Emily Rose: The Reboot
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alligatorob
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Probably the best time to write something, and you did.
Been there done that, but it doesn't really help, not for long does it?
Good on resisting the wine, that's an accomplishment. Hang in there girl, you will do fine!
- Thanks LaMa. Feeling a bit lighter today.
- Thanks Amy.
- Thanks Petal, glad to hear you are also doing well in work.
- Thanks Rob, I will!
DAY 22 - WEDNESDAY 22ND JANUARY 2020 - MOVING LIKE A SHIP THROUGH THE WATER
Weight: 179 (1.2 pounds lost - 16 pounds to go)
Goal weight: 164
Body fat: 40.4% (1.5% lost - 10.4% to go)
Goal body fat: 30%
BMI: 27.2 (0.2 lost - 2.3 to go)
Goal BMI: 24.9
Food:
3 Good Things:
- I was at the pool this evening and did my 50 laps, then went into the steam room afterwards. This man followed me in, and he said, "I was watching you swim earlier, you are a very strong swimmer. You have really long strokes and you were moving like a ship through the water." I thought that was an amazing thing to hear. I just like to think of it as a metaphor for the person that I am and it makes me feel very powerful and like I have a vision and energy and I know where I'm going. Ships always have a destination in mind. You just have to watch out for those icebergs.
- I had a good day in work and people were nice to me. (I was nice back!)
- I had lots of energy today and did a good day's work.
Anything else?:
Tomorrow will be a week with no caffeine. The time has flown by and it's been *whispers* easy. A week really is no time at all.
So, I won't be posting for a couple of days because I am away, so I will need to plan a little bit now.
On Friday, I will swap out the no teas/coffees rule for a no chocolate/desserts/sweets rule. So coffees and teas are back in but the sugar is out. I think I will find it such a treat to be able to have coffee again in particular that it might help the fact that I can't eat chocolate. I think I'm ready for this next phase. And it's just for a week. After that, it can come back in. And I can still drink alcohol, eat bread, cheese, crisps, etc etc. So there is no deprivation there. It's just a few small things that I can't have. And hopefully, I will see it impacting the scales.
I ate a lot of chocolate today because I thought I'd done the week of no caffeine, but actually I only started that on Friday. Ah well. At least I had some nutritious stuff today also.
I am really pleased with the no coffee experiment though. I'm really surprised at how easy I found it. I used to have so many every day. I wonder will that impact how much I drink going forward. I don't feel a huge difference, but I didn't miss it too much. Except the Sunday morning one.
Anyway, will be back Sunday to regale you on how much I ate this weekend. Have a good one all and thanks so much for your support and advice and kindness. This ship is going to reach that port, you heard it here first!
- Thanks Amy.
- Thanks Petal, glad to hear you are also doing well in work.
- Thanks Rob, I will!
DAY 22 - WEDNESDAY 22ND JANUARY 2020 - MOVING LIKE A SHIP THROUGH THE WATER
Weight: 179 (1.2 pounds lost - 16 pounds to go)
Goal weight: 164
Body fat: 40.4% (1.5% lost - 10.4% to go)
Goal body fat: 30%
BMI: 27.2 (0.2 lost - 2.3 to go)
Goal BMI: 24.9
Food:
- orange juice and woman's health tablet
- vitamin c capsule
- oat bran, milk, blueberries, flaxseed
- 2 detox teas; 1 feel new tea
- mars bar
- salad of spinach and pesto pasta, goat's cheese, peppers, rocket, celery, cucumber, spinach, 1 slice bread and butter
- handful of mixed nuts; cholesterol yoghurt drink; pear
- 1 slice brown bread with butter and marmalade
- 119 g bag of chocolate buttons; creme egg
- caramello bar
- 50 laps pool
3 Good Things:
- I was at the pool this evening and did my 50 laps, then went into the steam room afterwards. This man followed me in, and he said, "I was watching you swim earlier, you are a very strong swimmer. You have really long strokes and you were moving like a ship through the water." I thought that was an amazing thing to hear. I just like to think of it as a metaphor for the person that I am and it makes me feel very powerful and like I have a vision and energy and I know where I'm going. Ships always have a destination in mind. You just have to watch out for those icebergs.
- I had a good day in work and people were nice to me. (I was nice back!)
- I had lots of energy today and did a good day's work.
Anything else?:
Tomorrow will be a week with no caffeine. The time has flown by and it's been *whispers* easy. A week really is no time at all.
So, I won't be posting for a couple of days because I am away, so I will need to plan a little bit now.
