Eerika's Diary

Sooo the scale showed 88,6kg this morning, total loss is 5,9kg at the moment! A week ago I weighted +1,2kg more after eating well in my sister's graduation party... Ive four weeks time before the army now! :leaving:

I went for morning walk (6km, about 1 hour) as usual and now Im "enjoying" my oatmeal with cinnamon and sugarfree juice soup.

Later..
 
My legs are tired from yesterday so today I didnt run. But I did my morning walk as usual, 6km in 1 hour.

Then I went to do some grocery shopping. It is pretty expencive to eat healthy you know? To make a one big bowl of sallad I need, sallad, tomatoes, cucumber, pineapple, feta and red onion. It will cost easily about 10 euros. And my big bowl of sallad lasts like two days! Some days I eat frozen veggies but those taste like crap! Also meat is expencive not to mention fish! Im having some kind of healthy food angst, because I spend pretty much on food.

So usually I just eat same food every week and buy same things like, turkey fillet, porridge, cottage cheese, sallad things, eggs, frozen veggies, chicken and grounded meat... Boring. I hate watching other people doing their grocery shopping, especially if they buy all the good stuff.. Also I was very temptated today by Marabou's new Blueberry milk chocolate! Oh my.. I bet Im seeing dreams about it next night.

Anyway, my day...

1h Morning walk

Breakfast: 35g Oatmeal, some juice soup.

Lunch: I made chicken soup with some potatoe, turnipla, onion and chili. OHh it was super hot and spicy! + Protein bar 73g ->300 cals

Dinner: Same chicken soup..

For evening meal I will eat sallad and turkey fillet I guess.

Drinks: Water, coffee
 
Today we can compare photos of my back.. First one is from the beginning, and another one is after my 6th diet week. Can you see any change? Also I took a photo of my yesterday's grocery shopping, got the idea from Overtherainbow's diary. :)
 
Hiyour photo is great.What a huge difference.
I started at 96 kg and today i am 89,5 ive taken pics too but they're nothing like yours!!!i guess everybody is different :-(
Keep up the good work youre looking so great!
 
jasper said:
Hiyour photo is great.What a huge difference.
I started at 96 kg and today i am 89,5 ive taken pics too but they're nothing like yours!!!i guess everybody is different :-(
Keep up the good work youre looking so great!
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Thanks Jasper!! Ive exercised like crazy, so I think it makes some difference in my weightloss..? But change is small yet. :( I want all this fat offfff! :D But yes, we re all different. :)
 
amy1985 said:
Yes, I can see a big difference- you're getting a lot more definition and a lovely shape around your waist.
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I cant see really the change from the mirror, but looking at those photos I see the change. Weird! :D In the first photo my back looks just so fat! Yuck! But yea, Im trying to find that lost waist which is showing a bit in the photo! :) Thanks for the compliment, I feel more motivated by hearing your opinions!
 
I tend to eat about 1250-1450 calories a day, and I do exercise, but only for about 20 minutes each morning. I count walking and cleaning as exercise too, although I know it isn't proper exercise really :eek:.

You are looking good, Your waist is looking much more defined, and your bum as well :) It must be good for you to have photographic proof that you are doing so well. WELL DONE!!!!:party:
 
overtherainbow said:
I tend to eat about 1250-1450 calories a day, and I do exercise, but only for about 20 minutes each morning. I count walking and cleaning as exercise too, although I know it isn't proper exercise really :eek:.

You are looking good, Your waist is looking much more defined, and your bum as well :) It must be good for you to have photographic proof that you are doing so well. WELL DONE!!!!:party:
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If I wouldnt have pics I would think Ive lost nothing.. :D Well sure I feel more lighten but it motivates to see progress in pictures you know. :)

I will keep my diet up.. 4 more kilos and Ive lost 10kg! Whoa..
 
Hmm. I wasnt that happy this morning after weighing myself, 89,9kg? WTF? How in the hell it is possible that the weight goes up and down like that? Almost 2kg flip?!!

Ive done a bit naughty today.. Havent followed the diet or eating times. Or I dunno. Anyway, Ive eaten 3 protein bars today. Thats not good. Im thinking about candy too much and then I eat chocolate covered protein bars. Argh.. If I keep doing this, it is whatever do I eat protein bars or real candy bars. Maybe I should put the protein bars out of my diet for while cos Im slipping.

So.. Today's eatings:

Breakfast: Protein bar 300cals

Lunch: Few slices of turkey fillet, some sugarfree juice soup.

Dinner: Chicken sallad

Evening meal: More sallad without chicken, TWO protein bars..... :leaving:

I must shut my mouth now. Didnt exercise today, didnt feel like it at all.

I hope this mood is all about becoming menstruation!
 
