I just read about your breakup. That's terrible! It sounds like you are using the time to take care of yourself and think things through. Your positive attitude is inspiring. I think that whatever happens, whether you get back together with him or not, you will come through this a stronger person. I'm really sorry you're hurting.
Couch POTATO to "MARATHON" HONEY! :)
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Alta818
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Thank you love
! I know you are right. Sadness and pain comes in waves, and then happiness and laughter follows. When it rains on me...is soon after Shines on me too! 
Day by day...stronger and stronger. Sometimes weaker...but mainly stronger. Today kind of weaker. 
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Alta818
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"People with high self esteem
have it because
they overcome their failures.
They have been put to
the test of life,
overcome the problems
and grown."
David Jansen
"There is little sense in attempt
to change external conditions,
you must first change inner beliefs
then outer conditions
will change accordingly."
Brain Adams "How to Succeed".
have it because
they overcome their failures.
They have been put to
the test of life,
overcome the problems
and grown."
David Jansen
"There is little sense in attempt
to change external conditions,
you must first change inner beliefs
then outer conditions
will change accordingly."
Brain Adams "How to Succeed".
Alta818
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Sabotage!!! Ahhh YES!! We are all SO familiar with it!!
This was what we were talking about with my client last night. The concept is so interesting to me. It's so easy to sabotage ourselves. To not think. To not face things, and remain COMPLACENT. It's so easy to find an ESCAPE. We often call these escapes a "break", a "treat", a "reward", "I don't care mentality", "not today", "an excuse"....ALL THAT SHIT. That list can go on forever. Really. BUT...WHY?!!!!!!
You know, if we don't re evaluate WHY we are doing the things we are doing, ...then how the hell can we truly FACE what's going on within us? Right. We can't. Time passes. We wonder how the hell we got here. Plain and simple. Lack of Reflection.
I mean, who the hell BOTHERS to re evaluate their goals, let alone write them out, EVEN worse,....make them?!!?!
Right. Not many. I've found the people on this site, are of the very few that I actually DO see do the goal setting. Taking the actions. Re evaluating. Doing the steps. I LOVE that!!!
I mean, if you think about it like this.... When we take a trip or are planning to take a Long Car Drive somewhere UNKOWN...what is the fist thing we need to do?! ......YES! Find out how to get there....!!! Correct! But how do we do that?! .....Plain and SIMPLE...get a MAP dammit, get Directions, and KNOW WHY YOU ARE GOING THERE?!! What happens when you get in the car, expecting to arrive somewhere and you didn't bother to take the time to get directions, to evaluate WHY you are going there, and to make a plan on how you are going to get there?.....You end up LOST & FRUSTRATED with the desire to want to go back HOME! Home can be (fat land to some, maybe to you too)!
...I think this can really apply to All Areas of Life. So often, in weight loss, in relationships, in planning trips, in planning goals, in doing EVERYTHING. We think we know what we want but never bothered to make a PLAN on how to get there. Never bothered to evaluate whether the people on your journey as well are going for the same reasons as you. Never bothered to find out what their reasons were or if they changed along the way. We never bothered to get the MAP and get directions on how. Never bothered to COUNT the calories, to WRITE that shit down....Neverrrr bothered. And if you did. I commend you. But have you re evaluated WHY you are now doing something?! Have you taken the time to adjust the goals?! Mutual or single goals? Partner or no partner? Where are you intending for anything to go? How will you get there?
If we don't think about this stuff...Time WILL SLAP you in the face!!! Time will have gone by,...you will have followed a LONGER path down the road that leads to no where near where you wanted to be. You will be LOST and FRUSTRATED and realize that you took more time to plan a damn birthday party than you ever did to PLAN YOUR LIFE!
Bottom LINE.....I'm sick of it!!! Not planning leads to FAILURE! Not taking daily steps leads to failure. Not re evaluating your WHY's leads to failure. Not facing SHIT leads to failure. Why do we do this? Because it's SIMPLE!
It's Simple to ESCAPE and not face the TRUTH! Because the The TRUTH HURTS!
