BmOhearn's diary

Hey girl, I know how it feels to be at the beginning of the weight loss journey so to speak, so here is a list of tips that i have learned (through the past 4 years that i have struggled) about losing weight...and you already have most of them down:

1) counting calories is very important - is an amazing food log online that has most of the food you eat stored in it's food website-all you do is change the portion size to fit how much your eating-(dont forget about 6-8 oz = 1 cup)

2) usually a gym membership helps me make sure that I make the most of my workout, i feel like i cant slack off because there are others around me watching.

3) find some music to help you workout, or do it in front of a TV-that way it wont feel like its taking forever!

4) never feel like you "cant" eat what you want, always remember that you can, but in moderation-i.e.-you can have your breakfast quesadilla, but put the amount that you can have on a plate and ziploc the rest for the next day!

...there is a lot more info that i could list on here through personal experience, and i definitely dont always follow all the rules, but its a good start... GOOD LUCK!
 
Proud

I just finished drinking my 4 water bottles which is equivalent to 8 cups of water... plus a little more. I did 20 sit ups, and realized i'm capable of more than that. but i'm running out of time before work... so i have to do other things. I already know what i'm having for dinner...

Quaker caramel rice cakes. 60 calories per 8 cakes...i'll have like 3 servings probably. That way i'm full. But on another website i keep track of food i eat... and it recommends the amount of calories, protein, fat, carbs, and etc that i should stick to for a day. i stuck to them today. and its going to be late when i get home, so i'm not going to snack. good for me.

i did good today. i'm proud of myself for once in a long time.
Now i have to see if i can keep this up. haha. lol.
 
Congrats on beginning so strongly. You have the right attitude for success. You're beginning to see that you're not perfect, but you can be strong minded and know when to correct your mistakes. It's a long and winding journey. We can do this! YOU can do this! :D
 
wow! you're doing wonderful! The baby steps are working well for you, and I like how you're activly searching for the goals that you want. Great job! You're doing great! keep it up!
 
After Work

I made it through work. Work was miserable. I was supposed to make tips from take-out (curbside) and we are supposed to split them at the end of the night. One of the other hosts decided he would STEAL THEM!!!! it pisses me off, i couldve made 20 bucks.. but know. 20 bucks each + 5 hosts to split = 100 of tips that all went to ONE PERSON! I had the rest of my caramel rice crisps- 180 calories. But i'm starving again. Dan is still at work... i called him. he's bringing me home a salad. its 760 calories. That would bring me up to 1852 calories... which isnt excellent. But oh well, its still a food thats good for me, i'm not eating pizza, or chips, or other junk foods... its salad. I did my 20 sit ups today, and i drank my 4 bottles of water. i didnt eat any chips, and i counted all my calories. good for me. since i did everything i was supposed to today, i'll allow myself the few extra calories.. that will be my self reward for the week.

I hope tomorrow goes good too. I think it will! it makes me smile.
I have a christmas party coming up on January 19th. i want to lose between 5 and 10 lbs...

actually.. i weight 200lbs now.. how many pounds do you think is a reasonable goal for a month away? how much should i aim to lose by January 19th??
 
i'm depressed today...

no wonder why... my aunt Flo came to visit today. ladies... you know what i'm talking about. lol. I have a headache. i went back to my fathers house today. you see, i've been living with my boyfriend Dan. But i went home today for the weekend...until sunday night. But for some reason i cant stand to be away from Dan right now. I miss him. i just want to cuddle. today i only had 1 bottle of water. I just havent been thirsty. Danny gave me a promise ring a little while back, it was beautiful. It was two hearts, one of them had his birthstone and engraved next to it was his name... and the other heart was my birthstone with my name engraved. i took it off one day to talk a shower, and i never saw it again. for some reason its making me cry right now. i'm so pathetic.

Today i had 11 wheat thins for breakfast.
1.5 clementines and 9 wheat things for lunch...
then i had chinese with my father for dinner. not good for me... but i didnt have a lot. i had some pork strips, chicken lo mein, and pork fried rice.

i know, i know... not good. But i'll do better. i dont want to do my exercise tonight. my head hurts so bad that i get dizzy even when i turn my head. :(

I'm still hungry. i want to much even more right now... but i'm trying not too.I might find another snack. But i just want Danny to get out of work so i can talk to him. He's my comfort.

I want to find my ring.. it meant a lot to me. :( :( :( :( :(

I'm going to go find some inspirational pictures for myself... they'll keep me motivated maybe.
 
