General hysterical diet related rambling: From Flab to Fab.

AJust dropping in to say hi and give ya a hug!! you write novels if you have to....its your diary and it is what helps you deal...we all need that in life!!! :) xoxox to you my friend!
 
AHeya girly
Stop apologising!!!!! We are here for you and we DO want to know how everything is going...I bet it helps you to rant and let off steam and that is what we are here for OK HUN!! :grouphug:

What you wrote about the start of a new book, a new story, a new beginning, that's the way girly. You deserve that snuggle on the sofa watching TV. Everyone does!!! You will get thru this and in a little while you will look back and see it wasn't so bad and that it has made you a stronger person.

You deserve to be loved hun, you are such a wonderfully beautiful person. And you will find love, you will!!

Loving you loads and just remeber you are always in our hearts and thoughts babe. Xxxx Ooh and i wont forget the squishies :grouphug:
 
AThank you.

I really do hate moaning so much though, I am being waaay too emotionally draining right now and I don't want to spread my stressy vibes around any more than I have to. So I'm going to think happy. And talk happy. And write happy :)
 
AThe last two days of food have been really really really tough. How I haven't caved in, I don't know! All the time, my brain says to me in a jovial fashion "Oh, shall we get a chocolate bar?" (resisted) Or "there is an open packet of half eaten chocolate coins on the counter where you are stood in an unmoving queue, why don't you eat one. Oh, no, three, yep three should do it" (unresisted). My mind is thinking that eating badly is okay again, and it persuaded me to stand in front of a superposh bakery (I am talking £50 for a 15x10cm cake), and stare at the beautiful creations they were selling for 5 minutes. I found myself on an invisible conveyor belt heading towards the door for a "coffee", but I managed to step away. In the end.

Talking of superposh bakeries, I also drooled over lovely things at a superposh home shop, and I have completely fallen in love with a beautiful wallpaper, which I'm going to use in my dining room. All these superposh places were on the superposh street where I got my eyebags done again for free. And do you know what? They actually look better! You can still see them, but they are not as awful. The trouble is that i have eyebag shaped bruises on top of my skin so it looks even worse right now. Its really sore actually, it wasn't last time. I will stick some before and afters up once the bruises are gone, should be 7-10 days.

I have been going mental on ebay. I bought 5 pairs of size 10 and 12 jeans today, and two jumpers. So I can't not lose weight now. I only gained 2 pounds last week, not 4, I thought I weighed 2lbs less than I did last weigh day, but the August challenge corrected me! My grand total for last months weight loss was actually only 1.3 pounds, in a whole month!

However hard I am finding it right now, I am going to stick with it. I got easy to prepare meals this week, loads of different veggies, and my fridge is looking impressive. I chucked out so many ingredients I didn't use last week, and it felt so wasteful. This week, will be good. I am not going to use being unhappy as an excuse to sit and mope and eat rubbish. It will make me feel worse not better. I am so hungry and I think I'll explode if I eat any more fruit. Curses.

Yesterday
Errrrrm......
Fruit and fibre (small)
Three totally not stolen, definitely not, chocolate coins. That I didn't pilfer.
Apple
Large cappuccino
Indian basmati rice (with nutmeg Joh, and you were right about the yum-factor mmmmmm)
Errrr....I got pretty desperate here, with hunger, no food in the house
A romono red pepper.
About 5 sundried tomatoes on olive oil and herbs (so beautiful, I think I'm going to grow and make my own ones next summer)

Today
50g porridge with cinnamon and sultanas
two small breaded chicken breast thingies with basmati rice (the shopping still hadn't come at 6.30, so I had to make do with what I had)
3 plums, 3 satsumas, 3 kiwis, nectarine.
Think I'll go and have one egg on one toast, as I can bear the hunger any more.

TOMORROW I SHALL COUNT CALORIES!!!! Make sure I do girlies :D
 
You thieving minx! Did you think that stolen food has no calories? I'm sorry to be the one to tell you- but that's a complete myth.(Just FYI- food eaten standing up isn't calorie-free either, contrary to popular belief.)

I can see we're going to have to be quite strict with you! You'd better be counting calories tomorrow, young lady- or I'll want to know the reason why. And it had all better be paid-for properly!


All kidding aside- I am SO proud of you! You are doing amazingly! And don't worry about venting on this forum. This is YOUR diary and you are the person in charge here. Rant away; if it makes you feel better.

I find that sometimes letting it all out makes me feel better and other times, I find it better just to concentrate on the positive thoughts. It kind of depends- and I think that's healthy. Nobody can keep all their pain inside and stay sane, but wallowing in all the bad stuff all the time just drags one down farther. So...IMHO you are keeping a good balance.
 
AHeya Girly.
Well done you on resisting most things :hurray: I am not too sure that Rox is right ya know, i have heard that if you pilfer it then it is calorie free!! I'm happy to believe it anyway :)

Yay!!!! Eye bag results, boo about the bruising but Yay :hurray: i am so chuffed for you and can't wait to see a pic (not that i thought you needed anything doing in the first place, mind you!)