Fuck yea it does. It hurts when we realize we didn't take the time to plan. Didn't take the time to think about where we are going. Didn't take the time to make sure that the people we surround ourselves with are going in the same direction. It hurts when we realize that "escaped" into food. "Escaped" into alcohol. Done the simple fuckn task of Giving UP on ourselves!! What I say is BULLSHIT!!! Change that shit NOW! It's never too late. Ask yourself what you need to find out, and WORK FOR IT!!! FIGHT FOR IT!!! If you don't no one will ever fight for you!!! YOU ARE WORTH every fuckn thing you DON'T WANT to do. Because the easy road taken has become a "Belief System" in your mind. It's easier. FUCK THAT!!! FUCK EASY! Good things are NOT EASY! Everything worth ANYTHING takes some hard fighting for!!! Who the fuck said NOT SUCCEEDING is okay?! ...You did? ....Fuck you too. You are WORTH IT! GET UP & FIGHT!!!!!!! No one will do this for you. Especially if you don't do it for YOURSELF!!! Who are you!? What are you made of? And what the fuck is SO BAD that you are hiding from that you can't WAKE UP and face the fact that you are GOING IN THE WRONG direction!? TURN AROUND!!! WTF?! Wakeeeeee up!!!! It will get easier. Fighting becomes ROUTINE afterwards. Taking pro active steps for YOU becomes routine. The people around you change, and most importantly....FUCK SABOTAGE! Eating does NOT MAKE ANYTHING better! Working out on the other hand, DOES! Your health, your heart beat, you mood, your ambition, your confidence, your stamina, your sex life, your mind control, your ability to free yourself of thought, of judgemental thought, your ability to break a sweat, your muscle content, and your ability to show yourself YOU CAN DO ANYTHING if you FIGHT FOR IT!
The results are worth the continuance of the Actions!! 
Whew...! Mental ramble........lol ! hahah!
I'm feeling COMMANDO today!! !
This was what we were talking about with my client last night. The concept is so interesting to me. It's so easy to sabotage ourselves. To not think. To not face things, and remain COMPLACENT. It's so easy to find an ESCAPE. We often call these escapes a "break", a "treat", a "reward", "I don't care mentality", "not today", "an excuse"....ALL THAT SHIT. That list can go on forever. Really. BUT...WHY?!!!!!!
You know, if we don't re evaluate WHY we are doing the things we are doing, ...then how the hell can we truly FACE what's going on within us? Right. We can't. Time passes. We wonder how the hell we got here. Plain and simple. Lack of Reflection.
I mean, who the hell BOTHERS to re evaluate their goals, let alone write them out, EVEN worse,....make them?!!?!
Right. Not many. I've found the people on this site, are of the very few that I actually DO see do the goal setting. Taking the actions. Re evaluating. Doing the steps. I LOVE that!!!I mean, if you think about it like this.... When we take a trip or are planning to take a Long Car Drive somewhere UNKOWN...what is the fist thing we need to do?! ......YES! Find out how to get there....!!! Correct! But how do we do that?! .....Plain and SIMPLE...get a MAP dammit, get Directions, and KNOW WHY YOU ARE GOING THERE?!! What happens when you get in the car, expecting to arrive somewhere and you didn't bother to take the time to get directions, to evaluate WHY you are going there, and to make a plan on how you are going to get there?.....You end up LOST & FRUSTRATED with the desire to want to go back HOME! Home can be (fat land to some, maybe to you too)!
...I think this can really apply to All Areas of Life. So often, in weight loss, in relationships, in planning trips, in planning goals, in doing EVERYTHING. We think we know what we want but never bothered to make a PLAN on how to get there. Never bothered to evaluate whether the people on your journey as well are going for the same reasons as you. Never bothered to find out what their reasons were or if they changed along the way. We never bothered to get the MAP and get directions on how. Never bothered to COUNT the calories, to WRITE that shit down....Neverrrr bothered. And if you did. I commend you. But have you re evaluated WHY you are now doing something?! Have you taken the time to adjust the goals?! Mutual or single goals? Partner or no partner? Where are you intending for anything to go? How will you get there?
If we don't think about this stuff...Time WILL SLAP you in the face!!! Time will have gone by,...you will have followed a LONGER path down the road that leads to no where near where you wanted to be. You will be LOST and FRUSTRATED and realize that you took more time to plan a damn birthday party than you ever did to PLAN YOUR LIFE!
