Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Steve said:
Hey Val, thanks for the links!

Hope all is well. :)
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Welcome!

Yes, all is MUCH BETTER than it was.....

SO with the ticket I got, I got approved for traffic school!!!! :jump: YAY! SO that is one less point. I haven't heard form the DMV if my fender bender is going to reflect as a point on my record, but I'm confident I shall maintain my license.

At work, I absolutely LOVE working 30 hours a week AND having my own office (was supposed to be 20, but I have too much of a workload). I'm going to consult with Cindy (the pres) about getting officially 32, so I can have my benefits back. In all actuality, I HATED working 40 hours a week, and 32 would be enough to live, and probably enough to save if I am careful, but it would give me 8 hours of my time back. Ane TIME is PRECIOUS. Not to mention, in February or so the tasting room of that winery will be opening and I have a guaranteed job there, pouring and selling for $15/hour + commission, for 10-15 hours a week on the weekends.

The boyfriend and I get along great--mind you we live so far away from each other we can only see each other 2-3 times a week. But no fighting anymore and I have realized a lot of things about love, mainly:

if you love someone, let them go, and if it's meant to be, they'll stick around (or something like that)

don't make a loved one your world, just a part of it

do your own thing and don't desire to do everything with your loved one

And stuff like that :) Uh......also I have a guy I kick it with during the week, for male company and such :rolleyes: :cool:

Spiritually, I have stopped meditation and chants, BUT I do it during yoga class, which I try to do twice a week. I shall today! I LOVE yoga, I can't believe I didn't do it for so long! (Used to do a LOT when I was 19) I need to start drawing again--the damn computer takes that time form me. Oh, and partying did, too, so I'm hoping I'll start it up.
 
Good for you VBF!! I think you should certainly take your own GREAT advise that you just posted and live by those exact words, WOW you are really seeing it the way it should be, and that makes me so proud of you!! Live right and you will never have to worry about looking over your shoulder. :rolleyes: "so to speak" LIVE RIGHT + LOVE RIGHT= LONGEVITY! :rotflmao: YOU GOT IT GIRL! have a great day today, and I truly hope you end up with that job in Feb, I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!! Are you pouring this weekend?
 

if you love someone, let them go, and if it's meant to be, they'll stick around (or something like that)

don't make a loved one your world, just a part of it

do your own thing and don't desire to do everything with your loved one

I wish that I could pass that out to all my 7th graders. That's terrific advice.

And stuff like that Uh......also I have a guy I kick it with during the week, for male company and such

That's great to have as long as the guy reallizes that's all it is. There used to be two guys at school that I thought of kind of as eunuchs. There was a girl they liked and followed her around as a "friend". I love my female platonic friends, but I really couldn't handle being platonic friends with an attractive girl until my mid-twenties.
 
Miss Ladybug said:
Are you pouring this weekend?
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Thanks, Sweetheart! :) NO, I'm not pouring this weekend. I plan on going through my things and organizing my room a bit better, and doing fartlek, which is sprints and rests in between, to condition myself for speed for the race on the 28th.

hickgurltx said:
I hope you have a *Super Great Wed!*
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Oh thanks Stacy!!

Today was nice, I had to go to our company's warehouse to put UPC labels on some fine wines whose labels did NOT come with a UPC--our office prints them with our software. So I was down there, opening cases of wine, taking everything out, labeling,and putting them back in. It's sort of fun and I get to chat with the warehouse dudes, who are all around my age (or early 20s). I have a lot of designing shelf talkers to do today, and whatever else comes up, as things are apt to do. Then I'm going weight training and doing yoga at the gym tonight. Monday I missed weigh training :mad: If I do Wed and Fri I'll be in good shape, but if I can sneak another day in there that'd be good, too--although something tells me I won't be getting in 3 hours this week...maybe I'll do just one body part extra...

Cannon 2006 said:
I wish that I could pass that out to all my 7th graders. That's terrific advice.
I love my female platonic friends, but I really couldn't handle being platonic friends with an attractive girl until my mid-twenties.
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Joe, thanks, I had already heard the advice, but I didn't start to feel it and practice it until later. You know how that is!!

Yeah....platonic! :eek:
 
Hello my favorite amazon bunny tee hee!

Just dropping in to wish you a great day, honey. Stay away from the boys who like to strip down to nothing but a freaking smile. hahaa! love yas, Val doll. :hug2:

-Sheryl
 
Hey Val, glad to hear that life is looking up. 32 hours seems like it would be a great deal and still give you time to do pouring and other stuff. Sounds like you and your man are doing well too and you are having fun kickin it ;) Yoga is something I will do one of these days! Having too much fun getting back into running for now although I just heard about a yoga for runners class - sounds intriguing!
 
