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Misslovley

Misslovley

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Misslovley

Hellloo
(GET YOURSELF VERY COMFORTABLE THIS IS LONG)

Okey well where do i start, I'm 5'8 and i have a large bodyframe.
When i went to my gym and got tested and all the other good stuff that comes along with it, they told me that a person like me should weigh about 165-170lbs. I now weigh about 240 god knows probably a couple pounds more, it's scary i know!!!!!! Anyway i decided to write everything down because honestly ,some days we all feel like giving up and just saying ahhh what the hell who cares ill just eat this yummi chocolate bar that i just sweat my behind off for running 30 minutes on the treadmill:rolleyes:
I was never this heavy in my life before, i used to be around 210 3 years ago i believe i got sick of that so i exercised and ate healthy and i dropped down to 180lbs , i looked good let me tell you lol and i kept my weight off for the next 2 years then i had my precious little baby boy and the weight bounced right back just because i ate like a pig and i didn't care at that time. After i gave birth i didn't eat any healthier i ate even worse, and the pounds kept comming and comming :( my son is now 8 months old and im HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and not only that i feel horrible i feel sorry for myself now that's sad. One day i saw a picture of me from before how nice i looked and how easy it was to go shopping and pick anything you like, now all i can do i walk by all those nice clothes and dream about wearing them all day, i know you all probably think wow she's shallow and doesn't care about her health but looks, don't get me wrong i want to be healthy of course but for a girl it is very important to look good not because of the "attention factor" from men but just knowing that "hey i really look good and feel good". I finally decided a week ago that i would be VERY serious about losing weight because im not about to give up and let food control my life. I have started to go to the gym 5 times a week and i cut out sweets, pop and a lot of bread out of my diet. I dont eat any fast food anymore, but i did give myself a cheating day where i can have like a chocolate bar or something just to you know "reward" myself lol, we all do ;).
Today has been about one week since i started all this and oh god was it ever hard the first 3 days, i felt like i couldn't do it, but i did it :D yay.
Now it's pretty easy to say no to junk but im still working at it, junk food is always tempting no matter how much i tell myself NO U CAN"t EAT THAT!
Today is saturday and i made fridays my cheating day, but i think ill make saturday my cheating day since im out on saturdays and will probably want to eat something NOT SO HEALTHY :eek:
I HAVE A CONFESSION...yesterday i went to the movies and ate popcorn with butter and then today i hate A HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEEE icecream, i know it may seem like nothing but to me it kind of is simply because i know that i just started my new lifestyle and that im still weak and that things like that can screw me up really bad. This is how im doing it, i eat breakfast usually like some healthy cereal, and then 3 hours after that ill have a snack like an apple or something, then around 4 or 5 ill have dinner i make sure i have dinner early because if i have it later then my body will crave more food after that. I make sure i eat NOTHING after 6, ill have a fruit and bunch of water if i get hungry, but at no point during the day am i starving maybe just craving junk like chocolate, cake or ice cream and honestly at the weight that im at
(240) i don't need ice cream or any of that my body has enough fat to support me through 3 winters. On monday im hitting the gym again and ill be doing some extra cardio just to feel better about the junk i ate this weekend lol. WEll at my gym after ever 10 days we get weighed again and re-measured so im so exidet to see how much ive lost, i've gone to the gym 4 times in this week of my new lifestyle so i got 6 more times to go so i get my new weight next friday OMG i cant wait. Im not expecting to see that i dropped 10 pounds, but 5 would be nice lol or at least 3 ill take ANYTHING lol. Ill let you all know how that went!!!
Anyway write back soon telling ya if i cheated some more and how im doing in general thanks for taking the time to read this i appreciate it any comments or support is welcome because ill probably need it A LOT!!!
 
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Welcome Miss...you didn't gain the weight over night so it won't come off the easily either. But what you can do to help obtain your weight loss goal is to clean the fridge and the cupboards and get rid of, hide or give away all the "junk" food. Replace the space with lots of veggies, fruits and low calorie snacks. You seem to have a great start to an exercise regime, now you have to create your healthy eating regime. Don't forget to drink lots of water during the days also. You need to replenish your body while exercising too. You will acheive your goals. :D
 
Hi MissL,
Welcome to your diary :)

You are taking a great step towards gaining control of your life, your food choices and your body.

It certainly isn't easy changing a life time of bad habits and the lethargy that comes from it, but it's done one day at a time. Sometimes, one meal at a time.

