OKTOBERFEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have a German restaurant here in the Santa Cruz Mountains called the Tyrolean Inn. The waitresses all wear the little beer wench stuff and the guys have to wear lederhosen. I don't like the food (I don't eat meat and I'm not one for "pale foods") but the atmosphere is cool and the one time Chris and I went, they had a BLACK LAGER

and it was really quite good. Anyway, there is going to be an Oktoberfest celebration on Sunday and I'm wanting to go because I said I'd get drunk once after my race 9/27--and then dry until after my half marathon 10/5. But I dunno if I really want to get drunk.....it is SO WEIRD, Alta--for the first time in my adult life I don't really feel like drinking OR having sex, at the
same time. What the fuck is my problem???
hahahah, ur so FUNNY!!!.....
what's your PROBLEM?!?! I mean it could be a problem if you grown COBWEBS on your shit

...
if you knowwww what I mean,...LOL...but other than that, the fact that the drinking and sex together is not wanted shouldn't worry you.....
You know I went through a period in my life, where before my bf now, and after the ex and I had split up, I did the same thing that you did, kept things
light and FUN not too deep and IT WORKED for me for a while.....then something happened to me somewhat the same......I think that
it's not that the casual hook ups disappeared, or that no booty was coming my way no more....when it was JUST POURING DOWN....more so, I think it's that something
inside me realized that the DRINKING to MASK the situation, the fact that they weren't who
I WANTED TO ULTIMATELY BE WITH, but whom I
was with at the moment for affection and some TLC & attention BABY!! LOL.. It got lame in a sense.....I realized if you keep the same ol hook ups around, and
continue it....eventually there are feelings on someone's end....and then it gets messy....and not so fun anymore

.....and
still they aren't who you ultimately want, and then there are a couple loose dangling ends

....so for me the liquor momentarily hid that
OFTEN times, and you just toss it up to good times...and call it a night!
...it gets boring...
I mean not completely
heheh
... BUT YOU KNOW!!?!?!

I
mean.....you just get to a point that you want to be sober around some meaningful people....you know......can I get some
FuC&^#*&^N DEPTH in my life, ya HEARD!?!?!......that's what I got to after a while.....and from the looks of it....you got
deep now too....hahahah......REAL
DEEP with the thoughts and actions there...
Ms. SHUBATTICALASTA Yoga QUEEN!!!

........ heheheh!!!