Cate's Diary

Well done on the lost pound butterfly. I have enjoyed the GK's, but I am very glad that they are not my full-time responsiblity. Once you have done your bit & your children are adults you are well & truly over it. I still have our GS as he has a cold & was not well enough to go to school. I don't think he's fooling us, but another day of kids TV might drive me barmy! It has to get turned off very soon. I think I'll set a 10.30 turn off!His mother works or I would take him home. She hasn't even replied to my message saying he was staying home.

She just did.

Our older son, D, is in Hobart at the moment & our younger son, R, was meant to go to a concert with D & D's GF & their teenagers. He has lost his phone apparently so they called in to see him. He was in bed & then never showed up. :( That could be why he wasn't answering my texts or FB msg's.

It is very hard not to worry about your offspring.
Fast day today. I enjoy not eating in the morning. It's something that I'm not used to, but I feel physically better.
Feeling a bit out of sorts mentally now about R. He is such a worry!
 
I have enjoyed the GK's, but I am very glad that they are not my full-time responsiblity. Once you have done your bit & your children are adults you are well & truly over it.

I don´t even have kids and I still feel the same... So sorry to hear R isn´t feeling well again! Hugs from Austria.
 
Thank you LaMa. He hasn't improved it seems. We have been messaging backwards & forwards for hours now(he got a new sim card & put in an old phone) & he is very low. His appointment is Wednesday. I will hold onto hope. I reminded him to "never, ever forget how much I love him." I'm hoping that this will stick. I know he has felt suicidal many times. I can't change the world & I can't change his. There are so many people who have supported me through tough times & have shared their stories with me. I am confident that better times lay ahead of him. I look forward to when he feels the same. Thanks for the love LaMa.
Today is fasting day & I am staaaaarving. I'll go polish off my FD soup! I have a delicious looking dinner plated up as well (Venison & tomato meatballs with veg) & will still have room for a piece of chicken or a piece of ham or a banana. Decisions, decisions.....I'll decide much later!
xoxo Cate
 
Hi Cate, sorry to hear your son is having a rough time again. I can't imagine how painful it is knowing how much he's struggling and not being able to do anything! Freaks me right out of having kids, urgh. I get upset if my cat randomly has a limp for a couple of days, I'd be a constant stressed out wreck if I had a kid.

What's this about fasting? I would die!
 
Hi Lucy. Our son is still having a rough time, rather than again I'm afraid. It is really hard being a parent!
Re: fasting- I'm doing the 5:2 "diet" aka " The Fast Diet" that Michael Mosley recommended. It's week 3 & I'm not used to the fast days yet. You only have 500 cals on "fast" days. It is not easy. I haven't learned the tricks yet, for staving off the hunger.
Mind you no wonder I'm ravenous right now as it's 5pm & I have only had 117 cals. I think I'll be having my dinner VERY soon! If the scales show a loss tomorrow it should be worth it, otherwise I'll have to re-think it.
Welcome back sweetie xoC


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I have heard of that diet, how are you finding it?? I would be dying, 500cals is what I eat for breakfast!!!! What do you do on the non-fasting days?
 
Hi Lucy & Butterfly & anyone else reading my diary.
I am struggling with the fasting days, except for the 1st one I did. Now, if only I could remember what I did that day.....actually I think I do remember. I didn't eat anything until about 12 noon & then I ate a carrot, some celery & a hard-boiled egg & then had a small dinner & some strawberries. This Thursday I am going to weigh out 500 cals of food & put it in 2 containers in the fridge & snack on it when I'm hungry & NO SOUP. My yesterday's soup tasted like grass & I mean grass grass! Boring & tasteless!

Weight this morning- Ta da! It's now I tell you I weighed yesterday morning & I was up a kilo & today I'm 1.5 less than yesterday. From now on I am only weighing Tuesdays & Fridays, after each fasting day. Cate, stay off the scales!!!
I had a totally crap day yesterday & had nightmares again last night, invoving me bashing people with a hockey stick. I was very grumpy when I went to bed. That was yesterday.
THIS IS TODAY & I had better skedaddle.
Love to all xoxo Cate
 
Yay for another half kilo lost! Weightlifting Barbie is almost in the middle :) I´m going to assume that the first fasting day was easier because your body didn´t know what was happening, now that it does it´ll probably fight for a bit until it realizes you´re serious and then it´ll get easier. I remember an ancient cartoon about a woman who was on a very strict diet and over the course of a page she progresses from just looking through recipes in magazines to planning entire feast and talking about how some people eat their own children (the look on the face of her husband is priceless) so I guess you´re not doing too badly with your hockey stick!
 
