Jennylee's diary

Dinner:
Wheatmeal pita bread with
lettuce, cucumber, lemon pepper tunalite and a little lowfat mayo. Oh and I snuck a little chunk of bread stuffing from the chicken in the fridge.

I don't think i've had enough cals today but I just can't be bothered fixing something. And its 10pm anyway. I'm going to have a tiny bit of orange juice and dilute it with water. Tomorrow is going to be "at home health spa" day. :D Nighty night.
 
I walked up town to pay bills and buy things as my morning exercise. I got a "stability ball workout for dummies" video to go with my new ball.
Breakfast: small bowl of oats with lowfat milk.
I'm going to do some really fast housework to get this place all pretty for my spa day now.
 
Sure thing newbride.
Lunch: 1 wheatmeal pita bread with cucumber low fat mayo and surimi.

Mr.Jennylee rang up and ruined my day telling me he won't be coming home tonight afterall. They say distance makes the heart grow fonder, thats bullshit it just makes you lonely and resentful.
 
I'm sorry jennylee..I know its hard when your husband is away. My hubby used to work 3rd shift and I HATED IT!!
 
Yeah, I haven't spent any time with him in weeks, I hate it because he's pretty much the only person I know in this town.
I tried out my swiss ball video, its hard work and is going to take a bit of getting use to. Balancing is hard but the annoying women on the tv said it gets easier as your core muscles strengthen. I didn't get all the way through it, my abs hurt a bit now because they've been lying dormant for so long. I can see myself sticking with it though.
 
I had a slip up last night because Mr.Jennylee rang again to tell me he will be only coming home weekends for the next 2 months, and I was all sad. I had a small bowl of surimi with lowfat mayo. 3 spoonfuls of the stew I made for him but he wasn't here to eat. And a chicken burger made with white bread bun, cheese and mayo. I bought a chocolate bar too, but I haven't eaten it. I will, but I'm going to put it off as long as I can. Maybe have half tonight and half tomorrow.

Today, I got up, had a cry, got on the exercycle for 20minutes then did 15 minutes on the ball, stretching and toning.
Breakfast:
Oats with lowfat milk.
I'm dreading going to work today, its not for long but the thought of it is very daunting. I think I need to go back to the doctor about this, I'm crying at everything. Yesterday I cried because one of my rats didn't want to play. The only thing I'm worried about is if he wants to put me back on medication (and charges me $40 just to see him!), thats why I gained all this weight in the first place. I just want a counsillor or something, but I don't think there are any in this town. Oh, well, I've pulled through before, I know it gets worse before it gets better, but it will get better eventually. At least I'm still able to force myself to exercise.
 
Oh jennylee that sucks, but you could always make a negative into a positive. Think of what you can do in 2 months :eek: . If he only sees you on the weekends he is more likely to notice the weight loss. you no men though you almost have to slap them up the head to get them to notice any thing lol, so set yourself a goal to loose what you think is possible each week and at the end of the 2 months put on something sexy and slap him ;)
 
We're rooting for you, Jennylee. Keep working off that stress. The exercise ball sounds like something "fun." (I don't believe I just said that something to exercise on would be "fun!!!")

Do you have any hobbies or interests that could get you out meeting new people?

Totallyscrappy
 
I'm really not sure what I could do to meet people, Im too self concious for most group activities, and its hard when you don't know even one person to start with. I think I'll just pour myself into losing weight, really get training. He'd never notice, but I don't care, I feel single anyway, hes like a friend I see sometimes.

Snack 2 peices of chocolate (about 100 cals)
Lunch:
Salad made of cabbage, cucumber, grated carrot, red onion and a little grated 30% less fat cheese. tiny bit of low fat mayo.
Stuffed into a wheatmeal pita bread with 100g peice of Hoki fish (grilled)
Plus a little bowl of extra salad

I haven't drunk enough water today, so i'm going to go and have a big glass.
 
Sorry to hear you are having a rough go....and with lil support systems around you that makes it even harder...what about taking a course in something that sparks your interst....even a yoga class,..or if you like animals (you mentioned having a rat) volunteering at an animal shelter. These are things that you could start on your own,..and you may meet somebody with the same interests. Does Mr jenny's have any friends with a girlfriend that you enjoy her company...maybe call her up and invite her to lunch at your place....it maybe hard with how you are feeling,..but reaching out and making that first step on the firiendship is what the other person is waiting for.

I have a cousin that battles depression and found the same thing that she gained weight,..however she switched medications and she did not have the weight gain side effect ...I should find out what she took.
 
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Thanks Jen, those are some great ideas, I do think about doing that kind of thing, but it never really amounts to much, maybe I should give it go instead of just thinking about it.

I just did another 20 minutes on the exercycle and 10minutes stretching with the ball.
The ball is great guys!! But I don't think I would have figured it out if I hadn't got the video. The books just don't do the trick.

I can't believe its only 1.30. Today is taking forever.
 
Hey Jennylee, I'm really sorry to hear about your husband. You always seem so sad when you talk about him. Maybe rosered is right, after two months he will definitely notice your weight loss and maybe you can "spice up" the relationship! Don't let his absence bring you down though, try to look at it as an opportunity to be independent and productive! I always find that I'm more productive when I'm single because I'm not preoccupied with a man. I get lonely a lot, but I sure do get work done!
 
Absolutley Jennylee..stop thinking about it and do it! You can always quit later if you'd like, but I bet it would do you alot of good!
 
This is the beginning of the end for me and Mr.Jennylee. Last night he didn't come home, but rang and asked me to move out. I have no where to go, but this morning, he said he will talk about it today. I think its over, but I'm not sure, and I'm pissed off that I have to go to work today. Its going to be horrible. But even if my life has just been turned on its head, I'm still going to keep dieting, to get some good out of my life. But I'm also a little worried, I'm seriously thinking about going back on medication, but I know I will gain weight on it.
Anywho, I better have some breakfast, not hungry but I know its the smart thing to do.
 
Hon sorry to hear this, only because I know it is hurting you....but when you look back in five years...this decision may make you smile. There is a reason for everything, just know and trust this. Like everything else one day at a time.
 
I'm sorry Jennylee...I really feel your pain (my husband and I have gone through similar times) But I do agree one hundred percent with Jennifer, Everything DOES happen for a reason! Maybe this a good thing for you. Remember...When God closes a door he opens a window. We Love you Jennylee!!
 
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