Even the most spectacular blaze is ignited by a single spark...

[Sparked]

Holy crap!! I came home super tired and then I saw all these replies and it totally pumped me up! I'm so feeling the forum love today! hehe

Originally Posted by luzdafuzz


Congrats on surviving midterms!! Bet you feel awesome now that's out of the way! Can't believe you managed such a full on day with no sleep, I have to get 8+ hours just to function normally!!



Do you do yoga out of a book or off a dvd? Just curious!

Thanks! Yes, totally such a relief! (More next week, but heck, that's a whole week away! ) lol I've been in school for so darn long now that I just kind of autopilot it, I think the longest I've ever gone was 4 days during this one finals week... let me tell you, your brain will start to so some absolutely crazy stuff when you haven't slept in 4 days!


I do yoga from a few different things -- the one that has kind of revolutionized yoga for me is a Jillian Michaels DVD called Yoga Meltdown, she usually drives me a little nuts in her videos but she's pretty tolerable in this one and seriously makes me sweat, I've been doing yoga for years and have never felt it like this! The trick is that she works strength into it, for example you alternate your warrior poses with lunges, and it really amps up your heartbeat! I've also got a "yoga deck" that was a project I had to make for a yoga class once that is a really nice deck of index cards with all of the poses I've learned -- I take what I learned from the Jillian video and try to make up my own yoga intervals from the moves I know. I think it's a really good alternative since I can't do full on cardio right now

Originally Posted by fetterless


Wow. You are definitely on a roll :] I feel really inspired reading about how successful and honest you're being. AND you look awesome already, so the healthier you get... goodness knows what could happen! Take over the world, probably. Mind if I subscribe?!

Hi fetterless Thanks so much! Hmmm... hit goal weight, attempt world domination... I like the way you think! And I would beyond love if you subscribed!



Frogged- lol I didn't use the quote button on you because then it would have been me quoting you quoting me - total quote insanity! But anyway, I really appreciate what you said. It is hard to be so open, I can't say I'm like that in real life at all -- in fact, I almost came back here and deleted what I wrote about 4 times! I usually like to keep it to the happier stuff, but in the end I thought about why I am here and why other people are here, and me sharing what I went through, the moments that made my light bulb go on, maybe someone will recognize something familiar in his/her life and it will help them; that's the hope at least! I think for people who have a lot of weight to lose, there's usually some soul searching that has to go on -- that was definitely the case for me and many others that I have met.

Thanks so much for cheering me on!

Originally Posted by Chazz Rienhold


Sparked,

Thanks for posting in my journal! Hope the best to you and your pictures look amazing in your other thread!

Well thanks for posting in my journal, Chazz! And thanks for such positive comments, really puts a smile on my face!

Originally Posted by Irishprincess


Hey pretty lady!! Just checking in, you are doing great 5'11 is such a cool height hun, and you do not look 26:O:O



Keep up the fab work chick xx

Aww thanks Irish! I can't even begin to tell you how much I love you right now for saying I don't look 26! lol I was planning on going and checking on you in a minute here, we've got a Christmas challenge weigh in coming up!

Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya
I've seen some of your posts on other diaries so i thought i would come and check out yours!!
I love it!!!! You style of writing is bloody awesome and you talk about stuff that is extremely familiar!!!
I just wanted to say hi and i look forward to following the rest of your journey to 170lb (i think that was you kinda goal)
Oh, and i have to agree with the others....you are stunningly beautiful
You might have said and i either missed it or just forgot (i do that) but what are you studying?

Hey Kate, thanks for stopping by! I'm so flattered you like my writing! Oh, and thanks for the compliment - I'm not really used to them, makes me blush every time! lol I don't think I mentioned what I'm studying, and if I did, I forgot too because I do that as well! But yeah, I'm studying genetics and I've combined that with a focus on biochemistry, really fascinating stuff


And if you have time, you gotta tell me how you got that freakin ticker in your signature, because lord knows I tried! But apparently I'm completely technologically impaired and just could not get it to work!

 

[Chazz Rienhold]

How is the leg feeling?

 

[Sparked]

Originally Posted by Chazz Rienhold


How is the leg feeling?

Hey Chazz, thanks for checkin up! I've got something of a stubborn streak to me (really, it's totally adorable, I swear ) so today I had some choice words for those stupid crutches and I left them at home, and after a whole day of standing I feel totally fine! That's a really big improvement, I don't know that I'm quite ready to try running just yet, but it shouldn't be too far off! I'm feeling pretty relieved

 

[Chazz Rienhold]

Originally Posted by Sparked




Hey Chazz, thanks for checkin up! I've got something of a stubborn streak to me (really, it's totally adorable, I swear ) so today I had some choice words for those stupid crutches and I left them at home, and after a whole day of standing I feel totally fine! That's a really big improvement, I don't know that I'm quite ready to try running just yet, but it shouldn't be too far off! I'm feeling pretty relieved

Good to hear

 

[Sparked]

My bf just made pizza so I'm gonna write in my diary and pretend that none of this happening! la la la la la can't smell you


Today was a good day because it started off with the scale revealing a number in the 220's (What?! That's right. Get lost 230's!) Fridays are hard because I'm stuck in lab from 10:30 - 5:00 with absolutely no time to eat anything, so I miss out on a bunch of calories plus I leave lab completely ravenous and tempted to eat anything that crosses my path .... like pizza... I mean.. what pizza?


