Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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I dunno, I'm with you on the snuggling. I like living with a guy, but I also spent many years living on my own having a great time. I guess the move will show you what the relationship is really made of. Good that you're not splitting anytime soon though because that would make it far more hard to move apart, especially with BF's habit of not speaking to his exes. Maybe next time you all will find a place on your own without housemates. Maybe that was the problem, with those guys hanging around the house all the time. Also, lots of guys need to feel the separation to know what's really good. Hope you're feeling OK sweetie :).
 
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Randy: You're so sweet to me!

Claudia: Last night I came home and made a comment about the cat being without food and water--well apparently the negativity pissed off the BF and he did not say hi or touch me at all until this morning when I asked him what was wrong. The time is well come for us to not live together anymore! I've been very grumpy in the evenings and he is hating it. I have a few places to look at this weekend, and if I decide to take one, I'm going to leave early. If I'm so grumpy, I obviously need to be alone so I don't take it out on anyone. I think I'm bummed about the whole situation and it comes out as nagging. Then again, he refuses to do housechores which means I have to do them--although I'll have to do them anyway, for myself, so.......it's just that he LOVES the cat and figured he'd feed and water the cat if he cared about him!

Update: My bee sting is itchy and swollen and terrible. My ankle is fat and painful. It is going to go away, but it's pissing me off that it has not already. This article online said 3% of people have allergic reactions--THREE FUCKING PERCENT!! Damn my luck! :mad: :rotflmao:

I'm going to do that baking soda paste thing and I have hydrocortizone.

I have not and will not weigh myself. I'm too stressed and bummed out--I didn't track my food, although I thought about everything. My dream of being 135 by my 25th birthday is over. I'm over it! My body looks fine. Today I'll weight train for an hour, tomorrow I'll try to run sprints if my ankle is OK. But don't worry about me--I need to remember I'm very strong and will get through this--hey, I figure I'm happy that I'm going through something like this because it's at least different from the same old same old, when I'd come home and be bored by my BF--at least now I can come home and not have to worry about being frustrated! I'm optimistic that we'll live together after winter, and things will be better and different! :)

After I move, am all settled in, and have assessed my feelings about being physically away from the BF, and have reveled in his missing me (and he WILL miss me, dammit! ;) ), I may jump hardcore on a regime and lose those last 10 lbs (because I suspect I'm probably 145). As an emotional eater, there's no way I can try to get "skinny" right now--the danger is gaining, but I won't if I continue training because I'll be maintaining. (am I rhyming?) I have maintained the low to mid 140s since mid-May. I have no desire to binge at all. My body is adjusting to this weight as its true weight like it did last summer--except then I was 153-160, mostly 155. Mind you I understand that even then I was not overweight--my BMI was in the 24s. Now it's 22.7 or so--that is great, a lot of my friends on here would love to be where I'm at, I understand that, I love you and wish you the best of luck and I KNOW you can do it. I'm still here because I love seeing people here succeed and I like to help them in anyway I can. I'm emotionally involved in your weight loss struggles, and I have to stay here and talk about mine because it is a great release that I NEED. Thank you everyone!! :hug2:
 
It's great that you are going where you want to be. Sorry you are having a hard time right now. You'll get through this and hopefully we'll be able to help a little!:)
 
I think you ahve a great attitude - being optimistic is an excellent quality to hold...always look for the positive - great way tp get through life - I knwo for me I accept things as they are and deal wiht them - really in theroy there are no other choices - you need to do what you gotta do with what ya got...Im sorry your having troubles and negativity with the b/f - I always hated those feelings and the regret of coming home ha ha ha...oh boy I have been there girl...we had 2 kids and one on the way - if he got home early he used hte comp and showered - I had the kids on tow and wouldnt get home till 6 or 630 and have to do dinner nad everyhitng else it sucked - kinda like that cat issue one would think the caring woud be there to do something...

I just wanted to say hi before I take off to work - have a good day :):):)
 
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Hey Val, sorry about the bee sting. Hang in there. That was a great thing you said about being emotionally involved in everybody's weight loss. I feel the same way about the people on this board.
 
I really think you will be better once you are settled and on your own....even as much as you don't want it....some of the stresses of your relationship issues will be gone and not upsetting you, thus taking you out of the cycle you are in emotionally.

