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Oh jeez, totally have tears in my eyes now! ;)


It's strange how significant dates like that can kind of loom in the back of our minds like that, I always find myself in a general funk around anniversaries of a loss, it's like somewhere back there you just know and you feel it all over again. I can't imagine having lost a parent at such a young age. My dad wasn't exactly involved in my life and my mom had to work all of the time to provide for us, so I ended up spending everyday with my grandparents and they played a huge role in my life, I watched both of them deal with cancer and, just like you said, I can remember every detail. I'm grateful for it though, because I can hear their voices perfectly, and if I close my eyes it's like they are still able to talk to me :)


I don't think I can really say anything more than all of the wonderful (and true!) things that everyone else said, but the person that you are is obviously a testament to what an incredible person your mom must have been. You really are pretty amazing, and that's not a term I throw around too often! ;) I know you'll get through this slump and then you can add making it to your goal weight to your super long ass list of reasons that your mom would be proud of you :)


So I'm going to get all hypocritical right now and encourage you do what I'm absolutely terrible at, talk about sad stuff in your diary! I think weight loss is so inextricably tied into our emotional health, so use this forum to get it all out! The good and the bad! We're here for you :)
 
Hi Rosie!!


I'm sorry if I brought up any painful memories from your own past experiences :( I'm sorry about your grandparents, Rosie. I always get upset when I read about others having to deal with the loss of loved ones due to cancer. It's just such a helpless feeling :( Maybe that's why I'm somewhat hesitant to bring up the more difficult moments of my own. I just don't want to upset or bring anyone down :( I want this journey of change to be one encompassing the more positive aspects of life, even if some of the motivation comes from a more tragic timeline.


I am starting to push through it. My new routine seems to be holding fast, even if I'm still dancing in the 190s. I'm still just trying to figure out a good balance. It'll come in time :)


I'd type more, but I'm just feeling so tired right now. I just wanted to hop on (pun intended) and thank you for the always lovely comments, Rosie :) I hope you have a good night and you're feeling much better from your stomach flu!
 
No, don't apologize! :) Anyway, just because those memories are from a difficult time, it doesn't mean they're all bad, and it's nice to reflect on the good parts. I was glad that you shared, especially if it's something that has been sitting on your mind or holding you back in any way. It's funny because when I didn't feel like posting I told Kate almost the exact thing that you just wrote about not wanting to talk about bad things or bring anyone down, so I'll tell you what she told me: it's your bloody diary! ;) But really, life is not a constant onslaught of sunshine and rainbows and so sometimes you have to write about the harder times. And, let's be honest, for most people, there are unhappy events that stood as the starting point of our weight gain, so working through those events is key to being able to take that weight off

. This is your tool to get it out and help yourself, and we're here to listen and try to help if we can. And maybe someone is reading your diary and they're going through the exact same thing and reading what you wrote helped them, did ya think about that? Huh, huh? ;)


Actually, what you wrote about wanting to talk to your mom again really kind of re-ignited a fire under me. I was thinking about what my grandma would say to me if she saw me wavering all over my weight loss like this and I imagine she would give me a stern look and say, "Rosemary, stop making excuses and get it together!!" and she would, she was a no muss no fuss type of woman and I can hear it now. I went to bed with that thought last night and I've felt the dedication return today... so see, you never know how what you say can help someone else :)


People read you diary, good or bad, because they want you to succeed, so just let all out, Greg!! ;)
 
You're so right, Rosie :)


There are good times to cherish. The thought of my mother is always on my mind. It's what compels me so much and, at the same time, causes the most grief when I fall short of accomplishing a mini goal or a successful week of weight loss. I know my mother wouldn't want me to think that I've failed her in anyway if I have a bad week, but as I've said before, I'm tough on myself more than anything. I mean to the point of almost conjuring past moments when I was bullied by idiots and directing them again to myself.. only it's me this time saying those things, not them. If that makes sense?


It's a blessing and a curse. A blessing in the fact that I'm always on my toes because I want to avoid that kind of nonsense, but a curse in the fact that when I fall short, it's a rather dark period. I can rely on family and new friends now to help me pull through, and fortunately these times haven't occurred too often in my regimen, but when they do, it's difficult. Very difficult.


blegh. Ok, well, I'm in a bit of a plateau here. I weighed myself this morning and saw the same number I saw on Wednesday - 192.4. So, I'm still holding on to a LOT of water weight, which isn't coming off as quickly as usual because I've been introducing a more substantial diet into my regimen. I had my usual cereal this morning, along with a bar 2 hours later, but then I had a lean cuisine (230 cal), followed by a chicken burger (~400 cal) with some veggies (~175 cal) and some 1% cottage cheese (not low fat, which was about ~240 cal). I then had 3 'WhoNu?' cookies (they're like oreos, only with a lot more nutrition) for about 150 cal later along with some Vitamin D milk, which was probably another 200 cal worth.


