Dreamer's Diary...

ok, so the past couple days have been stressful and i kinda lost my apetite (sp) for doing anything or eating... so im worried about the 'starvation' mode thing, but today looks good and ive only had a bowl of special k since i woke up at one (worked 12a-4a) so im going to try and find something here and head back into work from 5-8.

and the scale just said it was at 280... so im gonna update my ticker for that :)))
 
Yay for five pounds lost! I'm sorry you haven't been feeling so great lately. Good nutrition and exercise can help lift your spirits though, so maybe consider going for a short, easy walk? I hope you feel better soon..
 
thanks!
today was really quite a bit better. I talked to the person that i needed to get something resolved with and I feel a whole lot better. At work I stayed on my feet and rocked out with the tunes a bit just so i didnt have to sit for 3 hours. The weather was beautiful today and if it werent for this last minute shift I would have been out there. Im pondering a walk to the gas station for a thing of water as im out.. but overall a good day.

special K and 2%milk.
Turkey on wheat with american cheese, lettuce and mayo
sunchips (210cal)
water

so far thats it. im thinking about cooking up some chicken to have ready for the week. in fact... ive got some pineapple. mmm pineapple chicken?? i think so...

ttfn
 
Hey,
I'm so happy you had a better day! Pineapple chicken sounds so good! Special K is really good too. I love the one with the bits of chocolate in it, YUMMY! I also like the 90 calorie bars, especially chocolate drizzle...hee, are we starting to see a pattern here? ;) :biggrinjester:
 
Starting back up on metformin and Essential Boost... herbal supplement .We'll see if that does any good. More later...

ajo
 
I weighed earlier today and im holding steady at 280. its all good.

food diary....

breakfast... (certianly wasnt fast enough to get to class on time...)
Special K chocolate delight or whatever.. around 1030. 2% milk
first dose of pills

lunch... special k and milk again. after one.
second dose of pills

snack... ok, after my 530 class and walking up the hill to get to my car (10 min walk?) i was beat. i think it was mostly the case of the mondays... but also the pills acting funny on me. during class i felt sick and afterwards too. I got home exhausted and made a jelly (on wheat) sandwich, 2 slices....
about a half hour later before i headed out the door i grabbed just 2 plain slices.

walked (15ish mins) to class... and about the same back.

'dinner' instant potatoes (far less butter than i usually have) with pieces of the chicken i made a few days ago in it. I think i still have the munchies... but i think im thirsty...

im not sure but sometime tomorrow should be a yoga time. ill try for it.
 
Hey Buddy!
I've never heard of the supplement you mentioned, but yay for the 5 pounds off!!!!! You are doing great! Keep it up!!!!

:)
 
mmm. 2 eggs and some katchup for breakfast... gotta find some water.. and then off to work by 830.
goals for the day... get all my pills in, walk to my evening class weather permitting, toss in some yoga...

again, steady at 280 this am. wavering betwen 278 and 282, but resting the longest on 280 or 279. until its obvious..ill stick with the 280
 
ok, so i need a new scale... cuz this one wavers too much.. in 20 seconds, i saw anywhere between 281(split second) and 275. it was around 277/278 most of the time... so im gonna go for that... and hope its rightish.

as for yesterday, the walking to class didnt happen as the sky opened up and dumped water everywhere... and no yoga... i got distracted by photoshop... : /
 
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Keep up the good fight, girl! You can do it. I need a new scale too! It can be off as much as 20 pounds sometimes, blah!!!

*SINGS* It's the eye of the tiger it's the thrill of the fight!!!!* hee.

:party:
 
Keep up the good fight, girl! You can do it. I need a new scale too! It can be off as much as 20 pounds sometimes, blah!!!

thanks...

i know this may sound like a dumb question and sorry if you know better, but are you weighing on carpet at all... i try it out every now and then to see what the difference is than from hard surfaces... but it is close to 20lbs difference. if not... then yes... we both need new scales:p

As long as its not lying when it tells me its less than it was before, then it still means that i lost that much..so its all good.


Lets see. how did today go..

had to be somewhere by 1040... managed to not get out of bed till 10 and dallied along in my room until my roomate left around 1015, which left me 10-15 mins until i had to leave. ugh. but i took it easy and still got out late.
Breakfast: special k and milk

water waterblah

2 slices of wheat toast, one with crunchy pb.. which btw really slows down the eating process... so sticky.. and one with a bit o jelly. (i should get me some honey...)

more water

generally not feeling 'well' and like somethings missing.. started thinking it may be protien, but i looked that up and it seems ok... its probably just being on metformin again and this tea 'energy booster' but i didnt feel it last time*maybe* it was an insulin/sugar thing... idk.

so.. with this icky sick feeling, i went ahead and had some tostitos with some french onion dip. there werent much chips so there wasnt much dip had.. but that may have helped a little... and then soon after for 'dinner' i had some instant potatoes (milk+ butter) with chicken bits in it.

tonight before i got ready for bed, i checked my weight again, and contrary to the 'lighter in the morning, heaver at night' thing.. it again pointed to a loss.. not literally as it is digital...but you know what i mean. so it settled this time at 276. which is great. but im sooo skeptical of this... whatever. the official is on friday and we'll see then. if it remains at 276 or lower tomorrow am, i may update my ticker but not until i have more proof! lol.

today was park at the top of the hill day too. didnt seem as bad today, maybe because it was colder...

still no yoga.

