ugh.. real /facepalm of a day.
Don't even feel like posting, it was so pathetic. Not in terms of calories or diet, but in terms of social awkwardness :\
As a postman, I have occasional opportunities where I come face-to-face with attractive women in the area. Before, at my heaviest, I wouldn't even make eye contact because I've already seen countless looks of disgust over the years. I would just immediately look down at the documentation after the door opened, point to where the signature needed to go, avoid any kind of small talk, and then trudge my large self back to my vehicle.
Nowadays, it's a little different in those situations. I'm still very self-conscious, even though I'm told by friends and people on this forum not to be, it's just something I still struggle with. I have enough confidence now to make eye contact, smile, and even have enough courage to make comments about the weather sometimes! Progress!
Well, today I had another situation like that and it kind of bummed me out. There's a winery on my route that routinely gets parcels and other items that require signatures. I had one today and, as I arrived there and went inside, I noticed a very beautiful girl standing right inside the door talking to some older people at a nearby table. I had never seen her there before, but she appeared to be some kind of hostess? No uniform, but as I walked in, she immediately smiled at me and said 'Hey!' before returning back to the people she was talking to. Well, my shyness immediately kicked in and I darted up to the register, got the signature, then turned to leave. Again, we made eye contact as I was leaving and we smiled at one another. Now, she was probably just being nice, but the smile she gave me made my heart flutter a bit
Now the story goes downhill a bit. Moments like that hurt more than anything else because negative thoughts immediately start plaguing my mind as soon as I get back in my jeep. Thoughts like: 'Yeah, what the hell would you even say?' or 'I'm sure she'd be so into a mail man! pfft, right.' or 'There's no way you're ready for a physical relationship with your body image.' <- That last one is usually followed by 'Get the fuck on the treadmill and start saving money for surgery!'
Anger sets in, then all I want to do is push myself to extreme points when I run, which I did earlier. I still feel awful after my exercise today. I feel very queasy, so I did have a nature valley bar when I normally wouldn't, plus a diet soda to try and calm my stomach. Just felt like I was going to throw up..
Anyway, those are just some of the situations I come across now and then in my line of work that I use to keep my regimen fueled. Sure, they're not very good/happy moments, but sometimes painful memories provide me with the best results.. as unfortunate as that sounds.
Diet
Kashi (~750 cal)
Nature Valley Bar (190 cal) + Vitamin D Milk (120 cal)
Lean Cuisine (300 cal) + Skim Milk (150 cal)
Power Bar (230 cal)
Fiber Bar (140 cal) + Skim Milk (90 cal)
3 Thin Slices of Oven Roasted Turkey (~30 cal) + Skim Milk (90 cal)
Nature Valley Bar (190 cal)
Gum (~105 cal)
Total: ~2385
Exercise
Treadmill: 107min, 46sec
Miles: 8.390
Calories Burned: ~1,037
Hahahahaha! That is brilliant! You on shots must be quite a show 
I don't know that I could handle that, sounds strange... I like the UV Cake vodka, that's super good, the last party I had I made these awesome rainbow jello shots with cake vodka and they had whipped cream on top- they were gone in minutes, so good! Oh and we used them to play battleship shots - have you seen that? You make a giant battleship board and then have shots as the "battleships", if you get a hit on the other team they have to take the shot and vice versa - gets you tipsy kinda fast, epically fun! 
My brother used to go frog catching in ditches too and would come home almost everyday soaked and muddy....... I called him ditch diver!!! And his frog catching was ditch diving... but very cute now you remind me of my little brother 
Everyone seems to be having bummed out days this week!!