Bottom LINE.....I'm sick of it!!! Not planning leads to FAILURE! Not taking daily steps leads to failure. Not re evaluating your WHY's leads to failure. Not facing SHIT leads to failure. Why do we do this? Because it's SIMPLE!
It's Simple to ESCAPE and not face the TRUTH! Because the The TRUTH HURTS!
Fuck yea it does. It hurts when we realize we didn't take the time to plan. Didn't take the time to think about where we are going. Didn't take the time to make sure that the people we surround ourselves with are going in the same direction. It hurts when we realize that "escaped" into food. "Escaped" into alcohol. Done the simple fuckn task of Giving UP on ourselves!! What I say is BULLSHIT!!! Change that shit NOW! It's never too late. Ask yourself what you need to find out, and WORK FOR IT!!! FIGHT FOR IT!!! If you don't no one will ever fight for you!!! YOU ARE WORTH every fuckn thing you DON'T WANT to do. Because the easy road taken has become a "Belief System" in your mind. It's easier. FUCK THAT!!! FUCK EASY! Good things are NOT EASY! Everything worth ANYTHING takes some hard fighting for!!! Who the fuck said NOT SUCCEEDING is okay?! ...You did? ....Fuck you too.
You are WORTH IT! GET UP & FIGHT!!!!!!! No one will do this for you. Especially if you don't do it for YOURSELF!!! Who are you!? What are you made of? And what the fuck is SO BAD that you are hiding from that you can't WAKE UP and face the fact that you are GOING IN THE WRONG direction!? TURN AROUND!!! WTF?! Wakeeeeee up!!!! It will get easier. Fighting becomes ROUTINE afterwards. Taking pro active steps for YOU becomes routine. The people around you change, and most importantly....FUCK SABOTAGE! Eating does NOT MAKE ANYTHING better! Working out on the other hand, DOES! Your health, your heart beat, you mood, your ambition, your confidence, your stamina, your sex life, your mind control, your ability to free yourself of thought, of judgemental thought, your ability to break a sweat, your muscle content, and your ability to show yourself YOU CAN DO ANYTHING if you FIGHT FOR IT! The results are worth the continuance of the Actions!
! Whew...! Mental ramble........lol ! hahah!I'm feeling COMMANDO today!
! !
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On that same note...I FOUGHT FOR THAT SHIT FOR ME yesterday AGAIN and TODAY!!!
I saw my client last night, I was proud of him! Slapped some subconscious sense into him, and MYSELF and got home...and threw on the RUNNING shoes..and RAN FOR IT! Went outside and ran at night...
I realized my new neighborhood has nice houses, and is really Nice!!! I picked flowers as I ran. LOL...(don't water too much or I'll run by and pick a couple from your yard... ) Came home...and cleaned.
Made myself a 1/2 Ezequiel tortilla egg white wrap w/ mushrooms!! YUM!! And got on the bike for a while and did some ab exercises and called it a night!!
I did have 1 1/2 cups of wine,...and I enjoyed it. I know I have been busting my ass. As well yesterday, during my lunch break, I came home, had a shake and Treadmill time!! I did 20 mins and came back to work.! I did 3 workouts and I'm starting to see the JOY in moving whenever possible....just like Kids!!! They ALWAYS love to run and play and MOVEEEE! I'm finding that for me.
This Morning : 3rd day in a ROW...MORNING WORKOUTS!! I fought for it AGAIN!!!
I saw the clock,...and ALMOST wanted to sabotage myself...and said..."FUCK THAT! GET UP AND FIGHT for IT!!! & I did!!!
35 mins. of Treadmill, Jumping Jacks, Stability ball abs, and Biking..TONS of SWEAT!!!
My goal is DAILY sweat 2 times a day minimum!!! I can do it! I will SMASH tons of fuckn pounds.
I didn't get a text or a call yesterday from him.
This morning I cried in the car on the way to work, and a little bit here at work. I'm valuing myself, and re evaluating what I want out of life. Where do I want to go?! What and with whom do I want to do it with ? All of that....and so goes the story of my thoughts...
I saw my client last night, I was proud of him!
Slapped some subconscious sense into him, and MYSELF and got home...and threw on the RUNNING shoes..and RAN FOR IT! Went outside and ran at night...I realized my new neighborhood has nice houses, and is really Nice!!! I picked flowers as I ran. LOL...(don't water too much or I'll run by and pick a couple from your yard...