So it rained today for the first time in forever, and while I was stuck in back-to-back traffic, in the middle of mumbling to myself about how Californians begin to lose it the second it starts to sprinkle, I looked up and saw something awesome:

A double rainbow!!! Completely snapped me out of my commuter crankiness


I've only gotten in 350 calories today, so I've gotta head to the kitchen in a bit and see if I can find anything healthy but high calorie to try and even it out.


I didn't post a question last night because I got on and started writing to everyone and the next thing I knew it was 1:00 AM! And I have to be up at 6:30, so I had to shut it down and get to bed. So here we go:



Day 07 - Do your friends and family know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they support you?

EVERYBODY KNOWS. This is a new thing, usually I've tried to hide it from people when I have chosen to start a diet, I think maybe because I didn't want to draw attention to the fact that I'm overweight, or maybe I just didn't want people to know if I failed. It's also difficult because I have mostly male friends, male friends that are in really good shape But this time I just let everyone know, and it forced me to be accountable. Everyone has been extremely supportive and helpful. The other day I was asking a friend of mine -- who is notorious for being Mr. Fitness -- about exercise, and later he told me that he was really proud of me for talking to him about it, because he said usually I don't say anything and for the first time it seemed like I wasn't ashamed about the fact that I was trying to lose weight. That made me feel really good, and it made me see that I wasn't bringing negative attention to my weight, I was showing people that I was taking the initiative to be healthy, and people respected that. So now, everyone's on board and it is so much easier than doing it all on my own.



Day 08 - Your workout routine.

Well... with the injury it's just lots of yoga and crunches and pushups and maybe lifting some really small weights. When I'm not injured, I've started to really like running and I have about every Tae Bo series ever created which I love to do. Tae Bo seriously kicks my butt and I totally <3 Billy Blanks, I was doing it every day and actually looking forward to it!


Time to go enjoy my Friday night Hope everyone has a great, healthy weekend!

 

[Irishprincess]

Hey hun, i love that picture of the 2 rainbows, its very artistic, like the 80's hollywood era. Anyway well done on resisting the pizza, and i know what you mean hun, i used to never tell people that i am trying to lose weight but this time round i have and they are so so supportive.



Also well done on getting out of the 230's!!!! You sound so motivated to lose this weight and you defo know what you doing!


Keep up the fab work chick xxx

 

[Sparked]

Haha thanks Irish, and here I thought I didn't have an artistic bone in my body!


Well after my pizza victory, the day ended up turning out ok and looked something like this:


Egg white omelet : 250

Fish sticks + tartar sauce + broccoli: 375

4 or 5 shots of Jack (Can't remember, lost count at 4, definitely stopped at 5 ) 276 or 345

1/3 of a Corona light: 35

Handful of bar nuts... yeah.. ~ 150


Total: 1086 or 1155 turned out to be a little low, but I don't think too low.


meh, alcohol, we all get one vice right?


Question of the day:

Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Yes. ... moving on. lol

Actually I feel pretty fortunate that even though I was overweight through the majority of my school years, people bullying me about my weight was not something I ever had to endure. I'm really grateful for that and the fact that I had a really positive experience in school. There's only one person I can think of who has ever said negative things to me, it's good that there wasn't more, because I never found hurtful words to be motivational.


This forum is an awesome distraction from homework, but I better go study!


My best to everyone

 

[katehunibun]

AHeya sweetie

Well done on resisting the PIZZA!!

I was totally the other way round to you and Princess. I didn't tell anyone that i was losing weight this time. I was so convinced that i would fail AGAIN that i didn't bother saying to anyone about it. I had started a diet every day for like 2 years but managed to talk myself out of it by lunchtime. Or i would do great all week and then put it all back on at the weekend so i really didn't have much faith in me being able to actually do it. Then it got to the point where i realised that i was gonna do it and my motivation kept going and going and i thought 'sod it, i'm doing this for me, nobody else' so didn't bother telling most people. I still don't talk about it and i only tell someone how much i have lost if they actually ask. This must work for me because i have come so far and this is the FIRST time that i have actually got anywhere near a (slim) goal weight that i have set for myself.

I'm glad school was a positive experience for ya hun. It was hell for me. I was the most insecure, selfconcious teenager!!! I hated it.

This post has turned out to be all about me...whoops sorry.