Thanks girls, for stopping by! Love ya!

Yoga for runners?!?! Count me in!

So here is my new office, coming in through the hall (French doors on the left, my private entrance)


My workstation:


The closet on the right is totally mirrored, ack! Makes me sit up straight!


And the bathroom right next door has been redone, it looks quite nice, although I personally don't favor the color scheme, I admit it is very nice:
 
Glad the no booze thing is working for ya. Feeling fresh, energetic and clear headed is a great thing..lol. I've been feeling like shit lately and I haven't even been drinking!! :rotflmao::rotflmao:
 
Oh Right!

Yeah! Calories!

Yesterday I probably needed about 2400-2500, and I consumed 1900! YAY!!!

Today my body is like, "Yo Bitch, feed me!" But I'm steady keeping myself busy not eating. I've had 1400 calories so far, and I'm still hungry. I'm planning on a 500 calorie dinner after weights and yoga. I haven't weighed myself yet....I'm too chicken shit, too afraid of last weekend's happy days. I figger by tomorrow I should be to my ticker weight.........
 
Oh right, and it's luteal phase time...day 23...where'd all my seretonin go?!?!
My cat has relaxed about being an indoor kitty until his stitches come out. He's a big sweetheart and now bothers me for affection. He used to just come in, meow for food, eat, and split. HA!

I'm still feeding the strays that come to my porch. My fav, "The Little Girl" I call her, knows me quite well and lets me come pretty close. I put de-worming medicine in her food yesterday because Gary my landlord said he'd done it a month ago and as she's still skinny, she probably needs it again (been feeding her adequately, she should have more meat on her bones).

I'm turning into a Cat Lady.

I still walk the dog next door.
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Oh right, and it's luteal phase time...day 23...where'd all my seretonin go?!?!
My cat has relaxed about being an indoor kitty until his stitches come out. He's a big sweetheart and now bothers me for affection. He used to just come in, meow for food, eat, and split. HA!

I'm still feeding the strays that come to my porch. My fav, "The Little Girl" I call her, knows me quite well and lets me come pretty close. I put de-worming medicine in her food yesterday because Gary my landlord said he'd done it a month ago and as she's still skinny, she probably needs it again (been feeding her adequately, she should have more meat on her bones).

I'm turning into a Cat Lady.

I still walk the dog next door.
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Kindness like this is what makes the world a good place I hate buying worm meds for my cat and your getting it for strays you rock repped
 
Need2BSmaller said:
Kindness like this is what makes the world a good place I hate buying worm meds for my cat and your getting it for strays you rock repped
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That's very sweet of you! Truth be told, GARY bought it.....:eek: He was the one that told me she had had worms, too, I just am the one who went to Costco and bought Fancy Feast 48 pack of wet cat food to share with Little Girl and my own cat...and the various strays....and put it in her food. But when I feed her, I shoo away the other cats so she can get food. She's rather small.
 
Hmmmm I gues I should mention

SO I was in Brad's diary and I was reading his perception on a few commandmants, and a light bulb flashed (and probably broke) in my head. I gave my own opinion, and I remembered that I forgot to mention the deal at one of my buddy's house. He used to live in a house with just the owner, a tweeker-plumber guy. Then "Stu" and "Tim" moved in--grade A guys, druggies, dealers, women-haters.....I mentioned I think I went over to visit my buddy and Stu's presence and conversation made me terrified. He's like....one of those people who are horribly charismatic and evil. Like, you're drawn to him for some reason and terrified about it, because you know you should be repelled. Tim didn't seem bad but then my buddy's friend A went over and had a threesome with him and his girl friend (on drugs) while he videotaped (I guess not really a threesome, cause Tim was too fucked up to get hard or something).

GEEZ sorry you guys, this is pretty explicit material!

This is true, though! And it brought to my attention that these people have serious self-loathing going on. Here's what I put in Brad's diary:

Need2BSmaller said:
This allows us to then look at ourselves and realize that even though to ourselves we seem unworthy, bad or even evil and inadequate the truth is we are created in the image of God and therefore it is not what we or anyone else sees but what is beyond that. The real us is the part of us created in Gods image, the part that is a prince or princess and belongs to God.

