Cate's Diary

Hi K & D. I usually come around to that way of thinking too & it helps, to a point. My ex-DIL is a case in point. I have given her so much slack & forgiven her a lot but my limits have been stretched to breaking point. I would never criticise her to the GK's though & don't to others. She is the mother of our grand-kids. I will try VERY hard not to let this woman get to me. She had me so mad & so upset on Sunday, but I managed to let her know that I thought she was being totally unreasonable. Any more though I will be firmer, but not in front of others.
I am off to play in the final round of our women's club championships. I am no chance, but am playing in a nice group, so will have fun. It's going to be 25oC & very high UV. Here in Tassie you get sunburned easily so I am plastered in sunscreen & will wear a hat.
Love to all xoxo Cate
 
I did on all counts KP. Had a good day, re-applied sunscreen a few times, ignored B, without anyone else noticing & stayed yakking for a long time. Unfortunately I told them about it. I wish I hadn't. I said much more than I would have liked. I was still really angry. After yesterday I was convinced that B has been the problem. One of my favourite women there returned the stuff I lent her when she was going to Turkey. She bought me a lovely bookmark. I really like this woman. She told me I am bigger than this & I should forgive her & get over the anger regardless of whether she apologizes or not. I know I need to. Last night I was still awake at 2.30am, agonising over just about everything.
This morning R rang & I ended up telling him about it & he said he does it too. We over-analyse everything. I was most upset about talking to the women about it.
I have had a really good day & G is back! [emoji2][emoji171] He only brought home enough for 2 meals, but he had a ball! He saw Dolphins, seals, Albatrosses & his brother saw a breaching whale.
Very tired tonight! I have only had 1 good night's sleep out of the last 3. G is sound asleep in his chair. This is a big house for 1 person. I don't think I could live here on my own.
Early night tonight, xoC


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cate said:
Hi K & D. I usually come around to that way of thinking too & it helps, to a point. My ex-DIL is a case in point. I have given her so much slack & forgiven her a lot but my limits have been stretched to breaking point. I would never criticise her to the GK's though & don't to others. She is the mother of our grand-kids. I will try VERY hard not to let this woman get to me. She had me so mad & so upset on Sunday, but I managed to let her know that I thought she was being totally unreasonable. Any more though I will be firmer, but not in front of others.
I am off to play in the final round of our women's club championships. I am no chance, but am playing in a nice group, so will have fun. It's going to be 25oC & very high UV. Here in Tassie you get sunburned easily so I am plastered in sunscreen & will wear a hat.

Love to all xoxo Cate
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You don't deserve her Cate as a DIL. She should have had my mother in law (now long gone and I didn't need bereavement counseling) she's have soon valued you more and known how lucky she was after a dose of that old bat
 
Overthinking always gets me in the middle of the night, but if you talked about it you obviously needed to get it off your chest and needed a sounding board. Your friend is right though, YOU are bigger then this, take the high road of forgiveness and get it off your mind for good (or until it happens with her again, then lather, rinse, repeat). Hope you sleep well and long!
 
Thank you Polly & KP. You're right KP I did need to get it off my chest, but I still wish I hadn't. I love the lather, rinse & repeat :D I did sleep very well last night sweetie. It was nice to have my lovely husband home again & also seeing our GK's & son. I also had spoken to our YS, R in the morning for about an hour & he helped me put things in perspective. He & I are very much alike & talk about anything & everything.

I did something quite different yesterday on my FD. Because G was going to be arriving home mid to late afternoon, hopefully with fresh fish, I only ate a stick of celery during the day & saved my calories for dinner, where I had fresh fish (fairly ordinary though) & salad & one glass of wine. I still had enough cals for a small fruit platter.

He had a really good time, but they didn't catch any stripy Trumpeter that were big enough to keep. He saw Dolphins, Seals, Albatrosses & a Sea Eagle & his brother saw a breaching whale! I'm glad he enjoyed himself. He needed that.

