Cate's Diary

Thanks LaMa & Stacy. You can never have enough lovely people in your life!

I really do have to make some changes this year. I feel good for a while & then I start to stress again & it is hard to stop my brain getting really anxious. I might start writing stuff down & trying to work out what to do to make my life easier & happier. Our YS, R & 2 friends are arriving this afternoon & staying the night. D & his 3 kids & his sons GF are coming for dinner tonight as well. I really should be on the move, but have little energy. My day will improve I'm sure. Not feeling great physically. For some reason my system seems to be reacting strangely- bloating etc.

It's cooler today which is lovely.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
Hi Cate!! I only briefly went through the last couple pages of your diary. Looks like you're dealing with a lot right now!!! Hope everything calms down for you soon xx
 
Hey Cate, sorry you're having a hard time with the club thing. I haven't quite gone back far enough in your diary to see exactly how it all started but I hope that things smooth out as best as they can.
Today's sounds like a nice day full of family so hopefully that lifts your spirits.
 
Sorry to see so much turmoil around the club politics. Too bad golfing couldn't remain a nice day walking around the grass and woods wondering where the heck that last shot made it instead of bringing back high school antics.
Writing out thoughts sounds like it would be a very useful exercise to get it all out on paper to start trying to make some sense of it all. You are far too kind and caring a person to be dealing with what sounds like a toxic person.
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I'm adding a big bear hug from me to the mix. Writing out your thoughts (and reading them later) is a great exercise. You can go back and forth in your head all day long but something changes when your thoughts exist in physical form. Focus on the kids, I'm glad you've got them to draw positive energy from.
 
Whoops! It will take me awhile to get used to the changes. For a minute there I thought I would be able to reply to each comment as you do on FB!
Thanks Lucy, Mystic, LaMa, Butterfly, K&D, Oaks, Stacy & Jen! Your support makes me feel SOOO good. Having the family up for the night was just lovely! In one day & one evening I feel much stronger & happier & very much loved.
R had organised for his friend to do the work that needed doing to our home. He had looked at my list on the fridge at xmas & gone back to Hobart & set this trip up. He said it was thanks for us repaying his debt. At xmas I told him he didn't owe us anything. We had evened up the family 'ledger' by paying off all D's household debts & buying him a new wood-heater (a Lopi, like ours) .
We had a lovely dinner on the Thursday night with R, his friend D, the handyman, C from Canada, who is travelling(R met him in Berlin) D & his 3 kids, D his OS's GF & the 2 of us. It was lots of fun- a great night!
We left yesterday morning with D doing the work. We went to the meeting & it was ok. I am not getting any more involved with anything golf club related.
I had arranged to have lunch afterwards with G's 2 sisters, his brother & his wife & a friend of theirs who was visiting from Melb). We had a nice lunch at a little Thai restaurant we like & abandoned any ideas of shopping & drove home as we were very tired.
When we got home all the work had been done & we even had some food prepared for us for dinner. How nice?
We now have a door fixed, that hasn't been able to be used for about 3 years(outside my laundry), another door fixed that had a very dodgy lock, a hose reel attached, towel rails etc fitted in our ensuite(have had them for about 5 years) and a very tidy house.
G has gone off to golf & I am staying at home today. It's cool & I may just potter about & do some housework. I have a few things to do golf club related. As I have committed to doing the Vet's secretary's position I need to learn the job properly. I'll do it for one year & see.
I am going to do less & less (other than the bar) until we both go off committee in October.
Life is good & it's time to do more of what I like. We will be communicating with her via email from now on.
Thanks for the love folks. I really do appreciate it!
xoxo Cate
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kaplooie said:
I need to go back and read several pages but wanted to stop and say HI because I've missed you. HIIIII!!!!!
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I am so glad you're feeling a bit happier after the nice evening! I know all about poisonous company too, maybe one day soon on my journal I'll have to expand on that as it's an ongoing issue in my life right now. Ahhh.
 
What an awesome son you've got there to arrange that for you! You've got lots of positive people in your life along with the wackos, it's great that you were able to focus on them for a bit.
 
Expand away Lucy as it's better to share it. I have got so much support & it has really helped. We should not have to put up with toxic people. I still am. The minutes to last week's meeting are sitting unread in my inbox & I'm too scared to read them. I fear for my health....seriously!

Thanks Oaks. He is lovely & I do have lovely people in my life. His friend is one of the best people I have ever met.

Stacy- thank you. I still have a long way to go to get my equilibrium back, but a night like that sure helps. I'm working on it.

I thought I would quickly get used to the new format, but I must confess I think it sucks. It's mostly because it's harder to see where you have been & where you have not posted yet. Not enough fits on one page now. Diaries will quickly disappear to the second page. I hope it is improved soon. Each post seems to take up too much space. I do like that when you go to copy & paste one section it gives you the option to just quote that section easily. I also like the lazy "like" option, but I may not notice if anyone does. That's OK. No edit, lousy childish smilies....
I may have to remove my photo now there is a share this page option. I preferred our forum was tucked away in our little part of the world!
 
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