APah! I finally read 5 pages of your diary to catch up...only to find you are now on holiday!!!
Anyhow, here's what I missed out on saying whilst I was away...
Happy birthday!!!! Enjoy it, being young is great!!
30lbs OMG!! Well done!! What a milestone!
Crushes...sigh. I'm such a crusher that I'm definitely not one to talk but a) recognising it is a crush b) tempering your behaviour because of this and c) being objective about them not perhaps being as great as you think they are....that is the key!
Calories - I'm sure it's not healthy to eat under 1000 a day...even if you did have a bad day beforehand!
But...you are doing brilliantly! Life changing stuff! The next 30lbs will make all the difference - under 200lbs is like getting into the upper end of normal clothes shopping...it's feeling overweight rather than really fat...it's not being invisible to most guys even though you have a lovely face...it's not having issues sitting in seats/rides/kayaks (my personal problem...hahaha don't ask!)... And you are nearly on the cusp! I found 220 to 200 the most changing weight loss!
Go get it!!!