) Came home...and cleaned.Made myself a 1/2 Ezequiel tortilla egg white wrap w/ mushrooms!! YUM!! And got on the bike for a while and did some ab exercises and called it a night!!
I did have 1 1/2 cups of wine,...and I enjoyed it. I know I have been busting my ass. As well yesterday, during my lunch break, I came home, had a shake and Treadmill time!! I did 20 mins and came back to work.
! I did 3 workouts and I'm starting to see the JOY in moving whenever possible....just like Kids!!! They ALWAYS love to run and play and MOVEEEE! I'm finding that for me. This Morning : 3rd day in a ROW...MORNING WORKOUTS!! I fought for it AGAIN!!!
I saw the clock,...and ALMOST wanted to sabotage myself...and said..."FUCK THAT! GET UP AND FIGHT for IT!!
! & I did!!! 35 mins. of Treadmill, Jumping Jacks, Stability ball abs, and Biking..TONS of SWEAT!!!
My goal is DAILY sweat 2 times a day minimum!!! I can do it! I will SMASH tons of fuckn pounds.
I didn't get a text or a call yesterday from him.
This morning I cried in the car on the way to work, and a little bit here at work. I'm valuing myself, and re evaluating what I want out of life. Where do I want to go?! What and with whom do I want to do it with ? All of that....and so goes the story of my thoughts...
I'm rather rushed today, but I had to stop in and say that I agree 100%, 1000% with your post on planning. The times I've gotten somewhere in life have all been times I've planned out a strategy beforehand. I've never had luck just drifting, whether it be in relationships, finance, career, health, whatever. Sometimes it's scary to face a problem head on with a plan. I am dealing with that now. So thank you for your inspiring post. It is easy to see you "walk the talk".
ForRealThisTime
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I needed to read that today
Alta818
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OH man..It's gonna be one long LONG lonely night tonight. My first weekend by myself. I was going to go out, but instead, I'm gonna clean and plant flowers, and drink shots, and be therapuetic and of COURSE work out like crazy!!! I'll probably be back A LOT tonight.
No call. No text today either today. I'm assuming I won't get none for a couple days.
At the end of story,...it's all about evaluating if at this point in the relationship, the trust can be repairable, and or if it's worth being repared, and or what the hell we are doing together, or if we should even be together. The only way either one will know, is with LOTS of space..I'm thinking months before I realize and him as well.
Not to mention, if he never FIGHTS for me....he won't EVER have a chance either. After 5 1/2 years...I mean, there are only two directions we can either go from here....forever, or split. Sounds like a two way road, but ....honestly.....
ONE OF MY GOALS is PARTNERSHIP that is willing to say NOW that they are there for me through THICK and THIN. And to value me. To value himself. To value us together. We have been together since young for so long, that how could we know, if we have been so clouded and stuck together?
Obviously, things have been leading to this needed space as well. I mean, I wouldn't be living on my own after 5 years 2 months of living with him. This is all happening for a reason.
I was going to go out, but instead, I'm gonna clean and plant flowers, and drink shots, and be therapuetic and of COURSE work out like crazy!!! I'll probably be back A LOT tonight. No call. No text today either today. I'm assuming I won't get none for a couple days.
At the end of story,...it's all about evaluating if at this point in the relationship, the trust can be repairable, and or if it's worth being repared, and or what the hell we are doing together, or if we should even be together. The only way either one will know, is with LOTS of space..I'm thinking months before I realize and him as well.
Not to mention, if he never FIGHTS for me....he won't EVER have a chance either. After 5 1/2 years...I mean, there are only two directions we can either go from here....forever, or split. Sounds like a two way road, but ....honestly.....
ONE OF MY GOALS is PARTNERSHIP that is willing to say NOW that they are there for me through THICK and THIN. And to value me. To value himself. To value us together. We have been together since young for so long, that how could we know, if we have been so clouded and stuck together?
Obviously, things have been leading to this needed space as well. I mean, I wouldn't be living on my own after 5 years 2 months of living with him. This is all happening for a reason.
Alta818
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Thanks 
That's my wine in those cups ! hahaha I'm planting away here!! ! Thank you for stopping in.... Oh mannnnn, how I love seeing some one on here other than me...! hahah !!! Love that!!!
