Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

Breakfast 2 coffees = 140 cals , half a sandwich with cheese and some margarine 250 , two bites of a sweet made with honey 100 cals

Snack Cereal bar 69 cals a slice of boiled turkey 30 cals

Lunch 225gr (cooked) spaghetti with 50 gr.of grated cheese 570 , a bowl of boiled zucchini,coliflower,carrots 100 cals

Snack A cookie made woth grape 120 cals


TOTAL 1379



105 crunches , 10 bridges , arms weights



That food was extremely oily!!!! I made spaghetti today cause there wasnt much in the fridge and my father wanted a can of tuna in his.So he came in the kitchen and as the spaghetti was in the canister he poured olive oil on.....I had put some in the boiling water already , so i said to him why is he doing that?he said so the spaghetti doesnt stick together that way even after hours its still good and not sticky...he said i am overreacting and that a LITTLE olive oil is no harm!~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!At least i had taken mine already and put it on my plate!!!!Anyway..im just really praying for him to leave....

I was sitting here thinking of food so much wanting to go stuff my face so decided to go do some crunches instead.My back is a little better today , but the weight liffting did hurt a bit so i did most of them sitting down.

Then i took my dog for a long walk i am trying to train her, think its a bit too late for that as she is 2 and half years old and a crazy beagle.But i wil try to make my life a bit easier by training her.

I just came in its nearly 12.A not tired at all,but must go to bed im up at 7 "30 tommorow.


Katie you would of thought i would be pleased but im not!!!!Still feeling ugly and old...i was walking my dog and so many people where in this cafe drinking and listnening to loud music......oh well....


I took photos of my food but forgot to put the memory card in , so the photos where saved to the camera and i dont have the wire to conect to my pc.
 
AGlad your not sliding the slippery slope of your Dads oil slick!

I feel a bit old and haggard as well... Specially next to all the fresh faced 18 year olds at my uni. Almost everyone is 18-21. Arrgghhh. No-one stays young forever. But we are nowhere NEAR old yet!!!! There are loads of people looking at you with "young envy", as you are looking at the people getting drunk in the bars. Get your hair cut and ded, get waxed, and get loads of nice new clothes! It doesn't matter that your losing weight, you still deserve at least two new outfits that make you feel fantastic! And go out clubbing and have some fun.That's an order!

Hope you manage to get your beagle trained.
 
Ah rainbow!!!lovely if i could do all that maybe a little each time , im really short on money!I DO need my hair done again my roots are showin.Plus i want to order a eye shadow pallette so ill walk around all day made up\!!!!



Came on just to say i weighed in today,even though im not finished with my periods,i am officialy 78,9!!!!:party:

3 rd goal DONE!!!


1st goal 89kg

2nd goal 84kg

3rd goal 79kg

4th goal 75 kg

5th goal 69kg

6th goal finish 65kg!!!


Just want to say a big big thanks to all you lovely people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:grouphug::beating:
 
Breakfast 2 coffees =140 cals , 1 tiny brown roll with lettuce tomatoe and a slice of turkey 200 cals

Snack 1 coffee 70 cals , 1 mini toast 25 cals , a handfull of nuts 200 cals

Dinner 3 boiled zucchinis with 1 tbs olive oil 200 cals , 3 mini toast 75 cals , 56 gr.feta cheese 200 cals

Late snack half low fat yoghurt 150 cals , 2 mini toasts w/2 light cheese and 2 slices turkey 160 cals


