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AHeya :)

I am slowly making my way thru your diary, i'm up to 11/9/11 and wanted to say....

OMG we have a shared obsession with running and Ben&Jerry's.....My fav is Phish food though.

I will comment properly when i have caught up :) It's a great read. You are very honest with what you write and i love that in people.

Xx
 
Originally Posted by Daybehavior

Hey there frogged. Just been catching up on your journal and you've been through a lot of exciting things recently! Particularly with the trip to NY (awesome pics, esp the macaroni LOL), career plans and the new romance :biggrin: I'm really glad you're becoming more confident in yourself. If I were half as handsome as you, my self esteem would go up exponentially :p Obviously, I only know you from the forums, but you seem like a genuinely nice person and definitely deserve whatever happiness is coming your way. Keep on rockin' Iron Greg
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Wow! Day! Where have you been, man? :biggrin:


Good to see you posting again! I hope everything is going well for you in life!


Yeah, the NY trip was out of this world! I just wish it wasn't so cold when I went. I'm gonna have to make sure to go again when it's a bit warmer, hehe


I'm becoming more confident, but of course, some weeks are way tougher than others. There are some weeks when I feel like complete crap and don't want anything to do with anything. I'll also look in the mirror and just feel so awful about how my body isn't bouncing back the way I thought it would. There's a lot of personal issues still left to sort through after all this weight loss, but I think it's only going to make me stronger and better in the end, so I endure and just keep going forward (as I make sure to tell everyone to do!)


I will keep rockin'! I hope you do the same as well, Day! :biggrin: It was great to hear from ya again!




Originally Posted by Crymlyn


When are you thinking about starting your gym membership? And yeah, I can imagine you're feeling exhausted and frustrated.. but you've battled through this before, and you can do it again - nothing you don't already know, but ye! Just give yourself a bit of a break.. continue eating properly/healthy, but don't pound your heart out so much on the treadmill - maybe swap it up and try strength training or something instead, if you REALLY feel the need to exercise.. try some different muscle groups and see where that takes you? Just a thought! Hang in there!
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Yep! I have a gym in mind, Crym It's just a matter of getting my rumpus up there sometime and speaking with the owners of the establishment! I hope to start it asap - my roommate is also thinking of joining that same gym, so maybe we'll make a day out of it and go check it out when he's a bit more settled in his new job. He just started a new one this week, so we'll see how his schedule works out. I still have issues with some of the damage with my house, some new tax forms that came in the mail recently, another possible trip to NY, and (of course) the dealings with the possible over-training in my regimen. I'm doing a slight juggling act atm, but I hope not to fumble anything and get it all secured before my birthday in March


I am recalibrating myself this week, so increased strength training is something I'm going to be focusing on to see if it helps at all. My plan is to do cardio (treadmill) Mon/Wed/Fri and maybe taking the whole weekend off from it. Then, doing more intense strength training with my kettle bell Tues/Thurs/Sat. We'll see how this works, because I definitely need a bit more rest from constant running.


As always, I'll do my best with everything and I know everything will work out in the end - it's just a matter of how long it'll take to balance out!



Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya
I am slowly making my way thru your diary, i'm up to 11/9/11 and wanted to say....
OMG we have a shared obsession with running and Ben&Jerry's.....My fav is Phish food though.
I will comment properly when i have caught up It's a great read. You are very honest with what you write and i love that in people.
Xx
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Hi Kate!


Yeah, I've been reading over your diary as well! I have quite a few that I keep track on, and some days it can be a little tricky responding to them all with comments that I'm happy with! Sometimes, other forum members will respond with my sentiments exactly! So I'll just post a little ':iagree:' emoticon, lol :p


I really do appreciate you taking the time to look over my little journal here though, hehe All I can hope for is that it helps others be just as successful in the end!


Ben & Jerry's.. yes. One of my biggest weaknesses is definitely sweets, of any kind! Cookies, ice cream, etc.. I love it all!


Being honest with your posts is so important because not only does it help vent your frustrations, but it also helps you relate to others because we're all only human. We all have good days and bad. I've lost a lot of weight, but I struggle more often than not. I like admitting that because it shows that you can be successful even if it seems impossible sometimes.