You are doing awesome beautiful!! You Rock!!

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by Sparked


Haha thanks Irish, and here I thought I didn't have an artistic bone in my body!



Well after my pizza victory, the day ended up turning out ok and looked something like this:



Egg white omelet : 250

Fish sticks + tartar sauce + broccoli: 375

4 or 5 shots of Jack (Can't remember, lost count at 4, definitely stopped at 5 ) 276 or 345

1/3 of a Corona light: 35

Handful of bar nuts... yeah.. ~ 150



Total: 1086 or 1155 turned out to be a little low, but I don't think too low.



meh, alcohol, we all get one vice right?



Question of the day:

Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Yes. ... moving on. lol

Actually I feel pretty fortunate that even though I was overweight through the majority of my school years, people bullying me about my weight was not something I ever had to endure. I'm really grateful for that and the fact that I had a really positive experience in school. There's only one person I can think of who has ever said negative things to me, it's good that there wasn't more, because I never found hurtful words to be motivational.



This forum is an awesome distraction from homework, but I better go study!



My best to everyone

Hmmm.. interesting diet you had today


You did pretty good on calories, but I have to comment! :biggrin:


Jack? Oy. I can't handle whiskey. I pretty much fall apart emotionally when I have more than a shot glass of that stuff. My preference is rum, but still, I don't drink it very often as I'm a wild card when I get too drunk. I don't fit into any kind of drunk category (depressed, happy, angry, etc), I basically transform into an escalated version of whatever emotion I feel strongest at the time. Usually, I turn into 'stressed' drunk and begin to ramble about gas prices and other misc bills.


I'm glad you had a good time in school! That's very fortunate when you grow up overweight. For me, my high school experience can be summed up in a single lunch period.


I was sitting with some people right in the middle of the cafeteria. Half the school was present as lunch was divided into Lunch A, and Lunch B. Freshmen - Senior classes were present. Well, I was sitting there goofing around with an acquaintance (I say 'acquaintance' because he really wasn't a friend) when, suddenly, I felt myself falling.


That's right! The chair I was on broke. Our table was pretty much dead center in the cafeteria too, so I wasn't able to silently slip away on the side or anything. I had to pull myself up, then fumble around with this broken pile of debris that used to be a chair. To say I was humiliated was an understatement. I had the attention of everyone within ear shot. I recall several comments being made using the words 'fat' and 'weight', but they were sort of drowned out by the laughter :\


That's my school experience in a nut shell.. haha. It sucked.


Anyway, I do like your double rainbow shot - very cool! You do have an artsy side! :biggrin:


Also, good job on resisting the pizza - I know how damn difficult that can be with someone who loves to cook food during times when you're trying to refrain from eating! My bloody roommate does it ALL the time. I find it helps to breathe through your mouth as much as possible when something yummy is cooking just so you don't smell it


Oh, and one more question (sorry if you already said something about it), but do you keep a chart of your progression, Sparked? As in, do you keep a weekly weight log and what day do you weigh yourself?

 

[luzdafuzz]

I actually escaped the horror of high school as my parents decided they wanted to homeschool us after my older sister was getting bullied really badly and had fallen in with a bad crowd... so she pulled us all out. Primary school was horrible though, I did my first 4 years in a public school with no friends, and people would actually come up to me and tell me it was because I was fat. My older sister used to bully me at school in front of her friends too- seriously, I remember starting a diet when I was 8 years old... I remember asking my mum to only give me fruit for recess and to buy me healthy cereal. The next 3 years I moved to a private Catholic school which was pretty much the same until the last year, where I actually had a small group of friends I hung out with. I still got the fat comments, even though when I was 12 I was the same height I am now and weighed around 60ish kgs... everyone else in the class was half a head shorter and weighed around 40-50. I know this because I remember having to do a poll thing where we all had to get each others height and weight and work out a class average. It was pretty hellish. I was the most awkward teenager too, I ended up being a big video game/anime nerd. Actually got pretty skinny for a while but when I was 16 I was seriously overweight, had really bad acne, braces, and hair I had absolutely no idea what to do with! Oh and I ended up with an anxiety disorder, insomnia, and depression.


I really wish people would take a good look at themselves, I honestly can't see what causes people to behave the way they do to other people. Or how they can justify it. In a modern society such as we are now you'd think people would be more accepting, not just of overweight people but EVERYONE. It makes me really sad. I think it's upsetting that kids as young as 6 can be so cruel- I was definitely not aware of other people in that way at that age, or it just didn't concern me. *Sigh*


Haha sorry for the novel... I wish people would realise what comes out of their mouth might not mean anything to them, but it can leave really deep scars on the other person.

