Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

br coffee , bowl of jelly

snack 2 slices of bread with some tuna and cucumber

late lunch veggies in oven ,piece of pie choc bd cake



the bd food was packed w/cals dont be fooled by the veggies loads of oil and the pie filled w/melted cheeses.i had a normal serving but still it wasnt healthy.the kids had a lovely time mario is sleeping now;

thanks for all the lovely words guys!


cate he is 3 so i am afraid he will bother the rest of the people at the gym plus i wont be able to see him sitting from the treadmilland im scared someone could take him......i will just have to go on weekends 4 now......ruth i love that red!!i will try something new and if i dont like it i will darken it!cant wait 4 saturday!


my bday is on the 1st.i am having family over then so another fun day 2 look forward to


here is my mum and me today.she is very sad she lost her sister last week.she seemed better today....i dont feel comfortable though showing her affection....i dont know why.the day we gave her the terible news she started to cry and i put my arm around her and stroke her her.i felt so uncomfortable though....i hate to be like that
 
AMy mother wasn't cuddly when I was growing up, so I know the awkward feeling. The weird thing is that my mothers internet name was huggywell! Don't get it! I am all hugs and kisses with some people, with others I'm not... spose it depends on whether the person is giving off a huggy vibe :)

Your mum is very attractive, such a shame she lost her sister :(

Can't wait to see your new hair!!!!
 
AHello my lovely :)

I totally love the photo of you in your bikini!!!!!! The one where you are. 'no, don't take my photo' you look stunning Hun, really really stunning. I would stop too if I looked like you :)

Oooooh I am going to dye my hair this weekend too, not too different but my roots really need doing.......I am going soooooooooo grey these days lol

I'm so glad that you are enjoying life and your new body right now, so so pleased for you :)

Love and hugs Xxxx
 
A:( So sorry about your aunt ..that is a hard thing to see your parents hurt...and don't feel bad about the awkwardness of affection...I am ridiculously cuddly with the hubby and the boys...but not really anyone else. You can't force it....and it doesn't mean you love less!! I adore my parents and feel very loved....but we just aren't huggers :)

I will have to post an old photo of me with my super 90"s big hair in all its glamorous redness!! its a sight to see!! :)

You are so right on track with your attitude right now ...love it!!
 
hi guys!!!!


first i must say KATE you look way much better than i do and you ARE slimmer that i am you just cant see that right now!!!!Plus we have different body shapes and you must try see what is the best thing on you and plaunt that~~~~~Thank you SO much for all the lovely compliments!!!!

Tete please do post the big hair photo~~~~!!!!

i guess its just simple as you guys said.nothing to do with deep hidden emotions from childhood i thought it probably was~~~~~just not the hugging type!Trust me to get deep into something so simple~!i do that with everything!.....:blush5:


RAINBOW i was thinking of you now i look like this at this moment









the colour isnt as light as i thought plus my hands are painted aswell as my hair and its not coming off.............PLUS i have to go to a bd party at 8ish..........I HOPE I GET THIS STUFF OFF ME>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I hope it comes out nice still have about 20 minutes till i go take it off.





Ok all cleaned up but no party to go to its cancelled well i do have lots of house work so its probably a good thing.My hair is ok its as usual nearlly.nothing WOW...i wanted it much lighter the lady gave me the numbers of the colours and i got them,counting on her word but its really a normal red.Its a litlle darker other times thats all....next time i/ll try try harder to get the shade.






and Mario was sleeping on the couch thank goodness while i did my hair.
 
Love your photos Jess! Very expressive! That hair colour looks great, but then I thought your hair was a lovely red colour before. Lots of love, xo Cate
 
ALOVE the color with your eyes....so stinking HOT!! ;)

Your Mario is such a cutie...he looks so sweet and fun...love that age!!
 
:party:Happy Birthday to you, :party:

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday Dear Jess,

Happy Birthday to you!!

Hip hip, Hooray,

Hip hip Hooray,

:party:Hip Hip HOOORAYYYYYYY!!!!!! :party:

xoxoxoxo :grouphug: Cate
 
A[COLOR=FF00AA]Happy Birthday gorgeous, hope your having a lovely day and getting spoiled xxxx[/COLOR]

I could have sworn I'd replied to you before! Sorry!

Love your hair :)
 
I've always loved red hair, too. If my hair wasn't so darn black, I would dye my hair, too! But, I would have to bleach it first and then the upkeep...sigh. But, I love my black hair, anyhoo lol But, you have a great complexion for red hair, I don't. It would just look..well, fake.