Of course, there are some days when I feel like complete crap and just don't feel like posting. Usually I'll follow up on that feeling a day or so later when I'm feeling better and post why I've been absent. Fortunately, that doesn't happen too often, but that's what these forums are all about - to get your feelings of success and discouragement out there so others can relate and help you cope.


At any rate, thank you all for the kind comments! I can't say for sure how the scale will be this week as I'm taking more rest than usual, so if it's up, I'm not going to panic or anything. I know my body needs time to recover and I'm going to be drinking a LOT of water in the meantime to try and flush out the junk I ate this passed Sunday (which included some Ben & Jerry's!), hehe :biggrin:
 
AHeya Greg :)

I totally know what you mean about struggling to say something constructive on people's diaries and like you i keep track of lots, it takes up way too much of my time lol it stops me permantly checking out what food i can eat though, so it's all good. One thing this forum has shown me is that i am not as much of a freak as i thought, i was amazed that pretty much everyone has the same issues and insecurites as i have. And seeing people like you making such a massive difference to your life (as well as your size) makes me think that i can do the same :) Also the support and genuine friendships on here just keep me going, I have very little self worth but i hate to let my friends on here down which really helps with my motivation. I have yo-yo dieted my whole life and this is the first time that i have stuck to it for more than a few weeks. I am totally blown away with your dedication, sticking to this for 2 years is such an awesome acheivement. Very impressive :hurray: Sorry, i am rambling lol, i do that :)

I said that i would post when i had read the rest of your diary but i couldn't resist writing to your reply to my post. I will read some more later, i have a feeling that there is a lot to catch up on.
I was totally shocked to see what you do on a sunday, well, i was more shocked that you can get back on track straight away afterwards!!! Again, impressive. I do love B&J's but i think i have only had some twice since i started my diary back at the beginning of July. I really don't think i could trust myself to do what you do on a sunday. My weigh day is sunday so i do tend to have a treat of some sort but not much.

You are so right about being honest being the key to actually succeeding, I think that's why my diary has been so helpful, i do get to whinge and be grumpy on a super shitty day but i also get to be childishly excited when things are going great.

I have posted on my diary every single day since i started. I am pretty embarassed at how low and pathetic i am one day and then completely the opposite the following day but what ever i'm feeling or have been doing, i write about it, good or bad.....It's great therapy, sometimes i forget that other people will read it. (like this, i am just writing utter rubbish probably but i do that :) )

I have seen in the last few posts that you are going to join a gym and cut down the amount you run. I think that's a great idea. I am totally hooked on running and would run every day if i could but apparantly you are supose to rest the following day and my fella (Mark) makes sure i do. I go to the gym on mon/wed/fri where i run and do weights (weights are great at helping firm up loose skin, i read you are really concious of loose skin...DITTO!!!) I have found doing crunches every day made a massive difference to my tummy and at the gym they have told me what machines to use to help other areas that i want to target. My favourite day is sunday, i go and run along the disused railway line at the top of my road, it is beautiful (i have photo's on my diary) and is so much better than running at the gym. I run 7 miles straight on a sunday morning and i bloody love it.

I hope your week goes well and you manage to get rid of the B&J damage :)
 
Hey Kate :)


I appreciate the post! And no, you were not rambling at all! It's funny, because there's another Kate in my life that also apologizes for rambling sometimes, even though neither of you are! :) hehe


Anyway, I'd post more, but I'm honestly feeling like complete crap right now. Had a bad, bad day today in terms of food. I took a rest day from my usual routine on the treadmill as I wanted to give my body some rest. My plan was to restrict my calories to make up for it, but unfortunately some sour feelings in the day overcame my initial plans and, inevitably, I took a break from my diet as well! I ate cheeses I shouldn't have. I ate cereal I shouldn't have. I had chips.. sauces.. I even think an cream cookie snuck it's way in there at some point.. blegh!


So I was already up about ~10lb of retention from Sunday's usual fiasco, but thanks to this slight binge today, I have no doubt I'll be hovering dangerously close to the 200's again. Good grief.