On Friday, I will swap out the no teas/coffees rule for a no chocolate/desserts/sweets rule. So coffees and teas are back in but the sugar is out. I think I will find it such a treat to be able to have coffee again in particular that it might help the fact that I can't eat chocolate. I think I'm ready for this next phase. And it's just for a week. After that, it can come back in. And I can still drink alcohol, eat bread, cheese, crisps, etc etc. So there is no deprivation there. It's just a few small things that I can't have. And hopefully, I will see it impacting the scales.
I ate a lot of chocolate today because I thought I'd done the week of no caffeine, but actually I only started that on Friday. Ah well. At least I had some nutritious stuff today also.
I am really pleased with the no coffee experiment though. I'm really surprised at how easy I found it. I used to have so many every day. I wonder will that impact how much I drink going forward. I don't feel a huge difference, but I didn't miss it too much. Except the Sunday morning one.
Anyway, will be back Sunday to regale you on how much I ate this weekend. Have a good one all and thanks so much for your support and advice and kindness. This ship is going to reach that port, you heard it here first!
What a wonderful compliment! Although some dude following me into the steam room would've made me uncomfortable. Best of luck with your no-chocolate week and well done on the no-coffee week!
...like a ship through the water sounds like a line from a Leonard Cohen song; yes, I think it's a great metaphor for life - I can see you surging powerfully and gracefully forward through uncharted waters. (And there are so many great sailing songs, too!)
Hooray for knocking over no-caffeine week like a ninepin - just casually brushing it aside! As indeed, I expect you'll sail on just as powerfully through no-chocolate week!
Hooray for knocking over no-caffeine week like a ninepin - just casually brushing it aside! As indeed, I expect you'll sail on just as powerfully through no-chocolate week!
- Thanks Cate.
- Thanks LaMa. I guess he didn’t ‘follow’ me in but anyway, the compliment was appreciated!
- Thanks Petal. I still enjoy a creme egg, I have to say.
- Cheers Amy.
I am pausing general proceedings until 1st February again because I just feel like a break from the tracking and rules.
Work going very well at the moment. Well, actually, on one hand I made a feck-up today but my boss was actually very understanding. So that’s ok. The girl on our team that I don’t like has been made manager so that’s a disaster waiting to happen. I chatted with another girl on the team about her and she treats her really badly also, similar snide put downs and general bullying tactics from secondary school. I know that she has the problem but it is hard to deal with. She’ll be even worse as a manager cos she will think she’s untouchable. I don’t know whether to talk to our boss about her or not, but I guess we’ll see how it goes.
On the bright side, getting on brilliantly with the rest of the office at the moment and WC has knocked down the wall and we are completely back on track. I’m actually so relieved - my life is so much better when we are friends. It’s such a rollercoaster! But I really care about him, he has really done a lot for me, and I know that despite everything, he still has my back (he really tried to help with the error I made today in sorting it out for me), so I am completely ready to drop this whole shitty time we’ve had and just be buds again.
Right, enough about that.
SG is off the scene, no contact since the cancellation, but since I don’t think about him that much at all, it’s definitely a good thing. I did enjoy our time together, I guess that’s the main thing. On to the next one!
My main focus is really trying to get in shape again, so that will take priority over the men for now. I am not miserable about it but I just want 10 pounds gone, because it’s all on my gut and looks shit.
I’m also attempting a few days off the cigs again. Give me strength!
Went to view a house tonight, girl was really artsy and I thought we’d get on, so you never know. The house was really spacious, good price in a great location, so fingers crossed!!!
I’m really happy again.
- Thanks LaMa. I guess he didn’t ‘follow’ me in but anyway, the compliment was appreciated!
- Thanks Petal. I still enjoy a creme egg, I have to say.
- Cheers Amy.
I am pausing general proceedings until 1st February again because I just feel like a break from the tracking and rules.
Work going very well at the moment. Well, actually, on one hand I made a feck-up today but my boss was actually very understanding. So that’s ok. The girl on our team that I don’t like has been made manager so that’s a disaster waiting to happen. I chatted with another girl on the team about her and she treats her really badly also, similar snide put downs and general bullying tactics from secondary school. I know that she has the problem but it is hard to deal with. She’ll be even worse as a manager cos she will think she’s untouchable. I don’t know whether to talk to our boss about her or not, but I guess we’ll see how it goes.
On the bright side, getting on brilliantly with the rest of the office at the moment and WC has knocked down the wall and we are completely back on track. I’m actually so relieved - my life is so much better when we are friends. It’s such a rollercoaster! But I really care about him, he has really done a lot for me, and I know that despite everything, he still has my back (he really tried to help with the error I made today in sorting it out for me), so I am completely ready to drop this whole shitty time we’ve had and just be buds again.