Probably close to 2500 cal for the day, and I did my usual 5 miles in roughly an hour on the treadmill.


That's been my usual routine this entire week, and the water weight is just not coming off as fast as usual. I may see another gain next week, but I'm steadfast on resolving this issue of over-training and getting my body back in a more healthier routine. Substituting entire meals with cereal bars is just not good for losing or maintenance. I know that, and should've known that for all the weeks/months I was doing it. That alone irritates me because I knew better! And yet, I still did it because I was so obsessive each week with seeing a good number on the scale :(


Ok, well enough ranting. Even if I see a new 'first' this week in the form of 2 consecutive weeks where I've gained weight on my chart, it will not tarnish my overall resolve to reach my goals this year.


Thanks again for your wonderful support everyone :)


I'm so glad you were reignited again, Rosie! I know you will accomplish amazingly great things - even more so than you already have! You're such a strong, wonderful person and I only see incredible things in your future! =)
 
Originally Posted by Sarah1983


On the 'overindulgence' thing..







Oh yeah, PS: Your jeep leaks WAYYY too much coolant!
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lol! :biggrin:


That picture is great! And yes, my jeeps always keep me on my toes :)


Well I gained a little more again this week, but I kind of expected that. I'm still sticking to my 5 & 5 routine (5 miles, 5 days a week) with maybe half that on Saturday, and then Sunday is a complete rest day now.


My diet was good and healthy this week. No more cereal bars to replace lunch and dinner. I still eat every 2 hours and stop after 7pm. I've been rocking the chicken burgers, veggies, cottage cheese, and lean cuisines with the bars in between :)


I did feel really fatigued on Friday though. Not sure why. Perhaps I need to get some more sleep as I've been going to bed kind of late the last few days. I'll work on that :)


Anyway, still in the 180s! I was a little afraid of closing in on the 200s again after last week due to this recalibration of my diet, but thankfully I think it's starting to balance out now :) I was 192.4 Tuesday through Friday - the scale would just not budge. Then on Saturday morning, it went down to 190. Then this morning, 188 :)


I ate some junk this morning for breakfast. Had a craving for some pasta, so had a little spaghetti with a few fish sticks on the side. I felt SOOOOO bad not long after eating that. My heart was racing a bit and my head started to hurt. Hrmmm..


Ok, well I think that was it for me today in regards to bad stuff. I'm going to eat my cereal, lean cuisines, and maybe a burger for the rest of the day. My roommate said something about getting pizza later on but... eh, nah. I think I'll pass :{
 
hiya. sounds like you did lose some weight even if it did get stuck. thats great! I think you should avoid the pizza. feeling horrible after isnt worth it. I just had to pass on lasagna and kfc these past 2 days. so I know how it is. just keep pushing past those Plateaus.:hurray:
 
Hiya size32 :)


Well, I'm not really 188 since I know for a fact I didn't consume 28,000 calories between my previous weigh-in and this most recent one. It's just annoying water weight that I can put on myself at a tremendously fast rate. It can take forever to get off - just like real weight.


Good job passing on that lasagna and the KFC! Those can be dangerously tempting foods, for sure. Just the other day, my roommate suggested that we go to either Taco Bell or KFC for our cheat meal on Sunday. Hrmpf.


Anyway, yes, I shall keep pushing on :) The water weight, the plateaus.. while they're annoying, they can be overcome with time and diligence.


So I know I said earlier today that the crappy breakfast I had would be the only bad thing I have the rest of the day. Well, I was doing great after that declaration. Only had some cereal (Kashi) and some cereal bars. However, my roommate and I were debating the pizza we had planned to get. We eventually decided to just go to the store and get some bread and some meat to make subs. Unfortunately, when I go shopping while hungry, it can be a bad situation. We got the bread, but I also got some of this mozzarella cheese I love. So, I had a rather large sub with butter, sliced honey and oven-roasted turkey, and topped with mozzarella cheese :\


It was good, but I know I'm going to be paying for having that cheese and butter.