I so did notice my emotions yesterday, my menstruation came. And Im suffering of this awful pain in my lower stomach. I totally hate being a woman at the moment!!!!! :cuss:

Problem is that my mind wants to eat crap in these kind of moments. Sallad doesnt sound good at all, I want KEBAB! And chocolate and candy and... :angelsad2:

How the hell I keep myself in a right way now? I know I would feel bad after eating sweets but this feeling is like so strong. Ohh..
 
I look on stuff like that- my period and other times of weakness- as something to be beaten. A battle to fight. "I feel like crap, but I'm not going to let it beat me" kind of thing. Would that kind of mentality help you?
 
amy1985 said:
I look on stuff like that- my period and other times of weakness- as something to be beaten. A battle to fight. "I feel like crap, but I'm not going to let it beat me" kind of thing. Would that kind of mentality help you?
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My period effects on my emotions, mood and physical condition a lot. I feel so miserable and also start to cry very easily? :D So silly.. Normally I dont cry just like that. And also I dont fancy usually food like this, so strongly. Its like I MUST have the food Im thinking of at the moment, very very hard to keep away from grocery store.

I will try my best in this battle. Maybe I gotta get a protein bar today though.. :D
 
Ive confession to make. Yes indeed. Today I lost my control and not being proud of it at all! It was a sum of these bad feelings and stress what is inside of me. Didnt really enjoy it, felt a terribly regret the whole time doing the sin and did it anyway. Healthy huh?!

I tried to find a comfort from food, but didnt success this time. Im so used to my diet foods that I just felt more sad afterwards. But I got the kind of feel that yea, I can do whatever I want. If I want a burger, I can just walk to the Grill near by and buy it! Also its a bit scary feeling cos Im always afraid I lost the control. My relationship to food is so messed up.

Today the diet slipped out of my hands. I went to morning jogg and then I ate the porridge. Everything were fine after my period pains started and I felt hungry. I tried to make a fucking broccoli pie which tasted like shit and made me cry! Whatta hell? :D True.

Soo I went to the grocery store in the evening, bought a huuuuge sack of candy and ate it. Felt so grossed out later on.. BUT then I actually went to the Grill and bought the fucking burger meal. Couldnt eat all. Tasted too salty and yuck. The Grill was also full of fat people and I felt bad already stepping into the Grill. It just felt so wrong, and I felt pity for all of us in there! Why didnt I just eat the sallad at home without a tear!

MY feeling at the moment is very puffy and my tummy is swollen, so yayy! :reddevil:

Later.. Im going to bed regret this day deeply.
 
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Today, didnt wanna wake up. Im feeling like not waking even Im drinking my third cup of coffee... I feel also like I would have a hang over. Maybe I ll take it easy today, trying not to mess my diet more..
 
How have you done today?

Don't worry about yesterday, you were emotional and felt like shit, one day isn't going to make much difference to your weight loss, Its when the one day turns into one week that you've gotta start worrying.

I often take my kids into McDonald's/burger king etc... while we are out to go to the toilet, and I look at the people, mainly overweight, and feel sorry for them as well, and at moments like that I am so glad that I am not the one sitting there, mindlessly munching on a tasteless burger and large fries, slurping on my milkshake. Adding even more fat to my body.

You should get a chicken shish kebab.... they are really healthy with their low GI pitta bread and big salad. I might get one myself tonight actually. I haven't eaten out regularly in SO LONG! Used to get about 3/4 meals out every week, which adds up to at least £70 for me and the kids and bf. £70 A WEEK=3640 A YEAR!!!!! The price of a gorgeous family holiday for 2 weeks. Omg.
 
Hi..

Umm, I didnt get on track today as I hoped. But the day could had been MUCH MUCH WORSE. I havent gone all insane, but today was just a step back in to my diet.

I ate two fried eggs for breakfast, then in the afternoon I ate one ice cream and tortilla, in the evening I ate another tortilla.

Hmm. My relationships are causing me headache. Thats why my emotional eater Eerika is trying to come out! Argh, so mad about this. :banghead:
I saw my ex bf today. I cant get over him. THAT IS INSANE. Im in a new relationship and Im still thinking about my ex! And it also stops me to go on with my current bf. I havent told about this to him ofc. He would go nuts.. But yea, we have feelings for each other with my ex... I guess its normal, because we had pretty long relationship (3 years) and we lived together.. But anyway, nothing happened, we just talked and talked. He is so safe and loyal to me always, and believes in me. I got new fresh air to my diet from him. He said he can see the change in me really, and I should definitely keep on going.

Relationships suck though.. I guess Ive never been good at them cos Ive always managed to mess everything up.

Tomorrow I will go for my folks and just relax my mind for few days. I promise that I will get back on track! Sometimes you just need a day or two to fresh your mind. I guess I need to NOT think about my diet foods in those days, like now, Ive eaten what Ive wanted. But like today, I ate pretty normally, just the ice cream was extra. So my diet isnt ruined yet I guess..
 
I hope things look up for you soon :(

Tomorrow's a new day. Be proud of what you did right, learn from what you did wrong, don't beat yourself up.
 
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