Jen's Diary
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jen_renee
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Thanks, guys!
I'm so close to ONEderland! I can't wait!
Something making things a little easier is that my appetite has decreased a lot. I'm usually stuffing a snack down at 9 or 10 pm just so I don't eat too few calories.
Calories were around 1350 both days this weekend.
Edit*** I just noticed the forum is working correctly in Chrome tonight. I didn't have to refresh a billion times to post or edit. I really hope they fixed it!
I'm so close to ONEderland! I can't wait!
Something making things a little easier is that my appetite has decreased a lot. I'm usually stuffing a snack down at 9 or 10 pm just so I don't eat too few calories.
Calories were around 1350 both days this weekend.
Edit*** I just noticed the forum is working correctly in Chrome tonight. I didn't have to refresh a billion times to post or edit. I really hope they fixed it!
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jen_renee
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Thanks, everyone!
I am feeling much better, BlueBean. Definitely feeling more confident and healthy!
Vero... cheers!
<<water!
Thanks, Cate. Yeah, I think the forum acting better the other day was just a fluke. It's back to acting up today. I really wish they would fix it. I'm forced to use Chrome for work, so I can't be switching back and forth between browsers to post on the forum while I'm working. Such a pain. Ugh!
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205.2 this morning. Calories have been great. The bump up on the scale is probably from carbs. I had them for lunch and dinner last night.
I need to start getting back on the treadmill every other day. Here's my problem with that... Doing physical activity still makes me kind of nervous IF I'm alone. It's probably stupid, but I'm still worried about throwing a blood clot again and no one being here to help me. It's definitely an anxiety trigger. I have plenty of time during the day... but no one's here. So, that means I have to do it at night, and by the time I do homework with the kids, dinner, and finally get them off to bed... the treadmill is about the last thing in the world I want to do. I managed to do it before though, so I need to get back into the groove on that one. No more excuses!
I decided last night that I wanted to start drawing more at night. Since I'm NOT spending my evening stuffing food in my face, I can use my time more wisely and do something that I enjoy. It will also help me relax and definitely relieve some anxiety. So I'm challenging myself to do one drawing a day for 30 days. I started last night, so the challenge will end on December 9th. I'm sure they won't all be awesome(I'll only have an hour or so to work on them), but it should be fun.
Day 1
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I am feeling much better, BlueBean. Definitely feeling more confident and healthy!
Vero... cheers!
<<water!Thanks, Cate. Yeah, I think the forum acting better the other day was just a fluke. It's back to acting up today. I really wish they would fix it. I'm forced to use Chrome for work, so I can't be switching back and forth between browsers to post on the forum while I'm working. Such a pain. Ugh!
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205.2 this morning. Calories have been great. The bump up on the scale is probably from carbs. I had them for lunch and dinner last night.
I need to start getting back on the treadmill every other day. Here's my problem with that... Doing physical activity still makes me kind of nervous IF I'm alone. It's probably stupid, but I'm still worried about throwing a blood clot again and no one being here to help me. It's definitely an anxiety trigger. I have plenty of time during the day... but no one's here. So, that means I have to do it at night, and by the time I do homework with the kids, dinner, and finally get them off to bed... the treadmill is about the last thing in the world I want to do. I managed to do it before though, so I need to get back into the groove on that one. No more excuses!
I decided last night that I wanted to start drawing more at night. Since I'm NOT spending my evening stuffing food in my face, I can use my time more wisely and do something that I enjoy. It will also help me relax and definitely relieve some anxiety. So I'm challenging myself to do one drawing a day for 30 days. I started last night, so the challenge will end on December 9th. I'm sure they won't all be awesome(I'll only have an hour or so to work on them), but it should be fun.
Day 1
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Verobc1
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Hey Jen
Wow that drawing is really nice!! I always wanted to be able to draw faces!!! I know what you mean by finding time to workout it's not easy to balance everything! I don`t like to workout when there is someone there to watch, I kick the hubby out of the living room and that annoys him!! Great challenge I look forward to seing the drawings!!!
Wow that drawing is really nice!! I always wanted to be able to draw faces!!! I know what you mean by finding time to workout it's not easy to balance everything! I don`t like to workout when there is someone there to watch, I kick the hubby out of the living room and that annoys him!! Great challenge I look forward to seing the drawings!!!
jen_renee
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Thanks, Vero!