Good for you for taking these first steps!!
 
Thanks guys for the support i appreciate it, it's been 12 days now and i've held on strong. Yesterday around 3 pm i started to get hungry but hungry for junk, I made my dinner time around 5 because i really don't want anything to eat after that, if i do get hungry ill snack on a peach or apple . So i almost gave-up but instead i just drank 2 full glasses of water so that filled me up a little bit. Well tomorrow i get to see how much i've lost in these 12 days of eating healthy and 10 days of excercising. I think now i realize that maybe me losing this weight is actually is going to happen, i've held on for too long to give up now, and reading everyones ups and downs, and that everyone struggles just as much as i do some days to keep away from the junk makes me have faith in myself more then anything. :) Once again thanks for all the support.
 
Goodluck tomorrow:) You'll do great, and even if you don't do as well as you'd like...you're taking really important steps to getting there!!

:)
 
hello

I finally got my new weight yesterday and measurements.
I lost 10 pounds and 4 inches from my lower abdomin, and a inch or 2 from the rest of my body (waist, thighs,etc) :D
(BIKINI HERE I COME)
Anyway I am really proud of myself, and I'm even more determined to keep going, I'm def going to lose this weight by newyears. Thanks to all of you and all your support i was able to fight all my cravings during these first 13 days.
 
Mslovley just thought id stop by your diary and see how you were getting along. congrats on the pounds lost and keep it up......
 
Congratulations MissLovely! What I find tough is to not keep eating the bad stuff, just because I gave in once. Turning one slip-up into a whole day of eating bad is what makes me give up altogether, so I'm trying not to do that.

Keep holding on, you'll get there!
 
That's exactly my problem Dariqueen, I made today (saturday) my one cheating day where i allow myself to have a piece of chocolate or something that i don't eat at all , today i had a little bit of cake , and i was afraid that if i have a tiny bit i'll have some more and more and just spend the day eating junk. But i didn't , that doesn't mean i don't want to have some, i sure do but when i look back at these 13 days it really isn't worth it. We are a european family so we usually love to eat a lot of meat and when i say a lot i mean every meal has to have meat in it. Vegetables are included also but mostly in the dinner. We also loooooooooooooooooove bread, bread with almost everything. So i'm trying to keep away from all of the sweets, but as far as those delicious european meals i eat them , but i cut out a lot of bread and i watch my portion sizes, and i always make sure that in the end i'm never full, i keep myself a little hungry, that way i know i didn't consume 4000 calories in one meal. Well today im having a hard time, i feel very tired , maybe it's the weather it's very humid and it's raining so im having a bad day all in all. I just feel like grabbing a bucket of ice cream and watching TV all day. Ahhh what a boring day, 13 days ago i sure as heck would have spent a day like this eating away.
 
Well it's 5pm and it's dinner time i didn't even notice, i was wondering why i was starving. Now the only hard thing is ignoring the fact that i'd love to go crazy on food, it's like feeding time for a hungry beast lol. Ugh ....this is hard.
 
Dear Diary
Im sitting here today thinking about the future, and one thing i was thinking about was believe it or not "STRECHMARKS", i was wondering what ways to reduce them, and i was wonder what are my chances of having saggy skin left behing when i lose this weight, i would really hate to have one of those saggy tummies. I heard tanning helps reduce them, also cocobutter, ugh i guess i could try that because i know strechmarks don't go away and that scared the S*** out of me, who wants to wear a bikini with a popped baloon tummy and strechmarks :eek: I was thinking about surgey, even though many people close to me in my life totally are against it , saying oh your're young your skin will go back to it's old ways, but i seriously doubt that sometimes. A tummytuck sounds scary to me, i don't want to have a huge scar across of me, and then the fear of infections and UGH..i heard stories about those kind of surgeries going super wrong, and i know that a lot of research goes along with surgey, but i haven't lost that much weight yet to confirm that i will indeed have that saggy stomach, but if i do im seriously considering surgery. Unless they invent something like a miracel that can make strech marks go away totally. They are just so ugly and i wouldn't feel any better being skinny knowing that i have nasty strech marks on my body. I guess all i can do diary is take it one day at a time and see what happens.
Until next time :)
 
i SHOULDN'T HAVE

I lost it...i lost control and did the one thing i was fighting not to do this whole time, It may not seem so HUGE, but it is. It's 8.30 and i had a fattening sandwich with a bunch of junk on it, and then i had like half a piece of cake :( how horrible, but i've decided to see this as just one of those downs in this process. I know now and i have tasted the feeling of being full of S*** once again, that it is so not worth eating all this crap, because it makes you feel lousy fat and and stuffed with calories. I won't do it again, i didn't bust my a** at the gym for nothing, im not going to give up to food, that's the last thing i'll do.
 
