Couch POTATO to "MARATHON" HONEY! :)

Hey Alta! i'm so sorry I have been away for a week and just when you needed me most. You have done so great picking up the pieces and busting out all those workouts! I took me 5 pages to get caught up. I really hope you don't end up going back to him - I understand the love and feelings and all the memories and past but you could do so much better and really deserve better - yes I understand we all mess up but he really messed up - and if you wouldn't have opened that email - how much longer would it have gone on? I also understand the feelings of feeling like it's partially your fault but in no way is it! You are not to blame at all! Me and my hunnie go through quiet times in the bedroom and he always lets me know it's ok and that he knows it won't always be that way - I'm always feeling bad because it seems like I'm always the one saying "another time" but we are human and we go through lulls and just because I'm not feeling extra sexy or in the mood doesn't mean my hunnie can go and talk to some other girl that might be able to fulfill his fantacies online or not. He is still getting excited and not with you and that's not fair. Turn the situation around and think about how guilty you would feel - you would feel guilty because it's wrong. You are not to blame in any way no matter what was going on leading up to it.
You are so strong and I know you will get through this and come out on top! I always love your positivity and strength and I know there are a million guys out there that would love to date you - take some time and then enjoy life the way it should be - you deserve the best and I truely think there is someone out there that can make you more happy and treat you the way you should be - like a spoiled queen!!! I really think you deserve more so keep telling yourself that and stay strong! I also love that you are back to smashing - I need motivation in that area! Going to do some bathroom exercises today! Love you girl and so sorry I wasn't around last week - I know you will come out stronger! You got this!
 
Hi Alta, I, too, just caught up with about 5 pages of your diary & am so sorry that I have not been about to offer you my support & love. Sweetie it hurts me to read that you are blaming yourself for your ex-bf's behaviour. That is so wrong & unfair. Almost everything that I would say to you has already been said so well in here. You have some wonderful, loving friends.
Alta, you are stunning, funny, great fun, full of energy, generous of spirit. You have faith, lots of ability, determination & are so open & sharing. You have been deeply hurt but should not let that colour your views about men in general or love. You will find someone who appreciates the person that we see & who treats you as he should. Please stop blaming yourself for his faults. See them for what they are. It is not your fault.
I wish I could twitch my nose & be there with you too. I will have to make do with sending you a virtual hug. :grouphug: :beating::grouphug:
I'm sending you lots and lots of love Alta. I think you are fabulous & you deserve someone who worships the ground you walk on & loves & respects you, as you are. You deserve the love that you give so freely to all of us.
Sending you some of mine, :beating: xoxoxoxoxoxo Cate
 
I thank everyone for their support! :grouphug:! You all mean so much to me. :beating:!

Thank you. Because of the fact that yesterday I lost a friend over talking about my relationship, I've decided to not speak about it here any longer either anymore because I don't want to lose another friend because of my thoughts, my actions, and or my decisions for my future. Live and learn. Live for the moment. To me, a friend is someone that can stick by you no matter what your decision may be for yourself, and it seems that this particular friend, just didn't want to hear the thoughts in my mind, and only judged things based on what she wanted for me and cut me off. Other than that, My life is GREAT! I have love for me and things will always work out the way they should!

I know this.... :) I am at peace, a lot of things have happened, but I think a lot of perspectives as well are clouding my perspective. At the end, only my heart can talk and my head can carry me... I realized that I don't explain things fully and that I don't give details making things really bad and leaving them vague. Then people seem to think the worst, when really things aren't that bad. At the moment, when I write things, they seem really bad,...but who doesn't do that right. Express IMMEDIATE emotion. Immediate emotion is clouded, which is why I write things down. I realize that I had made things seem much worse than they were. I didn't actually write what I really saw in the email,...which was not bad at all, after thinking. As well, as no one knows the things I have done as well. :( I've chosen to not disclose that part. Do you see why it is one sided?! Not all the details. I apologize to all of you. And I thank you as well for your concern. I do use this dairy as an immediate VENTING,...and really, you all have NO NEED for concern. I am always fine!!! :D! You all know that!! :beating:!

This in turn as well, causes people to judge situations in my life solely based on the one side of the story, that isn't even full ON MY PART...

I'm no saint. Put it like that. BUT...I have forgiven myself for things as well that I have done...and we'll see what happens in the future! :D!

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Got up 2 mornings in a ROW again!!! :D! I'm loving the morning workouts!! :beating:!!!

Life is really great!!!!!! I have a friend's birthday party tonight at a SUSHI restaurant, and hopefully it's gonna be GREAT!!! :D!!! I plan to work out at night too. I'm drinking shakes and feeling slimmer.

