Getting it back - Josie's journey...

kara, me too... maybe i should take up kickboxing... that way i can really take my aggression out and hit and kick things as i wish:p
 
Hey beautiful, Just read about the bf situation... so sorry to hear, but.

You're beautiful, smart and self motivated. Take care of you for a bit and see how things shake out. Come in here and vent if you need to. We'll take care of you:grouphug:
 
Tuesday, 5/19/09

(day 2 post breakup :( )

"on day"

900am - breakfast
1/2 light yogurt
1 hard boiled eg white
1 bottle water

1100am - snack
1/2 onion bagel
cream cheese
couple sips green tea
1 bottle water

130pm - lunch
chicken breast sammy
artichoke/eggplant/basil
herbed cheese spread :piggy:
1 L. Water

345pm - snack
15 peanuts
1 bottle water

700pm - 830pm workout
5 min warm up
circuit training
30 mins HIIT treadmill 3.5-8.0
full body stretch
1 L. water

930pm - dinner
plate of fresh veggies
a couple chicken wings :piggy:
couple bites of bread
1 glass water

1200pm - bed
 
so no... i havent been pigging out, but i feel like im slacking. over the weekend, when i went with the bf to the park and had all the ridiculous junk food.... then yesterday i had a sandwich for lunch that had to be high in cals because of the cheese spread... but it would have been fine at just that. but no... after my workout, my friend took me to a bar to cheer me up... and i didnt drink myself to death - i didnt drink at all... but i did have about 5 or 6 chicken wings... which HAD to be ridiculously high in cals.

So now this morning, im feeling slightly bloated... and even though I had a kick ass workout last night, I still feel guilty. so i dont know if its going to do any good, but im going to try to keep my cals low today. maybe i'll have that sandwich again for lunch again, but everything else should be fairly low in cals.

ehhhhhhh

im also tired today and grumpy... and slightly sad about the breakup, but im still angry more than anything else. i hope i remain angry because it will help me get over things.. the minute sadness kicks in, i will be a blubbery mess.

but today is an off day and i have my second job tonight (which is a trivia hostess), so by the time im done with that, it will be time for bed and there will be no time to dwell on things. tomorrow is an on day but after my workout im going to dinner with a friend, so i'll be busy then... and im trying like mad to make plans for memorial day weekend because i will be damned if im going to be spending it alone. i dont want to think about anything. i just want to keep myself busy.... i want no down time. :( any suggestions?
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
Great workout yesterday!!! It must have felt so good.

Matt
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morning :seeya: i was FULL of energy yesterday... i dont know if it was the sandwich or the aggression or the emotional turmoil, but i was doing standing good mornings and bent over rows with a 45 lb bar, when i usually do 25... i must have done a zillion reps on the roman chair and i could have ran for a lot more, but i could tell my friend who worked out w me, was feeling tortured. hehhh... friday will be the next full body workout, maybe i can conjure another burst of crazy energy.

i really think the endorphins are helping me not cry myself to death. although losing all that water weight from tears probably wouldnt be that bad :p
 
Endorphins are good... bring on the rush! :)

Sounds like you're at least finding a healthy way to work off some of the mad and sad and other emotions. Hang in there. :)
 
Wednesday, 5/20/09

(day 3 post breakup)

"off day"

must shop, ran out of fruits and veggies again! :(

830am - breakfast
some watermelon, blueberries and grapes
1 hard boiled eg white
1 L water

1045am - snack
watermelon
couple bites of a scone
1 L water

115pm - lunch
1/2 chicken sammy
artichoke/basil/eggplant
herbed cheese spread
1 L. water

330pm - afternoon snack
other half of chicken sammy
1 L water

630pm - dinner
turkey
whole wheat bun
1 TBS mayo
1 bottle water

no food, too busy at work...
just water

1100pm - bed
 
i am bloated today...probably from all the salty foods ive been eating lately. last week i felt soooooooo skinny, this week not so much. and to be completely honest, i dont care right now. my allergies are killing me and im so doped up on allergy meds that my appetite is all weird and my tastebuds are even worse. I hate to be complaining yet again, but I honestly dont know how "strict" i can be for the rest of this week/weekend.

i guess it isnt necessarily a BAD thing because im still sticking to "plan", and it doesnt require to exactly count calories, but im still conscious of the cals im consuming.

i hate to make it sound like im making excuses for myself, but maybe today, tomorrow and the long weekend wouldnt be so bad to eat as i wish as long as i stick to plan....... and next week, start strict as i was for the first two weeks. hmmmm..... i can still do this without depriving myself of food i enjoy, cant i? just in smaller amounts?

ehhh i make no sense.... must be the meds :jump:
 
Thursday, 5/21/09

"on day"

really really need to shop, no fruits and veggies!