Calories for the night are around 1330. Had a very busy day and I'm exhausted. Tomorrow is going to be pretty busy too with arranging stuff for my mom's surgery and hospital stay on Thursday.
In other news, some lady in our small town won the lottery! 2 million bucks! It wasn't me.
Calories for the night are around 1330. Had a very busy day and I'm exhausted. Tomorrow is going to be pretty busy too with arranging stuff for my mom's surgery and hospital stay on Thursday.
In other news, some lady in our small town won the lottery! 2 million bucks! It wasn't me.
Quercus
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I hope thing sgo well with your mom.
Mo' money mo' problems. If that was true then I spent a large chunk of my life with no problems at all.
That's a very nice portrait. Well done! I need to start back drawing. I stink, but I enjoy it. It would take me too long to complete a drawing a night, but maybe I'll share one if it isn't too lousy. I would be pleased to make a drawing a week. 1 a month would be an increase. No humans for me. Insects and plants mostly.
Mo' money mo' problems. If that was true then I spent a large chunk of my life with no problems at all.
That's a very nice portrait. Well done! I need to start back drawing. I stink, but I enjoy it. It would take me too long to complete a drawing a night, but maybe I'll share one if it isn't too lousy. I would be pleased to make a drawing a week. 1 a month would be an increase. No humans for me. Insects and plants mostly.
ABY1
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I decided last night that I wanted to start drawing more at night. Since I'm NOT spending my evening stuffing food in my face, I can use my time more wisely and do something that I enjoy. It will also help me relax and definitely relieve some anxiety. So I'm challenging myself to do one drawing a day for 30 days. I started last night, so the challenge will end on December 9th. I'm sure they won't all be awesome(I'll only have an hour or so to work on them), but it should be fun.
I also think that activities that make us feel good are very helpful. Doing something that pleasures you always distract your mind from hunger or thinking of food. Especially in the evening after 8 p.m. i 'm always thinking about eating fatty food because i want to relax myself from all the routine of the day. But of course there are other relaxing activities except eating. Drawing is a very good activity i think, although i haven't tried it as a hobby. I don't like exercising at that time because i have already done exercising in the afternoon. So i would like to find a relaxing activity during that time except eating. Watching TV doesn't help because when i 'm seeing TV i always want to eat. During that time I have a feeling that i shouldn't deprive myself from eating something that i don't feel during the rest of the day. I don't really know why at the evening the desire of food is greater. Maybe because we are relaxing and we think that food is a part of it.
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jen_renee
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Thanks, Q! You should post a drawing or two if you find the time to sketch something out. Would love to see!
ABY- Watching TV at night always makes me want to eat, for a couple reasons. Watching TV equates to snacking for me. I'm so used to plopping down on the couch, turning on our shows, and grabbing a snack. All the food commercials do not help at all either. I've been saying for a while now that Olive Garden commercials need to be banned after 6pm. lol! Drawing definitely helps me to relax and it keeps my hands busy, which means NO snacking.
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204.4 this morning.
I have lots to do today, but wanted to make a post on here, as it will probably be my last post until Monday. I'll be at the hospital with my mom until probably Saturday, and then staying with her for a couple days at least. Which means hospital food for a few days. yaaaaay! Not sure what I'm going to do about that, but I'll survive.
I'm taking my drawing stuff to the hospital with me, so I'll be keeping up with my challenge.
Day 2
Was exhausted last night, but drew this out real quick. It's the handmade bracelet I wear all the time.
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I hope everyone is doing well. I'll catch up on diaries next week!
ABY- Watching TV at night always makes me want to eat, for a couple reasons. Watching TV equates to snacking for me. I'm so used to plopping down on the couch, turning on our shows, and grabbing a snack. All the food commercials do not help at all either. I've been saying for a while now that Olive Garden commercials need to be banned after 6pm. lol! Drawing definitely helps me to relax and it keeps my hands busy, which means NO snacking.
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204.4 this morning.
I have lots to do today, but wanted to make a post on here, as it will probably be my last post until Monday. I'll be at the hospital with my mom until probably Saturday, and then staying with her for a couple days at least. Which means hospital food for a few days. yaaaaay! Not sure what I'm going to do about that, but I'll survive.