You may just be right LaMa. I can't believe how crabby & negative I was last night when I went to bed. That's funny about the eating children comment. Yesterday I could have eaten anything. I sure am hoping the fast days get easier. I think of food ALL day! It's funny, but the day after a fast day I don't feel very hungry at all. I will struggle to get up to TDEE today. I have made mine 1600 cals to be safe. I will have 1 or 2 glasses of wine tonight. I am so happy to have dropped a bit more. It has gone straight from my stomach! :D YAY!
I bumped into a young woman in the supermarket & she remarked that I looked "fantastic". WOW. That made me feel good!
A bit later a woman came up to me & apologised & said she had an email address to give me & she has been waiting to see me to give it to me & had it for ages. She was in Victoria in the town I grew up & met a woman who mentioned that she had a friend in Tasmania that she had lost touch with. It turned out to be me & my brother was in the same place apparently. I now have the email address & will send her an email soon. I had caught up with her years ago & had sent her an email & never heard back & assumed she didn't want to keep in contact. We had been to High School together & were great friends & I must admit I was quite disappointed. She thinks she may have given me an incorrect email address. I am going up that way in October so if I can't contact her I will call & visit while I'm up there. She lives very close to my older brother.

I had a very active day today & have not eaten much. Did Tai Chi with Mum too & that's always nice. I move her hands for her but today she was a little bit more agile.
I'm playing golf tomorrow.
I think I forgot to say but I bumped into the massage therapist at the market on Saturday & have her new address & phone number so will book in for a massage soon. Unloading the beer truck today at the golf club reminded me that my back is not quite 100%. 30 cartons of beer will do that. I'm much better though, but a decent massage will be good.
Better go as I have the gasbags!
xoxo Cate
 
Yay for compliments in the supermarket! Also for reconnecting with old friends and getting decent massages :) Sounds like you´re making up for yesterday by living doubly today :grouphug:
 
& I'm off to golf today. I was affected by de-odorisers in 3 different places yesterday & consequently woke up with a slight head-ache & a blocked nose, aching sinuses etc, but...
I am off to women's golf today!!
I ate a bigger breakfast than usual & am going to try to eat up to 1600 cals today so that I am not so hungry on my FD tomorrow.
Spring has definitely sprung. Before I know it I'll be cracking out the sunscreen! :D
Love to all, xo Cate
 
Glad you had a good day the other day after a less than positive day.
I hope your fasting days get easier for you!
Have fun at golf!
 
Yay for exercise in the fresh air on a beautiful spring day! Now if the unpleasant women decide to give it a miss so the pleasant ones can have a ball everything seems perfect :)
 
Unloading 30 cartons of beer sounds like a good workout for the back. Here's hoping the golf group was pleasant and the massage helps with the back.

Jealous that you're heading into spring while us in the northern hemisphere are getting ready to say bye bye to summer.
 
It's lovelyto come into my diary (I nearly always do that last) & find so many supportive comments. Nice. Thank you Mystic, LaMa, K&D, Q & KP :grouphug:

My golf day was a good one, with the exception of the standard of my game :blush5:
I am learning strategies to deal with the women & consequently they seem to be getting better. I suppose I am just better able to deal with them. I stand up more & speak up if I disagree with anything. I am also learning to be more tactful. It has never been my strong point. There are ways around most people if you make the effort.
I continue to de-clutter & tidy up out at the golf club & that seems to be appreciated. They are still at me to take on a major position & I am going to keep strong in my resistance. I already do a great deal out there & I am not going to add any more responsiblity.

It's FD today & I have my lunch sorted & in a bowl in the fridge. It's a salad & less than 200 cals, including 1 hard-boiled egg & some rare roast beef, shredded. It looks yummy!

Our YS, R had his 1st psych ap't yesterday & he seems to think he'll get through this. He had gone to work straight afterwards & didn't reply to my message until 2am this morning when he got home. Unfortunately I had taken my phone with me into our bedroom & it woke us both up. I read the message out & it was quite positive. I was trying to get back to sleep & I sensed G was crying. Poor thing. He doesn't talk about his concerns much, but I know he's been very worried about R.
R said he's going to see a psychiatrist to try to work out his "self image" problems & is going to give notice at the hospitality job that "is brutal to my health". His last words were "gonna get through it." I had felt that seeing a psychologist would really help him.

G & I are going to go & get some wood today. It's a beautiful, sunny day!
Bye for now, xoxo Cate
 
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