Sometimes I wonder where the hell my willpower goes some days :\ It's like it packed a suitcase, threw on a fedora, and took a mini-vacation for a couple of hours.


At any rate, this kind of thing has happened before (and will again), so as crappy as I feel now, my focus is not one bit deterred. I'll be back on track tomorrow and this nonsense will be a thing of the past in no time :)
 
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Sometimes I wonder where the hell my willpower goes some days :\ It's like it packed a suitcase, threw on a fedora, and took a mini-vacation for a couple of hours.
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LOL! Yeah I know what you mean. Except mine goes on an extended cruise in the Mediterranean for weeks at a time. I bet we'll hear from you soon again though :)
 
I'm alive! I'm alive! hehe :biggrin:


This week, I'm taking Tues/Thurs off from any kind of exercise to give my body rest time. I was going to do strength training, but I figure just take those days and do nothing at all. Well, it's going good and bad. Good in the sense that when I did my usual routine on Wednesday, I felt more energetic than I usually do while exercising. Bad in the fact that it can get very boring at times when I'm not planning and prepping for my next exercise routine. Erm.


So I've been playing a lot of Skyrim lately, and really going at it hard with these last 2 days off! heh :p I've got a lvl 7 (not impressive, I'm sure), but I'm kicking some Bandit ass and stocking up on all kinds of misc junk that I'm sure I'll never need. I keep having to throw away shovels and random bowls that I keep picking up so I don't become over-encumbered :p lol


Unfortunately, my diet on Tues and today wasn't stellar. I had probably more calories than I should have, but thankfully tomorrow is Friday and I'll be belting out a few miles on the treadmill. I've been thinking that, eventually, I'll work myself into a routine where I do about ~5 miles each day Mon-Fri, and take the entire weekend off. It's just a matter of how long it'll take to adjust my body into a phase where I can still lose successfully with that routine. Right now, I have to almost kill myself 7 days a week just to manage any kind of loss on the scale :\


I'll most likely see a gain this week, but I know most of it is water weight. Fortunately, this is good practice for when I eventually reach maintenance mode. I just have to discover the balance my body needs in terms of calories and exercise to sustain my weight and not continue to gain/lose.


I hope I didn't worry any of my forum friends! hehe
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I am here and I always have my eye on the prize! I just have my off moments, as we all do, and Skyrim is sinking it's claws into me pretty big as of late :biggrin: hehe
 
AI want Skyrim. Badly. When I actually have time to play my Xbox, I'm playing Assassin's Creed. That game has my heart. There's nothing like soaring down a zipline, onto a rooftop just to stab a guard.
 
Awful, awful, awful week so far. Terrible :\


I feel like crap. I ate like crap. I drank and did stupid things (within the law), and I just don't really feel good.


blegh :(


No more drinking.
 
AHey Greg :)

Sorry to hear you are having a shitty time of it right now :( I'm sending you some positive motivational vibes you way :) It's awesome that you are taking it in your stride though and that you know you will still carry on! I on the other hand totally panic that its all over and i'm gonna go straight back to 'the old me' when i have a day like that. Luckly it scares me that much that i just don't it very often.
Mark (my other half) has 'Skyrim' and he is at this very moment screaming at the TV!!!! He is totally addicted to it, he pretty much spent all of last weekend playing it and has been sat on it for about 4 hours so far this evening. He is level 19 and is getting his butt whooped by 2 dragons lol, he's not a happy bunny lol
I am on about page 9 of your diary so far and i got to the cartoon that Rosie posted on there about 'broom hoarding!' That is just so correct lol it really made me laugh. I showed Mark and he really laughed too and said that it was so true. He said i should put a link to this comedian we saw on TV the other night, he thought you would find it funny (i have never tried this before and seeing as i am rather ditsy and stupid, do expect it to work but here goes)

http://youtu.be/dvfZ2kkSSX4

He is an Irish comedian. I was actually crying with laughter when i watched this :)

Have fun with 'Skyrim' and shouting at the TV lol. Hopefully you will be back on track and in a better headspace soon mate :grouphug:

Xx
 
haha, thanks for that link and the kind words, Kate :)


Yeah, just a really tough week..