Hope all is well with you cupcake (whoops maybe i shouldn't mention cupcakes lol) Big squishies
Xx
 
AHere I am, a little light relief for you:

I LOVE that you 'totally definitely did not' steal chocolate money. I find this hilarious to a degree beyond the ridiculous. True story.
And "3 plums, 3 satsumas, 3 kiwis, nectarine" - the thunder box must be your best friend! ;)

On a more serious note:
You are surviving this, lovely. And you are being so strong for yourself and for your bubbas. I was cuddling with Dunc last night and it made me feel so sad for you that you (and Rox too) don't have this. Actually so sad that I shed a little tear (my man thought I was crazy, but he knows how lucky we are too). You can find it, and it's worth it. Really, YOU CAN HAVE THIS TOO. Well... as long as you stop stealing and aren't on the shitter for 50% of the day... (nearly deleted that, but that's what you'd write on my diary, so it's staying. ;) )

xx you know it. x
 
ATeeheehee! I just could help myself. And they were only tiny! And they were open and abandoned! I have semi counted calories today Rox :) Thank you for the scary words! And thank you for your lovely ones :grouphug:


Don't tell me that stolen food is calorie free, you'll make me go and shop lift. A whole shop will be lifted, lierally, and placed in my back garden. I also heard that if you throw food up in the air before eating it, the calories will carry on rising after the food has stopped moving. It works particularly well with cheese, as the holes let the calories escape more quickly :)

Yep, I am so chuffed about thye eyebags! She couldn't do the cm or so closest to my eye as it's too near the orbital rim, but, specially on my right eyebag, it almost completely dissapears. It looks loads better :D YAY!!! I keep on looking in the mirror and pulling the skin down so the bruise isn't on top of my eyebag. I WISH it could last forever! (Not the bruise)

Resisting most things.... hmmm.... foodwise I have been doing that okay, but boyfriend wise, I haven't :gnorsi: I just miss him so much (whywhywhy?). He's out there somewhere and I don't know where he is, and I just feel lonley. Its really hard when the whole reason I am feeling this way is because he isn't affectionate or loving, but now he is being both of those things. Its what I have been craving and longing for so much, and its so hard to not give in too. I also wanted him to get a proper career and he has been accepted on a plumbing course starting next week.... He's taking the kids to the zoo tomorrow and has said I can come, as I said we don't do anything as a family. He said he will organise family counselling as well. I just know it won't last though. Hmmmm.

This was my dinner tonight, I ate loads more tho because Lily didn't eat hers :eek: It's so yummy...

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Food
50g porridge with mashed banana 382
Peach 66
Mexican hash 674
3 plums 90
4 coffees 100
=1313

Exercise
Forty minutes walking.
Will start exercising again tomorrow morning, so I don't totally embarrass myself when I join the gym.
 
First of all- that dinner looks yummy and your calories are excellent! Good job!

And well done on the walking. I find that it really clears my head. That said, nothing replaces the gym, IMHO. In June and July I was only walking for exercise and I lost so much tone. But since August 13, I've been working out hard six days a week and I'm really seeing a big difference now. So, get to the gym and don't even bother your head with embarrassment!!


Secondly- people like you, Kate and Decisionmaker are why I love this site. So funny, nice and supportive, even through the worst of times. You guys crack me up!


As for your bf's "reform"....I know it's so hard, but your attitude is spot-on. He's just doing this nice act to lull you back into a state of calm. And then the nightmare will start again. I really think that the drug use is a red flag indicating this he not going to get back on track in any permanent way.

I'm proud of you that you are so straight in your head and ready to protect yourself and your babies.

You are a really strong (and eyebag-free!!! Yay!) woman.



(BTW- Like you, I MUST have my coffee every day...at LEAST four, with skim milk and a dash of vanilla extract. NOM!)
 
i've caught up with your diary but haven't got anything worthwhile to say. It must be the new buddhist me. But probably not.


hugs :seeya:
 
Oh my lord Ruth, i feel so bad, ive been so busy the last week that i havent posted in your diary. Please forgive me ,i know you will because you are one of the sweetest people on this forum:)


I cant believe you were gonna quit, as you can see you have SO MANY supporters on here. I would hate coming on here not reading your positive messages on other peoples forums. Jasper is right, your children are going to be so so proud of you when they grow up. You are such a strong woman Ruth, such an inspiration to us all. I hope you honestly know that. AND I FORGOT TO MENTION HILARIOUS. I love your witty posts. You have a way with words, you really do;)


You deserve some one to cuddle you to death lovely, i wish we could go for lunch and have a proper chat to cheer you up!! You have helped me so much with you advice Ruth, so you have to remember that you are an important person that deserves so much more love that what you are getting at the moment.


If you need anyone im here, lloads of cuddles from ireland beautiful!!


xoxox
 
AWalking's better than nothing Rox, but I'm glad your seeing results at the gym!

I'm glad there is a fellow coffee addict on here (Amy is as well), I don't feel so bad... Everyone else is so great at drinking water. I only have 4 coffees max with milk, but I drink it black and unsweetened after to save on calories. I shall try putting vanilla in it as well. Could also try almond essence. I never thought of thought of that... I always get syrup shots in my cappuccino, It didn't occur to me that I could add flavour without the sugar.