Just focus on being good to yourself...eating right, breathing deep, relaxing, working out, laughing and finding out what you can take from this time to make your life even better. :)
 
cinderelly said:
I think you ahve a great attitude - being optimistic is an excellent quality to hold...always look for the positive - great way tp get through life
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LOL! The BF thinks I'm so negative! It's weird, I spend all day being upbeat and making people laugh and charming them....then I come hope pissed off and grumpy and sad! :rolleyes: Well, just recently. I decided today that my cantankerous defeatest attitude has got to go! I'll track my food and I'll be sweet to the BF. My b-day is in 22 days; I want to be upbeat and happy and excited, not all doom and gloom.

Cannon 2006 said:
Hey Val, sorry about the bee sting. Hang in there. That was a great thing you said about being emotionally involved in everybody's weight loss. I feel the same way about the people on this board.
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It's easy to be, people on here are so cool! Like I said, if I was rich I'd hop on a plane and come work our with everyone!


bethann1156 said:
I really think you will be better once you are settled and on your own....even as much as you don't want it....some of the stresses of your relationship issues will be gone and not upsetting you, thus taking you out of the cycle you are in emotionally.

Just focus on being good to yourself...eating right, breathing deep, relaxing, working out, laughing and finding out what you can take from this time to make your life even better. :)
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You're 100% right, this is excellent advice, thank you Bethann! I'm afraid to say too many nights this week I have taken to drinking wine or beer. It is too many calories, not too healthy as far as amount, and contributed to my cantankerousness. Moderation moderation moderation.....
 
I think that the majority of people who spend all day in a service industry come home grumpy and pissed off. The people who manage not to become a negative person the moment they leave work like that are doing something right. I think you will be able to do it, but it's also kind of natural to let the guise of charming wine broker drop at times and get upset when the bf can't be bothered to feed the cat. :) It's REALLY hard for me to live with other people, but I'll make the sacrifice when the time comes!!! I just like my place to be clean, period! ya know?
 
Hey Curves, I hope you have a great night tonight!! I hope your Boo-Boo gets better soon!! :cry: That picture of your ankle looked bad! OUCH!! Oh I thought you made a good call by NOT getting on the scales today, enjoy your weekend and release that stress girlfriend!! I'll try to get on tonight or this weekend to check in. Later sister!:jump:
VBF
 
Tom:Tell me about it!

Bethann: It's like, every minute at a time--throughout the day my mind is consumed with stress/worry/dread, gets cleared, I'm happy, then over again!

lukewarm said:
I think that the majority of people who spend all day in a service industry come home grumpy and pissed off. The people who manage not to become a negative person the moment they leave work like that are doing something right. I think you will be able to do it, but it's also kind of natural to let the guise of charming wine broker drop at times and get upset when the bf can't be bothered to feed the cat. :) It's REALLY hard for me to live with other people, but I'll make the sacrifice when the time comes!!! I just like my place to be clean, period! ya know?
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Yes; at least when I'm alone, I will not expect anyone but myself to share responsibility for the housechores or the cat. I will also choose to live with a clean housemate.


Miss Ladybug said:
Hey Curves, I hope you have a great night tonight!! I hope your Boo-Boo gets better soon!! :cry: That picture of your ankle looked bad! OUCH!! Oh I thought you made a good call by NOT getting on the scales today, enjoy your weekend and release that stress girlfriend!! I'll try to get on tonight or this weekend to check in. Later sister!:jump:
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Thanks VBF! My kankle is awful today, I can hardly walk around the office. Wah no exercise--and I want to eat from bordem. I think I'll brew tea...
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Randy: My dream of being 135 by my 25th birthday is over. I'm over it! My body looks fine.
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Buy yourself a cute dress or something that makes you feel good for your birthday. Feeling that your body looks fine is something to celebrate all by itself, but its even better that your birthday is right around the corner.

I'm hoping I can make it to 160 by my birthday. 25lbs in 4 months? It can be done, right?
 
I like that idea - buy something pretty/sexy for your birthday. :D
Oh Val, you're just such an amazing person. You're being very strong right now, which impresses me to no end. Even in your moments of "weakness", you exhibit tremendous strength of character. Reading your diary and having you post in mine always encourages me! Thank you so much!
I haven't been around much this week, so I feel like I've missed out on a lot. But as always, I hope all these big decisions you're making will work out to be the best decisions. :)
 
It's easy to be, people on here are so cool! Like I said, if I was rich I'd hop on a plane and come work our with everyone!

Well until I get some time in at the gym, we work out at my pace and no Cambodian Ground Fighting. I bruise easily :)
 
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