So many of us have self worth issues and the fact is the issues are almost never dealing with anything the things that we should really look at to come up with our self worth. The bible says God looks past what’s on the outside and to the heart of people. How many times do we sin and feel horrible for it. That horrible feeling is what God sees us as. The heart not the sin. When we realize this we realize that our worth comes 100% from God as the only way to have this worth is to give our lives to him. What we give to him becomes perfect and there is no way we can have self worth issues about it therefore the things that we have these issues about are things we are holding back from God. The logical way to deal with these things is to Give them to God. Although this as we all know is harder then it is for me to just write it down.
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Hey, Brad, you're on to something here.........a little story off the topic of weight loss, sorry about the digression.....

So my friend and I were IMing each other and he said
good gawd valerie..
my housemate tim is way abusive..
just now was probbably the worst..
beat the shit outta this chick..
she all bleeding n stuff..
screaming..
arrrrr

I told him to call the fuzz, he said:
its stoped..
and this may sound stupid but tim is my housemate..
you kno, he's on paroll..
and if they drug test him hes screwed..
its tottaly fucked whut hes done..
but she should just learn that he is evil and not come over anymore..
if i sent tim to prison i would not be happy with myself..


(My friend lives with drug dealers who are really awful to women. I really get freaked out everytime I go over there)

So I told him that he should try and help her, and he said:
shes gone now..
i have a fealing shell be back tho..
i'll say something ot her if we get some time alone..
but im not trying to get on the bad side of someone i live with..
may sound a lil heartless but there aint much i can do..
anyways yeah..


I yelled at him a bit, and he pointed out that he can't stop her from coming over and getting beat again, and said
but all i see is the women sticking up for these devils..
and then missing them everyday when there gone..


So I said maybe we need to go to a Women's Shelter and try to listen in on a meeting to better understand or something. He was down to go, but my point is that people, when they're down on themselves, let and do all sorts of things that destroy them. I, for example, like to drink. And stay with my boyfriend, who isn't abusive but probably isn't the best for me. My friend's friend A likes to go on drug and sex binges (poor girl is only 20, and has been stabbed and raped before). Other people use food (well, I'm an over-eater myself, I just also am an exercise junkie, which helps me not go too far). Self love is the hardest thing....

I was really too full of ideas and thoughts about the matter, I couldn't properly articulate what I was trying to communicate. I think my ideas are also geared towards myself, like why I also participate in binges, am I avoiding something? Why did I act so crazy with my BF, too, like why did I lose myself for him? What the fuck is going on with my friends and should I worry? I need to spring into action or something. This is depressingly contemplative.....I'm staying positive, though, because I truly AM happy, right NOW, and that is a glorious pleasure......
 
And another thing!! Steve's saying he's "fat" in his diary...:mad: would you all please go in there and yell at him or something??!?!?!
 
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You write goot. I always leave here grinning. You make my recluseness boring yet ok all in one fell swoop. haha, what a gal you are, so alive.
 
wow, you got a little bit of everything in here huh? lol

Thanks for stopping by my diary :) I'm sure i'll be feeling better soon!!

I hope things settle down for you too!!
 
T2 Trucker said:
You write good. I always leave here grinning. You make my recluseness boring yet ok all in one fell swoop. haha, what a gal you are, so alive.
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Well well, The Cold Fish decided to stop by, after DAYS. ;) Hey Randy, thanks for the sweet compliment--I used to right better. All the drinking has made my wit factor plummet. With hope, it will return!

Looks like you're back in Onderland? Nice work! We knew you could do it! :D


Hey there Korrie! Yes, my life is very very interesting. TOO interesting. Seriously, I have to leave a LOT out of this diary...mainly the sexual stuff, har har. Well, most of it.

I hope your funk goes away soon!:hug2:
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I was really too full of ideas and thoughts about the matter, I couldn't properly articulate what I was trying to communicate. I think my ideas are also geared towards myself, like why I also participate in binges, am I avoiding something? Why did I act so crazy with my BF, too, like why did I lose myself for him? What the fuck is going on with my friends and should I worry? I need to spring into action or something. This is depressingly contemplative.....I'm staying positive, though, because I truly AM happy, right NOW, and that is a glorious pleasure......
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You my dear analyze shit way too much. ;) I see it this way... the stuff with the BF... that's old hat. There's really no sense in playing that shit over and over in your head. The stuff with your friends... ummm yah... stay away from crackheads, baby. You don't need that type of drama. As for binges... muthafucka please... you're not avoiding anything. You workout like a mad woman, so you're probably hungry as hell! hahaa On a serious note, I'm just glad that you can sit there and say you truly are happy nowadays, Val. :hug2: By the way... I'm glad you enjoyed the "moob" post. ;) HA!

-Sheryl
 
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