Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

stress burns calories. At least that is how i see it. :)
You deserve to eat a bit more if your day was half as bad as it seemed to be.

Relax Ali. You are home and tomorrow is another day.
 
Well I don't want to overdo it, that is how I got HUGE in the first place. But i may treat myself. I at least deserve that...
 
Never overdo but today is not a day to deprive yourself either, Maintenance cals are there for a reason :)
 
I got back to the gym this morning....ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...what a nice feeling :)

I upped the level on the elliptical to 5 (I feel like I should be able to do more than this but my thighs get all wiggly if I do more) and did my 30 mins...I was going to throw in some squats but decided that it would probably result in my falling on my ass.

I'll get them in tomorrow.

I am still on the upside of emotion with regards to by body image, apparently all of those negative feelings have subsided somewhat and I am able to view this whole thing with a little more clarity.

I really do need to get some more clothing, however. I have a lot of pants and almost no tops, gotta work on that. I also need another suit - one suit does not a well dressed lawyer make when you have two court appearances before the same judge in the same week. Somehow I feel that men can get away with this in a way women can't. I KNOW that judge figured out I was wearing the same suit he had seen me in two days before.

In honor of the spring-like weather we are having here in Jersey I have busted out my new Etienne Ainger sandals which I got for the low low price of EIGHT DOLLARS :D

Hehe I love a good bargain.

Here goes another day at the races...let's hope it is better than yesterday.
 
accessories accessessories accessessories :) they can change around the garment - at least that's what the best dressed books tell us :)

Have fun shopping - 77 lbs earns you some new clothes :)
 
That's a good point...I forget things like that, I feel like I am still learning how to be a girl sometimes.

I also have to remember that men are sorta dense when it comes to that stuff so the damage is probably minmal.

Thanks for the congrats, Mal - I love shopping anymore, it is like I am running a contest to see what I can get for next to nothing. The cheaper the better IMO. I have no idea how I am going to operate when I am the same size for more than 10 minutes :D
 
Hey Ali. ITA with Mal in saying that losing almost 80lbs deserves some new clothes. I love getting great clothes for a great price too. I typically get a lot of my clothes on Ebay anymore, at least the designer ones. They do have some fakes and stuff on there, u just have to be cautious and know what your looking for, and I haven't ever had any real problemos :) I mean who really wants to pay 250.00 for jeans at Nordstroms? Not me when I know I can probably get authentic ones on Ebay for half that, or less even...

Keep up the great work Ali :)

-Sam
 
Ali,

Sorry I missed this earlier.
Buy some clothes darn it. You need them- a beautiful, professional attorney needs more than one suit.
Buy something comfortable and reasonably priced that can be tailored as you lose the rest of your weight. Tailoring is an overlooked tool for not buying cloths constantly while losing weight.

Have fun and I hope your Friday night went well.
 
Ali,

Sorry I missed this earlier.
Buy some clothes darn it. You need them- a beautiful, professional attorney needs more than one suit.
Buy something comfortable and reasonably priced that can be tailored as you lose the rest of your weight. Tailoring is an overlooked tool for not buying cloths constantly while losing weight.

Have fun and I hope your Friday night went well.

I have all of my old suits, I was just thinking that I would get them tailored once, when I was done with the weight loss, rather than do the work multiple times...I have to see if I can get a good deal on a suit, the one that I have I got for $35.00 so it sort of set my standard.

Thanks for the beautiful comment :) Reading that my initial thought was, is he talking about me??? I guess you were ~ thanks :D

Last night was ok - quiet, which isn't necessarily bad. Tonight I am babysitting my two nephews while my sister and brother in law go to a wedding. Three kids (including mine) make for one hectic evening. It is only 7pm and I am beat already...

I tried to eat decent enough today, hopefully I did alright, we ordered from a pizza place. I had a half a slice with calamari marinara and a garden salad, dressing on the side Breakfast was eggs w/a slice of bacon and mushrooms, half a slice of toast. Half a granola bar for a snack and I am sure a few munchies I miss, but nothing bad. I think I did alright for the day.

Can't wait to get to the gym tomorrow...
 
Of corse I meant you. Geez you tell me to get used to it and you can't recognize it yourself?

Good luck with the 3 kids tonight- babysat for my neice and nephew 2 weekends back and am still sore.
I have not really cared too much about eating today- I have eaten well but just in larger quantities. I really need spring to actually get here so I am not house bound you know?
Anyway- quiet fridays are good.
Have a good workout tomorrow. :)
 
GUESS WHAT FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS???? I JUST GOT TWO SUITS AND A PAIR OF JEANS IN A SIZE 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually - everything I bought today was a size 14 :D

I'm still not sure what happened...especially since my weight hasn't changed in oh, let's say three weeks, I guess my body is still changing, you know?

I went to Old Navy, which I went to last summer, and was limited to their XXL collection (for those of you familiar with ON, this selection, while cute, is not very large). This time, having the XL collection availble to me, I was more than a little overwhelmed. I only have one pair of jeans so I decided to try on what they had and see how it went. I grab a pair of 16 short (I think they need to come up with a gentler way of describing my lack of height) and head to the dressing room with the rest of my wares.

I am a little slow on the uptake some days so for everything that I tried that had a corresponding numerical size attached to it, I grabbed a 16 except for one pair of shorts that they didn't have in a 16. I figured I would try the 14s for shits and giggles, just to see how far off from that size I really was.