 

[Sparked]

Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya sweetie
Well done on resisting the PIZZA!!
I was totally the other way round to you and Princess. I didn't tell anyone that i was losing weight this time. I was so convinced that i would fail AGAIN that i didn't bother saying to anyone about it. I had started a diet every day for like 2 years but managed to talk myself out of it by lunchtime. Or i would do great all week and then put it all back on at the weekend so i really didn't have much faith in me being able to actually do it. Then it got to the point where i realised that i was gonna do it and my motivation kept going and going and i thought 'sod it, i'm doing this for me, nobody else' so didn't bother telling most people. I still don't talk about it and i only tell someone how much i have lost if they actually ask. This must work for me because i have come so far and this is the FIRST time that i have actually got anywhere near a (slim) goal weight that i have set for myself.
I'm glad school was a positive experience for ya hun. It was hell for me. I was the most insecure, selfconcious teenager!!! I hated it.
This post has turned out to be all about me...whoops sorry.
You are doing awesome beautiful!! You Rock!!

"I had started a diet every day for like 2 years but managed to talk myself out of it by lunchtime." This is soooo me too, I set out at the beginning of so many days saying I'm gonna do it today! Only to blow it halfway through. Or last a week and think to myself that I would only inevitably fail, as I always had, so what's the point? For some reason though, this last "I'm gonna do it today!" actually stuck, I still didn't want to tell people, but they began to notice I was losing weight so I had to force myself to talk about it. I don't think either way necessarily matters, because you're right, at the end of the day, it's all about that commitment you've made to yourself.


What I didn't know in high school that I know is that everyone was insecure! That's just part of being that age I guess, I had a good time in school but I was definitely racked with self conscious doubts. I hung out with a group of girls that were drop dead gorgeous and loved their bikinis, I would go and have fun (practically covered from head to toe, of course) but I was always feeling like the ugly duckling. I attempted some insanely unhealthy diets during that time too. It's a rough time, I think I only got through it well because I really forced myself to get involved and make sure everyone knew me, but really that's because I hoped that that would make people see me as their friend, and not "the fat girl." Ahh yeah, high school, drums up some good emotions doesn't it?


Thanks so much for the encouragement! And it's all good, I like to hear about you!

Originally Posted by Frogged






Hmmm.. interesting diet you had today



You did pretty good on calories, but I have to comment! :biggrin:



Jack? Oy. I can't handle whiskey. I pretty much fall apart emotionally when I have more than a shot glass of that stuff. My preference is rum, but still, I don't drink it very often as I'm a wild card when I get too drunk. I don't fit into any kind of drunk category (depressed, happy, angry, etc), I basically transform into an escalated version of whatever emotion I feel strongest at the time. Usually, I turn into 'stressed' drunk and begin to ramble about gas prices and other misc bills.



I'm glad you had a good time in school! That's very fortunate when you grow up overweight. For me, my high school experience can be summed up in a single lunch period.



I was sitting with some people right in the middle of the cafeteria. Half the school was present as lunch was divided into Lunch A, and Lunch B. Freshmen - Senior classes were present. Well, I was sitting there goofing around with an acquaintance (I say 'acquaintance' because he really wasn't a friend) when, suddenly, I felt myself falling.



That's right! The chair I was on broke. Our table was pretty much dead center in the cafeteria too, so I wasn't able to silently slip away on the side or anything. I had to pull myself up, then fumble around with this broken pile of debris that used to be a chair. To say I was humiliated was an understatement. I had the attention of everyone within ear shot. I recall several comments being made using the words 'fat' and 'weight', but they were sort of drowned out by the laughter :\



That's my school experience in a nut shell.. haha. It sucked.



Anyway, I do like your double rainbow shot - very cool! You do have an artsy side! :biggrin:



Also, good job on resisting the pizza - I know how damn difficult that can be with someone who loves to cook food during times when you're trying to refrain from eating! My bloody roommate does it ALL the time. I find it helps to breathe through your mouth as much as possible when something yummy is cooking just so you don't smell it



Oh, and one more question (sorry if you already said something about it), but do you keep a chart of your progression, Sparked? As in, do you keep a weekly weight log and what day do you weigh yourself?

Haha Frogged, thanks for calling me out on my "diet!" Yeah definitely wasn't the healthiest, but at least I stayed under! And hey, how many other "foods" can you think of that have no carbs and no fat?

Ahhh yes, I like Jack -- it's easy to drink and it makes me really warm so I get to fool myself into thinking that I'm burning extra calories! Maybe there's somewhat of a learning curve to alcohol because I remember when I first started drinking the way I acted was very dependent on my emotions, too. Now I'm just kind of my own little party, I start dancing and signing, and saying beyond ridiculous things, and have infinitesimally small regard for looking weird So I guess I enjoy myself, although now given that description... I could quite possibly be the only one!


Your high school story is pretty gut-wrenching, back then I was terrified to even have my hair the wrong way so I can't even imagine getting through something like that... when's that reunion? You can go back and blow em all away!


