Changing the way i feel

thanks Amy but it will take me back sooner or later not being strict as as should.
A few years ago i decided to loose weight but in a very unhealthy way.
I actually hated myself and felt so ugly and fat(i was much slimmer then now) i was punishing myself.I stopped eating.I remember one night it was the eurovision song contest that night , that i was looking at the women singers and felt soooo terible about myself i was in tears.I refused to eat.I felt so jealous and just wouldnt eat.I DIDNT llose weight and that made me mad even more.I eventually ate and gained more weight.
Now its differnet,i never want to feel like that again.
Even now when im out i know im far for being slim but i dont think of myself as FAT as before, i say to myself "you're on a diet and you're loosing it!" so o dont care if people think i m fat cause it wont be so long that i wont be anymore.If i could do magic i would turn myself into a sexy slim and dark tanned sexbomb in a night!!!!but i cant!!!and so i'll have to be patient and MOST OF ALL i DONT WANT TO GAIN MY WEIGHT BACK.So that why im taking it light.Cause its the rest of my life.and i will be having many days of eating "bad" things.It part of my life , i dont want to get very "serious" and then break.I prefer to break along the way and get back on track to healthy eating

Just finished my carrots i hate that extra light mayo eventualy......
 
It'll take longer, sure, or it might make you regain weight here and there, but think about the overall picture. You're learning about the way you eat and how it affects your body, and most of the time you're doing the right thing. That's really positive. Life stuff gets in the way- that's just a reality. Sometimes you have to go places which involve bad food. There's no getting around that. We find strategies of coping, we do the best we can. And that's what you're doing- and you're doing well at it. You're taking it in your stride.
 
thanks!
If i were to fall of the wagon BEFORE it would have been the end and i would be stuffing my face right now.I had this idea in my head that if i ate bad once i was finished with my diet!!strange!
 
I had a hot-fudge sundae for dinner today...must be an ice cream kinda day!! ;)

You are doing great!! Well done!!
 
Thanks for stopping by!!
I'm beat...i've been up and around for babys blood exams and other erands from 6 thirty this morning and its midnight right now , came home about an hour ago and was doing some housework.....
Breakfast Coffee
12ish i had a koulouri im to tired to upload the pic right now,.its like a bready thing with sesame on not many cals
Late lunch A little piece of chicken breast in the oven with half oven potatoe lots of salad
Just a few minutes ago i had only half of my yoghurt.To tired and fed up with it!!!Im a bit hungry but have to sleep im gonna be up at 6 30 again....

Bad thing was i had about 3 diet cokes.I know its only 3 calories but i dont feel so nice.Not sick,i mean my belly feels bloated , its the feeling like ive cheated when i actually havent.
Hope i have time tomorow to look around all your diaries!Goodnight!


Oh forgot i had a tinny chocolate.The ones that are wrapped up in foil, its a bite...not really nice but really wanted it.I dont think it had many calories cause of its little size.
 
:) I am so with you on the "I've fucked up one day, so sod it for good" thing. I think when you keep on not sticking to a diet, you just see it as proof as you will never succeed. So you fuck up once, you think to yourself "I told you I couldn't do it", and think you are just destined to be chubby for ever. I have started AT LEAST 50 diets, most of them only lasting a day or two, with this mentality. I hate how self hatred makes people starve themselves, but it does. No matter what we hear about superlow calorie diets fucking us up in the long term (blahdeblahdeblah), we still do it. Which is why these stupid meal replacement diets are still going strong. We just want fast results asap, cos we think we won't stick to it long, in that little cranny in the back of our heads.

I had the same thing that you had about eurovision when my bf went to a strip club. All I ate for 2 days was stir fry veg!

I am SO glad your attitude has changed now! I know its a cliche, but slow and steady really DOES win the race, rather than repeatedly starving yourself then binging.

Don't think of them as "bad" Days, think of them as "not as excellent as the other days Days" :D
 
Hello!
I was very p^&*&% off yesterday cause i had i fiht with my husband.:reddevil:
if he doesnt apologize i swore i am not going to speak to him until he admites and apologizes....:mad:
So yesterday i didnt really cook.I was so hungry i just took all leftovers and warmed them up, but didnt have much cause i didnt like it.So im hungry today aswell and hoping to get the food done on time to eat.
Scales just show 88,3
nothings gone up or down....suppose thats good!
I was thinking that for someone to poot on a kg in a week they must eat the ammount of calories thats the calcu;ator gives.Thats around 3500 for me.THATS A LOT!so im calmer now cause i was thinking that i'd put a kilo on cause of a couple of meals i had the last week.No way could i have had 3500 cals a day in my bad day.
Imagine what crap i was having to put so much weight on.....

Overtherainbow...HA!strip clubs is my speciality!!!my ex used to visit so many many times.I even went in once to see what he was doing and someguy grabbed my behind!I had big trouble dealling with self issues and felt like nothing,well a fat ugly nothing.
 
Hello:waving:
87,8!!!I tryed to take a pic but when i held the camera it sais 88,1!!!!i did manage after all to get the picture but not gonna post yet i want to be able to take it WITH the camera in hand and get 87,whatever!!!!
Yesterday i had 5 fish sticks in the oven with rice and veggies mixed in.I eas quite hungry all day but it was Sunaday , shops were closed and i was minching on carrots all day.....
So pay day is coming up and i need to get to the store to fill up on stuff.
I have NO IDEA whats on the menu today.
 
Well forgot to mention

FIRST GOAL REACHED AT 88 KG!!!!


Next goal is 84 kg.I think thats how much i was when the weding dress fitted!!!
YEEEEESSSS IM GETTING THERE~~~~~~~~~~~~

THANKS GUYS SO MUCH !!!!


starting weight 96kg
current weight 87,8
firts goal 88kg reached
second goal 84 kg
third goal 79 kg
fourth goal 75 kg
fifth goal 69 kg
Final 65kg
 
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thank you amy!i pout some clothes on today an a dress actually fitted.I mean the zip didnt close 2 months ago.I couldnt get in completly closed cause its on my bach and coundnt reach but it FITS!!!WOW!!!
How do i attach pics to this message>?the ones u have to click on
 
I know that feeling well. Last December I bought a jacket I couldn't do up and now it's getting loose. :)

If you go to advanced reply (quick reply at the bottom of this page, then hit "go advanced") then under additional options you should see "manage attachments". Then you can upload pictures (maximum size 100kb, if you need to degrade it- reduce the file size/ quality- take a screenshot and paste that into Paint, then cut out the stuff you don't want us to see).
 
ok the ones in the pink undies is me at 97 or 96 kg the other is me now 87,8!!!

and also heres my dress that actually fits!!!
 
can you honestly see the difference?i do but maybe its just cause im happy from the 87 on the scales.Please be honest.
The dress is from Marks nad Spencers.So is nearly all my clothes!and undies.
I love it too!!thanks\!
 
I can definitely see the change Jasper!! And the dress is SOOO PRETTY! :) Good job, keep up going girl!!
 
WOW!!!!!! I can't believe you have only lost 20 pounds! There is a humongous difference, and you should be really goddamn proud of yourself!!!!!!! How many dress sizes have you gone down?

:party:

Your figure is looking fabulous, I don't know how your bmi is 30.4, you look much slimmer than that number. Not that long to go before you have made it!
 
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