Changing the way i feel

It definitely happens to other people. It's only in the last few weeks I've started to like what I look like in photos... and then only sometimes.
 
so coffee and the koulouri is going to keep me going until around 6ish cause i guess we're going to eat at that time....We are going to our friends house today i was just told.They re gonna laugh when they see the camera coming out my bag and taking a pic of my plate...quite uncomfortable....
 
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Don't worry about it. Or think of something to tell them to explain why you're doing it (doesn't have to be the truth). You do what you need to do.
 
Br: Coffe and a koulouri
Lunch 1 grilled meat ball,lots of steamed veggies and a little spaggetti
Dinner 4 mini cheese pies i just baked cause a friend is over...god i love then..i m trying so hard to NOT eat them all!!!
I will have later on the yoghurt thats huge and only 200 cals it is soo filling~

I could of not have the little pies...im sure that about 300 cals....but....
At least they will be gone by tonight,not eaten by me though!
 
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ahhh!!!\I had a busy but lovely day!!!
I woke at 8:30 had some things to do at bank ect then i went to buy my boys (husband and child) new undies , then when to the veggie market to fill up my fridge,cause it was empty,after that i went ot the supe market for some extras then came home ,changed and we went to the beach with my sister and her new boyfriend.My baby enjoyed himself soooo much

So from 8 in the morning to 8 at night i didnt have anything but 2 coffees.Then when we left the beach we went to my mother inlaws and i had a little bit of her food.I didnt like it.It was zucchini,potatoes and eggplant in the oven with onions and tomatoes and some kind of cheese crumbled in.So i just had a little not to ofend her.
Thats it.I dont think i have even had 500 cals all day.I am so not hungry right now....
But i think that is good cause last night i woke up to go to the loo and passed by the kitchen , grabbed a couple of those little cheese pies i made and gobbled them down,then went right back to sleep.....

Thank goodness they are finished!!!Went on the scales and i was 87,2....
dont get it,...i mean (excuse me people!!!) i didnt go to the loo,i ate what i ate yesterday and the little meal i had tonight and i've gone down????
I really will keep my fingers crossed!!!!
\Dont have photos , forgot my cam at home!
 
Hey Jasper!

Keep it up! I love that you take pictures of your meals. I should do that but might be a bit time consuming..i love to cook so maybe when I make something good to show off lol..

Great job jasper..from 97kg to 87kg. That's 22 lbs in my country! That's a heavy dumbell that you've made disappear from your body.

Just awesome.

Ken
 
Jasper you are doing so well...some day soon we both will be those people that are camera hogs...lol. :)
 
thanks so much guys:grouphug:
it means the world reading your replys!!!
Today we went to the beach again but i had 2 souvlaki early lunch before going to the beach and of course after that i knew i was having nothing
but then we all came home,my sister and her bf too and they ordered souvlaki ect so i decided to make a lettuce and tomatoe salad with balsamic vinigar(sorry for the spelling) , just cause i felt strange infron of her new bf if i didnt eat.
So i think im fine for today.I could have had a much healthier choice for lunch but i did control the day very well and havent gone over board!

At the beach i noticed that i wasnt jealous.I didnt feel like i needed to be alert if my husband was looking at some girl(as i used to do!!!!) i felt fine, i was calm and great,i didnt judge myself or compare.I feel very proud!i dont know if it is me just getting older(im gonna be 30 in august!) or if it cause i dont hate myself anymore because of myweight.!!!!

So im going to read some more diarys and off to bed!!!
 
:) I'm so glad that jealously didn't wreck your day at the besch and you felt able to just relax! I have never been on a beach holiday with my bf (or even to the beach in the summer), for that exact reason. Its a horrible feeling.

Even when we went to butlins (which has chalets, live enertainment in the evening and plenty of things to do), they had a caberet style show with girls in bikinis, and I ended up crying because I was jealous my bf was ogling.

Jealousy is a BIG hurdle, well done you!!!
 
Jasper, it sounds like you are doing great. I too love the concept of snapping away whatever you eat - really keeps you accountable and you realise what you've eaten at the end of the day. I might start!!!