You saying I have an artsy side put a huge smile on my face! It reminded me of my own high school story where I was forced to take art class. At the end of the semester you had to bring all of your projects to the teacher and meet with her individually so she could talk about your progress through the course. She looked at all my stuff, made a few comments, and ended it with, "stick to math, honey, you're good at that." lol, she totally crushed me! Yeah, I've always strived to be more creative, maybe photography is my calling! hehe


Breathing through the mouth, great tip, got it!


I seriously weigh myself like 5 times a day, I get a little obsessive over it trying to find the lowest number ... I know everyone says not to do this, but it actually does help keep me motivated. I usually write down the weight every Sunday to see the loss ... although I weighed in today and the scale was obviously lying to me, so I gave it a dirty gesture, hid it in the closet, and I'll bring it out tomorrow to see if it learned its lesson! I do have a chart, it looks like this:

hmm not sure where the dates went?

Originally Posted by luzdafuzz


I actually escaped the horror of high school as my parents decided they wanted to homeschool us after my older sister was getting bullied really badly and had fallen in with a bad crowd... so she pulled us all out. Primary school was horrible though, I did my first 4 years in a public school with no friends, and people would actually come up to me and tell me it was because I was fat. My older sister used to bully me at school in front of her friends too- seriously, I remember starting a diet when I was 8 years old... I remember asking my mum to only give me fruit for recess and to buy me healthy cereal. The next 3 years I moved to a private Catholic school which was pretty much the same until the last year, where I actually had a small group of friends I hung out with. I still got the fat comments, even though when I was 12 I was the same height I am now and weighed around 60ish kgs... everyone else in the class was half a head shorter and weighed around 40-50. I know this because I remember having to do a poll thing where we all had to get each others height and weight and work out a class average. It was pretty hellish. I was the most awkward teenager too, I ended up being a big video game/anime nerd. Actually got pretty skinny for a while but when I was 16 I was seriously overweight, had really bad acne, braces, and hair I had absolutely no idea what to do with! Oh and I ended up with an anxiety disorder, insomnia, and depression.



I really wish people would take a good look at themselves, I honestly can't see what causes people to behave the way they do to other people. Or how they can justify it. In a modern society such as we are now you'd think people would be more accepting, not just of overweight people but EVERYONE. It makes me really sad. I think it's upsetting that kids as young as 6 can be so cruel- I was definitely not aware of other people in that way at that age, or it just didn't concern me. *Sigh*



Haha sorry for the novel... I wish people would realise what comes out of their mouth might not mean anything to them, but it can leave really deep scars on the other person.

You don't expect kids that young to be so cruel, but I seem to remember the younger they were, the meaner I saw so many kids get bullied in elementary school and middle school, but I didn't really see much of it in high school. Although, I'm not sure if that's just my experience because I know my boyfriend had a terrible time in high school and he tells me some unbelievable stories about how torturous the kids could be. I had a handful of friends that were home schooled and they always seemed like they were a little better off since they weren't facing so much social pressure day in and day out. When you said your were an awkward nerd, it made me kind of cock my head to the side, it's hard to imagine someone as beautiful as you being awkward!


I liked your novel, it actually gave me a lot to think about!

 

[Sparked]

So given the slightest decrease in pain in my legs over the last few days, I decided to attempt a full scale work out -- no running, not there yet.


Today and yesterday I did day 1 and 2 of P90X. Has anyone ever heard of or done P90X? Oh. My. God. Let me tell you, I am somewhat of an exercise-at-home-tape junkie. I've got it all, Tae Bo, The Firm, all the Jillian Michaels DVDs, TurboJam.... seriously, it's bad (some were gifts!) Anyway, nothing has ever made me feel like I was so close to death as this did. So P90X is a series of 12 workouts that each work different muscle groups so you are doing a different one every day. You do this every day for 90 days, and wow, you should see the before and afters -- pure insanity! Day one was chest and back, which is basically 45 minutes of straight pushups combined with weight lifting -- I only used 5 lb weights and by the end of the set my arms were shaking! I had to have my bf come in and wash my hair later because I literally could not lift my arms over my head by the end of the night! (They feel fine today, though) So day two was the real killer, a totally nutso high intensity hour long cardio session doing plyometrics -- basically you don't stop jumping for the entire hour. Holy crap. I was damn near convinced I was going to puke up my lungs, I have never worked out like this in my life!! I couldn't find a calorie count on it but I'm gonna have to guess at least 700 calories, I don't know... how many calories does death burn?


So today I decided I'm gonna increase my calories by 250 because I know I burned a ton today and also, last night, after doing work out 1, I woke up in the middle of the night because I was starving! That's never happened before, so I think it's gotta mean I wasn't eating enough?


Ok question time:

Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey?