Surprise.

I wasn't off at all. I put on the 14 shorts and stand there in the dressing room with what I can only assume was a look of complete and total confusion on my face. I take them off, figure they run big and move on to the jeans.

The 16 jeans were loose.

WTF? So I go out to the dressing room lady and ask for the next size down and she proceeds to tell me that the 16s are way too big, blah blah blah and I am just standing there thinking to myself that there is no way that those 14s are going to fit when they bring them to me.

Did I mention I was a little bit on the slow side? :)

She heaves the 14s over the dressing room door and on they go. No only do they fit, the look good. Some of the shirts are hit or miss, but I was on with that because some of their styles are made for people who do not have the deflated stomach I am dealing with. All in due time, I am ok with that.

I leave ON thinking that maybe they just run a little bigger than I am used to and I head over to Ross to see if they have any cheap suits so I do not embarass myself by wearing my one and only twice in one week.

At Ross, I get two suits (13.99 and 20.99) two skirts and two tops. They are all size 14.

I am just stunned. I haven't worn a 14 since high school. I haven't been within shouting distance of a 14 in more than a decade. I know that clothes shopping is something that is ridiculously mundane but I was just comepletely blown away by it, especially since I wasn't expecting it.

Needless to say, I am thrilled, estatic and any other adjective that would seem appropriate. This thing keeps on working to my continued amazement and I keep shrinking. The sky feels like the limit to me :)

I upped my squats to 70lbs and got in a decent workout today. I am tired from nephew sitting (their parents didn't get home until 12:30am and I didn't get to bed until 1:30am) and sore from lifting but am happy nonetheless.

Great things are happening here...I can't wait to see what's next.
 
Ginger ~ thanks so much :)

I was totally stoked, believe me...I hope things are going well for you also - keep working at it and you will have nothing but success. It is things like this that helps get me through those days where I think I am doing nothing but screwing up :D

:hurray:
 
That is fantastic Ali.
It validates everything you are doing and is great!

You seemed to be getting a little down. This seemed to really perk you up.
Congratulations on the accomplishment.
Seriously, haven't been a 14 since '94?

Great work!
 
You seemed to be getting a little down. This seemed to really perk you up.

Seriously, haven't been a 14 since '94?

I was feeling down, I feel like I work so hard and then I have precious little to show for it. This is the most weight I have ever lost and managed to keep off and there is a part of me that is afraid that I will 'mess' it up like I have every other time I have lost weight. I know that I haven't but it doesn't keep that voice in the back o f my head at bay all the time, you know?

It made me realize that what I am doing is having an effect, even if it doesn't translate into a change on the scale.

Why do you seem surprised that I haven't been a 14 since 1994? :)
 
Ginger ~ thanks so much :)

I was totally stoked, believe me...I hope things are going well for you also - keep working at it and you will have nothing but success. It is things like this that helps get me through those days where I think I am doing nothing but screwing up :D

:hurray:
Hey don't mention it!!! If it was me, I think I would like post to every thread on the forum and every diary in sight, "I AM IN A SIZE 14!!!!." The mods would probably cancel my membership for spamming the board lol:spam: Always wanted to use that emoticon!!

Thanks for posting the link to your diary...I always wanted to pop in and drop a line but could never find it @_@
 
I was feeling down, I feel like I work so hard and then I have precious little to show for it. This is the most weight I have ever lost and managed to keep off and there is a part of me that is afraid that I will 'mess' it up like I have every other time I have lost weight. I know that I haven't but it doesn't keep that voice in the back o f my head at bay all the time, you know?

It made me realize that what I am doing is having an effect, even if it doesn't translate into a change on the scale.

Why do you seem surprised that I haven't been a 14 since 1994? :)

I know the little voice. When I quit smoking and started to attempt to lose weight mine told me that there was no way that i would be able to do both. I have such a pessimistic outlook on everything that I still do not think that the weight will stay off. I am going to do all I can to make it so but who knows. This mini break I am on may validate in my mind and I will go nuts and eat everything I see. This is the first time I seriously tried to lose weight so I do not know how I will react to a small break.

As for the 14. I don't know.
You also just seem too determined to have allowed this to go on that long. Maybe I am just meeting you at a good time in your life.
 
Hey don't mention it!!! If it was me, I think I would like post to every thread on the forum and every diary in sight, "I AM IN A SIZE 14!!!!." The mods would probably cancel my membership for spamming the board lol:spam: Always wanted to use that emoticon!!

Thanks for posting the link to your diary...I always wanted to pop in and drop a line but could never find it @_@

You know what's funny ~ I posted that link in our thread and in my pictures thread b/c different people visit each one and I wanted all of them to know :D

It isn't the whole board but it was a start...
 
I was feeling down, I feel like I work so hard and then I have precious little to show for it. This is the most weight I have ever lost and managed to keep off and there is a part of me that is afraid that I will 'mess' it up like I have every other time I have lost weight. I know that I haven't but it doesn't keep that voice in the back o f my head at bay all the time, you know?

It made me realize that what I am doing is having an effect, even if it doesn't translate into a change on the scale.

Why do you seem surprised that I haven't been a 14 since 1994? :)

Other than gender, it's scary how we think alike.



Don't be surprised if I wasn't a size 14 since 1994, either. I'm fairly confident that's dead-on accurate :p
 
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