Right, enough about that.
SG is off the scene, no contact since the cancellation, but since I don’t think about him that much at all, it’s definitely a good thing. I did enjoy our time together, I guess that’s the main thing. On to the next one!
My main focus is really trying to get in shape again, so that will take priority over the men for now. I am not miserable about it but I just want 10 pounds gone, because it’s all on my gut and looks shit.
I’m also attempting a few days off the cigs again. Give me strength!
Went to view a house tonight, girl was really artsy and I thought we’d get on, so you never know. The house was really spacious, good price in a great location, so fingers crossed!!!
I’m really happy again.
- I have my doubts LaMa, but hopefully I won't have much to do with her anyway.
- Thanks Cate. I don't know about it yet but I am optimistic.
Grand day today, powering through the workload this week, but the next two days should be easier, and I'll actually have time to think instead of just frantically moving from task to task.
SG texted me out of the blue today, I don't know why. He's going back to Spain for nearly two weeks, he didn't seem to have any interest in meeting up with me, so the whole thing was just annoying. I sent him on a picture of myself all dressed up at the party I was at at the weekend because I'm slightly pathetic, and he didn't even compliment me. So then I was just annoyed, and the conversation ended. What a piece of work. I hate texting for no reason. If you don't want to meet me anymore, then back the fuck off! And I have zero interest in being his friend and listening to him drone on and on about himself. So he can forget that idea!
Right, just needed to get that off my chest.
I'm going to see my friend's new house (and baby no. 2) on Saturday with another good friend, should be a nice catch-up. I haven't met them in a while so I'm looking forward to it. One of them is getting married in July, it should be a brilliant wedding.
The rest of the weekend will be spent tidying up my room and exercising. And sleeping. That's really all I want to do this weekend. I'm looking forward to that. I know it's only Thursday tomorrow but I can't wait.
- Thanks Cate. I don't know about it yet but I am optimistic.
Grand day today, powering through the workload this week, but the next two days should be easier, and I'll actually have time to think instead of just frantically moving from task to task.
SG texted me out of the blue today, I don't know why. He's going back to Spain for nearly two weeks, he didn't seem to have any interest in meeting up with me, so the whole thing was just annoying. I sent him on a picture of myself all dressed up at the party I was at at the weekend because I'm slightly pathetic, and he didn't even compliment me. So then I was just annoyed, and the conversation ended. What a piece of work. I hate texting for no reason. If you don't want to meet me anymore, then back the fuck off! And I have zero interest in being his friend and listening to him drone on and on about himself. So he can forget that idea!
Right, just needed to get that off my chest.
I'm going to see my friend's new house (and baby no. 2) on Saturday with another good friend, should be a nice catch-up. I haven't met them in a while so I'm looking forward to it. One of them is getting married in July, it should be a brilliant wedding.
The rest of the weekend will be spent tidying up my room and exercising. And sleeping. That's really all I want to do this weekend. I'm looking forward to that. I know it's only Thursday tomorrow but I can't wait.
Cate
Long term member
Is it wrong that I read that in an Irish accent?
You made me laugh with the SG texting paragraph. How dare he waste your time? Funny, Em.
The weekend sounds good to me xo
You and me both...I know it's only Thursday tomorrow but I can't wait.
Hear hear!
Petal001
New member
Hi Em sounds like you should block SG and delete his number . You don’t need that crap in your life .
Must be a week for head down in work I was same . Mind you so much to do there is not much choice .
have a good time with the friends . It’s good for the soul .
Oh you have a couple of weddings this year and dress shopping done yet ?
Must be a week for head down in work I was same . Mind you so much to do there is not much choice .
have a good time with the friends . It’s good for the soul .
Oh you have a couple of weddings this year and dress shopping done yet ?
- Not wrong at all! Thanks Cate.
- Cheers LaMa.
- No dress shopping yet, I am keeping an eye out for the red number for the December wedding. Maybe a toned down version but I actually do love that dress. I have loads of summer dresses for the day 2s, but I will have to buy for the main events. One is May, one July.
Feeling a little bit maudlin tonight. Before I go into that, I actually had a really good day. Work went fine, I went to the dentist after work and the dentist told me I had 'lovely teeth' so that was cool. Bit of gum disease but that's to be expected from puffing away on all that shite. The menthol ones that I smoke are actually going to be banned from the 20th of May, so it's basically going to be impossible for me to buy them anymore. So I have to quit in a way, because I don't like standard tobacco.
Had a drama meet-up and bumped into two lads I used to work with in my old job. It was nice to see them and we had a good ol' chat. It kind of brought back happy memories of a different time in my life.