I have decided to stay with Nick for the meanwhile. I am so embarrassed baring my soul and feelings about him, getting so much support from you lot, then deciding to give him another chance. I am thinking that it doesn't matter if he doesn't love me the way he should do. We work well as a family.... And I think I'd feel a lot worse on my own.

Thanks princess :hugs: I have been really bad with your diary as well, everyone's in fact! So don't apologise!!!! Need to go and see how your getting on in your job hunt :)

Me and the kids aren't well today- nothing awful, just feel sick and are aa bit hot and clammy and lethargic, its so much effort doing anything I feel like I weigh 50 stone. He has been taking care of us, and I slept in the afternoon. Then in the evening after the kids were in bed he had a surprise for me... He filled the whole bedroom with tea light candles (more than 100, over the floor and surfaces), and roses as well, and a glass of wine and some strawberries. He had bought me some nice bubble bath and some nice massage lotion. It was so sweet, and I was quite overwhelmed. He gave me a really long nice massage, and we had sex :D I wish we didn't have the viagra issue, but still.

Nick cooked dinner tonight....

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I woke up an exercised like I said I would. Felt awful though. My calories are low :), and 282 of them was drink! I haven't felt hungry. Maybe its because I don't feel 100%, but I'm not moaning. Goodbye, appetite!

Jeeesus, its twenty to two. Shouldn't have slept this afternoon. I am tired, so I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow xxx

Food
Tracker bar 125
Carrot and coriander soup with little bit of ciabbata 205
Prawn stir fry 425
Strawberries and wine 227
4 coffees 100
=1142

Exercise
12 minutes trampoline.
100 situps.
 
AHope you feel better Rainbow :) :hug2:

You and these pictures of yummys..I may have to boycott your page!! lol...I am sitting here at almost 10pm and was not hungry until now!! lol.

...and as far as your relationship ... that's exactly what it is..YOURS!! Only you live it and understand it!! But we will be here for as many shoulders you may need for as many times!!

and 100 sits..well done :hurray: ..I can't do 10!! lol
 
AThe food looks so yummy!! I absolutely love shrimps! I will try to do something like that today for sure! :D

And what about your relationship.. Like tetemcg already said, IT IS YOURS and your business. We're here to support you whatever you decide to do. Relationships arent easy because there is always so strong emotions involved. All we want is you to be happy and loved.

xoxo
 
AHeya girly

Like Tete said hun...It is your life. You do what you feel is right. Just make sure he remembers to carry on being nice :) I know we all say people can't change but maybe, form the state he got himslef into, maybe he has realised that he HAS to do something now or that will be it. You are a beautiful, strong woman and you hve a new found 'skinny persons confidence' Maybe he has learnt that you are not gonna take his shit anymore and he will actually improve. You keep him in line sweetie!!!!!

Anyway, 100 sit ups......I'm still stuck at 60 but hey, i do them everyday now. I will try and reach your amazing level :)

Love and squishies. Xxxx
 
I'm SO glad you're getting some pampering and sexytimes. You deserve some fun and tenderness, Lovely Ruthie!


And ITA with everyone that has posted before me- you take this at your own pace. Whether you stay or go is a super-complicated issue that only you can decide on.

Just know that your forum friends will support you all the way, whatever you do!


BTW- don't forget that I want that photo you promised ;)
 
Hey gorgeous girlie,


I wont comment on you and the manface trying to make a fresh start of it as I've already said my piece on how I feel about how he's treated you but I just wanted to let you know that all of your friends here support and care about you and that, if he decides to be a prick again, you can rant here without feeling embarrassed like you said in your last post. We just want you to be happy and I hope that he's changing for the better xxxx
 
AThanks everyone :)

Tete Yep, I did 100 sit-ups, but I think I over exerted myself, as my tummy is sooooo sore today. I think I'll have to gradually build them up again. Damn me and my stupid exercise laziness :)

Eerika Sir fries are so filling, and super low in calories. I love them with mange tout and baby corn, nomnomnom.

Kate Think your right about the skinny(er) persons confidence. See below....

Rox Guess you've seen it by now eeek. :D

Hana Thanks :)

Well, my inhibitions seem to have disappeared since yesterday afternoon thanks to someone on here lol, and I no longer feel shy about putting up the monkini photos! I also thought that I haven't seen all my progress pics side by side yet, and itd be nice to compare them.

Wish I'd taken more of my sides and behind, but never mind. The last pics are today, and I've lost 7lbs, and an inch since the previous ones.

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And here's the lovely stew I had tonight...

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Food
Porridge with banana 319
2 slices of multigrain toast and spread360
Chicken stew (dumplings were a whopping 415 cals- but SO worth it!) 598
2 kiwis 92
3 coffees 75
=1444

Exercise
5 minutes trampoline. But, something.


EDIT----- Did have a late night bowl of cereal. In my defence I thought there was some leftover stew. But there wasn't.
 
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