Ok, back among the living! I haven't been that sick in forever, thanks everyone for your well wishes!!
So yesterday I was back at work and I would looooove to tell you that this day was filled with so much healthy perfection that it was simply awe inspiring... but yeah, that'd be a big ol' lie. I'm kinda flailing here. Every day starts out great and then by 5:00 I end up eating something extra, usually it's a healthy something extra, but still enough to put me over my calories and so I think hell, I'm already over, might as well enjoy it. In what world is that rational thinking? Ugh.
Now I'm sitting here making sure that I get my water in for the day and also, I just put my scale away because all it has been doing is freaking me out! All of high school I was 213lbs, well except for one month before prom where I thought that living on two oranges a day would be a really healthy way for me to fit into my dress

, but yeah, other than that, 213. A few years after high school, I gained 40lbs, I lost the 40 and then I saw 217lbs, at which point I freaked out, started eating like crazy, and managed to put on 70lbs pounds. Now I've taken off the 70, saw 218, and freaked out again! One thing is that I kind of abhor change, and I'm thinking this is what that is, I'm a little scared to enter into something new. It doesn't really make any sense since I have wanted to be at a healthy weight for as long as I can remember, and yet I stop every time I get close to making it happen.
My boyfriend hasn't been much help either. When were sharing a car last week we ended up going to his school a lot. After every trip he would go on and on about how “all these guys†were checking me out. Now, I'm pretty incredulous about the accuracy of that statement, but, nonetheless, it's what he though and it seems to have made him a little insecure. I'm guessing that that's the reason that his tune has changed from, "I can't wait till you get under 200, you're going to feel so great about yourself" to offering to buy me more than a few dinners that came from a drive-thru window. So, consciously, or subconsciously, he hasn't been the best influence.
On a happier note, I found something that is currently topping my all things awesome list: The Color run.
It's a 5k where you are required to start out in a white shirt, at each kilometer they have workers whose job it is to coat you in bright color (basically dyed corn starch, harmless), and there's a different color to show each kilometer completed, at the end you look like a technicolor explosion and you also have an awesome shirt to take with you. Then there is a big celebration afterwards and everyone hangs out and has a good time.
Now, I just get all excited about bright colors and the one-of-a-kind shirt that comes with it, so I was bouncing off the walls when I read about this! The one near me is in July (they run all around the US) and I'm going to sign up as soon as I can afford it (the registration is $35 a person, so that's a little tight right now). When I told my bf about it he said, "awesome, they managed to combine three of the things I hate the most: crowds, exercising in public, and getting dirty. But I know this is right up your alley, so I'll go." So, I'm hoping I can find someone to go with me who gets just as fired up about this as I do! But, if not, at least I've got ol' Mr. Buzzkill
Today is good so far, I want it to end that way as well! Fingers crossed!! I need it
Munch: YES! I have decided I'm not a gym person! And I think I would have been really proud of myself for getting myself up and going for a while, and then you're right, I think all that new shiny gym excitement would wear off pretty fast. Also, I'm definitely not a germaphobe or even a clean freak, but everyone sweating buckets in such close proximity really kinda turned me off. I think this gym was particularly bad because it had so many members and all the machines were crammed in next to each other, not really my idea of a good time. So, yes, no gym.. and I can't wait to get some exercise equipment, especially because I can just jump on it for a few minutes at any point in the day if I want to, but that whole car thing set both me and my parents back a bit, so I'll have to wait a bit on that
Greg: Haha! Yeah, I think we've all met an Abercrombie or two in our lifetime, he was just so stereotypical gym-nut, so hilarious! And trust me, when Chris came down from what I'm guessing was a hyperbaric chamber which he stays in all day getting facials and lifting weights, I wanted to bolt for the door! But, I figured it'd be a good social challenge.. also, I usually whip out the I have a boyfriend card as fast as I can so that he doesn't think that I have any kind of intention of hitting on him
Ah, cereal and cheese, get's me every time! Especially the cereal, because I can just grab it one small handful at a time before I realize what's going on! You'll get back on it soon though, I know you will...... and so will I? Um, I mean, and so will I!
And yeah, the car situation completely blows, the most ridiculous thing was that because it was an electrical issue it was $670 for labor and a $2 part!!

Oh well, at least it's fixed, and I've had the car for 7 years and this first time I've had to take it in to get repaired, so I think I got off pretty well in the end. And ooo fingers AND toes, well then surley I'll have good luck!
Irish: Hehe thanks! I was definitely amused so I'm glad I could convey the hilarity of it all!! You're completely right, when I'm ready, it will just happen, it has before so I know it will again!
Kate: I am sooooo jealous of your new iPad!!!!! And that Mark bought it for you, what a great guy!! Guess all that sulking paid off!
Your gym sounds much more low key, this one is huge and there had to be a good, honestly no exaggeration, 250+ people working out in there... all sweaty and jammed together, and I was just like woah! way too much going on here!
I'm on those pics right away, can't wait to check them out!! Thanks so much for checkin up on me

really helps me stay accountable, even if I might just be getting on tell everyone how bad I've been recently
Crym: Haha, thanks! Yes, completely awkward high fives!! Especially because I am one of those people that kind of take a while to warm up to others, so someone all up in my face acting like we've been best friends for years kinda freaks me out a bit!! Oh well, at least it made for a good story!!
EDIT: Caught this commercial and it totally made my day AND inspired me!
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Oh no, hope it worked! Just tried to see it on my phone and it didn't load
