bluehats diary

[bluehat]

I wanted to wait until
tomorrow to adjust my
food plan but so many
Meds changes are being
made on me and what
I need new , what I can still
get covered for and all that.
I don't have anyone to help
me muddle thru it all.
Idk how to explain what
I don't understand.
And it's so all out of my
control I think.
It's just easier to eat
Once get it over with.
Be hungry from the meds.
Exercise if I can.
I can't deal with it all.
No one can make me
Eat anyway.

 

[bluehat]

Weight-
246.4

Exercise-
6 songs

Foods-
To be determined

2 cups homemade lentil soup

 

[bluehat]

So I guess I reassessed my goals
Again (to hopefully fight off regain with
Meds. switches forced on me)

next weight goal-
240

Exercise -
6 songs when I can

Foods-
2 cups of whatever
Going to try more protein to hopefully
Ward off meds. caused hunger

 

[Cate]

You can only do what you can, Blue. More protein should help stave off hunger.

 

[bluehat]

6 songs
And
Part of an egg broccoli cheese
onion quiche.
I don't know how much it was.
Family made it and idk how much of it was cut for me.

 

[bluehat]

6 songs
Homemade meatloaf

 

[bluehat]

Exercise-
6 songs

Weight-
245.8

Food-
Leftover meatloaf

 

[bluehat]

Foods-
1 cup 4% cottage cheese
And
1cup 4% cottage cheese

 

[bluehat]

Exercise -
None

Weight -
244.6

Foods-
Not sure yet

 

[bluehat]

I had 3 cups of canned
Pea soup
And 1.5 cups of canned pasta

Way over what I need to keep
My weight loss off.
And very sad to get feeling the
Medication hunger kicking in.
I don't know what to now.

 

[Cate]

I think most people would be hungry only eating the amount you normally eat, Blue, even without the medication. Do the best you can

 

[bluehat]

So now with that endless hunger
back I can't trust when I'm truly
hungry. Now I guess I need
something external to tell
me how much to eat.
Like a specific food plan.
I looked into a few and I think
I can do one but with irregular
shopping and if something
on the plan is not on sale
it won't work out.
I saw 2 plans I like.
One is an OA plan and one
is a cup diet.
Both are approximately 1200
calories.
They use normal foods but
sometimes I can't eat or afford
normal foods.
For the cup diet the minimum
cups a person should eat is 4.
So that sounds easy cause it
can be nearly anything you
want to be in the 4 cups. And I
can spread them out to eat
1 at a time and not be stuffed.
The OA one is 3 measured meals and disincludes most
man made foods. Which is great
but I wouldn't be able to afford
alot of the foods. Even though
it is normal foods and I can't eat
the raw vegetables that are
included.
So maybe try the cup diet?

Idk it's all so much tracking.
All of it. I just want to be able
to eat and forget about it til
the next day. But I know what
happens when I do that.

My family is right. It has to be
an obsession to lose or keep
weight off. I won't even say
what she has to go through.

Do I just let go of the whole thing? Or live this constant
obsessed life?

 

[bluehat]

Yesterday
Exercise-
7 songs
Food-
2 cups homemade s/c ground
beef with can of green peas
added
1 cup 4% cottage cheese

During the night
1 can of icing

 

[bluehat]

Exercise-
None

Foods-
2 cups leftovers from yesterday's food

Sad from last night.
Icing???

 

[bluehat]

I can't lose my chance I was given. I never thought I would lose weight again in my life. I have to keep it off this time. I have to do what it takes hunger or not.

 

[Cate]

You & your health are well worth making the effort for, Blue xo

 

[bluehat]

1 cup bran flakes
1 cup vanilla nutritional drink
1 cup 4% cottage cheese
1 banana

 

[bluehat]

Meatballs - family made
1 cup 4% cottage cheese
1 nutritional drink ( 1 cup size )

Maintaining last recorded weight anyway.
So that's ok so far.

Legs and kidneys sore so no exercise yet since
last time of the 7 songs.

 

[bluehat]

Going to be eating once a day.

Not being given another choice
with the meds. change.
I was using a twice a day
insulin. And it was a mix of the
2 types of insulin commonly
used but an older one.
I've been told it's unavailable now.
So this meant a switch to 2 different
ones.

So bottom line is I have 2 needle tips
to use daily. So now to get both insulins
in I need one tip for the one daily injection
thus leaving me only one tip for the meal
insulin use.

So unless I want even more painful injections
reusing tips I can only have the one meal.

 

[bluehat]

Leftover meatballs
for my meal.

Not going well.