I have noticed that I've had the weirdest look on my face ALL day. When I drive, sit bymyself, or walk in the store...like the most DISTRUPTED stomach ache face... ...I think if this stays, I might get a distoreted face FOR LIFE! hahah ...ahh that made me laugh at least!
That's my wine in those cups ! hahaha I'm planting away here!! ! Thank you for stopping in.... Oh mannnnn, how I love seeing some one on here other than me...! hahah !!! Love that!!!I have noticed that I've had the weirdest look on my face ALL day. When I drive, sit bymyself, or walk in the store...like the most DISTRUPTED stomach ache face...
...I think if this stays, I might get a distoreted face FOR LIFE! hahah ...ahh that made me laugh at least!
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Thanks
I have noticed that I've had the weirdest look on my face ALL day. When I drive, sit bymyself, or walk in the store...like the most DISTRUPTED stomach ache face...
You are going to have to have my share of wine...I'm workin nites here lol. (So I'll be here most the nite .)
And that face isn't good for wrinkles! Smile..No.1 way to iron out wrinkles!!
Alta818
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You are going to have to have my share of wine...I'm workin nites here lol. (So I'll be here most the nite .)
And that face isn't good for wrinkles! Smile..No.1 way to iron out wrinkles!!
!!! hahaha....Love it!!! not to meantion I've been putting "anti wrinkle cream on for the past 3 days!" hahaha...I feel YOUNGER already!! ! hahah...let me see if I can take a picture of my little baby backyard and show you what I'm planting!!!
Alta818
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Here it is!!! This is my mini backyard that I'm working on. !
Hope you like it! I always wanted a pet. I just don't have time. I realized that if you nurture a plant enough, every day you can be filled with life as it GROWS into a wonderful amazing blossoming flower!
These are my new babies. Every day I will watch them grow & fill myself with PRIDE for them. They deserve it. I bought them at the 99Cent store. They were gonna die if I didn't save them.! It's meant to be... a new leaf in my life. Ooops...attached the wrong pic too... hahah... the last pic is the flowers I picked while running last night. 
Sorry..I mean...don't water them too much or I'll admire them and PICK THEM FOR ME!!! 
!! hahah ;!!
!Hope you like it!
I always wanted a pet. I just don't have time. I realized that if you nurture a plant enough, every day you can be filled with life as it GROWS into a wonderful amazing blossoming flower! These are my new babies. Every day I will watch them grow & fill myself with PRIDE for them. They deserve it. I bought them at the 99Cent store. They were gonna die if I didn't save them.
! It's meant to be... a new leaf in my life. Ooops...attached the wrong pic too... hahah... the last pic is the flowers I picked while running last night. Sorry..I mean...don't water them too much or I'll admire them and PICK THEM FOR ME!!! !! hahah ;!!ForRealThisTime
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I started to try grow plants recently... my daisies wouldnt flower so I stopped watering them as a punishment ... they are now totally dead. I was however able to grow a lemon and an orange tree just from the pips of an orange and a lemon
Alta818
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I started to try grow plants recently... my daisies wouldnt flower so I stopped watering them as a punishment ... they are now totally dead. I was however able to grow a lemon and an orange tree just from the pips of an orange and a lemon
!!! hahaha...That's the FUNNIEST shit ever!! To punish them!! hahaahah !What I have learned from PLANTS, is that they are more forgiving than humans. All they want is WATER. Water that mofo. Honestly,...the picture in which the basket was overflowing with flowers ...I am SOOOOOOOOo PROUD of!!!! That motherfucker DIED TO A CRISP ON ME!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! I watered his ass with a patience and diligence EVERY day..and while I watered I said SORRY!!
!!Not that it made it any better. But...he heard me!! hahahahah
!!! I mean HE GREW DIDN"T HE?!!....stubborn bastard. He was CRISPPPPP!!!Congrats on sprouting from seeds. I actually bought 12 little containers to start sprouting from seeds right now.!!!
!!! ***SO GLAD YOU GUYS ARE HERE!!****
Alta818
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Alll I know right NOW...is that my FACE won't stop crunching weirrrrrrrrrrrd ways. I miss him!!! OHHHHHH please GOD, PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe Universe, EVERYTHING that DOMINATES LIFE..."Please bring my baby back with a DEEPER understanding. Oh Gosh.....please!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't make me CRY HARDER pleaseeeeeeeee!
