Here we go! A diary for 'the last 20'!!

AAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! My husband is bringing home pizza :banghead: We are still averaging 2 meals out a week. It's a yucky rainy day. I had taken out steak to bbq, but just really didn't feel like making a big supper. When hubby called on his way home I told him this and he says... "ok, I'll just pick up some pizza". I said no but now he thinks he's doing me this big favor. It's hard enough to change 'my' attitude and habits... but I have to change his too :p





Scorpiogal said:
I'm the same way with tv in the winter...all the good shows are back on! I figure I'll just drag the bike in front of the tv.
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We have our eliptical in front of the tv, but I'm just not a stationary cardio person. I really don't like it. I guess I need to change my attitude about that too. Maybe I could get the hubby involved... kind of like a challenge...
 
So I finally broke down and did a food journal this week, and them some research on how much I "SHOULD" be eating. My results were crazy. My days are so erratic!!
MON: 991
TUES: 1622
WED: 948
THURS: 1712
FRI: 1141

For my goal, I should be consuming about 1200cal/day for the next 3 months. Right now it seems I'm either way above or below that. My exercise for the week was really good. I feel quite confident that this is a good, attainable goal. I still need a few 'tweeks' here and there, but looks like I'm on the right track :)
 
Week 3!! In the past I have always done great for 2 weeks, and then something has come up to give me a "great excuse" to stop. Well, nothing has come up so here we go. I jumped on the scale this morning and was down to 147.2, and my waist measurment is down 2 inches. Very motivating to start with week on a high :D My big goal for this week is to NOT eat out!!! I have been spending way too much money on groceries and unfortunately we just don't have it right now. But if we don't spend $50-75 on eating out it will average out at the end of the week.

I think I may have convinced my husband to jump on board too. I talked to him about working out together at home a couple times a week... he wasn't excited about it but didn't turn me down. He also hasn't been complaining at all about all the healthy food I've been making. We shall see ;)
 
Yay for you!! That's awesome! You and I are at the same weight- looks like we're both well on track for our common goal :party:
 
Scorpiogal said:
Yay for you!! That's awesome! You and I are at the same weight- looks like we're both well on track for our common goal :party:
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Thanks Scorpiogal!! Your support has helped so much :)

I am feeling so good. It's Friday and we didn't eat out once this week. We've been invited over to friends tonight so we're good!!! Last night was my yoga class, and during the last few minutes of meditation I kept thinking about what I was going to eat when I got home... not b/c I was hungry... just out of habit. I drove home (without stoping at McDonald's!!), had 2 girl guide cookies and spent the rest of the evening waiting for the overwhelming urge to snack to hit. It never did!! I've only had 1 day over my 1200cal, but the extra calories came from higher good fat foods, ie: nuts. I can't tell you how good it feels to walk into a room with a mirror and actually really like what I see :D
 
Ok, so spoke too soon... opps! Our Friday night dinner plans got moved to Sat night... I hadn't taken or planned anything for supper... we had a bunch of running around to do after school/work... therefore we ate out :( I was so dissapointed. But instead of going to MD's, we tried another burger place which we had heard really good things about. I had a turkey burger on a WW bun but it was still 480cal. In stead of having a meal I just had some of my kids and hubby's fries but still about 200 cals over my budget. Saturday, on the other hand... WAS EVEN WORSE!!! Going to friends for dinner apparently counts as eating out b/c at the end of the day my calorie intake was 2162... almost 1000cals over my budget. Yuck! We had a really good time though ;) With all that being said... I was still down a pound this morning on the scale. I feel like this is a real learning oppertunity. As long as I'm making good, healthy choices all the time, when life happens it's not a big deal. And not going to ruin everything I've done. This week is going to be challanging b/c it's the week of my cycle, but honestly I'm ready for it!!
 
Ok, maybe I wasn't as ready as I thought :p We've had McDonald's 2 nights in a row!! Yesterday was a horrible day. I woke up with the worst headache I've had in years and very intense cramps. I took my 6yr old to school, picked her up and that's all I did... all day long!! I had a bowl of mini wheats for breakfast and then just munched on kettle chips all afternoon... 3 girl guide cookies and then my hubby brought home MD's for supper. My husband had the bad day on Tuesday and I brought MD's home for him so he returned the favor for me last night. We are so horrible together!! But I have to say, I am really proud of myself today. My hormones are leveled back out and I'm feeling good. Green smoothie for breakfast and an hour walk this morning and it's like the last two days didn't happen. Usually if I were to fall off the wagon that badly I would have been done. Right back to the old ways... but I've reversed it. My "old ways", are now my healthy new ways. I don't even feel quilty. It's what I needed to get me through the day, and now it's a new one. It's been 26 days since I started this journey. Scorpiogal said it takes 28 days to break a habit and by next week I want to be able to change my name from the thelast20, to thelast15!!!!
 
Wow, what a bad week. I'm really worried I'm going to be up tomorrow... and we have company coming for the week. My sister-in-law and her family (including a VERY picky-eater son). I'm going to need some incredible will power... which I just don't seem to have right now. And to top it all off, my support buddy is prego. So excited for her, but feeling very alone right now.
 
Damn!! I'm up :( I know that this whole pound a week is the best and safest way to lose weight, and keep it off... but it's just so slow. I mean, it's been a month. One whole month and what do I have to show for myself... 2.5 lbs. It's discusting really. I had a very different vision of where I was going to be at this point. :(
 
Ok, well sort of back on track. I'm feeling so much better this week and am really happy how easy it is to get back on track. I stepped on the scale yesterday and was down to 145.8... not exactly where I wanted to be, but still so much better than being up :) I starting to get anxious now though. I can see the 130's, and I want it NOW!! I am trying to increase my exercise and with the weather being so nice right now it's not hard to do. I realized this morning that I love to walk outside! AND, I found my mantra yesterday. I had gone for a walk in the morning after dropping my girls off at school. When I got home I through my yoga mat down infront of the fireplace and went through a simple stretching practice. At the end, I sat in meditation infront of the fire and the words just came... "I am strong". And you know, for the first time in my life I can say those words and actually believe them.
 