I'm taking my drawing stuff to the hospital with me, so I'll be keeping up with my challenge.
Day 2
Was exhausted last night, but drew this out real quick. It's the handmade bracelet I wear all the time.
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I hope everyone is doing well. I'll catch up on diaries next week!
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MrVee
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That's a really good drawing but mine's better. Much more of an impressionistic feel:
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Seriously, very nice drawing.
The exercise bit is a tough one, and were I in your position I can't say I'd feel any differently. I'm assuming there's some sort of protocol you're supposed to follow if, god forbid, it happens again?
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Seriously, very nice drawing.
The exercise bit is a tough one, and were I in your position I can't say I'd feel any differently. I'm assuming there's some sort of protocol you're supposed to follow if, god forbid, it happens again?
jen_renee
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The line work in your piece is amazing! Great job! haha!
Thanks, Cate! ... and I did not make my bracelet. I bought it online somewhere. I tried making jewelry once... it was a rather large fail. haha!
Sunflower2
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Love the drawings Jen--Despite wishing very hard to be a creative person I can just about manage a stick man..Maybe we should set up a shop somewhere Mr V? I'm at about that standard too!
jen_renee
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Thanks, Hana!!
Well I'm back at my mom's. I was able to leave after we got back yesterday and go home and pick up a few things, including my laptop. Surgery did not go as planned. She did NOT get the gastric bypass. Chef and I were in the cafeteria and got paged about 45 minutes after she went into surgery. They took us back into a little room(which scared the shit outta me), and the surgeon came in to inform us that he had found a very large mass on her ovary, like the size of a grapefuit. He suggested that her ovary with the mass, and the tube on that side be removed. He wanted to call in a gynecologist to do that. Both the bariatric surgeon and gynecologist were fairly certain that the mass was benign, but they wanted to have it tested just in case. The bariatric surgeon did not want to go forward with the bypass because if it did turn out to be cancerous(very small chance), having a nutrition depleting surgery like that would not go well with fighting cancer. I completely agreed with that and consented. If it does turn out to be benign, she can just reschedule her gastric bypass. She'll of course have to start the whole two week diet process over again, but that's waaay better than cancer! We should find that out early next week.
Part of the surgery that did go as planned though was she had her gallbladder removed. So she's down a few parts after this surgery. We told her to look on the bright side... a gallbladder, ovary, and big mass had to weigh at least a few lbs, so she at least lost a little bit of weight. lol! Aaaaanyway... she's home, sore, and sleeping a lot.
When I was in the hospital in May I was restricted to the "heart healthy" menu, so the food I had was kinda blah. I have to say the regular food in the cafeteria was pretty damn good. I ate more than I should have, not too horrible though. I did try to control myself and ate around maintenance, but I did have a couple things that were not needed... like pie. lol! Hopefully any water weight will be gone for my weigh-in on Monday. One thing to my advantage is mom thought she wouldn't be able to eat after surgery, and she's been on a special diet for two weeks, so there isn't much to eat here. I picked up a few things at the store last night, but the temptations here are non-existent. Sticking to my diet won't be hard.
I forgot to mention I did take pics earlier this month, so I have a comparison pic from October to November. There isn't much change, since there's only like an 8 lb difference. I'm hoping December's pic shows a bigger one. I said I'd be happy with any amount of change though, even if I had to squint, and I think can see some. The shirt was definitely not as uncomfortably tight as it was before. Progress!
Edit to add... I did keep up with my drawing challenge. I'll add those pics later.
Well I'm back at my mom's. I was able to leave after we got back yesterday and go home and pick up a few things, including my laptop. Surgery did not go as planned. She did NOT get the gastric bypass. Chef and I were in the cafeteria and got paged about 45 minutes after she went into surgery. They took us back into a little room(which scared the shit outta me), and the surgeon came in to inform us that he had found a very large mass on her ovary, like the size of a grapefuit. He suggested that her ovary with the mass, and the tube on that side be removed. He wanted to call in a gynecologist to do that. Both the bariatric surgeon and gynecologist were fairly certain that the mass was benign, but they wanted to have it tested just in case. The bariatric surgeon did not want to go forward with the bypass because if it did turn out to be cancerous(very small chance), having a nutrition depleting surgery like that would not go well with fighting cancer. I completely agreed with that and consented. If it does turn out to be benign, she can just reschedule her gastric bypass. She'll of course have to start the whole two week diet process over again, but that's waaay better than cancer! We should find that out early next week.