I miss him!!! OHHHHHH please GOD, PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe Universe, EVERYTHING that DOMINATES LIFE..."Please bring my baby back with a DEEPER understanding. Oh Gosh.....please!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't make me CRY HARDER pleaseeeeeeeee! 
Jess393
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I'm so sorry to hear bout what happened! I reallllly hope you find the inner happiness you need...
On the good side of things tho: I LOVE LOVE LOVE your giant posts about mentality and getting shit done! Everytime I read one I get this effyes! attitude towards my goals. Love it. Keep them up!
And the flowers are beautiful. I have 1 plant, lol. Its in my kitchen window, and when I got it a year ago it DID have flowers. I managed to kill and revive it at least twice, and now it keeps growing and growing, buuut with no flowers... very odd..
On the good side of things tho: I LOVE LOVE LOVE your giant posts about mentality and getting shit done! Everytime I read one I get this effyes! attitude towards my goals. Love it. Keep them up!
And the flowers are beautiful. I have 1 plant, lol. Its in my kitchen window, and when I got it a year ago it DID have flowers. I managed to kill and revive it at least twice, and now it keeps growing and growing, buuut with no flowers... very odd..
Hey Alta, just read through the last few pages of your journal...
I'm so sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend, it's hard being close to someone for that amount of time and then having to say goodbye. But you absolutely don't deserve to be treated that way so good on you for sticking with your guns- hurts like a bitch now but later- maybe much later but it'll happen- you'll be so much better off!!
LOVED your big post on planning and sabotage, funny I read it right when I think I needed to. It was very inspiring and helped me right at a second that I felt a bit lost... and now everything has fallen into place. So thankyou!
We're all here for you sweetheart You're a strong, beautiful woman and you can get through this!!
I'm so sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend, it's hard being close to someone for that amount of time and then having to say goodbye. But you absolutely don't deserve to be treated that way so good on you for sticking with your guns- hurts like a bitch now but later- maybe much later but it'll happen- you'll be so much better off!!
LOVED your big post on planning and sabotage, funny I read it right when I think I needed to. It was very inspiring and helped me right at a second that I felt a bit lost... and now everything has fallen into place. So thankyou!
We're all here for you sweetheart
You're a strong, beautiful woman and you can get through this!!Hey Miss Alta!!
I just read through your last few pages. I know sometimes it's hard to find the right words to provide comfort to someone else. It's painful to go through what you just and are still going through. I know the hardest part is to think about if the relationship is really over this time. You've invested a lot of time into something and the simple thought of all those years rushes through your very core.
I hope that you find that you are really worth it. There's always a lesson in everyhthing that we go through. You now see things in perspective even if it's just a tad bit. You now know what YOU yourself need and want to work on.
Whether you both decide that you DO want to be together or live seperately, you've found something in YOU that you know you WANT to change. At this point you've also realized what is that you want out of a partner. I mean I'm sure you know what you want but now you're positive about what you want and deserve.
Aww I just wanna hug you!!
Hopefully today you're doing ok. I haven't seen a post from you today so I'm hoping you're keeping your mind off of things and focused on YOU!!
Thanks for being so awesome and thanks for being YOU!!
--Not that you have to answer this question here or at all - you can always message me with the answer but, what part here in L.A. do you live in??
I just read through your last few pages. I know sometimes it's hard to find the right words to provide comfort to someone else. It's painful to go through what you just and are still going through. I know the hardest part is to think about if the relationship is really over this time. You've invested a lot of time into something and the simple thought of all those years rushes through your very core.
I hope that you find that you are really worth it. There's always a lesson in everyhthing that we go through. You now see things in perspective even if it's just a tad bit. You now know what YOU yourself need and want to work on.
Whether you both decide that you DO want to be together or live seperately, you've found something in YOU that you know you WANT to change. At this point you've also realized what is that you want out of a partner. I mean I'm sure you know what you want but now you're positive about what you want and deserve.
Aww I just wanna hug you!!
Hopefully today you're doing ok. I haven't seen a post from you today so I'm hoping you're keeping your mind off of things and focused on YOU!!
Thanks for being so awesome and thanks for being YOU!!
--Not that you have to answer this question here or at all - you can always message me with the answer but, what part here in L.A. do you live in??