TOTAL 1420


no workout




Ok i am still so pissed of with my lovely dad...AAA i had such a day in and out ,cleaning this place i go to then the house, taking and getting my child from nursery it is a 30 min.drive , supermarket ect...So i came home at 7 pm and my father had told me to get mince meat so he can make burgers.He told me to get CLEAN NO FAT meat.I couldnt go to our regular brand supermarket cause it was SO out of my way so i went to another one.When he saw the meat he said its not fat free (it had a bit the truth is) and that i was BORED to go to the regular super market...I got so mad.I told him if doesnt like it to go himself next time and that whateven i do he doesnt like it.He made the damn burgers with olive oil IN olive oil in the oven AND A BLOB OF SALTED BUTTER ON EACH OF THEM WHILE COOKING.jesus...i was so hungry and i am so f%#%^ing pissed off right now.I didnt eat it , so the only thing i had was left over veggies from yesterday.THATS MY FOOD ...i did have other things all day that kept me going specially the nuts but still its like i havent actually eaten today.I have another 200 cals left dont know what to eat now for that ammount

I am just sick and tired of him.Its like history is repeating itself AGAI|N and AGAIN/Like when i used to live with him , i always felt i must do thiung s the RIGHT way he wants them so he can be pleased..I WANT HIM TO LEAVE>>>>>> i cant stand him anymore........i am oing out of my head...TOnight while he sleeps i will destroy the game he plays ALL DAY ON MY LAPTOP.So he doesnt have a game to play all day maybe he will get thinking what to do with his crapy life and leave my home.

I am planing on having a childress day or a couple invite all my friends with kids and have a blast.That will make him miserable.Then i am planning on the weekend to make such a noise here with MArio with dancing and shouting.

PLUS he wakes up in the morning sits in the lounge , open my laptop and CHANGES THE KIDS CHANNEL MY SON IS SEEING....hell no,no more.I am not going to let him do that anymore.....If you have any ideas just please tell me.I want to make life impossible...i want him OUT,


Well,i havent had any exercise yet , i am going to take Mario and Rubi for a walk now then i;ll get some done.

I will be back again to edit for workout and extra snack i will have
 
AHeya sweetie

First off :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Well done you on your weight loss....I am so so chuffed for you. You are defintly flying now babe.

Secondly......YOU ARE NOT OLD!!!!!!! Neither is Ruthie!!! Now, i am bloody old......Way older than you guys. And you so dont look your age either hun. You are stunning :)

Another :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Well done girly :)
 
Thank you Kate for such kind words!!!!you are NOT OLD , when you dont look old from your photos how old are you really?


Ok guys please tell me that i am not overreacting and just horrible but take a look at this pic...ITs todays food .I was making pinach with rice in the pot.I love it with lemon juice!!!So you know who came in before i had started cooking , i was still washing the spinach , and told me HOW to make it....Like i dont know or i need instruction.He told me the way to make it and i took a bit of spinach and fr.onions on the side for me to cook in another pot for myself.He came back in and saw hom much oil i had put and said we need more...jesus...it wa already A LOT and he empty the bottle of oil....and was ready to go buy another 2lt bottle....god...So i said Why are you using so much oil?he started to speak loud in a nervous way and i told him to keep it down cause mario is sleeping.He said then that the food is an oily dish wich means it needs oil to be tasty.....

Mine came out great i use a tablespoon only and put water in for it to cook and lemon juice.Then we sat at the table and i made my husband say its nice but really to oily,I am boiling inside..i hate it..i want him OUT LIKE YESTERDAY<<<<<<<<<<What can i do?i hate his ways , his face , his talking.i HATE the way he sits on my laptop all day just there on the couch , only gets up to have a smoke...........................i am so sorry for going on and on about this.But its the only thing i can think of.

I have decided to not speak to him only the basics hello goodbye.I HATE IT.he is never satisfied only if things happen the way HE WANTS>I HATE HIM AND WANT HIM GONE>< this is the oily one am i over reacting?






this is mine.only a tablespoon...cant even see it.
 
AHey sweetie.

I am 38!!!! :( How did i get so old lol

You have every right to be pissed off with him. I would be fuming!!!!!! I would have said 'This is my house, you wanna stay here, you live by my rules' And you need to get hubby on your side too.

