Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

Bigguy said:
Wait....you need to follow court orders?? Damn.....

If it were me I wouldnt work out after work. You worked out in the morning and there is a reason you were wiped.
You still worked out, you just did not get the best from it. Take the evening off- you are a busy woman- and go tomorrow if that is your routine.
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Haha, thanks...I ended up getting stuck in a meeting which ran late, then I had to TEAR around my office looking for a file that I should have already had (which I need for tomorrow morning)...in short I got out late, ran later and didn't get my daughter until damn near 6pm, not getting home until 630...a friend came over for dinner and that was a much better night than working out again.

Thanks for the advice, totally on point...sometimes I feel compelled to push myself for no reason and I need to be hit on the head :)

Follow court orders, who knew??? It amazes me that people really don't think that they matter...
 
sammyboy24 said:
Congrats on your measurements Ali. They are really the standard to go by, imo. I just had mine taken on Tues. and I lost a few, so I was pretty happy. Even though my weight isn't really changing, and my BF still says its the same, I am losing inches all over the place. It's going to be really interesting to see what this looks like as I get closer to my goal... :)

Take it easy on yourself. If I got up that early and worked out I would probably be dead tired by the time i got home from work. Hope you have a nice evening.

Take Care,
Sam
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My evening turned out pretty good but I think I have already had the best part...I have a lot of work I have to do tonight and it looks to be a long one at that...

I don't know what my BF is (although I am sure I could find a calculator and figure it out) but I did lose inches and my body is changing even if I can't see it on the scale. I just have to remember that. I can't wait to see what I will look like when I reach my goal and if that will even be enough. I don't know.

I can't wait.

I do all of my workouts before work ~ I get up at 5:00 am every day to go to the gym :) Fun stuff, no?

Thanks for the good thoughts, I hope you are doing well...
 
Sometimes it almost seems like I know what I am talking about doesn't it? :)

I am happy you were able to spend time with a friend tonight- it always does the mind and spirit well to spend some time with a friend.

Going to read your diary tonight- you seem like someone I would like to get to know.
 
Bigguy said:
Sometimes it almost seems like I know what I am talking about doesn't it? :)

I am happy you were able to spend time with a friend tonight- it always does the mind and spirit well to spend some time with a friend.

Going to read your diary tonight- you seem like someone I would like to get to know.
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Awe thanks :) Backatcha - you have a great sense of humor, something that is definately needed to get through this thing.

The friend I was with has been like a rock to me ~ she is my college roomate but is more like the sister I never had. One of the best relationships I have in my life.

I sometimes forget that I have a diary so I do post some musings in my pictures thread as well :) Not that they are worth much but hey, if you are going to read, you may as well get the whole picture :D
 
Ok. After reading this I need to get to know you better. Someone who in 7 pages can spout lyrics from 'It just won't quit' by meatloaf, profess love of old school Tom n' Jerry cartoons and talk about tazering someone is my kind of person.
You are an outstandingly busy woman who it appears has lost perspective. You have lost 77 frickin pounds while raising a daughter and working a very demanding job! Eating one Cadbury egg will not undo that. Eating 100 cadbury eggs will not undo that. You need to realize that. What you have achieved is huge and I think you need to realize that. It is understandable and reasonable to lose focus from time to time. Winners are able to regroup and refocus. You sound like a winner to me.
I am so impressed that you use free weights. There is not a woman in my gym who does that. Very few women squat- hell I just started squatting!
You are doing a great job Ali, please realize that.
 
Bigguy said:
Ok. After reading this I need to get to know you better. Someone who in 7 pages can spout lyrics from 'It just won't quit' by meatloaf, profess love of old school Tom n' Jerry cartoons and talk about tazering someone is my kind of person.
You are an outstandingly busy woman who it appears has lost perspective. You have lost 77 frickin pounds while raising a daughter and working a very demanding job! Eating one Cadbury egg will not undo that. Eating 100 cadbury eggs will not undo that. You need to realize that. What you have achieved is huge and I think you need to realize that. It is understandable and reasonable to lose focus from time to time. Winners are able to regroup and refocus. You sound like a winner to me.
I am so impressed that you use free weights. There is not a woman in my gym who does that. Very few women squat- hell I just started squatting!
You are doing a great job Ali, please realize that.
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Can I tell you that I love the fact that you knew which song I was quoting :)

I have never viewed myself or what I am doing as impressive, that is really cool that you see it that way...I find that I go through highs and lows (don't we all) and that I just need to remember that what I am doing is working and it is not reasonable to expect that I will never ever eat another piece of junk again. That is not life. I have to learn to incorporate it into something that makes sense.