Um.... my boobs. *looks down at chest* "So long breasts, I knew thee well." That could be the only benefit that exists in gaining weight. I'm hoping it's not going to be that bad this time because I have been this weight before and I know they were much smaller. When I told my bf that I was losing weight, his first concern was that my boobs would shrink .... ahh, men and their priorities! The other one is carbs. I've basically cut them out of my diet any more because for me all they do is increase my hunger and cause cravings, I do a lot better without them.


That's all for now, I'll be back to complain about the butt-kicking that comes with P90X day 3! I'll be super buff in no time!

 

[Irishprincess]

Seriously loving your spirit girl, you are nailing this diet and eating healthy, i have the P90x on dvd would ya believe?? ive only done one of the videos for 25 mins though and i was wreaked, fair play to you for having started it!! You have motivated me to start doing it again someday( hopefully soon)


I say you will lose so much weight this week, you are doing so well hun Keep it up!xxx

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by Sparked



I seriously weigh myself like 5 times a day, I get a little obsessive over it trying to find the lowest number ... I know everyone says not to do this, but it actually does help keep me motivated. I usually write down the weight every Sunday to see the loss ... although I weighed in today and the scale was obviously lying to me, so I gave it a dirty gesture, hid it in the closet, and I'll bring it out tomorrow to see if it learned its lesson! I do have a chart, it looks like this:





hmm not sure where the dates went?

Yep, I'm the same way when it comes to weighing myself obsessively. Knowledge is power and it's good to know where your body stands from day to day (or minute to minute.. or second to second..) hehe :biggrin: If a scale is nearby and I'm able to take my clothes off (while remaining out of the public eye), then I'll usually step on it to see how well I'm doing so far that day.


I know all about scales that withhold the truth - that's why I own 2! Just so I can get a second opinion in case my primary is giving me numbers I don't like to see.


Nice chart! Do you happen to keep one online? If you'd like, you can copy how my little online chart is on my blog and use it's outline if you ever feel like setting up one online for other people to view/follow Loch has done that and I enjoy checking it whenever she posts her weekly numbers.


It may help increase your accountability if you have other people following your progress not only on the forums, but also on a chart you update weekly. Just a thought!

Originally Posted by Sparked


So given the slightest decrease in pain in my legs over the last few days, I decided to attempt a full scale work out -- no running, not there yet.



Today and yesterday I did day 1 and 2 of P90X. Has anyone ever heard of or done P90X? Oh. My. God. Let me tell you, I am somewhat of an exercise-at-home-tape junkie. I've got it all, Tae Bo, The Firm, all the Jillian Michaels DVDs, TurboJam.... seriously, it's bad (some were gifts!) Anyway, nothing has ever made me feel like I was so close to death as this did. So P90X is a series of 12 workouts that each work different muscle groups so you are doing a different one every day. You do this every day for 90 days, and wow, you should see the before and afters -- pure insanity! Day one was chest and back, which is basically 45 minutes of straight pushups combined with weight lifting -- I only used 5 lb weights and by the end of the set my arms were shaking! I had to have my bf come in and wash my hair later because I literally could not lift my arms over my head by the end of the night! (They feel fine today, though) So day two was the real killer, a totally nutso high intensity hour long cardio session doing plyometrics -- basically you don't stop jumping for the entire hour. Holy crap. I was damn near convinced I was going to puke up my lungs, I have never worked out like this in my life!! I couldn't find a calorie count on it but I'm gonna have to guess at least 700 calories, I don't know... how many calories does death burn?



So today I decided I'm gonna increase my calories by 250 because I know I burned a ton today and also, last night, after doing work out 1, I woke up in the middle of the night because I was starving! That's never happened before, so I think it's gotta mean I wasn't eating enough?



Ok question time:

Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey?

Um.... my boobs. *looks down at chest* "So long breasts, I knew thee well." That could be the only benefit that exists in gaining weight. I'm hoping it's not going to be that bad this time because I have been this weight before and I know they were much smaller. When I told my bf that I was losing weight, his first concern was that my boobs would shrink .... ahh, men and their priorities! The other one is carbs. I've basically cut them out of my diet any more because for me all they do is increase my hunger and cause cravings, I do a lot better without them.



That's all for now, I'll be back to complain about the butt-kicking that comes with P90X day 3! I'll be super buff in no time!

PLEASE be careful! That sounds really intense :[


I'd recommend easing back into a full scale workout, especially with the injury you had, just to avoid any possible problems. I've heard of P90X and it looks like some really hardcore stuff. If you feel you're able to handle it safely, then go for it! But just try not to do too much too fast. It's so important to listen to your body, so if your leg begins to hurt (or you feel like you might die!), then please back off a tad


Getting healthy is important, but it shouldn't put your life in jeopardy at the same time! eesh. :biggrin:


And your Day 10 question made me chuckle for obvious reasons I've read a number of posts here where women were concerned with that. I don't think you all should be so worried (if you are).


Honestly, I'd rather the woman I was with be happy and healthy above anything else. I could care less about bra sizes or any of that.