His food looks fucking disgusting!!! S'cuse the language but it really does. It's that bad, it need to be in a bloody bowl rather than on a plate YUCK!! :puke:

I am totally with you sweetie, he is pissing me off by pissing you off lol.

Be strong hun, thinking of you.
Big squishy hugs. Xxx
 
Breakfast 2 coffees 140 cals 1 koulouri 200 cals= 340 cals

Lunch Plate of spinach w/50gr rice400 cals and 59gr feta cheese 157 cals 4 mini toasts 100 cals = 657 cals

Snack big piece of homemade cake 500 cals 1 coffee 70 cals = 570 some nutela 100 cals


Total 1667 cals


42 nimutes bike , 110 crunches , arm weights.



So i know i shouldnt of had that cake i made.It wa a sponge cake , i made it for my son so he can have a piece each day for school since he never eats what i give him.I didnt even like it to be honest.I will make up for it this week cutting down.Im doing a zig zag kind of thing with my cals , not the same ammout every day , but the ssame at the end of the week.

I was so NOT motivated before the cake, then i felt shit and had my workout,i wasnt going to do that...:eek:



Kate thanks for reasuring me im not crazy!!!A...he finished seeing a movie and went to the loo so i got the chance to close the lights and make my "bed" (the sofa) so he went to sleep upstairs he got the picture,then i felt bad a little....I dont want to upset him i just dont want him here.I dont want him telling me what to do even if its about the silly food...Well



38 isnt old so i guess 30 isnt either but i FEEL old...Its the INSIDE that has become an old lady....hope its just my stress with my father here.
 
AI have to agree- that rice looks disgusting floating in all that oil. Really, really disgusting. How can he think that is nice? And what a cheek to have a go at you for not getting fat free meat, and then adding that amount of fat to it!

He is getting way too comfortable, he is taking the piss turning over Mario's kiddie programmes. I agree with you trying to make him feel uncomfortable, but you really need to talk to him and tell him that he needs to find somewhere else to live. Its your house, and he shouldn't come in and start ruling it. You could use Mario as an excuse and say to him that the longer he stays, the harder it will be for Mario when he leaves. You could start looking at rooms to rent and jobs and stuff in the paper, and pointing them out to him. Any conversation you have with him, try to turn it around to him working or finding somewhere new. If he is hearing it every hour or so, he will eventually get the message in a few days.

What worries me is your husband saying that its okay if he stays. Is he on your side now? Because ideally it would come from both you and your husband- he was welcome to stay here for a short while, but NOT FOR GOOD. It is really worrying me that he will never leave of his own accord. You need to push him. For your own sanity hun xxxx

And well done on getting to 79 kilos :D
 
aaaa!!!well story continues!was making lentiles and he came again said that the food boiling in the pot is TOTALY with no oil.I had put 10 tbs for a huge pot.....but there was no oil floating on top see!!!So he grabed the oil i told him to stop.I will put HIS food in another smaller pot and he can put as much oil as he wants!You know what he said? he said i must put my food in another pot cause my husband likes the oily food...i said to him i dont care if he likes it he isnt having it.He isnt going to be 120 kg again,i said , plus my child i dont want him eating like that.He got really pissed of when outside to have a fag.So i am happy with myself!!!!

There are 2 pots on the stove!i took a pic of the olive oil bottle, that bottle was bought today!!!thats hom much he has used for a small pot of lentiles,i only used a little for a BIG pot,so just look!

A~~~im off to get mario from school


Rainbow i will start speaking about what you said tonight!Thing is he isnt going to rent a house,he hasnt any money.he needs to go back to where he was , out of greece , but he needs a new passport, but he cant get it cause he ows many to the irs (i think thats what its called) and he needs to pay what he owns or go 6 months to jail!He said he is going to jail for 6 months and come out clean and get his passport and leave//i dont know what he is waiting for.I will bring this up tonight!!!


yeah me for standing up for my self and my family's eating!!! it feels GOOD!!!!