I just have to hope it gets better :( Tonight I'm going to a birthday party with some family, then tomorrow, a Superbowl party with some friends.


Hrmmm..
 
I know what its like to have a week like that!! Cheer up frogged!! Your one of the most influential people on here!!:) loads of positive vibes strong guy!!:)
 
Thanks Irish :)


You as well! There are so many awesome people here that you can't help but smile when they offer advice and support, so thanks for stopping by :)


I'm gonna do my best at the parties this weekend, but damn if I'm not up in the mid 180's as I type this. This water weight sure is a bear :\
 
Wow, lvl 48, Crym? That's some devotion! I thought I was doing well at lvl 7 :p haha


Um, yeah, this week feels 'off'. Not sure why, but it seems like a few people are kind of in a little bit of a fog.


Definitely not feeling in a party mood today. I'm not sure if I'll go since I hear the game could last until midnight. I have be up for work at 6am tomorrow, plus I don't really feel like drinking right now. I'm sure there will be tons of alcohol and junk food there.


I put on about 8lb of mostly water weight this week. Tough to see numbers like that in red on my chart, but I'm just going to deal with it and move forward like I've done in the past. The only solace I have during these brief moments of struggle is the fact that I'm able to show and help others in the same situation that you can pull through and be successful as long as you stay determined and don't give up. I won't give up, no matter how bad I feel. I made a promise to myself, my mother, and many others.


I didn't bring this up earlier as I was trying to stay uplifting, but last Sunday on Jan 29 was the anniversary of my mother's death. She would've been 48 this June.


It's so weird to think that it's been 14 years now since she passed. I still remember details of that day so vividly and it sometimes feels like it happened just yesterday.


Yeah, maybe that's part of the reason why I've been in a bit of a slump. This time of year is never particularly easy for my family, but we're a pretty strong bunch in the end :)


I'm not even feeling hungry today. Maybe next week will start out better than the last couple have :)
 
ACrym is right.... she would be so incredibly proud of you. I know the anniversary thing is a hard. My dad's is in April, and I dread it every year. It'll be 11 years this year, and I remember his last few days with crystal clarity. Which I think is somewhere between a blessing and a curse. I just wanted to give you ((hugs)). I, and everyone on this forum, knows how strong you are. You'll be back on track and kicking butt before you know it. :)
 
A:iagree: :iagree: :iagree: Crymlyn Just said it perfectly.

I just wanted to add a huge great big squishy hug (hope that's not too forward as i haven't known you for long:) ) :grouphug:
One of my best friends lost his mum young too after a long ilness and i know how he struggles from time to time, just wanted you to know that i'm thinking of you mate. Xx
 
You all make me slightly teary eyed with your wonderful comments :) I wish I could find the right words to convey how much I appreciate it. As they say though, actions speak louder than words, so I'll guarantee everyone here that I will hit my goals before this year is out! Pics will be a flowin' soon :D


It really is a gift to have so many lovely people out there who offer such unconditional support and kindness! I was/am still feeling really down today. I'm going to the party later, so hopefully I'm not too much of a buzzkill. I may have some alcohol just so people don't think they need to put me on suicide watch or something, lol. Not that I EVER would. But sometimes when you're in a weird funk, sometimes you don't even realize how upset you appear to other people.


For example, I was just standing around in my kitchen earlier staring off and my roommate came out and was like 'Please don't kill yourself in here. Do it outside so there's no mess for me to clean up.'


lol. First of all, in order to understand how non-malicious that comment really was, you have to know my roommate's personality. Big, italian guy that I grew up with and his method of easing tense situations is to make really inappropriate jokes and/or comments. Of course he doesn't mean it :)


Anyway, I was really just standing there trying to process some thoughts, unaware of how distraught I looked. Hmmm. I really didn't feel too awful at that point either. Maybe I should get a haircut so I don't look so 'zany' sometimes.. it's starting to get pretty long again :)


Next week, I'm going to start that new routine of doing 5 miles Mon-Fri, and taking Sat/Sun off. I'll also be increasing my calorie and introducing more substantial meals (chicken burgers, veggies). I'll still be eating every 2 hours, but I'm thinking of doing something like this:


Breakfast: Cereal

2 hours: Nature valley bar

2 hours: Lean Cuisine/Burger

2 hours: Nature valley bar

2 hours: Lean Cuisine/Burger


Then maybe finish the night with a small bowl of cereal or another bar. I'll have the bars in between my bigger meals, rather than using the bar as an entire meal replacement.