Need to get my head on straight

I need to keep my goals in mind. i have to remember what i'm working toward. i shouldnt feel bad for cheating a little bit, and then let those things get me down. i need to remember the over all goal.

In only 3 days i think i have come a little way. I havent drinken any soda besides diet. I have mostly stuck to water...(i'm usually all about Sprite. its my favorite) I havent had any chips!!! Which is really odd because before wednesday, i had chips for a snack twice or more a day, and with ANY sandwhich i had. I've been good, and i'm proud of myself. I didnt exercise today because my head hurts SO bad that i can barely see straight. I'll do it tomorrow though. When i wanted chips for a snack today i chose lite popcorn.

i have made progress, steps in the right direction. I'm hoping to lose my weight my mid summer. I dont know if thats not long enough... but i'll be happy even losing 20lbs by then.... okay i'll be happy with 40. lol.

My dad's house is full of icecream and chips... i resisted them all!
 
Hey, great work on resisting the temptations of snacks at your dad's place! I think next time will be easier, then it will get easier and easier. Well done!
 
Day 4...yey!

I'm in a much better mood today. I got A LOT of sleep. actually i woke up around 8am, and had something to eat, and then i fell back asleep til 12. haha. i feel a lot better though. Thanks to all who gave me advice. i appreciate everyone on here helping me out. i like the motivation...its obviously working. i was thinking about weighing myself today... after i finish this update, i'm going to take a shower, so i'll do it then. Then i'll exercise.
For breakfast i ate a bran muffin. it was small... like a cup. It supposed to be healthy. it was made with whole wheat and stuff like that. my stepmom made them for me. helene was been over-weight her whole life and understands when people are trying to lose weight. She's trying to eat healthy too.

I have a 3 year old sister before i tell you this... so no one gets confused. Her name is Gillian.. sounds like Jillian though.

Gillian and my father are taking a nap right now, and then we are going to the mall to go shopping. So i guess i'll be walking for a little while. yey. then maybe i'll take a 15 min walk later on if we get back before its dark. I dont know if we're going to have lunch at the mall... but if we do i'm hoping there is a subway or a quizno's to get something from. That way i can eat out, and healthy at the same time. what i good feeling.

i found a good motivational picture. you know how a lot of you have been posting before and after pictures?? well it was one of those, a girl went from 183 to 126.. just by changing her lifestyle when she broke up with her boyfriend. ( she was 5'3") i mean, i dont want to break up with my boyfriend but in the story she said she was completely comfortable with herself when she was heavy... just one day she went to the store to find pants, and they didnt carry her size anymore. she got embarrassed and decided to do something about it. good for her. i'm going to try to do something about my weight now. (well.. i have been for the past 4 days )

I need to start putting exercise into my diet plan to give me more energy. i hate always being tired.

well... i'm going to weight myself.. i'll update a little later.
 
4 days... 4 lbs

i just got out of the shower and i weight myself.

196

yey for me. after months of watching the scale go up and me gaining 10, then 20, then 30 lbs...i finally lost a little something. i've been on the diet for 4 days, and i lost 4 lbs. yey. it makes me happy, and i dont feel defeated by my weight for once. i'm in a great mood.:D
it motivates me to do even better. i'm going to get ready, and then maybe do my 20 sit ups from yesterday that i didnt get to do...20 more later on. its not a lot... but its something.

i'm looking forward to losing all the weight. maybe FOR ONCE in my life i'll feel good about myself and be able to wear a bikini sometime during this summer! how awesome would that be?

remembering my goals:
4 water bottles
no chips
no soda (besides diet)
 
Calorie counting

Just in case i need to look back and remember my calories...here they are for today so far...

breakfast: a 1/4 cup bran muffin..130 calorie..and water.
Lunch: i had a big lunch. i was HUNGRY but i chose relatively healthy choices... a grilled cheese sandwich on wheat bread (bread=160 for 2 slices)(cheese was american and i had 2 slices...i'm assuming 50 calories per slice.. thats 100) and i really wanted chips... so instead i found croutons.. not really healthy.. but better than chips and i had no other reasonable substitute.. 80 calories worth of croutons, and then i had a 70 calorie mandarin orange fruit cup..

Thats 540 calories so far today. good for me. i'll update after shopping.

yey 4 lbs.... here comes 61 more.
 
AWESOME!! You're doing great! I know what you mean about wanting to buy a bikini... my best friend is killer in one, and i want to be able to go to a beach with her (we're planning a road trip down the coast) and have all the boy's heads turn! :D:D!!! Keep up the amazing work! you're doing so awesome!
 
Later in the day..