What drives those lousy moods is the fear of failure. I don't want to go back to the way I used to be and I want to take this to the end and beyond.

So much of this is mental and it may just be something I fight for the rest of my life, who knows?

Today was a good day :) I felt that I looked good, even attractive (I am sure someone one here will yell at me for that comment, but I have confidence issues, so sue me :D)

Some days you lose, some days you win. If I get more wins than losses, then that's a good day for me...stick around, I am sure we will have lots to talk about :)
 
Meatloaf with Jim Stienman are some of my all time favorite listens. :)
Sounds stupid but I get so revved up hearing some of his stuff.

I ain't going nowhere anytime soon. You talk, Ill listen.

Thanks Ali, meeting you has made my day.
 
Bigguy said:
Meatloaf with Jim Stienman are some of my all time favorite listens. :)
Sounds stupid but I get so revved up hearing some of his stuff.

I ain't going nowhere anytime soon. You talk, Ill listen.

Thanks Ali, meeting you has made my day.
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You're sweet, thanks :)

I have a good portion of Bat Out of Hell II on my MP3 player...great for some intervals on the elliptical...not stupid at all in my book.

I hope my musings don't put you to sleep :) otherwise, enjoy them...
 
Nothing could put me to sleep last night :(- trust me I tried your posts. Did. Not. Work.
Up wayyyy past my bedtime for no reason I can think of.

I remember being so happy when Bat out of Hell II came out. I dont even remeber how old I was.
All are on my MP3 from I and II.

Hope you are having a good morning.
 
I remember exactly how old I was - I used to listed to BOH II while I was tanning for the prom :D

Well I am glad my posts are at least good enough to keep you awake...my morning has totally sucked so far but I think I am pretty much over it.

Hope things are better in your end of the world...
 
Not better at all.
Having one of those days where it sucks from the beginning.... 5 hours or so to go.

I am really going to need to run tonight to get these bad feelings out.
Idiots I tells ya, idiots!

Hope you have a better afternoon.
 
Bigguy said:
Not better at all.
Having one of those days where it sucks from the beginning.... 5 hours or so to go.

I am really going to need to run tonight to get these bad feelings out.
Idiots I tells ya, idiots!

Hope you have a better afternoon.
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Since I last posted...my day has gone from bad but dealable to worse and uncopeable...I just need to keep it to work and not let it carry over to me personally...

I think that the next person to open my office door is going to get shot :)
 
Who will win the worst day of the day contest? The Project manager from the midwest or the Lawyer from the east coast???

How bad is it?
Remember shooting someone is Illegal..
 
Bigguy said:
Who will win the worst day of the day contest? The Project manager from the midwest or the Lawyer from the east coast???

How bad is it?
Remember shooting someone is Illegal..
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Yeah yeah I hear you...but if they deserveit...

I have my money on the lawyer :D
 
I probably have mine on the lawyer also, but hey....who knows.

You can't go around shooting everyone who deserves it. Mal's idea of a tazer though....
 
Bigguy said:
I probably have mine on the lawyer also, but hey....who knows.

You can't go around shooting everyone who deserves it. Mal's idea of a tazer though....
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I do like the tazer idea but with a gun, you only gotta shoot it once and the rest will be scared off.

There is some value to that, don't you think?
 
I have built the reputation I have based on managing by fear.

I feel there is great value in that.
Go with what you feel. Let the hate flow.



Kidding of course- except the managing by fear, that is true. Is your day over soon?
 
Bigguy said:
I have built the reputation I have based on managing by fear.

I feel there is great value in that.
Go with what you feel. Let the hate flow.



Kidding of course- except the managing by fear, that is true. Is your day over soon?
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I am low man on the totem pole so there is no one that I could manage by fear, although I have used that tatic in the past.

Gosh I miss it :)

Day isn't done until 5........too many hours to go.
 
3 1/2 hours.
Not too bad overall.

Until I was able to manage by fear I also followed with fear from time to time.

Always did my job very well but was just enough of a bitch about it that they did not want to talk to me about it or anything.

I do not recommend this tactic as you can lose your job using it but I do think they thought I was a 'hard ass' and that is why I am where I am today.
 
There is someting to be said for being a hard-ass. I wish I was more like that. I tend to be shy and afraid to speak my mind for fear of what other people will think of me.

Definately not good SOP in my opinion. When you are programmed a certain way, well you know how that goes...

My food for today consisted of two salads, one from salad works and the other from a salad bar...dressing on the side for both, very little eaten in that department...so I came home and decided to load up on some protein for dinner - two small hamburgers, no bread. Yum.

It will parobably put me a little high for the day, but after the day I have had...hell I deserve it :D
 
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