If it were me, I would go do something active right now...maybe it'll help with the guilt. I'm starving right now, and plan to stay up a while. So I'm going to have an evening snack (I know, BAD:mad: ) But I'm going to walk up and down the stairs a few times afterwards; keep my metabolism going.

Who knows if it'll work, but I'm going to do it anyway:eek:
 
one day at a time im cheering for ya!

dont consider yourself shallow at all for wanting to be thin to look good, its part of the human condition.

nothing compares to having a body that is in shape, no drug, no food, no snack, no junk, no quick minute satisfication technique is as good as waking up in the morning and your body feels nice and tight and everything is where it should be.

....i feel sad for myself too, how did i let myself get in this spot is a question at the back of my mind, but hey ive already lost 9 pounds in 6 days and just seeing 241 instead of 250 just makes my day and makes me realize not to pick up the junk and just eat a lot less.

i really dont care if i eat one meal a day, or if i skip a day of eating, i feel it helps my body out more than portions of food 6 times a day, i dont think im at that extreme level of having to do stuff like that.

drink water, let my metabolism be fueled by it and go get the toxins out of my body and good ol' excercise, nothing beats that weight loss combination.

good luck miss lovely, you can do it! one day at a time.
 
Thanks for the support Dariqueen,Shyguy, i did feel bad after yesterday but it made me stronger today, even though tasting that food felt great, i know what would feel even greater (How being thin feels).
Today the first thing i thought about when i woke up was, I'm have a really healthy day today.
Thanks again
:)
 
I feel like im giving up

Maybe it's the weekend, or maybe it's just me.
This weekend was so boring, i just didn't know what to do. I wasn't pushing myself to go outside and walk, i sat around no one did nothing, we all just sat around. I did go shopping for 2 hours both days though so i guess that might count for something :cool:
Well today i did good i guess, i had breakfast, something european i dont know the english name of it, at dinner me and my brother decided to go to subway i had the 6inch chicken something, lots of veggies and tiny bit light mayo to give it some taste, and i had water that was my dinner, but during the day i did have my fat free 60 calorie yougurt for sweetness :D Okey so i did cheat, i had a bagel that's like 310 cals:eek: and some other junk on it, i probably ended up consuming 500 cals :mad:
Im mad at myself but tomorrow when i hit my BEAUTIFUL GYM...i'll run more , ill try 15 or 20 min since i've been running 10 for like 3 days so ill try to challange myself see how far i can go. This whole weekend i felt like i was gonna give in into everything and just forget about this site and all my weightloss goals, and go back to my olden ways, i don't know i guess i was feeling low, but now that i gave it some good thinking i decided that it's not worth it, im not going to give up. I guess im mostly sad because some people don't believe i can do it, and would say anything to hurt me, in a way it worked, i know i shouldn't listen to what that person said, but it hits pretty hard where it hurts the most. :( Anyway ..i'm sure this will all pass and i'll be back to happy in no time.
Until next time
 
Dear Miss,
I have read your diaries and would like to let you know that you are really inspiring me, whether you may think so or not. For one, just hearing your daily struggles with food and wanting to grab a tub of ice cream and watch TV all day makes me feel that I am not alone. Often I feel like you do. I feel like I abuse eating when I am bored mostly. It is like it becomes an ACTIVITY to just sit and fill my face with crap. And always, I feel guilty afterwards and feel like a failure.

I have been having a real hard time lately becoming motivated to stick to a healthy diet. I don't have a problem with exercise, I walk with my baby about 1 1/2 hours per day. I have a problem with eating too much !!!!!!!!!!

Would you mind if I sent you a private message so that we can chat. Or maybe go into the chat room ? Do you ever do that ?

Anyway, thanks for your stories.
By the way=-------------keep up the good work.:) :) :)
 
No, don't give up!!! Who gives a rats behind what other people say about you and your determination---what do they know? They don't know your heart...forget them and get yourself back into your excited mindset about losing all the weight, looking fabulous, and wearing those cool clothes!

You can do it! *lovingly kicks you in the behind*
 
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