And Happy Birthday!
 
thank you all so much for taking the time to wish me a happy bday!thank you so much:grouphug::grouphug::beating:

it was a VERY buisy day my back ached bad fromall the stuff i did

i had my sisters mum Aand uncle over for a barbeque on the roof it was ok.just tired really


i have been eating ok.not diet stuff but in control.like i havent had any naughty stuff(with 1 exeption,,,,i ate 500 gr of bread....)

i have made healthier choices like yoghurt with peach instead of grilled cheese 4 dinner

at the bakers i buy only a koulouri no hot cheese pies or cakes

but still i had 3 slices of pizza once i dont count my bites anymore and when i make spagghetti i eat a full plate no mercy on the grated cheese either

so its kind of like having average days and then 2-3 bad ones

plus i hadnt worked out in ages and feel it so bad


today i went tothe gym though


5 min walk

25 min run

5 min walk

5 min step(terribly hard)

10 min cool down walk


i forgot to take a towel with so didnt go lift weights cause i couldnt sit on the machines i was so sweaty

it felt so good.i wish g had a regular standard time of working....


i must mention i felt nausea while getting of the step.i remembered kate mentioning it happened to her and she said she just walked through it so i did the same ,i jumped back on the treadmill and walked 10 minutes and i was fine!


also about food i am eating fruit every day.getting to really like them


today is exactlly 8 months i am smoke free!but i think of it every day :banghead:



last sunday we went to the beach and this little stray dog came to me it was in a bad state,its fur was badly tanggeled its eye had infection and it had ticks on it so many....horrible

so i took her home terrified a tick might b=go stick on us....so its been a week!she has had her vacinations done we took ger to be groomed and she is taking med for her eye.her name is tina and shes so happy now!mario adores her!



before cutting her fur still a bit shaggy but nothing close 2 what she first looked like

















after getting cleaned up mario tina as a pillow and rubi
 
Oh Jess- Soooo cute!!! You are such a sweetie, taking home a stray & looking after it. What a pair of little cuties they are! Lots of love to you, xoxo Cate
 
AAwww she is gorgeous :) So glad you brought her back with you! Maybe you can go on jogs with her.

No :banghead: allowed!!! Smoking kills you. It makes you really actually dead. You are not allowed to miss it! I am going to the doctors tomorrow to get prescribed a stop-smoking drug, I really hope it works. Recently smoking has been making me feel really dirty, all that smelly smoke being soaked into my skin and clothes and hair. And if I am going to waste my money it would make sense to waste it on something that will make my life better, not end it. I am trying to tell myself the stress of giving up smoking is nothing compared to the stress I will have finding out I have terminal cancer.

Glad you are being sensible and balanced with your food choices. If you are aiming to maintain, that is the way to go. A few treats are fine, its when you stop caring what your stuffing in your mouth, ever, which will make you gain.
 
AHeya sweetie :)

Whoops.......Happy Birthday hun :eek: Sorry i missed it.

I am so impressed with how long it's been since you gave up smoking. That is so freaking awesome. WELL DONE YOU!!!!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

The new dog looks adorable and you can just see in her face how happy she is, i bet she can't believe her luck. She is gonna love her new life and family :)

Love and hugs sweetie :grouphug:
 
/hi guys



Got another keyboard so i can type again``Takes a bit getting used ti cause its samller and the keys are not where they should be!!!:)

Our new doggie is doing great , she seems to be getting along musch better with my other dog Roubi.I hope she gets to like her and they become friends!!!



I was on the go all daygot very mad with mario and G for small reassons probably cause i was so tired.And now i feel really bad...Time is 3 am and im still up..Mario only slept at 1am.....and thats because i madehim get into his bed lights of no tv....He was crying and then just fell asleep....I hate it when i shout at him............i wish i could just get it together t times when i feel im breaking up.Not allow myself to get in the state that i must shout and punish him...



I went to the gym on Sunday and yesterday,Tuesday.Felt fantastic....BUT i di 30 minute run ,broken in to 15 minutes then 5 minutes walk and then another 15 mn run,.Seems i cant run straight anymore for 30 minutes.I did get upset a bit but then i made myself see that i have been away from it for a while so need some time to get into it again,

I did take a towel with so i did my weights and today i am a little sore nothing bad though.So i NEED to get another 2 days in.Sunday is for sureone of the days i'll be going.Then i have thursday (tommorow) or Friday.Saturday is a NO.I need to get 3 days a week.....



Food is in control.I was watching a movie just before coming on here and i wanted to eat a sandwich with cheese and salami in BUT i htought its SO not goof=d for my body specially this time of night, so i just had a pear and halfa peach.ITs really not hunger just the thought that i have salami and cheese in the fridge and the yummy bread in the cupboard...Its not like i wont have any at all just the timming isnt right.I cant let myself eat that so late...It like i am allowing myself to get fatter...NO NO NOIts theese little things that make the difference



I was looking at photos i kept from the start of this journey till i went as low as 76,8 kg and at 83 kg (last years photos) i look much beteer now even though the weight is still the same.In the OLD 83's i see myself as rather swollen ...(i am polite!) in the Now 83's i see myself as tighter and more solid guess its the exercise that makes this difference.I have made a difference even if its a little and i really like that!!!!So i m off now try togo to sleep its really late!!!