Anyway, back to chewing gum. I'm also going to chug some water as well :[
 
Oh, I guess I should mention this as it falls within the realm of positive aspects of weight loss :p


Last night, my roommate and I went to a party to celebrate 3 of our friend's birthdays. 2 of them are identical twins, and the other friend just happens to have a birthday that falls within the same week.


So, we all arrived at about 6:30pm, got drunk, played beer pong, then went out to a nearby bar at about 10:30ish :) Good times! There was about ~20 people there, and I introduced myself around a bit! I had a good amount of rum in me though, so a little 'liquid courage' was probably to thank for that :p


Anyhoo, here's some pics of the event (as I know everyone on here loves some pics!) :]




Ok, so, this was pretty early on in the evening. I'm not sure how drunk I was at this point, but clearly I had already passed the 'Lift Off!' stage and was nearing lower orbit :p My friend, Megan, looks rather repulsed by my antics to shield Mark's (her boyfriend) face from the camera with his cap, hehe :p




Oh! More alcohol? Sure, I'll take that! Thanks, Mark :p




This is Megan with my roommate, Ron. She's a hairstylist, so she sometimes agrees to help us out with our hair maintenance :) Here she is giving Ron a little bit of a 'Ronnie from Jersey Shore' fro. hah. Ron looks very grateful.




In my inebriation, I then asked if Megan could throw some in mine as apparently there were some women 'checking me out' while we were playing beer pong. I was oblivious of course! Unfortunately, the kind of attention I received afterward was not what I was expecting :p




So after resuming play with my slicked up mane, the guy in the purple shirt and hat pictured above would not letup on nicknaming me 'Hair Gel'. Soon, EVERYONE started calling me that :p lol! I played along of course because I didn't care at all. So, anytime someone would say 'Let's go, Hair Gel!', I'd pause mid-play, and start adjusting and tweaking my style :) Started to make everyone a little anxious, but I was laughing too much to care. haha :)




My roommate and I eventually lost a game. We were nearly undefeated the entire night, so after losing, I retreated to watch some TV in one of the back rooms. Wouldn't ya know it? Not sitting down for more than 5 seconds and suddenly there's chocolate and junk being shoved in my face! I tried my best to resist, but..




eh, had a piece or two :p Was pretty good! Nothing special, but maybe it helped soak up some of the rum in my system :)




This was nearing the end of the party and the beginning of the 'Bar Crawl'. Every so often, one of the twins would walk by and knock my phone out of my hand. Apparently that's one of the things they do when they get drunk, lol. I'd like to thank my roommate for the heads up, but luckily I just recently installed a Otterbox Defender on my iphone, so no harm was done to it - it got knocked around pretty hard last night!


Anyway, it was a good time :) I can guarantee you with 120% certainty that this experience or these photos would have not existed had I not decided to change all those years ago!


Looking forward to more fun, safe, and social experiences in the future!


Definitely one of the many bonuses of weight loss! :]
 
hahaha, in that particular order, some of those pictures look like a story about an exorcism, LOL. Or maybe that's just my imagination, jsut looked pretty funny! You're like, the thoughtful priest teaching your ways, and then the blonde girl gives it a go and chaos begins! THE EVIL CHOCOLATE DESCENDS! or something. Or maybe I jsut need more sleep. more likely.


Looks like an awesome time, either way. :D Not so good about them knocking your phone out your hands but.. yeah, least it wasn't damaged!
 
Looks like a good time was had by all (or at least most)


Hopefully the day after hangover was ok and nothing a little water and exercise couldn't cure.
 
looks like a great time. when i had roommates beer pong was a weekly event. we had the cops there almost every weekend. they didnt do much just told us to stay off the porch out front where it was getting loud from people going outside to smoke. you look amazing in those pictures. i saw your before pics and it was an incredible change. thats so awesome. it seems like every time i see pics of you your thinner and thinner. dam man im jealous :eek:. My goal weight is so far away. sigh. glad you have fun and hope you didnt drive after the bar. enjoy your week :seeya:
 
AHeya :)

I love the photo's and especially love the fact that you feel confident to 'party' when you didn't before. In my head i struggle with believing that i'm not fat anymore but the one thing i have really noticed is my self confidence is soooooo much better now. It makes such a difference, doesn't it. Anyway, glad you had a great night :)
 
Red Solo cup: it's a party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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AHAHAHA this pictures cracks me up, your expression is hilarious!!

