AThe last two days of food have been really really really tough. How I haven't caved in, I don't know! All the time, my brain says to me in a jovial fashion "Oh, shall we get a chocolate bar?" (resisted) Or "there is an open packet of half eaten chocolate coins on the counter where you are stood in an unmoving queue, why don't you eat one. Oh, no, three, yep three should do it" (unresisted). My mind is thinking that eating badly is okay again, and it persuaded me to stand in front of a superposh bakery (I am talking £50 for a 15x10cm cake), and stare at the beautiful creations they were selling for 5 minutes. I found myself on an invisible conveyor belt heading towards the door for a "coffee", but I managed to step away. In the end.
Talking of superposh bakeries, I also drooled over lovely things at a superposh home shop, and I have completely fallen in love with a beautiful wallpaper, which I'm going to use in my dining room. All these superposh places were on the superposh street where I got my eyebags done again for free. And do you know what? They actually look better! You can still see them, but they are not as awful. The trouble is that i have eyebag shaped bruises on top of my skin so it looks even worse right now. Its really sore actually, it wasn't last time. I will stick some before and afters up once the bruises are gone, should be 7-10 days.
I have been going mental on ebay. I bought 5 pairs of size 10 and 12 jeans today, and two jumpers. So I can't not lose weight now. I only gained 2 pounds last week, not 4, I thought I weighed 2lbs less than I did last weigh day, but the August challenge corrected me! My grand total for last months weight loss was actually only 1.3 pounds, in a whole month!
However hard I am finding it right now, I am going to stick with it. I got easy to prepare meals this week, loads of different veggies, and my fridge is looking impressive. I chucked out so many ingredients I didn't use last week, and it felt so wasteful. This week, will be good. I am not going to use being unhappy as an excuse to sit and mope and eat rubbish. It will make me feel worse not better. I am so hungry and I think I'll explode if I eat any more fruit. Curses.
Yesterday
Errrrrm......
Fruit and fibre (small)
Three totally not stolen, definitely not, chocolate coins. That I didn't pilfer.
Apple
Large cappuccino
Indian basmati rice (with nutmeg Joh, and you were right about the yum-factor mmmmmm)
Errrr....I got pretty desperate here, with hunger, no food in the house
A romono red pepper.
About 5 sundried tomatoes on olive oil and herbs (so beautiful, I think I'm going to grow and make my own ones next summer)
Today
50g porridge with cinnamon and sultanas
two small breaded chicken breast thingies with basmati rice (the shopping still hadn't come at 6.30, so I had to make do with what I had)
3 plums, 3 satsumas, 3 kiwis, nectarine.
Think I'll go and have one egg on one toast, as I can bear the hunger any more.
TOMORROW I SHALL COUNT CALORIES!!!! Make sure I do girlies