Kisses to all!!!!!



Rainbow you are right about the head banging!!!!!Its really just that i feel so many time this thing ...Like lets say ex...We fiiosh eating , i then wash the dishes , then i fill up a glass of diet coke and i sit on the couch and i feel there is something left i mustdo.Like if i DONT smoke something from all this is missing..Its so strange..

Or like when i get in my car to go somewhere i HAVE to make a coffee now and take it with so i can drink it while driving or else i feel that something is miising and that is a cig for sure.

SO i am drinking more coffees every day..Its so weird.I should be over the damn thing but i still feel like "now what?" every time i sit down to realx.Like the ciggarette was a "closure" (god i dont know how i spelt that!!!!)

I will tell you something u have prob heard its like a cliche but its sooo true.If you really WANT to quit you will.I had the feeling of guilt before stoping many times and i hated it.I felt real guit...but the reasson i STOPED WASNT BECAUSE I WANTED TO i enjoyed them to much,even though i always said i will stop one day,i knew i wouldnt.I stopped because i had to.Because i felt i was taking away nursery from Mario so i can buy a pack every day.The reaswson was financial.

If you really WANT to or come to a point that you HAVE to stop you will but if you are not certain inyou or leave a little bit of doubt you will fail.



Lots of love to ALL you guys!!!
 
Managed to get to the gym tonight.I was so tired though i barely made it through.I did

5 min warm up

20 min run on 8...

5 min fast walk

8 min run on 8

5 min cool down

i also did some weights for back and biceps today.

i have a programm made for me by one of the fitness instructors there ,so i HAVE to make it 3 times a week cause he has made it out like this

day 1 muscles to work breast-legs 1- triceps

day 2 muscles to work on back-biceps

day 3 shoulders - legs 2



I had already washed the car , cooked , cleaned , played with mario , gone to the super market , and then i went to the gym,..................i was so tired i had also this pain a stich i think its called?i tried to control my breathing instead of stopping and slowly it faded away....i am hungry again now,,,,,,,also i am very tired so im off to realx a bit


lots o f love!!!! :)
 
Jess, well done on having the pear & half a peach. It's those little choices that really make the difference, both to our weight but also how we feel about ourselves . Well done also on getting to gym & having such a great work-out. I'm the same re my weight & how my body feels. I feel so much slimmer because my body is getting toned. Just being more active makes you feel so much better about yourself. Go team! Lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
AIt is so annoying moving to a smaller keyboard, you’ll get used to it tho :)

Roubi and Tina will be bestest buddies in no time!

Naughty kiddies when you are really tired is the worst! I always count to three to get mine under control.. I have always done it with Lily, not with Charlie though. But after doing it a million times with him he does listen now. There has to be the same punishment every time you get up to three with no exceptions I think. One of Charlie's naughtiest habits is turning the telly up to 100 volume. He turns it straight down when I say “1â€, because he knows I will turn it off at the socket. If he does it more than two times in a row I turn off the electric at the the main switch for 10 minutes. Hows Mario’s talking coming along?

It’s a lot easier disciplining Lily for me… What I say to her is “Do you want to be naughty and sad, or a good girl and happyâ€, and she always chooses the good girl option, then I ask her what she would like to do… a lot of the time she wants me to read her a book or go up in her bedroom and play with her. So the crisis is over and we are all happy. That’s not to say that I never get sick and tired when the kids are going crazy, because I do… Sometimes they run upstairs and downstairs all over the house and I am at my wits end chasing them… At times like that I put the Simpson on and sit them beside me and hope for the best :toetap05:

Well done on the running!

I know where your coming from over the feeling likes something’s missing from when I gave up before. I really do want to quit. I am sick of smoking, I am sick of hardly even feeling satisfied by a cigarette any more, and feeling like I need another one almost straight away. With every roll-up I ask why I am doing this to myself? I've been reading cancer forums as well, particularly the lung cancer ones, crying over peoples battles, and realising that cancer is real, and I am asking for it by smoking. Its emblazoned over all the tobacco packets SMOKING CAN CAUSE CANCER, and I am disgusted by it. Also, my lips are chapped at the moment, and the other day I noticed that the dry skin on one side had turned yellow from the nicotine, I have yellow between my fingers as well. If that colour is caused by smoking a cigarette, what do my lungs look like? I can’t imagine what the inside of my lungs must smell like and look like- those yellow smelly juices from thousands of cigarettes all festering inside me YUCK. I really want to end this addiction before it ends me. And it will, if I don't stop. Almost guaranteed. I have to give up at some point, so it may as well be NOW.
 
AGirl ....you are rocking the running...so jealous!! and your energy seems really up!! your mario is a very very lucky little man!! Hugs!! Keep being awesome...it inspires me :)
 
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