Changing the way i feel

I woke up feeling really bad about my eating last night.After i posted i continued i ate my sons two small croissant with cocoa filling worth 300 cals and also 2 big bananas.I didnt feel the food,i just ate it and didnt understand anything in my mouth or in my stomach.Just awfull.

So i promised i will have a good day today and take it a day at a time,i cant eat like that cause im pissed off....i must find another way to deal.If i dont ill be putting all my weight back on until he leaves the house.

So im making lentile soup for lunch.And i think ill have the same for dinner of maybe ill make my egglaplants with tomatoes and garlic in the oven.Ill see.


I told the lady ill text her today about the exercise machine , i hope we get payed today so i can go get it.Ill test it.If its no good ill just sell it.I think it will be good though.
 
AYou wont gain the kilos back in a few days, but Im a very good example of a person who said fuck it when I was stressed out, and Ive gained almost 5kg back!!! (In few months!) Just cos I started to eat all the crappy foods. And at the moment Im pissed off cos I did so and I have to start over. If I would have been strong at the time, I would probably weight under 80kg at the moment. And that hurts.

So PLEASE dont give up! You cant let things flow out of your hands now cos you've been doing so great. Just eat diet food and it WILL be paid afterwards, you know it. Im so proud of you, I know how hard losing weight is and youve gone so far already babe. :grouphug: You're such an insipiration to me!
 
Thank you so much girls!it means so much to know that you are here for me it reallly does.

As i said i woke up really feeling bad about yesterday,and today i have done well up till know. i have had lentile soup only.i will come back tonight with my complete food for the day.I wanted to say i got that exercise thing about half an hour ago.I must chexk youtuve for instructions and what areas it exercises.

I have a bike , this new thing called gazzelle freestlye,a step machine and my arm weights i also have the ps3 move but not the zumba dvd yet!!!!!!!So im rety organized you would guess i had a fab body or will have with all this stuff hanging around!!
 
So i was really good today.


Br Coffee 70cals

Luncch 1 Bowl lentile soup with pote?oe and carrot in 450 cals

Snack Coffee 70 cals

Dinner 1 bowl lentile soup 450 cals and feta cheese about 250 cals

tom,atoe and cucumber salad 100 cals


total 1390


I am not really sure about the cals in the soup.I googled it and i found the highest was 450,some where 250...so i take the highest.Really dont know!


Now i tested my new machine and its great!!!!i got on for 42 minutes it burn 336cals.Then i did 15 min bike real quick i burnt 200 cals


I did take a photo from my phone of my soup but i cant send it to the pc...so here one i googled only mine was more , in a bigger plate!
 
AHeya sweetie
You sound much happier today, hope it was stress free day.

Get you and all your gym stuff. You are gonna be doing more than me soon and your sexy body is gonna be so so toned. I have found working out makes such a difference to the shape i am.

Well done on your food today. Jess is back on track, keep it up lovely, we are with you all the way. :)

Ooh, i keep meaning to say that i have 1200 calories a day, sometimes less and it is managable, you will get use to 1300 in no time.
 
AYour machine sounds great...I'm glad ur liking it...the soup looks so yummy and filling...sorry for all the stress ur having right now...maybe you can take it out on the exercise machine now!!! Sending good vibes for a stress free week ahead!!!
 
I woke up this morning with my calves hurting ,actually not hurting just a weird feeling...like ive been wearing heels for a long time so i think thats a good thing.

I also have a pain in my chest the left side,so i dont know if its from the machine of i slept strange.

We have only just woken up and its 12..............lazy day!~~~~

I really hoe i have a good day and dont give in to anything bad.

I noticed its night time i find hard,when i have to make grilled cheeses for all of them and i cant have any.Thinking of asking my husband to make themfor a while till i feel stronger!
 
AIm happy you're exercising :) And it is good if your muscles are sore after yesterday's workout, it means IT HAS EFFECT on your body! ;) When I workout, I can barely move my body the next day! But I enjoy the feeling and I know Ive done something, good pain I would say. So just keep on exercising and dont give up! It will help you firm your body for sure.. Like you can see from my progress pictures, with diet and exercise you can get great results in a shorter time. :)
 
yes i am trying to exercise when i can.Some days i just dont have the time to do it.

We are at my b.friends home right now and they are grilling little chops i looove and are full of fat.I was going to eat some but then i thought to log on here and right it down and just stay away!!!
 