How are your beer pong skills? I suck, tragically. Good thing people don't pick beer pong teams like dodgeball, I'd be last every time! Good thing there are good people in this world who want to get real drunk real fast and are willing to be my partner!


I think you're right though, these pictures are weight loss related and very motivational since being overweight can make us miss out on so much in life. Hopefully one day I can look as good you, Greg, when I party!! ;)


Aww look at you with your iphone, I seem to remember when I first joined this forum you mentioning something about I think a Nokia and barely being able to text, look at how you've grown!!


And going back a few posts, thanks for your reply. Your kind words really made me feel good :) And also, I know very well about being too hard on yourself and I'm going to share with you a cheesy, but true, quote: you should always speak to yourself like you would someone you care about. If you were trying to motivate someone in your life, you wouldn't tell them they were a failure or talk them down, you would say how strong you knew they were and how they have the power to change. Your rhetoric towards yourself is completely in your control, just like your ability to lose weight has been completely in your control. Not to be all like hey, love yourself, but dude, you're awesome, love yourself!! ;) Remember how I once challenged you to fake it till you make it in social situations? Umm I seem to recall you posting later that it may have helped a bit. So, now I challenge you to use kinder words when you speak to yourself..... and I know you're not gonna back down from a challenge are you?? ;)
 
Originally Posted by Sarah1983


hahaha, in that particular order, some of those pictures look like a story about an exorcism, LOL. Or maybe that's just my imagination, jsut looked pretty funny! You're like, the thoughtful priest teaching your ways, and then the blonde girl gives it a go and chaos begins! THE EVIL CHOCOLATE DESCENDS! or something. Or maybe I jsut need more sleep. more likely.



Looks like an awesome time, either way. :D Not so good about them knocking your phone out your hands but.. yeah, least it wasn't damaged!
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lol, Sarah :p


It's true now that you mention it! I don't believe I was able to convert or 'save' anyone though, as I probably drank more than most of them that night :)


Ah well. It was an awesome time!


Although I might've been a tad peev'd had my phone been busted :\ I really didn't care at the time it was being flung around though. Gotta love alcohol!




Originally Posted by feelinggooder


Looks like a good time was had by all (or at least most)



Hopefully the day after hangover was ok and nothing a little water and exercise couldn't cure.
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There were no complaints, feeling :) Everyone was having fun!


Oh, and I don't get hangovers! I guess it's another one of my super powers, hehe! =) That, or my strong Irish/German blood mix :)




Originally Posted by Irishprincess


Looking super in the pics Frogged, hope you enjoyed the party!:)
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Thanks Princess! That I did :]



Originally Posted by size32someday


looks like a great time. when i had roommates beer pong was a weekly event. we had the cops there almost every weekend. they didnt do much just told us to stay off the porch out front where it was getting loud from people going outside to smoke. you look amazing in those pictures. i saw your before pics and it was an incredible change. thats so awesome. it seems like every time i see pics of you your thinner and thinner. dam man im jealous :eek:. My goal weight is so far away. sigh. glad you have fun and hope you didnt drive after the bar. enjoy your week :seeya:
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Wow. Luckily, no cops showed up! It didn't get too chaotic though. It was pretty mellow for the most part, aside from some verbal exchanges at the beer pong table. Well, I didn't drive - my roommate did, but he was rather sober actually :)




Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya
I love the photo's and especially love the fact that you feel confident to 'party' when you didn't before. In my head i struggle with believing that i'm not fat anymore but the one thing i have really noticed is my self confidence is soooooo much better now. It makes such a difference, doesn't it. Anyway, glad you had a great night
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There's still some anxiety about attending these functions for me, but nothing a few drinks doesn't cure :) I'm still a big guy, but alcohol has a way of making you not really care about those kinds of things :p



Originally Posted by Sparked


Red Solo cup: it's a party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This:





AHAHAHA this pictures cracks me up, your expression is hilarious!!

How are your beer pong skills? I suck, tragically. Good thing people don't pick beer pong teams like dodgeball, I'd be last every time! Good thing there are good people in this world who want to get real drunk real fast and are willing to be my partner!


I think you're right though, these pictures are weight loss related and very motivational since being overweight can make us miss out on so much in life. Hopefully one day I can look as good you, Greg, when I party!! ;)



Aww look at you with your iphone, I seem to remember when I first joined this forum you mentioning something about I think a Nokia and barely being able to text, look at how you've grown!!