That's just me though


Although my roommate is about as deep as a puddle sometimes and would recommend you gain weight if it meant your chest size would increase, lol. I mean, he's a good guy and has his own weight issues, but his mind is still locked in 'college' mode most of the time. He actually has an account on here, but never uses it. I think he just wanted to goof on my 'before' shots.


Anyway, keep up the fabulous work, Sparked!

 

[Sparked]

Originally Posted by Irishprincess


Seriously loving your spirit girl, you are nailing this diet and eating healthy, i have the P90x on dvd would ya believe?? ive only done one of the videos for 25 mins though and i was wreaked, fair play to you for having started it!! You have motivated me to start doing it again someday( hopefully soon)



I say you will lose so much weight this week, you are doing so well hun Keep it up!xxx

Yaay thanks Irish! Hey even getting through 25 minutes is one heck of an accomplishment! I think I paused it a good 5 times to get through it, plus when they were setting their goals for how many reps they were going to do each time they usually said 20+, and I was like hmmm I think I can handle 9! haha


Let me know if you start it again, I'd love to do it with you!


I hope I lose, I've got my fingers crossed! Thanks for stopping by and pumping me up!!

Originally Posted by Frogged




Yep, I'm the same way when it comes to weighing myself obsessively. Knowledge is power and it's good to know where your body stands from day to day (or minute to minute.. or second to second..) hehe :biggrin: If a scale is nearby and I'm able to take my clothes off (while remaining out of the public eye), then I'll usually step on it to see how well I'm doing so far that day.

I know all about scales that withhold the truth - that's why I own 2! Just so I can get a second opinion in case my primary is giving me numbers I don't like to see.



Nice chart! Do you happen to keep one online? If you'd like, you can copy how my little online chart is on my blog and use it's outline if you ever feel like setting up one online for other people to view/follow

Loch has done that and I enjoy checking it whenever she posts her weekly numbers.

It may help increase your accountability if you have other people following your progress not only on the forums, but also on a chart you update weekly. Just a thought!




PLEASE be careful! That sounds really intense :[



I'd recommend easing back into a full scale workout, especially with the injury you had, just to avoid any possible problems. I've heard of P90X and it looks like some really hardcore stuff. If you feel you're able to handle it safely, then go for it! But just try not to do too much too fast. It's so important to listen to your body, so if your leg begins to hurt (or you feel like you might die!), then please back off a tad



Getting healthy is important, but it shouldn't put your life in jeopardy at the same time! eesh. :biggrin:



And your Day 10 question made me chuckle for obvious reasons I've read a number of posts here where women were concerned with that. I don't think you all should be so worried (if you are).



Honestly, I'd rather the woman I was with be happy and healthy above anything else. I could care less about bra sizes or any of that.



That's just me though

Although my roommate is about as deep as a puddle sometimes and would recommend you gain weight if it meant your chest size would increase, lol. I mean, he's a good guy and has his own weight issues, but his mind is still locked in 'college' mode most of the time. He actually has an account on here, but never uses it. I think he just wanted to goof on my 'before' shots.



Anyway, keep up the fabulous work, Sparked!

Whoops sorry to alarm, Frogged! I do get caught up between this tug-o-war between wanting to work out and see good results and being gentle with my legs, but I know pushing it too far will only leave me having to baby this injury for longer, so I do hold back if I think something is too much. Like today one of the circuits was to stand on one leg and jump in an X shape - I knew that was not going to happen -- so I just modified it so I could do a similar move, but without any pain. And strangely the feeling like I was going to die was actually a good feeling! Nah, it wasn't that bad, cardio-wise I have really been pushing it for months now and I am in pretty good shape, I was just shocked at how hard the routine was and how much it pushed me -- but it was a good, rewarding push, and it made me feel really good about my abilities Even the instructor was really out of breath, so I didn't feel like I was too far behind.


And yeah, I'm much more concerned about being happy and healthy........ I'm just hoping I can have the best of both worlds!


hehe, deep as a puddle, I like that


Oh, and I think I'll definitely look into getting a weight graph online where people can see it. I've being doing the Christmas challenge and there have been times this week where I did not want to work out, but then I thought that I had to because everyone was going to see my numbers! You're right, very motivational!

Thanks for the tips

 

[luzdafuzz]

Far out lady, can't believe you managed those workouts with your leg!! That's craziness!! Maybe you should consider easing into it a bit first, I'd hate for your leg to suddenly get worse!! Good on you for doing it anyway, plyometrics are a bitch! (Though I love them, I'm awesome at skipping!) By the way, you're quite welcome to have my boobs if you want. They're more annoying and more trouble than they're worth!


