Cate's Diary

Thanks, Emily, LaMa & Cory. Switching things around isn't a bad idea. Weighing yourself too often is. I weighed 1.5kg more this morning than I did yesterday. That's crazy! I know. It can't be fat, but it's still annoying! I went over my cals yesterday & also forgot to log a couple of things. You eat more than you think & I didn't move much. Golf today.
 
I've decided to forego the daily weigh-ins cos really, I just have to look in the mirror to know where I'm at.

Do you feel better when you are active after a day's golf or whatever else? I always feel 10 pounds lighter in my head.
 
Daily weigh-ins tend to work for me as motivation for a while but then I turn it into a torture instrument, putting so much pressure on myself that my confidence breaks. Have fun at golf!
 
Hi, Emily, LaMa & Sun. I do always feel much better after playing golf. I always feel really tired, but it's great to push yourself around the course. Our course is very hilly & it's hard work.
Re: weighing yourself every day. I feel slim at the moment, but am also suffering from some bloating(water retention) & my stomach has been hurting a bit. I'm not sure what's going on. My body seems to be fighting something. Let's hope it wins.

I played reasonably well yesterday but was feeling a little out of sorts emotionally. I'm a bit worried about R, our younger son. I asked G to ring him while I was at golf. G needs a bit of a prod sometimes to offer emotional support. He did & it helped. R has a very emotionally draining ordeal to get through this morning. He sent me a message last night & told me he was crying. He is rehoming a dog that he took on because it had been dumped. He already had a dog that he had got from the pound. This second dog he absolutely adores, but he is almost impossible to manage in R's house. He escapes all the time & can get over an 8' fence. R had him spayed, but that hasn't stopped him. He needs a very secure yard & one on one attention, without another dog. He's hyper & pesters the older dog non-stop. Poor R. I doubt he'll be able to go to work today. A couple is driving from one end of Tas to the other to get him this morning. I really hope R thinks they will really care for this dog.
R gets his emotional side from me. I wish we were tougher!

G has gone off to play golf at another club & will be gone all day. I'm not sure what I'll do today. I could go back to sleep! .......but I won't. I have decided on a no starchy carbs day. I have had some leg ham, a little cheese, half a tomato & a small tub of lemon yoghurt for breakfast.
 
R's dog is now on his way to his new home. I just had a little cry. I had better get moving & do some exercise today. I might have to break out my weights I think!
 
I´m glad the dog is getting a new home and I hope R will be able to stop worrying soon... In the long run it´ll probably be less stressful for both Hugs from a stranger :)
 
LaMaria said:
Hugs from a stranger :)
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You feel far from a stranger LaMa. Thank you xoxo

I had a bad eating day. I will tell myself what I tell everyone else. Today is another day, blah, blah, blah.......but it's still disappointing.
I had a very healthy breakfast & lunch(salmon & a very healthy salad) & then blew it mid afternoon. 50g Raisins,4 GF lemon wafers & 3 gingernut snaps......so then I had crackers & cheese at 4 pm & then again with G at 7 pm. Not a good day! All I can say in my favour was I didn't open the bar of chocolate. I think I had about 2600 cals! :( OK- over it!

The air quality is really poor outside at the moment as the forestry department are burning off & smoke has drifted up to our house. G & I are going to do the rubbish again- ours, our neighbour's & the golf club's. It will be good to get it done, but I wish G hadn't volunteered us to do this job.

We are playing golf again tomorrow. I won't play though if it's still smoky. I hope it's clear. I need to MOVE!
 
cate said:
It will be good to get it done, but I wish G hadn't volunteered us to do this job.
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Did you tell him that in so many words?

I had crackers for dinner yesterday. Not the best of choices but at least it was at a time I had no chance to overeat afterwards. It´s funny how even after years of working on weight loss we still learn more about our bodies.
 
Sorry you didn't have a great eating day - it didn't sound too terrible to me so I wouldn't feel too bad about it.

I feel like you'll never be entirely free from the club! :p
 
Sorry about all the dog upset... Its easy to get very close to a pet - but it definitely sounds like the move was for the best for everyone including the dog.