I realized that I have the wedding in Ensenada Mexico on July 26th, so that gives me some time to smash fat!!
 
Hi, I just wanted to say that whatever you decide it is entirely your decision and not anybody elses. Only you know what you want out of life and what it will take to make you happy, nobody else. My brother did something similar and his wife almost left him over it but none of the men that I spoke to about it including my husband could see anything wrong with it and thought that it was no different than looking at porn magazines or movies. My sister in law decided after calming down came to the conclusion that although she doesn't want him to do it again there are worse things that could be done to hurt her.
Well that's the last I'll say on the subject and I hope that you will be very, very happy whatever you have decided to do. xx
 
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Hi, I just wanted to say that whatever you decide it is entirely your decision and not anybody elses. Only you know what you want out of life and what it will take to make you happy, nobody else. My brother did something similar and his wife almost left him over it but none of the men that I spoke to about it including my husband could see anything wrong with it and thought that it was no different than looking at porn magazines or movies. My sister in law decided after calming down came to the conclusion that although she doesn't want him to do it again there are worse things that could be done to hurt her.
Well that's the last I'll say on the subject and I hope that you will be very, very happy whatever you have decided to do. xx
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THank you love!!! You have been such a ROCK for me. The truth!!! :beating:!!!

Thank you for sharing that. As for right now, I'm not sure on where the direction of things are going, other than for peace :)!

Again...thank you doll face!! :)
 
All this Soccer around the world, makes me want to JOIN A TEAM!!!! :cheers2:!!!

I'm searching for one as we speak. HAHAHA...have I played ever? NO!!

Do I want to play? YES!

Can I run ? YES!

...that's ALL that matters. In my mind I can hit the ball in the goal!! :D!
 
Hey Alta....

Sometimes friends dont want to see you get hurt so they're 'help' is usually biased.

What ever you do, it will be your choice.

Relationships are difficult. My wife and I have been together almost 15 yrs. (married almost 4) Some days are great...some days are crap. Somedays its bedroom sex...somedays its hallway sex, (when the only time you see eachother is in the hallway and you flip eachother the finger!).
We probably could have broken up a dozen times at least...each time being the end of the world. But each time one of us pleads with the other to not let it end yada yada yada and each time we resolve the problems. Sometimes I'm at fault and sometimes she is, (although she will say its always my fault! lol)
If I was to listen to what my friends said, I would have left years ago. I'm sure she would have say the same. (And there were relationships where I wish I would have listned to friends lol)
In the end, we live with our choices and move on cause tomorrow is another day....and there will probably be another challenge there too.

Ok...enough blabberin!

Hope you have a great day and remember...happiness is only a smile away. :)
 
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Hey Alta....

Sometimes friends dont want to see you get hurt so they're 'help' is usually biased.

What ever you do, it will be your choice.

Relationships are difficult. My wife and I have been together almost 15 yrs. (married almost 4) Some days are great...some days are crap. Somedays its bedroom sex...somedays its hallway sex, (when the only time you see eachother is in the hallway and you flip eachother the finger!).
We probably could have broken up a dozen times at least...each time being the end of the world. But each time one of us pleads with the other to not let it end yada yada yada and each time we resolve the problems. Sometimes I'm at fault and sometimes she is, (although she will say its always my fault! lol)
If I was to listen to what my friends said, I would have left years ago. I'm sure she would have say the same. (And there were relationships where I wish I would have listned to friends lol)
In the end, we live with our choices and move on cause tomorrow is another day....and there will probably be another challenge there too.

Ok...enough blabberin!

Hope you have a great day and remember...happiness is only a smile away. :)
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:cheers2: AMEN!!!

Sometimes,...I think it's about evaluating the ENTIRE relationship, and weighing the PROS and the CONS! Like you say...sometimes it's great,..and sometimes it's not.

There also gets to a point in one's life I think, that you value the relationship and what it provides more than when you are 20 years old and don't give a fuck!

...At the end...you are right....it's our decision. Those who love you, stick by you. Those who don't then won't. I do understand that friend's care and don't want to see you hurt...but at the same time....you can't always listen to others when it comes to relationships about yours, because NO ONE except the two of you will ever really know the bond between the two as well as the sincerity of the situations.

You are very WISE! hahah ;)! ...and I'm sure it's not your fault always!! hahah ;)!
 
Day 3 this week of FIGHTING FOR IT in the morning!!! :D!!! I did 35 mins of varied workouts. Tons of sweat! :drool5:!

...but on another note, I have been eating a lot of salty foods lately, and unfortunately I was allowing myself to drink a lot, and to have a lot of beers, and now TOMS IS HERE & I'm retaining water and salt and I can't believe my eyes, along with all the past stress this week and a half...I'm 167 pounds!!!!! :eek: Annoying.

