bluehats diary

I hope it was as tasty as it sounds.
 
the quiche was good

weighed in today early
up 1 pound each day since
i last weighed
so 6 pounds

i guess i dont know what to say or do
go back to 1 can a day and just suffer

if weight comes on with that much
its may be meds.
im on a few known to cause weight gain
that idea just doesnt fit the calorie in calorie out
dont meds even need excess calories to work with?

very sad
all i wanted was to at least maintain
not even be at a nice weight
is that too much to ask for?
i guess so
 
If you gained 6 pounds in 6 days it's mostly water weight. It isn't physically possible to gain 6 pounds of fat in 6 days without binging extreme amounts. Not even if you have a super slow metabolism.
 
todays--
crockpot ground beef in an onion soup mix
with some water added as it needs to be moist
at least for me to get down without chewing
on my still painful gums
i might add a can of peas and carrots im not sure yet
i have to see how many carbs are in it first

thinking of adding in the 15 minute happy walk on utube
but do it easily so as to not jolt my head around too much
but at least id be off my a-- for a few minutes lol
gotta get my family to lend me the tv screen from
their games tho first as all the other screens are too small
to see it
im sure they will if i get to it first lol
 
at a total loss
and thats not weight either

dont know where to go from here
nothing i do or dont do affects my weight
or my health numbers i measure
(bp or bs)

im 57 and have pretty much learned this
why am i still trying
 
i guess i could look at it differently
maybe just begin to enjoy being hungry
i mean feeding it and eating
just does myself harm
tell myself its not real
that eating wont help

im on a few meds. that cause hunger and weight gain
so theres nothing else to do

still eat once or enough to maintain weight at least
but after that
nothing

its hard but its just stressful
wanting to eat knowing i cant
so why not just enjoy being hungry

a very sad realization though
 
so not sure what to eat anymore
since nothing improves things
i guess just eat so as not to hurt
my mouth
i think i get to decide that
anyway

i will post my food still
as it also serves as a diary to look back on

and i want to say i appreciate the support here
thanks
 
Never get up on yourself. I've had times where I was at my wits' end trying to reduce my health issues and despairing of them ever improving but even if what I tried didn't make things better I was still doing better than during the times when I gave up trying. It sucks and it's so unfair and frustrating but continuing on the best you can is all you can do.
 
yesterdays food--
1 carton of cottage cheese 480 calories
1 can of beans 413 calories

and some bad news maybe
my pc has been acting worse
and worse as its breaking down
its pretty old
idk how much longer it has
 
havent really been tracking the food
or weight lately
its very hard when nothing makes
any difference and the insulin makes
me so ravenous
i just cant fight that
i told the drs it makes me hungry
they dont do anything
and i know meds. exist even off label
ones if necessary that help
but no one will do a thing
i know its up to me
so i just barely use the insulin now
idk what else to do
its not as though i didnt ask
 
went up another pound
looking like im just regaining that weight

theres no way to gain any back
on what i eat
i hate to blame other things
but its physically impossible to gain
on barely anything

i see the soup prices have went up
over my daily food budget amount
so next shopping days begins
having to eat half cans a day

very discouraged now
 
That sucks so much and it makes no sense whatsoever :grouphug:
 
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