O my god i talked bit now...oh my god....its a difficult thing to explain...i will try...

He said that its not nessecery to go back....oh my god...he said he is waiting for some buisness opening and if he does manage it then he will have money to continue the buisness but isnt nessesary to go back...om my god...o my god.i feel like crying oh my god what will happen?i cant stand it anymore.
 
Breakfast 2 coffees 140 cals

Lunch Lentiles soup w.carrots and potatoe 500 aprox 59 gr feta cheese 150 cals 4 mini toast 100 cals

Snack Coffee 70 cals

Dinner 2 grilled sandwich with 2 light cheese and 2 slices turkey 450 cals





Total 1410



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Dont think it was that though , i think its about 100 cals left but im writing down more just to be sure.I was waiting for my dinner ALL day,wanted it soooo bad!!!!I love those things.

I am so tired im of to sleep now Goodnight!
 
AYay! So glad you stood up to him over the oil!!!!!!

I know it must be horrible knowing that the only place he will be able to go is prison without a passport. But it is your Dads own fault for getting himself into such a mess. And what is he going to do? Be on the run for the rest of his life? Try to hide from the IRS? I think that is pretty much impossible if you are living normally, y'know... with a job, your name on the electoral roll (Or the Greek equivalent). I think it would be the best thing for everyone if he just faces the consequences of his actions.
 
AYes, indeed!! :iagree: Your husband is such an oil freak! Huh! I could never eat that oily food he wants to eat!
 
Brealfast Coffee 70 cals , 2 mini toasts with 1 light cheese and 1 slice turkey 105 cals = 175 cals

Snack Coffee 70 cals

Dinner Some chicken on a stick with 1 pita bread grilled , half tomatos , french fries.



Total 1300 cals




We went to our friends home today i spent all my day there but when i arrived they had already eaten so i had nearly nothing all day,i was so hungry by 9 thirty pm that i ate from delivery the chicken i wrote down as dinner.I even had some french fries.I dont know how many cals that was but i havent gone over for sure.I am still hungry but im going to sleep , cause i dont ACTUALLY know how many cals was in that meal so i would hate to mess up.


Things at home are the same.I am just miserable 24/7.My mum is coming tomorow as i asked her to , she is going to tell him to get his act together and not stay here , cause i have a family now and im not pleased with the situation,She is not going to tell i MADE her say that of course, i hopw it get him thinking.We will see



Errika its not my husband!its my dads food!!!!


I was speaking about my father all day , to my girlfriend she is worried of me,i feel bad , cause its all i speak about on here too,as well as my hudband.He yelled at me sooooo much today in the car cause i was going on about my dad , he said he cant do anything and i must stop moaning the whole time about it , if i dont like it i should tell him to leave , or shut up moaning.Thank goodness the car windows where closed so other people in cars didnt here him screaming at me....

Well i am of to bed, will catch up tomorow
 
Hey babe, sorry to hear about the drama going on in your life, i think you are doing marvellous though:) I cant believe you were starving but you ate nothing else and went to bed, Thats dedication right there!!:):)


Keep up the fab work gorgeous:)

xxxx
 
AHeya sweetie

So sorry i have been neglecting you. But, i'm back on form today and have caught up.

I really feel for you with all the stress you father is causing. It is all the little things that irritate the most i think. Hopefully he will listen to your mum and actually realise how he is affecting you and your family.

Well done on doing a really hard workout after you had cake :hurray: That's the way girl!!!! i noticed that you are doing 110 crunches, i'm gonna have to up mine now aint i?!? :)

Oooh, well done on getting to 79k that's awesome :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Oooh, now 78.5k So so proud of you hun, especially with all the temptaions that you have to deal with and all the bloody oil your father is trying to feed you all. Congratulations hun.

Maybe if you mum doesn't get thru to your father you should tell him to go. If it is causing problems with your husband, he needs to go.

Keep up the great work sweetie

Love and hugs Xxx
 
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