Anyway, the maudlin part is that one of the women in the group was saying she's going off on a fancy getaway with her partner to a luxury hotel and spa resort this weekend. I don't begrudge her that, she's a lovely woman and her partner is super-nice, but I was just kind of sad that I've never had anyone to go with for one of those romantic weekends away. I guess SG and I were going to do that trip, but it's cancelled now. Not that it would be super-romantic with him because he wasn't right for me, but I was looking forward to it anyway. I guess I'm just wondering when it's my turn. I'm sick of waiting.
I also have low-lying anxiety about work at the moment - I have so many tasks and it's stressing me out. At least tomorrow's Friday. I'll try to get a good night's sleep now and hopefully I will be brighter tomorrow.
- Cheers LaMa.
- No dress shopping yet, I am keeping an eye out for the red number for the December wedding. Maybe a toned down version but I actually do love that dress. I have loads of summer dresses for the day 2s, but I will have to buy for the main events. One is May, one July.
Feeling a little bit maudlin tonight. Before I go into that, I actually had a really good day. Work went fine, I went to the dentist after work and the dentist told me I had 'lovely teeth' so that was cool. Bit of gum disease but that's to be expected from puffing away on all that shite. The menthol ones that I smoke are actually going to be banned from the 20th of May, so it's basically going to be impossible for me to buy them anymore. So I have to quit in a way, because I don't like standard tobacco.
Had a drama meet-up and bumped into two lads I used to work with in my old job. It was nice to see them and we had a good ol' chat. It kind of brought back happy memories of a different time in my life.
Anyway, the maudlin part is that one of the women in the group was saying she's going off on a fancy getaway with her partner to a luxury hotel and spa resort this weekend. I don't begrudge her that, she's a lovely woman and her partner is super-nice, but I was just kind of sad that I've never had anyone to go with for one of those romantic weekends away. I guess SG and I were going to do that trip, but it's cancelled now. Not that it would be super-romantic with him because he wasn't right for me, but I was looking forward to it anyway. I guess I'm just wondering when it's my turn.
I'm sick of waiting.I also have low-lying anxiety about work at the moment - I have so many tasks and it's stressing me out. At least tomorrow's Friday. I'll try to get a good night's sleep now and hopefully I will be brighter tomorrow.
alligatorob
Respected Member
Hey Emily, I was thinking about you today. A cousin called me and he really wants me to go to his wedding, and I might, he did a lot for my father when my father was dying, they lived close together, so I kind of feel a bit in debt to him. What his has to do with you is I think I once told you that I don't go to weddings, and I usually don't but may make an exception this time. I won't have to wear anything as fancy as your dress though.
If you work at meeting people you will find someone better than the SG, I know you will. And your romantic weekend will come, your turn will come!
When is your next play?
If you work at meeting people you will find someone better than the SG, I know you will. And your romantic weekend will come, your turn will come!
When is your next play?
Oh, boy! Just read through the past few days, and there's been so much happening in your life! I hope that's the end of SG - he sounds much more bother than he's worth - in fact, he sounds totally bother. Your work - wow! I'm glad that the situation with WG has mellowed a bit - don't like the sound of the new manager, but I guess cross that bridge when you come to it.
Meanwhile - I hope you're waking up (as usual I'm hazy on time zones) after a really refreshing night's sleep, and that today at work is non-drama and goes quickly!
(Cheers for the prospective red dress! )
Meanwhile - I hope you're waking up (as usual I'm hazy on time zones) after a really refreshing night's sleep, and that today at work is non-drama and goes quickly!
(Cheers for the prospective red dress! )
Petal001
New member
Em I am very happy that work is going well and that the drama group is too . Also that your teeth are grand . And menthol cigs are not as bad as real and at least you need to give them up .
Regarding you wanting your romantic weekend away well I think it will happen for you In time . Be patient as good things come to those who wait . I’m not entirely sure of your age but I have many friends and relatives who only found someone in late 30s . I have been a bridesmaid in my 40s for someone very close to me . It happens so patience my friend. For now live every moment you have and enjoy it all . Big hugs
Regarding you wanting your romantic weekend away well I think it will happen for you In time . Be patient as good things come to those who wait . I’m not entirely sure of your age but I have many friends and relatives who only found someone in late 30s . I have been a bridesmaid in my 40s for someone very close to me . It happens so patience my friend. For now live every moment you have and enjoy it all . Big hugs
If I remember correctly the menthol soothes the throat/airways, allowing people to inhale more/longer. Which is why menthol cigarettes may actually be worse than "normal".