Confessions of a food Junkie

Sounds like you had fun this weekend. I love weddings!!! And now you're going to get right back on track which is great!!!!

Hope you have a good week.
 
Hey ya MissK! :D Just poppin' in to check up on ya! :D Glad you enjoyed the wedding :D You're back on track and ready to kick butt :D TOM is a KILLER as far as the scale goes :rolleyes: DON'T LISTEN!!!! IGNORE IT!! LOL otherwise, insanity takes hold! LOL remember to suck in the water and you'll be dandy :D Hope you have a great night !:D
 
Hehe thanks guys,

I did my grocery shopping and I bought a new set of measuring spoons and a food scale, so now I can weigh my chicken breasts and such. I think that will be more accurate in how many calories I take in.

I bought a ton of fresh fruit and veggies and I now only go down one or two isles in the grocery store and I used to hit those ones up first.

I was trying to find ground turkey and chicken, but alas, the grocery store only carries ground beef and pork. I'll have to go to a couple of other stores and check it out. I wanted to try Lee's turkey chili because my family loves chili! My plan is to totally cut back on red meat to once a week. I hope that sticks. I know it would have been easier to do if I could have got ground chicken and turkey.

I haven't written in my food journal I keep since thursday. I start back up tomorrow morning. It really is my saving grace. This past weekend would never have bothered me before because that was how I lived my life but now it just isn't for me and it doesn't work. I'm glad I can come home and get back to "normal" hehe.
 
miss kallie sounds like your doing great. Yea the fresh ground turkey is mostly in large grocery stores. Up Canada way it might be a little harder to find. I have never been up that way so Im not sure what they have.
 
hey MissK, just popping in to say hi and to check up on you. looks like u're doing alright. and I know EXACTLY what you mean about the TOTM thing. It fluctuates like crazy. but I heard women's body fluctuate all month long depending on our estrogen. so technically our scales are *always* lying to us. ;)
 
if you have a food processor, even a mini food processor (I use my 12 dollar 2 cup black and decker mini processor for everything that i don't feel like doing serious chopping for and it does grind chicken and turkey (which i prefer grinding my own, because some places put the skin in it)

If your grocery store has a meat department -- you can hand over some breasts or thighs and ask the butcher to grind them for you... in the states they will do it for no charge...

Good for you for getting the scale and measuring stuff - i'mfinding the scale is actually kinda fun and stuff weighs less than i often think it does.

You're doing great, missy.. keep it up
 
Thank you guys. I really appreciate the encouragement and suggestions.

I'm having an emotional day, well for obvious reasons. I've had a *shit*(pardon my language) day. I got into an arguement with the hubby last night and it's been the first one since Ive started and it triggered my emotional binging. I ate cheesies, 6 rice crackers and some watered down chocolate milk today and that's it.
(some backround):
I can't stand his brother. It's basically the only thing we really fight over. His brother is so mean(openly admits to hating me, calls me a fat bitch, and said the reason he hates me is because I'm fat and blames me for everything that goes wrong when I'm around) to me and then this past weekend somethings went on that hubby didn't see and I was talking to him about it and he said I was imagining it all and that the world doesn't revovle around me and that I should get over things that have happened and that I just like to hold grudges. It really hurt my feelings because I expected him to take my side. It just really stung, oh and not to mention, really pissed me off. My husband is so willing to take shit from his brother time and time again and then do favours for him. IT makes me sick to my stomach that his brother is such an asshole to our family and then Kyle just lets him keep doing it over and over again.

I feel a slight depression coming on. I'm struggling with staying positive today. I almost gained back all my weight and I just feel like this is such an uphill battle and I don't know how I'm going to make it up the hill. I've got to go visit twinny's diary and read so I feel better about the math.

I just needed to vent other wise I'd just be eating instead.
 
You're going to love that scale. Takes all the guessing out of the equation. You did great at that wedding. Have a great week!
 
As of 3 pm today, I got back on track and stopped feeling sorry for myself. I ate really crappy again this morning, but then I kicked my own butt and went for my walk. I did 2 miles today. I was going to do 3 but I really had to pee and I was late leaving.

On my walk (which I do alone now) I was pondering things and I really realized that everything we do is a battle within ourselves. I wanted to go for a 3rd mile, but my mind kept coming up with excuses. It's a battle between myself to stop or to take that next step closer to the 3rd mile and it's also learning how to make sure there are no excuses. I have to leave earlier, pee before we leave etc.

I also thought about how I need to be my own bestfriend and cheer myself on and give myself a kick in the butt. I can't give myself permission to fail anymore. That scale on friday is going to make me happy!

I have my new exercise plan for the week. I am going to walk 5 days a week, 3 miles or 1 hour each day. I walked today, then I walk wed, thurs take friday off and walk sat and sun. Then the next week, I'm going to walk mon-friday and maybe one day on the weekend.
 
First of all, what you went through this week with the mean brother-in-law was not nice at all. No one should have to put up with being called names. Your husband not supporting you, totally understandable why you would be upset about that. BUT you cannot let any of that sabotage the work you are doing for yourself. You must concentrate on YOU!!!!