1000am - breakfast
4 oz strawberry light/fit yogurt
1 hard boiled egg white
1 L water

1245pm - lunch
grilled chicken breast sandwich
bean sprouts/artichoke
1 L water

315pm - snack
piece of cheese
1 L. water

630pm - 730pm, workout
5 mins warm up
40 mins ss treadmill 5.0-6.0 mph
full body stretch
1 L water

830pm, dinner
1/2 burger, no bun
plate of raw veggies
2 glasses water

1200am - bed
 
jmlls07 said:
hey, everyone is allowed a bitchfest - you are doing really well though... thats all i wanted to remind you of :grouphug:

chihuahuas are the best... would you carry him in your purse? :)

i had tilapia at chili's... the healthy portion menu. it was kind of salty and i think they cooked the veggies in butter even when i asked them not to, but it was still tasty nonetheless. if you cook yours and it turns out well, please share the recipe!
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I've been looking into different Chihuahua breeder's for the last 4 years. Almost got one a couple of years ago, and than decided I was still too ill for one, I wanted one for company. Since I was always home that would have been the best time, but now I am trying to organize my life where I can still have that Chi and it can come with me wherever I go. It may go in my purse. But I have seen some cute carrying cases, one that is just a harness, and you put the loop over your shoulder. I already have two Chi Purses. :p and they both don't shit everywhere :p or chew my things....I also have a Luv Bug Yellow Carrying Doggie Case too. See I was getting ready.

I am sorry to hear about your split. I agree it's better to get you 100% Healthy & Well, b4 venturing into a two way street. :iagree: I'll try to be around for support to the best of my ability though. Mostly on the weekends.

Tilapia: My mom told me to just fry it in a lil bit of Olive Oil, I use 1-2 Tsps, 3 Minutes on one side, and than 3 on the other, so that when you take a fork to the sides & gently pull, it comes away as flakey. It's pretty good, than I spritz on some Lemon Juice, and a bit of Italiano seasoning(whatever seasoning) Tastes almost like it was cooked in butter, it has a real creamy taste to it, I find. Not too fishy, yummy. ;) P.S. High-Medium to heat the Olive Oil and throw in the Tilapia, I cover it, but I am sure it doesn't need to be

Also I haven't looked this up cal wise, but I am a big fan of Whole Artichokes. Is that what you had with your eggplant and basil? Or was it just a dip with artichoke hearts?

Do you have family close by? For your Memorial day what about planning a day at the park for a hike and picnic? Bring a Frisbee, or something to play catch with, badminton? Go for a Bike ride and Picnic? Go to a flee Market? Farmer's Market?

:seeya:
 
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Friday, 5/22/09

"on day"

shopping tonight for lots of fruits and veggies!

900am - breakfast
1 slice whole wheat toast
natty pb
1 L water

1200pm - lunch
1 1/2 slices whole wheat white pizza w/chicken & broccoli
1 L water

230pm - snack
16 peanuts
1 L water

500pm - 700pm, workout
5 mins warm up
circuit training
35 mins HIIT treadmill 4.0-8.5 mph
full body stretch
1 L water

1000pm - no dinner :(
just some bread rolls
2 glasses water
1 dirty martini w/olives :eek:

200am - bed
 
UMMMM sooooooooooo.... its 1am and i HAD to write down all my guilty feelings or else i wont be able to sleep!!! :banghead:

this past memorial day weekend (and its not even memorial day yet!) my friends all piled into boston and kept me company.... because of that, i must have had a million drinks, and seventy eleventy thousand "goodies"... from a night on the town on friday... to another night on the town on saturday... to a baby shower on sunday, and a marathon cocktail pow-wow night with a friend who missed my whole splitting with the bf story.

and here i am, a million calories later, not even going to attempt to sugar coat all the crap i ate and when. but it goes all the way from pina coladas to choco cake, to ice cream to mozzarella sticks and fries.... a couple of healthy stuff along the way, but then pizza and more drinks......

yea.... YEA :banghead:

so tomorrow is Memorial Day, and a brand new start to a stricter, skinnier me. Mark my words. I am back on the ball tomorrow, from working out, to eating to having no more delays or excuses towards my goal.

and yes... this weekend truly was therapeutic in an attempt to get over all the "drama"... i needed it. but whats done is done, and now im ready to get back on track.

workout schedule for the week of 5/26:
mon - on day, cardio
tues - on day, circuit training, cardio
wed - off
thurs - on day, circuit training, cardio
friday - on day, cardio
sat - on day, cardio

tomorrow i will visit diaries and respond to posts, but til then, have a lovely night everyone! ......i know me and bloated belly sure will!
 