We all know what is best for us when it comes to daily / weekly / monthly / never weighing... What motivates one person panics another...

You certainly have been at this long enough to know what works for you.

I'm a big fan of daily weighing... The worst thing I ever did was stop doing that... For me - it gives a greater reminder of the way that weight works... Its better to look at a little gain at the scales than a big gain. In one day there is a limit of the fat that you can put on... Resolving to drink more water can make you feel like you have started putting it right.
 
Thanks LaMa, Emily & Omega.
I'm feeling much better today & had a nice, healthy day yesterday & am off to golf soon.
I eat much healthier when I don't weigh often. I react the wrong way when the scales go up! Crazy I know.
 
cate said:
I'm feeling much better today & had a nice, healthy day yesterday & am off to golf soon.
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Glad to hear it! Our bodies are always logical - but we often don´t have all the information needed to understand that logic.
 
Thanks, LaMa xo
Golf yesterday was awful. It rained & rained & rained & I pulled out after 12 holes. G won the day :)
Being in the same room as the 2 co-captains is not good for my soul. I am staying away from now on while they are running the show. I really detest them & it's not healthy for me. They are both creeps.
I have so much going around in my head when I'm trying to sleep. Things go over & over & around & around. For quite some time it has been about these creeps. That's crazy. I think avoidance is the best bet.
We had wild thunderstorms during the night & it is still fairly stormy. G got asked again late yesterday, to "fill in" for the pennant team today. He just doesn't seem to be able to say no. He said yesterday morning, that "no matter what" he wasn't going to play pennant. Hopefully, it will be called off before they leave town as it's about an hour's drive to get there. You should have seen the look on his face driving off this morning :(

In 4 weeks time we will be in Sri Lanka! I am excited, but also anxious. I hope it won't be too wet! EEK.
 
Boo on creeps getting to positions just because they think it´ll give them prestige. G being annoyed about "having to" play may well lead to him remembering to say "no" sometimes :p
 
I don't think he's capable of saying no LaMa. I really don't. He only just got home (at 4.30) got thoroughly drenched & they lost. He didn't enjoy the day. He still won't be able to say no next time!

I have had a really boring day. It felt like it went forever. I read two books. Yes- TWO!
 
Captain Awkward says to practice with small things. Like when you ask him if he wants to watch film A or if he wants cream in his coffee. Saying no is a skill to be learned.
 
Today is another day. I have been so uptight & anxious (about nothing really). Life is too good to stress over things & the people who don't deserve any attention. I am playing at another club tomorrow, without G & I have been really stressing about that. I'm stressing about the scoring system(one of the reasons I don't play at other clubs unless I'm with him), using a different buggy(G has shown me how to pack it up this morning, so I'm OK with that now) & I just get nervous when other golf clubs are involved. It's way outside my comfort zone. I'm being picked up by A. at the bakery down the road, so I don't have to drive. It's hard to explain but with A. I feel I am coming up against someone even more strong willed, outspoken & feisty as me. She says just what she thinks. I'm not even sure she likes me. That sounds like a contradiction I know. She can be very rude. I almost wish I was driving myself down. Oh well. I'll try to just relax & enjoy the day. There are some lovely women there & it is the club I would contemplate joining if I was going to leave our local club. It's 25 mins in the opposite direction.
D, our older son asked if he could come for dinner tomorrow night & we hesitated & said we had to go to an 8-ball AGM in D city & he volunteered to go instead as his GF is working. He's going to come for a quick feed & then go in our place. Yay! :D
Food was good yesterday even though I was bored & anxious.
Food will be good today as G is home.
 
Why is it outside your comfort zone? Not knowing the place, not knowing the people or not knowing the (unwritten) rules? I'm not very comfortable with the unknown myself but it's definitely good for my brain.
 
I can really empathise with the niggling anxiety, Cate. I think you writing in here in this way is probably really helpful. Any sort of change or new activity can make me very worried but once I've done it/doing it I'm usually fine! Not long til your holiday - have you got everything you need?
 
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