The other day I weighed, when I was feeling totally stressed & I had gained a kilo. Wednesday, after my Tues fast, I had lost it again & today, which is my "official" weigh day I have lost another!!!!
I have lost 5.5kg since mid August, doing the Fast Day "diet". I am now within half a kilo of the GW I had set myself & have decided to move the goalposts. My aim is now to get down another 5kg after that, but it can be as slow as it likes(or as I like). I think I can get back to my lowest weight, which I had given up hope on. I am so used to doing this now & only eating a stick of celery during the day yesterday was a piece of cake! :smilielol5: Pun intended :)

We had planned on a day at home, but are now driving down the coast so that our OS can take his car to get sold & he will go back to using his old car, which we have been using as a 2nd car. The one he drives is a real petrol guzzler. he paid next to nothing for it, but apparently a friend who owns a car yard should be able to sell it for a lot more. We want to buy a small Ute (pick-up) so will start looking. You never know we may end up coming home with one. Our older GS is coming too & I said we'd shout a Chinese lunch.

Our YS has got himself a little puppy. I think it will do him lots of good. I didn't know he was thinking about getting one, but he told his Dad when they popped in on their way home that he was thinking about it & then I saw this photo on FB last night. Here he is-
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What a cutie. The caption said "My life is complete." Sweet. A dog of his own will provide him with lots of the love he needs.
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Re: the puppy- Apparently it's not his!
Re: a Ute- We bought one! It's a single cab, flat tray & will do the job we want it to. Funny. I thought we might get one. It was cheap & we got it for what the owner wanted for it & our friend didn't take any commission. We dropped it off in Devonport at a young friend's place & he is going to service it & fix the heater switch. When we pick it up next week I'll buy a steering wheel cover for it & a seat cover. It still has 2 months rego. If we had spent a lot more we would be worried about it, but we both feel fine.

Time to sit down, have a cup of tea & relax :)
 
Awww, that puppy is so cute! We love our dog and have almost always had one. They are the best companions and really keep my in line when the kiddo is at his dads (can't stay out all night partying when I have someone at home that needs attention.
Great job on the weight loss! That 5:2 is really working well for you!
 
I know KP! I got so excited about that puppy because it is so cute & would be good for him emotionally. Unconditional love- that's what dogs give you.
5:2 is really working for me. I switch the days around, depending on what we have to do & that seems to work well. I am so happy with how it's gone I can't believe it really. On non fast days I just don't want to over-eat either, so that's good. It seems to have flicked a switch in my brain. I'll have to tweak it when I get back to my LW. I don't mention what I weigh, because most people have set ideas, based on what they read about what we should or should not weigh & I have always weighed much more than anyone thinks I do, even as a slim & fit teenager. I'll be happy with another 5.5kg as I'm happy with what I am now.

Off to the golf club again as the barmaid is still on holidays. B will not be there. It will be easy.
I am going to forgive her(with or without an apology) & not stay angry. That doesn't mean that I will tolerate any more rants or that I will listen to her "advice" again. I have learned a very valuable lesson. I am better than that. Maintaining rage is not good for me.

Better scoot, xoxo Cate
 
Amazing work Cate! Fasting isn´t my thing right now - I use it as an excuse to binge afterwards which I take to mean I need more energy than I´m getting - but I´m so glad you´ve found your groove!
 
I have not mentioned what I weigh in a while mostly out of shame from regaining during the time I was away. But I did today because its an accountability thing for me right now. I think I am going to go and look at the 5:2 on google.
 