On another note, since I'm not sitting on my ass about it, and I'm working for it...I don't feel as bad. I have 4 weeks to CRUNCH my ass down before this wedding in Mexico. I'll be damned to be a fat ass in all the pics. Ugggh...

I was going to go camping this weekend, but THIS IS SERIOUS. I am SMASHING a shit load this weekend if it kills me or not. I'll shoot myself to see 180 on the scale, if I were to go camping and drink and gain another 11 lbs! So I have a long weekend of 3 days to just HIT IT HARD!!! No excuses, tons of water, no added salt, hot green tea, tons of sweating, and maybe a diuretic. LOL!! Shit. You know. And pure smoothie shakes, with chicken tender snacks only. ;)!
 
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I'm SO PROUD of my client from yesterday!!! :party:! He smashed 10 lbs in a month with my help!!! WOohooo!!

The AMAZING part is seeing people's belief systems in themselves grow! I have a cool interactive spreadsheet online for them, and they log their food and reflection, and I comment and support, and we weekly once a week do a Hypnosis session and do subconscious mental exercises to change the subconscious behaviors of the past and overcome any weekly obstacles of sabotage that they may have encountered to align it with their conscious desires!!!

I feel like a SUCESS when they feel like they are a SUCCESS!!!

:Angel_anim: Now I just have to try harder..and find more clients. I Can do it!!! I've been doing my affirmations, and all of a sudden people are emailing me from no where that they are interested in sessions. One new client at the very least is supposed to come out of it this next week. I'm going to get back to going to my mixers again, and I want to make more weight loss fliers because I love working with the weight loss and running clients. As well, I want to go to chiropractors, and psychotherapists, and energy healers, and gym trainers, and hmmm...all kinds of people and offer my services. I need to FOCUS!!! :D!!

My website should be ready to launch within a week or two!! YEAA!! :cheers2:!!!

On the exercise front, I Fought For Myself again Last night!!! :D! This is becoming routine. Jumped on the bike, and treadmill and got inspired after I watched Jillian Michael's Losing it! ...The things people can do in 2 months is AMAZING! ...Hard work! ...but...I went to bed late though and didn't fight this morning. Oh well, tonight ,yes. Might go to the movies tonight and see Get him to the Greek! ...we'll see. :)! Not sure...

Feeling mighty blessed!! <3 :beating: I gave my friend a "Sex Basket" for her birthday the other day, and we all went out to sushi and she LOVED IT :drool5:! Then all these girls wanted to come over to my place, and I flaunted off my COOL sex toy baskets and all the wonderful :reddevil: things that are in them and I might be hosting a party within a few weeks to get rid of them all at my place! One of the girls, said she had tons of friends and had been thinking of throwing one anyway.

That would be some cool cash$$! I could probably make $300-$400 from my living room! Considering I'm selling them all DIRTTTTTTT cheap and calling it an overall loss of previous investment. hahah ;)! That's how you do it. (besides...I can't wait to get the damn baskets out of my living room!) I'm giving another one away to a girl getting married!!I'm sure her and her husband can use the toys!! .. or just her!
 
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I'm feeling slimmer!!! Weird...but it's true. I'm fitting into a smaller size pants also. I don't get it because I have gained lbs...oh well. Nothing to get. Just keep doing the actions!! My stamina is going up as well too...
 
Hmi web tv special that i filmed!! Linked below! :)

NEW MOTIVATION!: (WEB TV MAKES YOU LOOK FATTER AND GIVES THE TRUTH ABOUT HOW YOU LOOK!! )

Here is one of the episodes for HMI hypnotherapy web tv that I filmed a couple weeks back. I realized HOW HORRRRRRRIBLE and FAT I look. My face is lost in fat. Where the hell did my cheek bones go?! And it looks like I'm 9 months pregnant! Soooo sad.....buttt here it is. One episode filmed. The dress was a BAD choice for web tv. I filmed another one in which I was wearing all black. When I see that one I'll paste it. I haven't even heard the sound on this video yet but here is it for you. :D! That's me people!!


Web TV links of me below: {{{HOT TOPICS IN HYPNOTHERAPY WITH ALTA LAINEZ!}}}


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luzdafuzz said:
:eek2: Alta you are CRAZY!!! You look GORGEOUS in those clips!!! Like WOW gorgeous!!
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Thank you love!!! That is so sweet! I was so nervous and didn't know what the show was going to be on, until seconds before it shot. hahah..Not to mention, the lights are so bright!! They can barely let you concentrate. At points, I thought I was sweating!! hahaha
 
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