As for the picture thing - you are not alone. I can't think of when I last really liked a picture of myself...must be...10 years!!
 
i dont think i have overcome the WHOLE jealoussy thing but i definitly didnt feel that yesterday at the beach.I wasnt going to say anything , cause i dont like people knowing but i am having some relatonship problem for a very long time.Only every day that goes by,it bugs me more.
So today i was really angry about this and sad at the time so i didnt take any pics , dint care to.I found myself having bites out of my babys leftovers,then pulling myself together,i ate 2 biscutes (60 calories) then said to myself STOP.Also i have bitten my fingernails again,after growing them,and again i said STOP.I bite my nails from a child and when i started my diet 2 months ago i decided to stop tat bad habbit.Since i know my husband likes pretty nails,but i thought f%$#% it....
So i am sure that i eat when angry.Most angry than sad.
Todays menu
Breakfast Coffee
Lunch Spinach and rice (had half the plate it was terible eith thats new salt i got) and a small piece of feta cheese
6ish 2 grilled cheese...no butter on top
7ish some cherries
Dinner Lettuce tomatoe onion carrot salad with balsamic vinegar

I do want ot go eat again..I know im not hungry..its difficult but im going to make it i hope.If i cant control i'll have a carrot.
 
Jasper - sounds like you are getting there with understanding your relationship with food more though - I do this - hoover up my daughter's leftovers even though I am having dinner myself or eat when I am bored, upset, angry...in fact, I had a reason to eat for every emotion....celebration, treat because I am happy, pick me up when I'm down!!! Now I try and let what I need for my body and plan to eat determine what I eat and the emotions stuff is a different thing that I box off separately. Exercise is good for that - if I am angry and go for a good run, then it works it off that way rather than through eating. Anyhow, hope you are feeling more happy today!
 
Hey Jasper,

I know how you feel always wanting to bite something. It's just something to do that is always enjoyable. When I have nothing to do..i just want to eat and I want it to be something good!! But often times i end up eating lil bits of stuff that isn't really that satisfying and then end up having a real meal which of course sucks for my diet because I ate a bunch of junk before the real meal.

It happens but I guess on a diet, we have to focus more!

I am feeling the same way right now.. I've had a great day diet-wise and exercise-wise and I feel like eating something even though it's getting late. I should just sleep. But I just want to eat something hot, something carbolicious..something tasty..but I have to fight that urge.

I just wanted to let you know you are definitely not alone with the constant-eating urges.
 
another day is here,had only coffee till now its midday.Im boiling chicken breasts.Then im going to use lots of herbs on them an put them in the oven.
Hope i have a better day eating and feeling
 
Thats really a wonderful achievement and i would like to appreciate you and say congrats to you. Your post has made it clear that nothing is impossible against your will power.
 
How has today gone? Hope your feeling better x

I'm taking pics of all my dinners now :) Have done today and yesterdays, but I think I'll just upload them once or twice a week in a collage, as tbh I can't be bothered doing it every day :/
 
I can say from experience that I really like to workout when I get angry/sad. I've had a tough couple of months and working out really held me together.

If you're ever feeling like you're angry or sad, try going for a walk, a job, or even just doing some push ups. It helped me a lot, maybe it will help you too.

Another solution could be getting a stress ball. When your angry or sad put that into your hands instead of food/biting your nails. It could help!

Good luck with your journey :)
 
thank you all so much for the kind words!
HAlf tha day went great
Coffee for break fast
and Lunch was boiled/grilled chicken breast and salad
Then i fell asleep with my child and woke uop an hour later soooo hungry i grabed my yoghurt
So i it stooped there i would have had a great day..but i didnt....
I felt nervous and bored and angry...mostly nervous.....
I ate a small bag of chips 150 cals,6-7 cherries, biscuits 300 cals :leaving:
a cereal bar i keep for chocolate cravs 69 cals
all that in about 30 minutes.I would have had more but i tryed to get my mind of it and played a game on the internet so time went by
THen a hour ago i had 6 fish sticks in the oven and 3 pieces of salami....
From the combinations i think you can get the picture.I am not well.....:smash:
I feel bloated , but i can still keep going.The good thinkg is i dont have anything fattening left only some of those biscuits , that i dont really even like.
I didnt have enough water either today...didnt work out...just felt lazy and bored.
I will upload the pics of the food until the yoghurt cause after that i didnt even think to take photos.....
 
the scales told me today that i weigh 86,9

im not going to put little smiles all over the place cause i dont think it is right (my scales)
I had a teribble day yesterday,and medium days before that....i didnt work out.My tummy feels so bloated , i think the time of the month is coming up.
I m so scared right now....im thinking that tomorow or the next its goingto show 88 again
I know what you eat yesterday wont show up today so im really scared..,...
 
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