AGood for you hun!! Stay away from those little devils :D It is fine if you start working out slowly, not too long at the time.. :) Then you wont get bored!
 
ABreathe some of your healthy vibes in my direction please!

Are you sure there was that many calories in lentil soup? Did you guess? Because that sound like nowhere near enough food for the day. Glad your motivated and being healthy, but please don't starve yourself!!!!! x
 
AWell look at that awesome will power at work....send some my way love!! I have been eating nothing but junk all weekend!! Proud of you!!!!
 
Oh well i may of staid away but i feel terrible reading all your comments of me been strong...i wasnt so strong people ,my friend asked me to go with him to rent a dvd and i went with , he stoped at Max perry its a shop that sells and makes chocolate stuff and its a paradise and hell together...i ate a peice of chocolate/biscuit/mouse/cake.....it was lovely.I couldnt eat it all ,and while eating it we were all making these sounds of pleasure.....omg....

I came home did 56 minutes on my air walker , 15 minutes on bike.I have burnt 700 cals nearly but still ifeel like shit.

I keep saying its Sunday its ok tommorow is a new week but thing is that i am having more bad than good days.

So i have made up my mind.I am starting a new diary with new weigh progress and stuff.Im starting from my current weight not 96kg i was months ago.Its comforting thinking i have lost 16kg ....no..im starting fresh

SO from tommorow i am a new person starting out!I want succes as i first had.I want regular exersice and healthy eating.

Belive it or not that chocolate cake i had even though it was yummy eating it after i felt a bit sick.I dont feel sick anymore it lasted about 30 minutes and went away...


I am so embaressed ,you thought i was going to stand strong and i feel i have let you all down.I hope my new diary will get my act together.
 
AOkay, listen... This is the "bad" side of these kind or places, you start to think elsebody in your weightloss process, and thats the thing what shouldnt happen! It is YOUR journey like we all have our owns. And we are here to SUPPORT you, I dont care did you eat the chocolate last night or not. You should NOT be apologizing anything. Like you've seen, its only life, and you have to enjoy it as well! If it is a moment with lovely chocolate once in a while, it is ok! And you should regocnize it too.

Look back on your progress, you've been going like a little train forward your goal! And there is something to compare with, like my progress.. I threw my progress out of the window! But Ive realized so many things while doing this "fuck it" -mentality. The change MUST be something permanent, something you live with for the rest of your life. It isnt just one year lasting diet, cos after it you will gain all of it back if you havent REALLY understood what is it all about! :)

But its important you being honest to us, if it was a bad day, then it was. Tomorrow will be better, hopefully. We all can effect on our bad days by thinking a bit positively.

Noone can take your progress away from you, and it is all about ourselves how we progress! I dont know is it a good idea making another diary?? I think it is good to remember where we all have left, you know.. But if you think it is better, then it is.
 
AHeya sweetie

I agree with Eerika. You have nothing to apologise for AT ALL. And i don't think you should start again either, do what you want too hun but i think that this is your journey from start to end.
A big part of our journeys are picking ourselves up and carrying on sweetie. You can do this. I know you can and so does everyone else on here. You ARE amazing!!! Look what you have done for me!!! i am not gonna let you talk yourself down, OK!!! I am gonna stick a little rant face on here now :cuss: see, that is me shouting at you!!!

On a lighter note.......i reacon you burnt all the chocolate off doing all your hard core exercise!!!! So, it's all good :)

Seriously sweetie, you are doing fab. Love ya :grouphug:
 
AI can't beleive you are starting a completely new diary! I weigh a pound more now than I did 6 weeks ago, but somehow I don't think I could bring myself to start a new one.... I think I've got too much of an emotional attatchment to it. Its like almost writing an entire page of writing, making one mistake and screwing it up and starting on a new page instead of just neatly crossing out the mistake and moving on. I don't know.... If it gives you the psychological boost you want then maybe its not a bad thing. Maybe your Dad being at yours is just making you extra fed up and them vibes are transferring themselves to the diet.


That said, if you really feel like you need to start a new diary, go for it :)
 
AHeya hotstuff :)

Where are you? Have you started a completely different diary? I can see you are online but you haven't posted on here. Don't you leave us!!!!
 
AWhat you started a new diary...are you trying to hide from us.??? guess what we found you...haha....we are like flys on sugar...suck on you my dear!! :) :)
 
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