whispering and chewing loudly. Mouth noises.... *shudder* :eek: Why, people? WHY? :p I guess if you're into that sorta thing... good for you! We all have our things. ;) But holy crap I think my anxiety skyrocketed watching it. haha!

Anywho..... Yesterday was better food wise than the day before.... and I'm going to try to make today better than yesterday. It's all I can really shoot for right now. :)
 
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Just staring at that preview image makes me want to devour a disgusting amount of sashimi.... SO delicious!

I'm impressed you can watch videos of people eating and not instantly binge eat everything in sight. :)
 
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I'm impressed you can watch videos of people eating and not instantly binge eat everything in sight.
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I think the lip smacking and chewing noises was enough to turn me off eating anything last night. Maybe I've found my secret to success? lol!
 
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I think the lip smacking and chewing noises was enough to turn me off eating anything last night. Maybe I've found my secret to success? lol!
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Haha yeah! Next time you want to snack on something unhealthy, either put on a video of someone chewing it or get someone else to eat it with you and chew right next to your face. Urge gone!
 
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or get someone else to eat it with you and chew right next to your face
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It's not a sexual thing, though I forget what it's called. It's its own feeling and not everyone is susceptible to it - I get goosebumps on my brain from these sounds but other people get into a sort of pleasant, trance-like state.
 
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It's not a sexual thing, though I forget what it's called. It's its own feeling and not everyone is susceptible to it - I get goosebumps on my brain from these sounds but other people get into a sort of pleasant, trance-like state.
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I'm sure most are not, but there was some... let's just say.. blatantly sexual videos of it. There are whole porn categories dedicated to it. I'm guessing a small percentage of people that get that pleasant experience from it, also get some sort of sexual gratification from it. To each their own. ;)
 
I just heard about ASMR recently (someone on Facebook posted about it). Something like a non-sexual sense of euphoria.... It doesn't sound awful, to be honest. But what do I know.
 
Chef had the catering shift tonight, which means he got home a little later than normal. So I let the kids pick dinner, and we ended up with spaghetti. One of my son's favorites. My daughter wasn't as thrilled about it, but she's never thrilled about anything. Well, except for pancakes.... that's the only thing she ever actually wants to eat. She looooves them.

So I had spaghetti for dinner. Going to try to avoid snacking the rest of the night.

I need to put aside all the emotional stuff I've been dealing with and focus on my goals that I had for myself this year. Which were getting healthy and getting a new car. This may sound stupid, but my car causes me so much anxiety... always worrying it's going to break down, or worrying about fixing the things that need fixed... which is a lot. So, just having a new car, will relieve so much stress. Which in turn will help my emotional eating issues. Because stressed= eating! Hopefully by August or September I won't have to worry about it as much. *fingers crossed*
 
Oh my god, I hate mouth noises. Videos like that are my nightmare.

I hope you can reduce some of your stress. I pretty much stress ate a lot of the summer/fall, so I feel your pain there.
 
Hey!
New here, but I wanted to comment if that's okay. I had spaghetti tonight too, but instead of using noodles I used spaghetti squash. It's so good and no pasta. Plus, right? I hope you get a new car to help with your stress. Life is too short to be stressed about anything.

Cory,
Congrats on your soda free for 13 days! I need to that with my coffee.
 
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