Hopefully that brings my body up to a healthy equilibrium. Not sure if I'll see any positive results once I start, or if it'll take a couple weeks. I'm going to keep my calories around 2200-2400 with the 2.5 mile sessons 2x a day.
 
AYou are too hardbound yourself! You have achieved something so big. After losing all of that weight, you have to figure out what to do next. Don't try to top yourself. If your written yo-yo's a little, it's okay. I know it's super frustrating, but look what you have already accomplished! You know that you will never be that weight again, nor will you let yourself come close to being that weight. That's what really matters. :)
I've been thinking about my mom a lot lately. She died in 2004, the day after my birthday. My dad is such a sleaze, that he wouldn't allow us to have a memorial service for her. So, I've decided to start organizing one for 2014. I know it's a long way off, but it will give people time to clear their calendars. She had so many people who loved her. So, yeah....I understand the weirdness of it all. I know that sometimes, whenever something really great happens, I think about calling her. It seems so surreal that she's just not here anymore. I still remember her laugh...or the sigh she would give me when I would pull a prank on her. Haha. There are no profound d words of wisdom I can share. Nothing will take away the hurt. I just find that talking to people about her helps. I still miss her like crazy, and always will.
Ha...rambly Robyn. :p

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Originally Posted by imaninjadangit

You are too hardbound yourself! You have achieved something so big. After losing all of that weight, you have to figure out what to do next. Don't try to top yourself. If your written yo-yo's a little, it's okay. I know it's super frustrating, but look what you have already accomplished! You know that you will never be that weight again, nor will you let yourself come close to being that weight. That's what really matters.
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I've been thinking about my mom a lot lately. She died in 2004, the day after my birthday. My dad is such a sleaze, that he wouldn't allow us to have a memorial service for her. So, I've decided to start organizing one for 2014. I know it's a long way off, but it will give people time to clear their calendars. She had so many people who loved her. So, yeah....I understand the weirdness of it all. I know that sometimes, whenever something really great happens, I think about calling her. It seems so surreal that she's just not here anymore. I still remember her laugh...or the sigh she would give me when I would pull a prank on her. Haha. There are no profound d words of wisdom I can share. Nothing will take away the hurt. I just find that talking to people about her helps. I still miss her like crazy, and always will.
Ha...rambly Robyn. :p
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I know, Robyn :(


It's been a habit of mine since I can remember. I'm really tough on myself more often than not.


I'm so sorry about your loss :( Right after your birthday? :( Wow. I can't imagine how difficult that year must have been for you. I can relate in how it feels to lose someone you love and care for though. Losing a parent is never easy, but at such a young age.. yeah. It's an impossible situation to really process. You just have to cope the best you can and hope that everything will turn out for the best.


I'm noticing a slight relationship between the loss of a significant family member and weight gain on this forum. Depression definitely plays a key role in weight gain, and losing someone you love is the ultimate when it comes to igniting those feelings of despair and sadness. However, I'm grateful that we were all able to connect to each other, share those experiences, and offer strength and support that will inevitably lead us all into happier times in our lives :)


Everything happens for a reason.


I miss my mother too. Sometimes I have dreams where we talk about the everyday things in life. Not necessarily about recent things, like my weight loss, but more about what happened in my child hood. If only I could be given just a few minutes to talk to her now about how my life is.. I'd give anything.


But, I have an idea of what she would say. Through the responses of this forum from my wonderful friends, maybe in a way, that's how she's responding. Seeing all your wonderful responses and comments about my success so far. It really touches me deeper than you all may realize.


Thanks again, everyone. I'm doing better now emotionally, but my number on the scale isn't anything worth reporting. It's still up a bit, but I know it'll come down in time :)



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*hard on...not hardbound. Love my cell. LOVE IT. >.<
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hehe, Robyn :p No worries!
 
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