So I totally skipped Yoga last night. I was so tired and just not into it at all. The last 2 weeks I've felt so miserable for 2-3days after and I just don't want that this weekend. So I stayed home, had some hot sex with the hubby and did a hardcore ab workout. That should make up for it right ;) I'm also thinking about stopping the yoga for a YMCA membership. Yoga is once/wk for 90min at $47/mth. At the Y, both my hubby and I could have membership for $63/mth, and the fitness classes are included!! Childminding could add up but I'm sure we could find a way to work around it!!
 
Ok, well sort of back on track. I'm feeling so much better this week and am really happy how easy it is to get back on track. I stepped on the scale yesterday and was down to 145.8... not exactly where I wanted to be, but still so much better than being up I starting to get anxious now though. I can see the 130's, and I want it NOW!! I am trying to increase my exercise and with the weather being so nice right now it's not hard to do. I realized this morning that I love to walk outside! AND, I found my mantra yesterday. I had gone for a walk in the morning after dropping my girls off at school. When I got home I through my yoga mat down infront of the fireplace and went through a simple stretching practice. At the end, I sat in meditation infront of the fire and the words just came... "I am strong". And you know, for the first time in my life I can say those words and actually believe them.
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I'm totally with you on the 130's thing!!! I'm SO impatient. But I know that my hard work is going to pay off and it WILL happen for me! Just know that it is possible as long as you keep up!!! :) I REALLY like the "I am strong" thing.... in fact, I did read this entry yesterday and this morning as I was pushing myself really hard to finish my running... I thought of that and said in my head, "I am strong, I can do this" ... I just repeated it in my head a few times and it helped!!! So I kind of owe that one to YOU! :p
~ Sarah
 
skkroll said:
I'm totally with you on the 130's thing!!! I'm SO impatient. But I know that my hard work is going to pay off and it WILL happen for me! Just know that it is possible as long as you keep up!!! :) I REALLY like the "I am strong" thing.... in fact, I did read this entry yesterday and this morning as I was pushing myself really hard to finish my running... I thought of that and said in my head, "I am strong, I can do this" ... I just repeated it in my head a few times and it helped!!! So I kind of owe that one to YOU! :p
~ Sarah
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I'm really happy you were able to use the mantra, they can be very powerful!! Repeating it like that is a form of meditation and can help you become a little more intune with your body... never a bad thing ;)

Well I'm off to my 3 yr olds ballet/tap class. I'm hoping to get a walk in this afternoon.
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I didn't get my walk in this afternoon, but I did get a Big Mac :banghead: It was so good. We did go and check out the YMCA though and will probably get a membership next week. I went through the list of classes and they have some really fun ones I think I'll really like!
 
My girls are both dancing in a big christmas show this year, and they needed adults to dance as well. I think I was out of mind when I said yes, but it's going to be a good, fun workout every week. I was using muscles I forgot I had. Can hardly wait to feel them again tomorrow morning :p We got our membership for the Y today :hurray: Set up an appointment with a personal trainer on Wed to set up goals. I'm so excited!! It was a little intimidation though. I haven't been in a gym in a long time... I've been working out a home for years b/c we couldn't afford the membership AND childminding. Now with them both in school a couple of days a week, and with me not working we can do it.

I worried about stepping on the scale tomorrow. Pretty sure it's going to be up again, making 143 by halloween seem alittle harder than I thought :( Oh well, no point in worrying about it now... we'll see in the morning...
 
I need to change my weigh in day. It's too hard to see those numbers after a great weekend of fun and friends... and food. I was back up to 146.6 this morning :(

I really wanted to go to the gym this morning, but my youngest has a runny nose so I can't take her to the childminding. Hubby's going after work, so maybe I'll go after supper. I am alittle sore today from the dancing yesterday, but it feels good ;)
 
thelast20 said:
I need to change my weigh in day. It's too hard to see those numbers after a great weekend of fun and friends... and food. I was back up to 146.6 this morning :(
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Hey! You should try weighing in on Friday mornings. I find this really helpful because it shows me the progress I made throughout the week and lets me know what I need to do for the weekend! :)
 
skkroll said:
Hey! You should try weighing in on Friday mornings. I find this really helpful because it shows me the progress I made throughout the week and lets me know what I need to do for the weekend! :)
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Ya, I was thinking Friday would be a good day. I was back down to 145.6 this morning so I'm hoping to see 144 by Friday.

Didn't get to the gym yesterday. By the time we got home from dance, made supper, cleaned up supper, got the kids to bed it was 8pm. My youngest couldn't go to preschool today b/c of her cold, so this morning is out, and my oldest has dance and sparks tonight so that's out too :p Funny how when I was figuring out a gym schedule in my head before getting the membership, I never took into account 'real life'! Oh well. I have my appointment with the trainer tomorrow night, yoga Thur night, dance rehearsal Fri night... so the rest of the week is good. My calories were good yesterday and our meals are all planned for the week. I think 143 by halloween is still very much attainable. Maybe I'll try today for 30min on the eliptical, yoga and a my ab video.
 
thelast20 said:
I have the flu :( See you in a couple of days :(
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Ohhh nooo!!!! :( Get better soon!!! And I'm happy for you that the scale went back down... I too am hoping to see 144 on Friday. Halloween is so close.. 10 days... we can definitely make it to 143 by then!! No doubt about it :p

Get some rest and feel better!!!

~ Sarah
 
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