LaMaria said:
Amazing work Cate! Fasting isn´t my thing right now - I use it as an excuse to binge afterwards which I take to mean I need more energy than I´m getting - but I´m so glad you´ve found your groove!
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Thanks LaMa It does seem to suit me, but I did have a couple of days where I ate too much & that meant no loss that week. It wasn't a binge as such, just a week where I experimented by eating things I really knew I shouldn't. I can't help pushing the boundaries sometimes, even when they're my own. :blush5:

Hi KP- "I have not mentioned what I weigh in a while mostly out of shame from regaining during the time I was away. But I did today because its an accountability thing for me right now. I think I am going to go and look at the 5:2 on google." Don't feel shame KP. That doesn't help get you into the right mindset for losing weight. Shame & guilt make me eat the wrong things. They're horrible feelings. Anger is another.
5:2 is harder at the start, but gets easier after about 4 weeks, when you get used to the empty stomach feel. I now recognise hunger, accept it & ignore it. I couldn't do that before. I love the feeling of having a defined waist again & I swear I have lost a whole kilo off each buttock(at least). I'm back to feeling slim again. I had really missed that feeling.

G & I are having the day at home today *sigh* That will be good. I have spent 8 days in the last 2 weeks at the golf club. EIGHT! Only 2 of those were actually playing golf. The other 6 were doing the bar. ALL day. In the middle of some of those I was able to "put the esky out", go visit Mum, do a quick shop etc but I am really tired today & am a bit over it. At least I'm over the anger with B.

We are planning a couple of short breaks of a week each for 2016. I told G we need something to look forward to. We are going to have one week down the East coast of Tasmania, including Bruny Island, Freycinet & Port Arthur. The other week I think we'll take our car on the ship again & go visit some really good friends in Victoria.
My washing machine is nagging me, so I had better go shut it up.
Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
Have had such a lovely, relaxing day & am currently sharing a bottle of Prosecco (I even say it with an Italian accent, in my head). We have done a lot of 'work' related to the golf club, but that was mainly to make our lives easier in the near future. Off to 'town' tomorrow. G is seeing the Urologist for his regular check-up of his prostrate. I'm glad I'm a Pollyanna :D My taste of life without him this week (2 nights only) & my vivid imagination has faded into the background where it should be. I'll face anything & everything when it comes.
Re: a holiday of any sort next year. If any of our really good friends suggest an overseas trip with them & we feel like it we may just go....... Nice thought :)
 
Yay for ease of mind, glad you're finding relaxation. Prosecco gives me a terrible headache if it isn't dry as the surface of the sun, but if it is it's a kind of little oasis :)
 
Luckily for me it does neither. I only drink dry. Eeuw to sweet. I prefer French but it's too expensive in Aus. We have found a perfectly acceptable inexpensive Prosecco that we like. We should be drinking local wine, but it is twice the price.
 
Really? I tend to stick to Austrian because a) locally produced, b) high-quality and c) mostly cheaper than import.
 
Congrats on all the weight loss success with the fasting. 5.5 kg is like 12.5 pounds or something, which is definitely not a bad rate for a few months.

Also congrats on the new truck.

Sorry for being a bit of an absentee poster, but I've been a bit of a mess lately and decided I'd rather not come on here and "act the fool." It's great I can still come back and my friends are all still here.
 
Thanks Vee. I'm quite happy with the 5.5kg loss on the 5:2 "diet" & had also lost a kilo in the month before that. I'm aiming for 5.5 more to get right back down to my lowest weight. I'll see how it goes. I'm looking forward to only "fasting" one day a week, as life is getting more sociable with the warmer weather.
I'm sorry that you have felt like you have been a mess. You can always come back in here. I will most probably be here until I have dementia & then I may still be here but just being even crazier. We are your friends & we miss you when you're not about. I didn't have much time this morning to type in here. My life has been way too busy too, but without any pay! I'll have to fix that. Good news though that our son is doing quite well. He seems much more self-aware & I am not worrying so much about him. Your support has been much appreciated.
Doing a 'fast" day today & looking forward to sleep! G is so good on my FD's & helps me plan my meals. I find some days really easy but today was not so easy as I was away all day & WAY too busy. Doing my supermarket shop before I had any lunch was very difficult. Another lesson. I need to spend more days at home!

News time & time to go. Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
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