Hahaha as for being an awkward nerd... I'm still a nerd, me and hubby both are... I'm more a computer/anime nerd, he's console/comic book nerd. But he's got me playing Xbox a fair bit these passed few years (games come out on there months before they reach PC, so it just made sense to me) and now we kind of have a shared love of comic book heroes and anime. Hehe! As for me being awkward:





I would've been about 16 in these pics... had braces, the worst oily skin that always had acne, more hair than I knew what to do with... I also had 2 skinny stylish sisters, and I was absolutely clueless as to how I should be dressing. So I always wore the plainest things I could so I wouldn't stand out or have anyone mocking me for doing something wrong. I don't really have any pics of me when I got heavier, but I gained about 15kgs more by the time I was 17. Funny I was so shy and withdrawn back then, but after my meltdown I just decided not to care about what other people thought of me anymore and just to be me. Now it's hard to get me to shut up most days, lol! I do still get the awkwardness sometimes, like I'll still be unsure about what I'm wearing before I leave the house.

 

[katehunibun]

AHeya hotstuff

OMG i proper laughed out loud at your ranting about 'how many calories does death burn' I so get what you mean. I have somewhere in my diary a running comentary of my failing and dying while trying to run.
Your workout sounds proper bonkers, i will take a look but i so don't wanna do it, it makes me want to be lazy!!!

 

[Sparked]

Originally Posted by luzdafuzz


Far out lady, can't believe you managed those workouts with your leg!! That's craziness!! Maybe you should consider easing into it a bit first, I'd hate for your leg to suddenly get worse!! Good on you for doing it anyway, plyometrics are a bitch! (Though I love them, I'm awesome at skipping!) By the way, you're quite welcome to have my boobs if you want. They're more annoying and more trouble than they're worth!



Hahaha as for being an awkward nerd... I'm still a nerd, me and hubby both are... I'm more a computer/anime nerd, he's console/comic book nerd. But he's got me playing Xbox a fair bit these passed few years (games come out on there months before they reach PC, so it just made sense to me) and now we kind of have a shared love of comic book heroes and anime. Hehe! As for me being awkward:





I would've been about 16 in these pics... had braces, the worst oily skin that always had acne, more hair than I knew what to do with... I also had 2 skinny stylish sisters, and I was absolutely clueless as to how I should be dressing. So I always wore the plainest things I could so I wouldn't stand out or have anyone mocking me for doing something wrong. I don't really have any pics of me when I got heavier, but I gained about 15kgs more by the time I was 17. Funny I was so shy and withdrawn back then, but after my meltdown I just decided not to care about what other people thought of me anymore and just to be me. Now it's hard to get me to shut up most days, lol! I do still get the awkwardness sometimes, like I'll still be unsure about what I'm wearing before I leave the house.

OMG I love that you posted pics!! After seeing them I realized we have the same (unruly!) hair -- it was the bane of my existence from middle school till about sophomore year when I finally figured out how to either straighten it or tame the curl, however all those years in between it was kind of a (big, frizzy) mix of the two So yeah, I totally feel you on the having all this hair and having no idea what to do with it! Ok, so I guess we're gonna do this now....

Holy frizz halo! I'm pretty sure this was freshman year, I remember spending hours in the bathroom that morning trying to get it straight only to have it go all half curl frizz by picture time. Yeah... well I figured if you ponied up some pictures from those weird in-between years, I guess I should too


My boyfriend has turned me into a huge nerd too, I actually have a "gaming rig" -- we play PC games because we can't afford consoles So yeah, due to his influence I've turned into quite the little gamer geek ... he even had me playing that super infamous MMORPG that I enjoyed but can't even bring myself to mention by name!


Hey! If only we could take a little of your boobs and add them to mine and we could both have D cups and be perfectly happy!

 

[Sparked]

Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya hotstuff
OMG i proper laughed out loud at your ranting about 'how many calories does death burn' I so get what you mean. I have somewhere in my diary a running comentary of my failing and dying while trying to run.
Your workout sounds proper bonkers, i will take a look but i so don't wanna do it, it makes me want to be lazy!!!

Haha, I'm gonna have to go looking for that commentary! And yes! completely bonkers! But it actually felt pretty damn good by the time it was done!

 

[luzdafuzz]

Awww you're so cute! And blonde! Hehe! Yea I wish I'd known the power of a good haircut and a decent curl booster back in those days, life would've been a lot easier for me. I never thought it was fair that me- with straight haired parents and 3 straight haired siblings- seemed to be the throwback and come out curlier, half a head taller than everyone else (except my younger bro... I'm even taller than my dad) and bigger. Everyone in my family is petite! My older sister is a US 0 and my mum would be a 2-4. (My sis is like an Aus size 4 and my mum an 8, they're little weeny creatures! And like only 5"4-5"5). So I felt like the odd one out till I just learned to embrace it. I love my hair, and my height, and dressing boho-ish while the rest of my family is more stylish... I like being an individual!


Anyway I'm fully hijacking your thread, sorry about that!


Which day of the week do you weigh in? (Or record an 'official' weigh in?)