I woke up last night with a cramp in my leg. wierdest thing... i wonder if it has anything to do with the hill walking.... otherwise im a tad worried...

I think I need to find some more solid foods. i feel like everything is pretty mushy (cereal, potatoes, soupy stuff... even the chicken...) i guess having that apple tomorrow wouldnt hurt that feeling...

lets see... what else... oh. i either need to find a darn tape measurer or go and get one. im curious as to whats happening to me ... if its all water wt or if there are any inches yet.. I have some OLD measurements i could see if im anywhere near those or hopefully less of course... but thats an aim.

events coming up that are worrysome..

friends may be coming to visit this weekend, drinking for sure. Im not concerned too much, as i can deal with no beer and maybe find a good drink that isnt too harmful... (diet wise..)

going to milwaukee for a weekend, traveling has a tendancy to have you forgo diet rules... AND drinking for sure :) I just need to remember to make good choices and such. Im even considering checking out the hotels gym... assuming there is time and i get up early enough without a hangover... : /

anywho.. sorry for the Loooooong post... didnt intend to .. but ohwell

have a great one
AmyJo
 
Ok. so this morning it clearly said 274. Im going to update it as that... and if it its off tomorrow am, so be it.

um.. happy dance anyone?!?
 
ugh, ick.. .so i was feeling all sorts of not good today, and I was at 500 cals for the day after lunch (fitday est.) and so i was thinking of places on the way to class. yes its fast food, but i plugged it in on fitday and still only brought me to 1300ish.. so i let myself have softshell tacos from TB. Well. i guess ive really changed things up in here, my body feels like it wants to reject it. Shortly after finishing my meal, I had a really bad headache and a psudo neausous feeling going on. Which was great considering I had a latin exam to take... anywho... i hope this gets thru me fast... no more taco bell for me : (
 
Calories Eaten Today
grams cals %total
Total: 1450
Fat: 45 405 29%
Sat: 21 185 13%
Poly: 3 29 2%
Mono: 17 152 11%
Carbs: 207 752 54%
Fiber: 19 0 0%
Protein: 56 226 16%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%

so thats what my fitday thing said for today..
 
i took measurements and im not really happy with them... so i wrote them down and ill just leave it at that. Ive set a mini goal for the end of the month... 268-265 by the end of the month... seems reasonable for this first whole month. 19 days.. 6-9 pounds more from here.
 
so i have noticed a jump in the cost of groceries now that im being all conscious... its doubled really. and that sucks.

anyways, im trying a different special K, vanilla and almond. mmhm. im not a nut fan but this works pretty well for me :) i actually like it better than the chocolate one.

Last night i splurged a little bit and got chinese, but i didnt really eat it. I did, but I didnt. I got into the crab rangoons before i got home, lol i usually eat my chinese in the car. BUT i didnt use the Sweet and sour sauce. Basically these rangoons (4-eek) and a couple pieces of the chicken were my dinner. I got home and separated the rice and chicken and the other 2 rangoons into separate tupperwares as to not be tempted to eat whatever was there at once. I also got personal sized ice creams... (which is misleading btw, as there are 2 servings in one ...) anywho i had a few bites of that and when the thing was about half gone, (it was small...) i was content with that and i felt full.. which was great. I put the rest of it away. that was a good moment. I had me some water and called it a night. It didnt put too much of a dent in things as this morning im holding steady at 275.

Im hoping the weather shapes up because thats a major motivator for me. I will walk to class and all that good stuff if its nice out. Which shouldnt be the case, because my roomate always walks, rain or shine... but comparisons aside... yes.. weather... please get nice!!

ive got some more solid foods now too. and some salad fixins so i can eat my lettuce before it goes bad.


anyways... have a good one all.
 
Awesome job girl...Mmmm...my mouth is watering thinking of your chinese. I don't know where you found the will power, if I had sweet and sour chicken and rice in my fridge there's NO WAY I would have been as careful as you.

See, I think this is definitely something I need to learn. ONE little indulgence will not ruin your diet. ONE indulgence does not justify calling the weekend a bust and eating everything in sight before I "BEGIN AGAIN" on Monday, which of course, never happens. Glad to see you're doing so great!!!!! :coolgleamA:
 
okay.. so. today i finally kicked my butt into gear. I went out for a walk in the only mildly chilly air. I have noticed a change in the way my jacket fits. Its a little looser. i dont have to suck it in for it to be comfy and not ready to bust open. Which is good. It feels good for it to fit well. I walked uphill both ways ahhaha.. it can happen... if the destination is on the other side of a hill... but anyways... i was out and about for about an hour. maybe half of that or less was shopping for shoes.. Walking shoes, and shoes for when Im in milwaukee for gallery night. Ive got this skirt that still dosent fit right, but i managed to make it work by wearing it up pretty high, Which i think looks better because the end of the skirt lays closer to my knees... and i think thats where its supposed to be. But im short... so it would normally go lower. ANYWHO. Looking forward to a nice week, more walks, trying yoga again... and better food habits... yippie.
 
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