Part of the surgery that did go as planned though was she had her gallbladder removed. So she's down a few parts after this surgery. We told her to look on the bright side... a gallbladder, ovary, and big mass had to weigh at least a few lbs, so she at least lost a little bit of weight. lol! Aaaaanyway... she's home, sore, and sleeping a lot.
When I was in the hospital in May I was restricted to the "heart healthy" menu, so the food I had was kinda blah. I have to say the regular food in the cafeteria was pretty damn good. I ate more than I should have, not too horrible though. I did try to control myself and ate around maintenance, but I did have a couple things that were not needed... like pie. lol! Hopefully any water weight will be gone for my weigh-in on Monday. One thing to my advantage is mom thought she wouldn't be able to eat after surgery, and she's been on a special diet for two weeks, so there isn't much to eat here. I picked up a few things at the store last night, but the temptations here are non-existent. Sticking to my diet won't be hard.
I forgot to mention I did take pics earlier this month, so I have a comparison pic from October to November. There isn't much change, since there's only like an 8 lb difference. I'm hoping December's pic shows a bigger one. I said I'd be happy with any amount of change though, even if I had to squint, and I think can see some. The shirt was definitely not as uncomfortably tight as it was before. Progress!
Edit to add... I did keep up with my drawing challenge. I'll add those pics later.
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jen_renee
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Thanks, Quercus!
205.0 this week for the official Christmas challenge weigh-in. I'm down a little from last Monday, but I was down to 204.4 on Wednesday, so I'm up a little bit from then. I also was away from home for several days and had my TOM, so I'm expecting a good drop here in the next couple days. I'm hoping to see 203 before Friday.
We're supposed to get slammed with some snow tonight, possibly a foot of the stuff. I think I'm done with winter already. Can we please just skip it this year?
Here are the drawings I did for my challenge:
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Today will be day 8. So far so good. I'm enjoying my time drawing and not even thinking about snacking. Win win.
205.0 this week for the official Christmas challenge weigh-in. I'm down a little from last Monday, but I was down to 204.4 on Wednesday, so I'm up a little bit from then. I also was away from home for several days and had my TOM, so I'm expecting a good drop here in the next couple days. I'm hoping to see 203 before Friday.
We're supposed to get slammed with some snow tonight, possibly a foot of the stuff. I think I'm done with winter already. Can we please just skip it this year?
Here are the drawings I did for my challenge:
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Today will be day 8. So far so good. I'm enjoying my time drawing and not even thinking about snacking. Win win.
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jen_renee
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I was looking at Q's comparison pics earlier, and that made me start digging through some of my old pics that I have uploaded on a photo site. I lost my weight loss pics from before, because I never uploaded them anywhere and my computer died. BUT, I found this gem of a picture..look at those bangs.. haha! I seriously did not care about myself back then. Anyway...This is me at around 280ish, so almost my highest weight. It was just after I had my son, he's seven now. I edited out my mom and grandma(it was a four generation picture). It's funny because I get so down on myself for not being at my goal weight, but then I compare this picture with my last picture, and am more than happy with how far I've come.
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Little John
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Hi Jen - I like the drawing challenge. Might I recommend army tanks fighting dinosaurs? That's about where my art levels dropped off, anyway.
And very impressive before and after pics! Keep up the good work!
Regarding the clot - have you gone to a specialist? My wife developed clots both times she was pregnant, and ended up taking ...some kind of shots. I can't remember the name, but they were wicked expensive (three cheers for insurance, at least), but they were also the only option for pregnant women. Lovenox, that's the stuff. Anyway, the point is that you might be able to monitor your levels to ensure that you're good to go on the treadmill?
And very impressive before and after pics! Keep up the good work!
Regarding the clot - have you gone to a specialist? My wife developed clots both times she was pregnant, and ended up taking ...some kind of shots. I can't remember the name, but they were wicked expensive (three cheers for insurance, at least), but they were also the only option for pregnant women. Lovenox, that's the stuff. Anyway, the point is that you might be able to monitor your levels to ensure that you're good to go on the treadmill?
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