And going back a few posts, thanks for your reply. Your kind words really made me feel good :) And also, I know very well about being too hard on yourself and I'm going to share with you a cheesy, but true, quote: you should always speak to yourself like you would someone you care about. If you were trying to motivate someone in your life, you wouldn't tell them they were a failure or talk them down, you would say how strong you knew they were and how they have the power to change. Your rhetoric towards yourself is completely in your control, just like your ability to lose weight has been completely in your control. Not to be all like hey, love yourself, but dude, you're awesome, love yourself!! ;) Remember how I once challenged you to fake it till you make it in social situations? Umm I seem to recall you posting later that it may have helped a bit. So, now I challenge you to use kinder words when you speak to yourself..... and I know you're not gonna back down from a challenge are you?? ;)
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Oh, yes Rosie - Red Cups were floating all about! I think I had 2 at one point! Hrmmm.


My beer pong skills are actually quite good :) My roommate and I were almost undefeated the entire night, but eventually it got harder to aim the ball, and we were beaten at some point.


Yeah, just upgraded from my Nokia! I'm almost all caught up to the world technology-wise! Although it's only a iPhone 3g and not 4. Ah well :)


I like that saying btw. I really do. It's interesting that you posted that because I feel a little like kicking my own ass right now :\


Ugh.. yeah, I slipped. Or rather, I think it might be more appropriate to say that I face-planted on the floor tonight.


Let me now invoke the 2 most dreaded words when it comes to successful weight loss: CHINESE BUFFET


Yes, that's right. It was my Uncle's birthday party tonight and I was given an invite. Of course I accepted as my Uncle is the best and he's also working on losing weight. It's the same Uncle I gave that weight-loss before/after pic to for Christmas. Well.. haha, we definitely didn't inspire anyone with the amount of junk we ate today. There's something about chinese food.. it's like a drug almost. I told myself I wasn't going to overdo it and I even laid down a pack of my trustworthy gum on the table before we made our way up to the gauntlet (as my Uncle called it) of fried evilness.


I grabbed mostly shrimp, a few scallops, maybe an egg roll, and some of this AMAZING crab stuff. Dunno what it was called, but holy jeez! Upon sitting down and my first bite, I knew I was screwed. I entered like this weird mental zone where I just blocked out everything around me and whatever was on my plate became my whole universe.. my whole tasty universe =[ So I finished off that plate and, yeah.. I went back for seconds :( I even looked at my gum and just pretended it was part of the decor rather than the most important tool in these situations. Damn you, Chinese Buffet! URG.


I sit here now with a belly full of absolute garbage that is pretty much the most counterproductive thing I could've possibly found to eat to drop this water weight that I've been slogging around with for the last 2 weeks.


Well done, Gregory! Bravo!


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I already did 2.5 miles earlier today before we left, but now I plan to do another hour straight and bust out roughly 5 more miles just to try and keep myself from gaining 10 more pounds of water weight by tomorrow morning.


Rosie, thanks again for that quote :) As cheesy (mmm.. cheese) as it sounds, it's already helping me stave off wanting to beat myself up about tonight :)


Ok, enough typing. I'm about to go make that treadmill cry, or maybe it'll make me cry? Who knows. Either way, I'm getting on there right now :p
 
Ooof..: I totally agree with you, chinese food is devilish. :/ My downfall was always the crispy chilli beef.. I could eat that stuff until the cows came home. One of those 'I can feel I'm full btu I DO NOT CARE AS THIS TASTES SO DAMN GOOD!' foods.. so yeah, definitely feel your pain. :(


Make the poor treadmill pay for your crimes! Frame the git and put him behind bars! haha, some things just can't be avoided.. sometimes it's just rude not to eat, especially at someone's birthday or celebration or whatever.. it's like you're snubbing their efforts at providing food. They are the WORST situations.. but thankfully they're pretty rare.


Hope you're doing okay Greg. Slog through!
 
Ahh, Chinese food... Actually I can pretty much take or leave it these days, and since I usually stick to the really spicy seafood dishes it's not so bad when I do have it (I don't like fried food either so it's usually stir fried or steamed)... And I don't think I've ever seen a Chinese buffet anywhere around here! (Possibly a good thing!!!) Hmm, pizza buffet on the other hand, that spells trouble...
 
i wouldnt stress to much about the buffet. It the consistency that got you to where you are and how you lost all that weight. as long as you dont keep doing the wrong things over and over your safe. just treat it as a cheat day and get back to work. Your doing awesome dont be so hard on yourself. theres nothing stopping you from continuing to kick ass.
 
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