Hi there!
Hi everyone!
I just can't believe it! Another 2kg lost this week, I am down to 58kg and I fit into my size 10 green skirt!
I am so excited! The green skirt was a sort of benchmark, I fitted into it in Oz before my 'heathrow injection' of 8kg! Before Cohens I was inching into the size 14 arena!
My original goal was 57kg but to be honest I am happy at 58kg. I am 5 foot 3, but reasonably muscly, don't want to be too much lighter! I will get my refeed at the end of the week, hope I don't lose too much more, I am scared I will never maintain it!
My old Sass and Bide jeans fit really well and feel comfy for the first time in a long time! Yeah!! And I saw my brother yesterday for the first time in a while and he had noticed I had lost weight! And said that I was getting a bit porky!!! Charming heh?? That is what brothers are for I guess!! However I have always appreciated his honesty.
And just to say how grateful I am for this forum, I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by the idea of another 17 days on this very restrictive program, apparently most people's refeed is 17 days. I was even thinking about cheating!. For eg. I am doing a 5k fun run to raise money for cancer on Wed and thought about eating lots of carbs before the race. But I would rather just do it with whatever energy I have and maintain my weight. Besides I have found running much easier with 8kg less to lug around!
But the forum has reignited my enthusiasm and commitment. Hearing Lizzi's tales about people who have regained makes me want to do this 100% until the very end. I know it will be hard but it will be harder to go on another diet again when I have ballooned back up again. I really want to be in control of my weight for the rest of my life and know how to lose a few kgs before they become 5 or 10kgs.
I know that the refeed will be hard but I just need to clear my diary for another few weeks, then I can get back to normal life, and be a size 10 forever!!!
A few messages for you all:
Netski - I too did a lot of exercise before Cohens but I really had to cut back, I was running 4 times a week min. Now I can only manage once. Otherwise too tired and hungry! I really would recommend you cut back for the duration. You will lose weight without it! Just believe that. I have found it helpful to do pilates 3 times a week, just to keep toned. All my exercise did not stop me putting all that weight and stopping has not slowed my weight loss.
Tash - I am so proud of you! What an awesome effort, you are an inspiration! You have given me the inspiration to get through my refeed!
Karol - Well done for getting back on the wagon! That is all you can do. Just think how far you have come and how much you have the potential to achieve.
Moneypenny - My thoughts are with you during your refeed! All the best and well done to you!
ICIW- Well done to you too! PLease let us know how you are doing! I still can't believe how tiny you must be at 52kg, at that weight I would look anorexic!! But I do have a largish frame!
Lizzi - thanks for the yummy recipes, really helpful
Carissa - Well done on getting through the chips in the car incident! What a temptation! You star! I managed to get out of Starbucks yesterday without succumbing to a banana caramel frappacino and big slice of chocolate cake! Just my long black!
Jude - glad you are doing so well, your scientific approach sounds really wise, will really let you know how your body works. I have learnt so much about myself from a psychological perspective on this program, and how all my issues go back to my self-esteem. I overeat to comfort my own inadequacies and loneliness, rather than dealing with them. Over the last 5 weeks I have not had chocolate to cheer me up or a large pizza to make me feel cared for. I have had to do it all myself, challenging but I feel much stronger now!
Sorry for such a long post!
Will let you all know what my refeed looks like when I get it!
Have a great week!
Kathy