I just got back from shopping with my dad and Gillian (my baby sister). It was fun. I had dinner too.

Ramen noodles..254 calories
another Bran Muffin... 130 calories
a couple croutons...40 calories.

i was still a little munchy after i ate the noodles... so i helped myself to a muffin and a few croutons from the bag. So far i'm up to 964 calories. Good ... no ... excellent for everything i've eaten today!! i might have a hershey kiss later... my dad bought a bag for later in the night, so i might treat myself if i do my crunches... i havent gotten around to it yet because of shopping, and showering and yadda yadda.. the little things got in the way.

I have A LOT of homework and essays to do before the semester ends.. so i'm going to go start that. then when i take a break from the homework i'm going to do my crunches. at least thats what i'm planning on. hahaha. whatever... i need to get it out of the way... no matter how much i dont want to do it over the weekend that i just want to relax because i dont have work.

i'll update later on.
 
heehee.. I have a rewrite of an essay due too, and some reading responses, and I have to study for my history test on the Civil War...*groans* fun stuff. I hope you do well!
 
snack

964+140= 1104

My father bought a pack of hershey kisses... so of course i had to have 1. i did the math and 1 is only equal to 28 calories. so since my calories are low for the day i decided to reward myself with 5. haha. i was only going to have 1... but my sister thought it was funny to feed them to me. lol. so there's an extra 140 calories to add on for the day. i think thats all i'm going to have tonight... 1104 is the total for the day. i used to easily eat 2500 calories per day... EASILY. sometimes more. i over-ate WICKED bad...

tonight... i have to find more motivational pictures to keep my spirits up for tomorrow.
 
Munchy attack

I've done really good today with eating. i've got the hang of eating a lot of food, without there being a lot of calories. good for me. But then i had 5 hershey kisses. they were good. lol. *smiles* But its like 10:30pm and i'm getting really munchy again. for once.. i'm not even craving chips. i've craving popcorn! is it possible that i'm craving a decently healthy food? thats cool. This year i'm going to make a bunch of new years resolutions... all related to losing weight and being a better person. Here are some things i have thought of:
1. keeping a healthy lifestyle.. good eating
2. keep exercising
3. take care of my skin. (sometimes i forget to wash makeup off, and my skin breaks out)
4. buy myself new clothes and a bikini when i reach my goal weight
5. Next Christmas.. adopt a child. (to give presents to, when they wont have anything to open up on christmas.)
6. Donate my old clothes to somewhere..(the ones i'm wearing now...hopefully i wont have to fit into them again)
7. buy myself a reward present when i reach my halfway mark. (35 lbs i suppose)... i'll do an impulse buy, and not feel bad afterward


I might make more, or change them, but its just an idea.

I might go have some popcorn. I like munchy food. i always get this way late at night. i'll wait a half hour to see if the feeling passes first.

Does anyone else know their new years resolutions yet?
Does anyone else have any advice for late night munchies?
 
I cant believe it.

my boyfriend and i have only been in a few major fights... but he's not acting like himself right now. he's on the phone with me, and just yelling at me when he's listening to me cry. And guess why he's mad at me... cuz i lost some of my jewelry. i cant even believe it. i wont eat anything though.. usually i'd raid the fridge... but right now i just feel sick to my stomach. i feel dumb for pouring my heart out in a weight loss forum, but i have to get it out somewhere...its killing me. i love him, and he's never like this. but i'm up at 2 am when he's telling me how evil i am. wtf?!?!?! i'm the one sitting here crying. I just cant get through to him...i know it sounds stupid.. but his video games are fucking up our relationship. he plays way too much, and puts me 2nd. its so depressing. i wish someone could get through to him. i mean he still goes to work and school.. but he cant even do his homework. or spend quality time with me. i dont get it. he's so mean to me right now. Like never before.
 
Everything is better now

my boyfriend called me and apologized early this morning. it made me feel a little better. aparently he had a bad day at work and he worked for 12 hours straight..(he's a waiter) and i just pushed his buttons someone and he wouldnt stop exploding. i still have some hurt feelings, but everything is better.

I lost another pound. 195

yey for me. its almost 11 and i havent had breakfast yet. But i'm not really hungry yet either. maybe in a few i might go have another bran muffin. only 130 calories.

My goal weight for Christas is 189. i'd be happy just getting out of the 190's. But i'd love to be 185. Just a nice rounded number. But thats 10lbs, and that might be too much... what do you think?

I am hoping everything will go good today... i'll stick to my diet, and i'll get a chance to hang out with my family. I'm going back to Dan's house today.

Only 60 more pounds!
 
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