Awww *Hugzz*, I think I'm hot and delusional, so everyone should take advantage of my happiness. LOL

Lata
 
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aw, girl its ok. Some people are emotional eaters... you just happen to have a ton of good and not so good going on in your life right now. Small set back but nothing of substance. Just get back on the horse and you will be ok.... and you know what... its memorial day weekend for fart sake... your suppose to cheat a little bit :) you have like a whole month and a half till the next picnic holiday so just dont let yourself be a bad girl until 4th of july :) hehe.


you are doign well overall and you have a good plan in place. Keep your spirits up and your motivation high!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! :)

<3 Melissa :beating:
 
RunningGirl said:
I am sorry to hear about your split. I agree it's better to get you 100% Healthy & Well, b4 venturing into a two way street. :iagree: I'll try to be around for support to the best of my ability though. Mostly on the weekends.
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thank u... so far emotionally im doing ok because ive kept busy... and you guys have helped tons. :beating:

RunningGirl said:
Also I haven't looked this up cal wise, but I am a big fan of Whole Artichokes. Is that what you had with your eggplant and basil? Or was it just a dip with artichoke hearts?
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i eat the grilled chicken sammys with whole artichokes and then a couple of leaves of basil... with eggplant it is soooooooooooo good :piggy:

RunningGirl said:
Do you have family close by? For your Memorial day what about planning a day at the park for a hike and picnic? Bring a Frisbee, or something to play catch with, badminton? Go for a Bike ride and Picnic? Go to a flee Market? Farmer's Market?
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i dont have family close by, they are in ny... but yesterday i stayed in and did lots of laundry... then a friend took me out to dinner and movie... sadness set in, but i suppose it could have been worse. i was going to sit on the beach or at least run to the beach, but i got a flat tire and i took it as a sign to stick around my house. this upcoming weekend im trying to keep busy, too. this time i wont pig out! :piggy:

how was your memorial day??????
 
M_Marie said:
aw, girl its ok. Some people are emotional eaters... you just happen to have a ton of good and not so good going on in your life right now. Small set back but nothing of substance. Just get back on the horse and you will be ok.... and you know what... its memorial day weekend for fart sake... your suppose to cheat a little bit :) you have like a whole month and a half till the next picnic holiday so just dont let yourself be a bad girl until 4th of july :) hehe.


you are doign well overall and you have a good plan in place. Keep your spirits up and your motivation high!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! :)

<3 Melissa :beating:
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thank u thank u thank u.... except GEEZ i am BLOATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :piggy: yesterday at the gym i ran for a good 40 minutes and it helped some, i weighed myself and havent gained any weight or anything... but i feel it. i feel so gross. blegh :puke:

im actually glad to be back at work, because i find myself eating better when im here... probably because the food is limited to what i bring into the office?

ur the best, melissa.... hope u had a good weekend :seeya:
 
Monday, 5/25/09 - Memorial Day

"on day"

1130am - 1230pm, workout
40 mins ss cardio treadmill 5.0 mph
full body stretch
1 L water

130pm - lunch
roasted chicken
green beans
1 L water

400pm - snack
leftover roasted chicken
green beans
1 glass water

730pm - dinner (was out and didnt like my food :( )
couple nibbles of steak
couple nibbles of spinach
2 glasses water

1000p - snack
piece of cheese

100am - bed
 
Hey Josie, I'll be having a weekend like that one coming up in a couple more. We're getting together with a couple of friends, there will be alcohol a hot tub, more alcohol, food, (did I mention alcohol?) and probably things I shouldn't mention here (somwhere past R-rated) taking place so I hope to break even, a loss would be out of the question that week.

BTW, Tilapia (going back a couple of posts), is great on the grill also. I use "Old Bay" seasoning rubbed on each side, then lay the fillet right on the grill. I try to keep the heat low or even do it indirectly by using outside burners on a gas grill or arrange charcoal around the outside of a regular grill. Don't flip it, just let it cook through with the cover on. Goes really nice with long grain & wild rice and a southwestern garden salad with black beans and corn on it...:drool5::drool5:

Okay I better go ride my bike now...
 
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