And you are completely right in your assessment that YOU must be YOUR OWN best friend!! That might mean being a little selfish, it might mean putting yourself first sometimes. But if that's what it takes for you to lose weight than by God you are gonna do it!! Okay?

You've got a major life priorty right now. Because everything else in your life depends on it. Your health, your relationships with other, everything is intertwined with weight loss. When you lose weight things in your life will start to fall into place. And it won't be because you weigh less. It will be because you FEEL differently about yourself. And that will make everything in your world better.

You WILL DO THIS, Kallie!! I've said it before, you've got a good head on your shoulders...but you've got to stay focused. Now come here and let me give you a hug!!!
 
Thank you soooooo much Scarlett. I really needed that and the hug!

I didn't count calories today, but I will be back at it again tomorrow and I'm going to start posting my daily goals and schedual tonight.



Daily schedual:

9:00am ~ wake up and have breakfast
9:30am ~ take son to daycare
10:00am ~ Snack
10:10am ~ clean house
12:30pm ~ Lunch
1:00pm ~ free time
3:00pm ~ Walk for 3 miles
4:00pm ~ Shower and get ready
4:30pm ~ Pick up son from day care
5:00pm ~ start preparing supper
6:00pm ~ Supper
6:45pm-7:00pm ~ Clean up after supper
7:30pm ~ Bathe son
8:00pm-8:30 ~ Spend some time with son then put son to bed.
10:00pm ~ Bedtime


DAILY GOALS

1. Get up on time
2. Eat all meals as planned
3. No snacking or Binging
4. Avoid scale
5. Add another mile to walk
6. Drink more water
7. Go to bed on time.
 
Ms. kallie.... Dealing with family members that make you mad is something that doesn't go away. During the holidays when I have to do the rotating family thing I cringe. Just from me I think your doing great.
 
Miss_Kallie said:
I also thought about how I need to be my own bestfriend and cheer myself on and give myself a kick in the butt. I can't give myself permission to fail anymore. That scale on friday is going to make me happy!
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Yay for you for taking control of your life!!! :D

Did you ever think too, that the brother in law must be one unhappy individual to say such mean things. He must know that it hurts your feelings and how your conditioned response is to have something to eat. Which just cycles back around so that he can continue to say such things and feel better about himself. You should break the cycle and not allow him affect your emotions. (easier said than done, I know). But really, is his opinion so important that you must listen to his verbal bashing? We all think you're a wonderful person, no matter your size. And if he can't see that, then he is a small pitiful man whose opinions should have no weight. (pun, that was suppose to be a pun, was it funny?)
 
LOL Thanks Manny (do you mind if I call you Manny?)!


While I was on my walk I was thinking about why my Dh said to me and it held some truth. I'm all about being honest and I think it hurt so much because some of what he said held some truth. I decided that who cares about his brother. I'm not married to him and I can just rub my weight loss in his face when I'm hotter than his girlfriend LOL cause I know I will be!

He's really just an unhappy and mean person to everyone. He calls his own mom a fat bitch and worse and he calls his 140 # girlfriend a fattie and such and says he'll break up with her if she gains weight.

He's just screwed in the head I guess and Dh said that he will stick up for me the next time he says something mean to me, so I feel better about that.
 
He sounds like more than a bit of a jerk - who will spend the rest of his life alone with that attitude...

Though my brotherin law once said that aboutmy sister - -before she popped out 4 kids... my darlin' sister gained a ton of weight but yet my brother in law hasn't left...
 
Miss_Kallie said:
I got back on track and stopped feeling sorry for myself.

I can't give myself permission to fail anymore.
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You just graduated. Well done Kallie.

Only you can stop the progress, not your brother-in-law.
 
I'm so sorry you had to deal with this in-law and even more sorry that you felt like your husband did not come down on your side. That is a horrible feeling, and difficult to overcome. But you picked yourself up and decided that you are going to come out of this a winner, and that is great!

Emotional eating is our enemy - we get upset or depressed over something, and then compound it by hurting ourselves with food. It doesn't really make any more sense than poking ourselves with a fork because we are upset with the world. Poking ourselves with forks would hurt less in the long run, but for some reason we don't poke ourselves with forks - and we do overeat.

Breaking that pattern is a HUGE step, and something you should be very proud of. And remember, you can do a lot of things to alter your body, but what really matters is the person you are on the inside, and you are a loving, honest, caring person. That puts you miles ahead of your brother-in-law, and it is something he does not even have the capacity to understand.
 
Miss Kallie, you can call me anything you want. And I'm glad you're dh is more understanding and is willing to stick up for you. You're doing great and I have faith in you that you'll lose, lose, lose that weight.

:D
 
Yea I can never understand that kind of hate or resentment. I don't want my son around him because I don't want that kind of influence on him. I want my son to treat women and all people with respect and dignity.


Anyways thank you all for your encouragment.

*YAY* I graduated hehehe. Which grade??? LOL

Twinny ~ You made me laugh about the fork thing. It is sooooo true! I think I'd rather poke myself with the fork than eat emotionally.

Manny ~ Thanks for believing in me!
 
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